damn

i really want to quit.

i've even removed the pic from friendster.

and replaced it with a royal paint brush in this site.

it's the bell.

-hint hint-


i wanna quit. shan't say why.

after tution

exhausting.

i hate to admit it, but mr leow's art lesson was the 2nd best today. though he was a little too insulting. like he talk about the monks hitting the thing and what it means (in his own shitty way [oops!]) PE rocks. i managed to clear 110cm for high jump. yay..

preethi asked me why i didn't turn up for prac yesterday. i said melissa said i'm not supposed to be there. no need to turn up. but it's not fair, the cca points.... they get it and i dont. this includes the lings. and then when i reach sec 4 wun get a chance to go. will say all the crap. like concentrate on the Os lah... blah blah.. all bullshit lorh. just thinking of it makes me boil.

for once, i don't feel happy in handbells.

frustrated. very.

so it's about the SYF thing. since nobody ever comes here, i'll spill out my fustrations here.
there are 8 sec 2s. christabel, ethel, preethi, theodora, man ling, ling ying, hui ling, and me. during the sec 1's firat prac, melissa chua said i will be with them "for the time being". i didn't understand what that meant. fine, nvm. then it is comfirmed that the 3 lings are not performing for SYF and will be with the sec 1s. asked annabel, she said it's ethel, preethi, theodora, christabel and "forgot 1 more person". it's like i'm stuck in the middle. this or that? i asked the sec 3s. most of them said i'm involved. when i turned up for the prac, i asked melissa whether i'm supposed to be there. she said, no.
so it's yes or no? i thought they needed 5 sec 2s? now what.

somehow i feel that P is biased. she doesn't seem to like me at all. every time i talk to her, she'll show me that kind of face like not happy. like, hello? what did i do to offend you? i don't know. yes, i admit that i do make her angry sometimes, but NOT ALL THE TIME what.
i definitely prefer the sec 3s to 2s. i mean, they're all 5x friendlier, nicer, and easy to get along with. my buddy yi jia, desiree, wen xin, wan yi, melissa png, huizi, lee xuan, rachel teng. they rock. so different from the 4s. not all of them, though. esp P. dunno what's wrong with her. or perhaps it's me. then she could have just told me what. fact is, P is unfair.

i really want to get involved in SYF.

church. i'm still waiting for the schedule to be sent to me. clarissa received it. poor kevin said andy told him he's kicked out. i'll cry if i'm out. i'm starting to suspect that they don't want me.. hmm..

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check out this really cool diao face i 'made'.

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big and nice.

hopefully they'll let me. i pray that God will.

mr leow's lesson tmr. uh-oh.

for now, let me just put those thoughts away and do my QT. :)

super tired

sara told me she knew a guy name jonathan. i said i knew three! lol..

after school today, we went to look for miss tessa tan. wasn't in the staff room, so we left a note there. was abt the geography project group thing. then went to book shop. and queued for almost 45 min. that means 45 mins of standing. and bought science textbk. sara got the last bk.(take note, lots of 'thens' in this post.)then we went for lunch. it took like 10 years to get there. we ate char kuay teow an went to see birds.

guess what. i really feel like putting all the birds to sleep and let them go to heaven. they're all suffering! from overcrowding and all. there was a DEAD parrot as well. and the cages are filthy! why cant SPCA do something about this? if only there's a bird society or something like that. there was this pet shop selling pigeons, wild pigeons! and they sell it for $80 !! why cant they just let the birds live life to the fullest? i want to go and open up all the cages and set them free. so poor thing! must live in teeny weeny cages and but up with their shit. not just birds, animals as well.

the rabbits... not even a month old and they're seperated form their mother to go and live in a small cage in serangoon. how would they feel if someone took away their 3-week old child and sell it away? there was this rabbit, wuite big, in a small cage. i am so angry with the pet shop owners. hamsters also have. and their eyes haven't even open !

we couldn't take it anymore, the sight of the poor little animals. so we went to a bus stop. if want to take 136 must walk all the way to the school's back gate. no thanks. that was too far. we walked and walked and walked again to a 315 bus stop and went 1 whole round before it went back to the interchange. serangoon mrt station, that is. then sara said can walk home, so i walked with her. imagine. SERANGOON MRT ALL THE WAY TO SARA'S HOUES!!!! we rested at the playground. oh yes, i took a short cut. i jumped over the moon. kidding. i climbed over the railing and jumped! u wont understand, forget it. then i couldnt decide whether to walk home or take a bus. walk home can save money. but it's too tiring! if i do, i'll be walking from serangoon mrt to my house!! so i took the bus. lai theng, u missed all the fun.

dunno walked how many KMs today already.

what a long day. lucky no homework.

but there's handbell prac on thurs and fri and cca fair on sat, followed by tution.

no more walking, pls.

happy new year

happy new year to anyone who visits. basically, it's just me, myself and i.
watchnight was nice. there was so much hugging, singing, jumping around... it's a great feeling---to spend the last few hours and first few minutes of the year with God. much better than going to some beach party. must keep reminding myself that i'm no longer sec 1....which means.... more stress!! speaking of stress.. i am feeling stressed now. homework.

latest news---WHAT THE HECK> IVAN TOH---gulp---SAME CELL AS ME. no way thak you very much i've had enough of him during the musical. but no choice... found out from ivan ong (and wan hui they're my new cell ldrs) about the rest in this cell.
Jayne, Johannes, Santilin, Jacelyn(where are you?) ,persie(i assure you, she won't be coming), may(who on earth is she?), zelia(disappeared as well), shu kai, andrew, zachary, ivan(sigh..), darryl tay.
i want back my old cell! kara!! who cares abt jon tsang.(other ldr). i know i'm mean, but....... KARA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

back to school tmr. have to do some peer lite stuff. my biggest worry is. homework not completed. and who will be my teachers? oh man... 2c1 '05 is going to be so empty. some went to normal class. i'm the only peer lite and hanbell ringer in this class now, in case you didn't know.