Monday, June 27, 2005

hi

uuurgh.. stupid boon yeow made do it alone, or solo whatever. i think i sucked. and the mic/mike was so loud. so horrible pls.. but i'm doing it for God lah, so it's not that bad after all.

there's a worship team bonding next next sat. (should be called 'retreat') christel says it's until at night. and i have to go to toa payoh library to do shelving.. so maybe i join them at 9am, go off at 11.15am, and back again at 3 plus. i'll miss out so much, but don't want to shange the shelving date cos it may be inconvinient for jessica lay and lai theng.

homework! i'm going nuts. all sorts of nuts. pistacho nuts, cashew nuts... you name it.
the darn puppet has yet to be completed. and there's lit character analysis. and maths. i bet my seniors are also in the midst of completing theirs. as for me, it's a huge truck i'm carrying. don't know when i can release it. (truck is my version of burden lah, pig)

i dread going back to school. get up at six, rush out of the house, try and catch the early 136, run into the classroom, talk, waste time, copy homework do some homework, wait for the prefect to switch off the lights, go for assembly, sit in the sun and read, then LESSONS, recess, AND MORE LESSONS.. then lunch and my after school activities. it's a daily routine, but definitely not boring- TIRING.

my parents got bus ticket for me for this friday without telling me. am i supposed to be pissed? i don't want to go with them, i want to go with my cell. that is, IF they're going. otherwise maybe jia yan's cell wouldn't mind me joining them...

Friday, June 24, 2005

hello

i'm back, after what seemed like ten years.

something like grounded. my father didn't allow me to use the internet unless i complete my homework. so you think i've done all of them? no. still left with lian bi, lit settings and character analysis, the stupid puppet and d&t. stress. i got the wires for da internet from.. the car. just had this feeling that it's there, and bingo.

boon yeow sent a message. worship prac tmr. but it's not my turn yet! actually planned to go out with my mother and sister after cca. now i don't even think i can. and i might have to miss the 7 o'clock channel 8 show. practice is usually 2 hours.
service in fullness
yes yes. i'm doing it for God. be happy. don't complain. yah..

handbell practices. they're not the same anymore. it's just... different. lower sec practice is fine, but the upper sec prac (sec 2s included) .. i dunno. like all the sec 3s and christabel are chatting away and ethel and i, quiet. it wasn't like this before syf. don't want to say already.

yi jia's still the best. and desiree. and melissa png and huizi i think. they were with me at the bus stop.

what else...
maple leaf rag is not an easy song.

i bought the monopoly cd-rom. $14.90. not bad.

Sunday, June 19, 2005

die

die

diedie

DIE DIE DIE DIE

HOMEWORK. is a pain. can teachers just give us a homework-less holiday?
i still have a ton of it untouched.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
how how??
next week is so busy. handbell on monday, wednesday and friday.
tuesday, piano at9am, tution at 3pm.
i regret not starting work earlier. sheesh...

worship practie-
i only got the message yesterday. sometimes i wonder why they can't inform us earlier.. oh well. maybe they're busy.

my grandparents and some other relatives left for China. going for a week. God bless them. and journey mercy as well, yes.

yesterday was shu kai's birthday. sent him an sms.

*lots of typos in my other entries.

i created a forum (or board) for the worship team.. don't know if it's a good idea. i'm the only member for now. should i tell them about it? haiz..

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

camp

continue from yesterday.
[ i really really super miss msn and yahoo messengers!]

camp 2nd day:
woke up. i was the last to wake up in my family. HA. and then went for breakfast. still remember that i ate koko crunch. and was very full. lol... after that was worship and word. no.. before that was devotion. though i thought devotion should be in small groups or individually not the whole congegration.
uncle edwin was like so funny.. chickucha-ed the last one who settle down. end up all the davids did the chickucha thing.. hilarious, it was. for group discussions, valerie led my group, christel was the leader but had not arrived in malacca yet. so yeah.. our ending prayer was like one person pray one sentence.. i started it, so it was quite easy for me.
for lunch, wan hui tried to get our cell together and eat. end up only jayne, joanne, wan hui, zach and me. the rest stayed in s'pore. yup so we had lunch by the swimming pool, which was hot. then went to walk aound the hotel with joanne, her friend, jayne and joan. (hey all J`s) went to tan kim hock and didn't buy anything. joanne did. then we just walked lor.. and to the provision shop. i wanted to buy some snacks, but went back to the hotel empty-handed.
the indoor games were good, although my group (AGAIN) did not win anything. well we did. that was grapes. not bad huh. my partner for all the games was Charmaine. wont talk abt the 1st one, don't like it. the 2nd game... pair up and crawl to the newspapers and bananas.. the younger one must wrap the newspapers aroung the older one like diapers, then put tape on it. after that both crawl further up, towards the cornflakes. they were in small containers. the younger ones fed it to the older ones. [charmaine wanted to make me "accidentaly" overturn the corn flakes and say'oops!' and then run off. lol] after the flakes must run back to the bananas and newspapers. then both are blindfolded and the younger ones will feed the older ones... BANANAS! when they did the demo for this.. all of us were practically laughing our heads off. anyhow aim and the banana landed on the hair instead of the mouth. in this game i was the younger one, haha. and charm suffered as i stuffed the whole bananas into her mouth. then i made her spit it out. gross.
the second game. again in pairs, one had to piggy back the other to where the rubber bands were, then take two rubber bands and tie up your own hair. [the guys looked funny] then use some elastic band thingy and put it through 4 ppl's legs. how do i phrase this... it's like 3 legged race, just that with 4 ppl it becomes 5-legged. yah then walk over to another side. btw, this game involved 12 ppl from each group. in the end all 12 ppl walked back clumsily with the bands around everyone's legs, which means 13-legg back to the starting. .
last game's complicated, according to me.
after all the games, went swimming with charmaine and her brother darryl.then it was bath time and dinner together. again, a full dinner for all of us. followed by worship and word again. every worship session was, uh, nice. can't find another word.
after everything, charmaine went to look for her parents and brother while i went back to my room. and then uantie zelia and uncle edward deposited Joy and little Darryl in my room while they went out with my parents for supper. the kids, together with my siblings, were super noisy.. received a call from charmaine from her aunty's room. she sounded disappointed, saying that her parents went for supper with her brother w/o telling her... so i told her to come to my room for sleepover. first the came and stayed for awhile, then i accompanied her to her room to get her pillow, twisties.. and went back to my room. shared the twisties with the kids. went back to her room again and wait for her to brush her teeth. then left a message on the dressing table. and saw her father come back into the room. she said she was going to sleep in my room for the night, since they left for supper w/o telling her. that night we shared a bed.. surprisingly, there wasn't a need to squeeze. it could fit both of us.
actually, i wanted to tell charmaine that it was also quite hard for them to look for her after word, cos the hotel was big. i wanted to make her forget that incident and just, well, take it lightly. but she said they forsake her and leave like that never tell her. oh wells. that night we slept quite well

3rd day:
charmaine and i woke up together, meaning at the same time. and it was already like, 8.00. onnly my maid was awake then. she went back to her room to wash up, then met for breakfast. again, we ate like pigs. then worship and word. then discussion. this time with christel around. she arrived there the previous afternoon. [my phrasing is horrendous] we shared abt how we felt about the camp and the message.. after discussion was lunch. charmaine, jayne, joan and i went to the italian restaurant (capers). ate and chated with some of the adults who were sitting at the table with us. then i went to the room to dump my stuff there. and to the pub, for some self esteem workshop. the speaker was late. haha... at first i wanted to sleep. not just me, in fact most of us who attended that workshop were struggling to keep awake. and then he said, tell the person next to you what you're good at. something like that.. i could hear lots of "i'm good at sleeping". lol.. and the next thing i knew was- he put the mike in front of me and asked what are you good at. i said erm.. sleeping? and then everyone started laughting. somebody said dancing, badminton... blah blah.. and then dunno rastus or rasmus said "flirting". all of us laughed harder.. at least that laughter kept me awake.
free and easy.. charmaine say want to go swimming,. didn't feel like it. followed my parents to this place which i think is called tesco. did a little bit of shopping. got a present for clarissa and went back to the hotel. to bathe, and dinner with charmaine again. was late, because of me. heh. there was a table for 2 so we sat there. that night was holy spirit night, but it was more like potato night. there was potato soup, mashed potato and a few other kinds of food with potato. mash potato and the soup rocked. i took more food than charmaine. this time, we ate like nobody's business. delia walked past and said "wah... so romantic ah". and we were like "we are having a hard time here.. cant finish the food".talked to auntie Cindy and she said we young people need a lot of energy.. then what take our time to eat... and uncle kk came over to talk to us about the food.. and then...
HOLY SPIRIT NIGHT
all of us really worshipped God. alter calls almost everyone went up. SP got ppl to pray for us, and get a word from God. i was kneeling there, kind of desperate for God to touch me. i couldn't really feel His presence. auntie ee koon came ane prayed for me.. when she prayed in tongues, i started crying. dunno.. there was something about it. then she reassured me that i was loved by God.. that he sent Jesus to die for me (us). i felt that God hasn't left me aside and He was speaking through me through auntie ee koon. then the word came. it was "service". some thing about serving. she ended and said "aye, joyce, i didn't know it was you.". like, WOW. these things were really from God then. [what am i talking about] i went to the side, wanting to talk to God alone for a moment. SP said that if you just want to be alone with God go to the side and pray. there i was, talking to God and along came auntie Kwee choon. no, i'm not angry or anything. when she prayed, she mentioned that i was special, and she always saw me as a flower, like blooming fog God. cant rmb the details. and the word was fullness/completeness. i was puzzled. had absolutely no idea what that meant. after that was high praise, and as usual, all the young ppl went high again. i didn't join the rest, but stood beside auntie lin pak. she looked so lonely. haha. stand with her lor.. i'm a good girl. after the whole, thing, caught up with charmaine. she told me that dunno who prayed for her, and satan was trying to break her family up. and the person didn't even know what was going on. charm and her mother aproached SP about this. when i asked charmaine about the 2 words i got, she said "oh! service in fullness!" i owe it all to her man.. like i was thinking about these two words for so long and couldn't figure out what it meant, and i just ask her and she knew. oh yea.. Faith gathered our YPM worship team and we prayed together in tongues and then SP prayed for us. the team wasn't very big. [faith, christel, jon, joel, kah wan, sean, joan, charmaine, rastus, rasmus, (was darryl there?), and me. hope i didn't miss out anyone.] i felt that it was rare, to have the team gathered together. we should even have a worship team retreat. haha. i was thinking of a forum, creating a board...
that night, my parents and the cell went out for supper. i stayed in the hotel. and slept. they came back at 2am. 0_0 lucky i didn't follow.

last day:
woke up late late late. but lucky for that morning, breakfast was extended. eat lorh.
then went swimming. i taught my siblings how to go underwater, as in, just dipping their whole head underneath.
checked out of the hotel. [i'm missing that place already] walked to tan kim hock with my family to get stuff for grandparents. and we saw uncle alan's family eating at the chicken rice ball there. the kids were hungry. so everyone had to wait for them. lunch they went to shop while the rest went to another chicken rice restaurant, a better one. the rice balls were fantastic. yummy. i want more. Mmmmmmm... talked abt the holy spirit night the night before. that my father gotr the same word. something about serving.
the journey back. didn't even stop for a break. felt as if i spent most of the day in the car. uncle roy led the way. we were going to the 2nd link there. the stop, or the little coffee shop and kfc. end up going round and roung, and kept u-turning. haha... then. the toilet! everyone went to the toilet. quite clean actually. lol. dinner. i ate 2 burgers. bought stuff. [it's better not saying what it is or i'll get fined if a police comes across this blog.]
the causeway was jammed. as xpected. wait in the car lor. wait wait.. it was fast lah. and then the checking part where the police will check your luggage. one of the bags looked suspicious i think. asked to open it. but there wer crackers and clothes. lol. can you imagine.. if the first thing the police guy say was. underwear? haha. just a thought.
reached home at 10 plus and unloaded the stuff from our bags.

thenextday, sunday.
very little ppll lah.. i think most of them stayed in malaysia. and in my cell. no guys! only ivan (ong). and the rest of us were girls. all the girls in my cell turned up. so guai pls.

i'm tiredof typing. piano lesson later, going to practice.

i miss playing bells.

Monday, June 13, 2005

camp again

here i am to blog abt another camp. the annual church camp. this year, it's held in malacca. renaissance hotel. though last year's hotel was better.

day one, wednesday.:
my father drove there, together with uncle roy and uncle alan's family. auntie susan, auntie daphne and uncle chee keong sat in uncle roy's car while uncle michael sat in my father's car. it was a loooooooooooong journey. i read some of the clay marble, did cross stiching and slept. when wefinally reached the hotel, we went up to the 7th floor and got the name tags and camp booklets. i was in the same group as charmaine! ha. then went to the function room and played a game and had briefing. because there were about 500 of us, and the hotel staff had to clear around 200 rooms, most of us went to walk around outside the hotel and buy things. my room wasn't available at that time. charmaine and i stayed in the hotel and played stress. i was winning and winning. lol then she said don't want to play already so we played the piano there. and walked around... to the squash court, then gym, then swimming pool...
dinner was great, ate and ate until my stomach expanded like a balloon..
and the message by pst benny ho. it was about worship.

hey i can'tgo on for now. will continue tmr

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

camp over

i can't sign in to MSN and yahoo messenger! WHY why why?????? there might be a problem with the connection but from my point of view, i don't see any! what's wrong?!

my previous entry was short, reason being i typed halfway and left the com on.. and MY FATHER WENT TO SEE ALL MY OTHER ENTRIES!!!! but lucky for me, i'm aware that this is the internet, and can't put too personal things up. so no harm done :) but then... haiyah.. i don't like it.

today was the CIP thing and the kids from 'child at street 11' childcare center came over to the school. the young ones were very cute, but always "jie jie/teacher, i want to go toilet." the ice breakers were quite boring. i don't think the younger ones understood the handkerchief game. soccer was a disaster, kids went out of control. some didn't want to play, complained that the weather was too hot, 4 boys never listen to instructions and run about on their own... and a teacher had to scold them. so fierce man.
as some of you know, my group prepared rice crispies for the class and kids, spent a ton of money and many hours just preparing for it. glad that most of them liked it. some kids didn't like it, i dunno why.. and this person named joey ang said it was gross and she did not even try it. what is this. and i thought she put in a lot of effort as the treasurer managing the money. i was so wrong. this other person, i shall not mention her name, said the food was "ok lah". this type of people dont think about all the hard work which we have to put in. lets forget it for now.

friday 1st day of camp:
reached church early. my group name was live strong. so hard to get them to come up with something you know. janice was the leader, benedict and i were the assistants. actually all the sec 2s were leaders for this camp lah. yes.now i know. it's tough work.
had the olympics... that game under the shade.. whats that called? forgot. it wasn't very fun. but the one something like softball. . or is it softball... i suck when it comes to remembering this type of games. yahh that was funner. though we were under the hot sun. went back to church for another game where everyone had to put a rag behind their backs and try and take it away from other groups.. and then the teens leaders would join in and make the game even tougher hahaha.. that was nice. though my group didn't win. what's important was that we had fun :))
at night walked to the park and played some games. 1st one was quite messy. then the ice one we had to run around.... haha. i was guarding 3 of another group ppl when jon, kah wan (I think) and eugene came over... they said they can unfreeze them . so they were unfrozen and i quickly froze them back again.. lol. that's called being smart (: and then the obstacle course.. i think my group got 2nd. the last few obstacles hor... i had to run on that thing and steven was blocking me so "fell" a bit. then after that Naomi or Joseph tapped him which means he must do whatever he was supposed to do but he just stood there with a blur look.. and that was the group's precious few seconds.
went back to church and oh yes i almost forgot to mention the speaker from COOS. pastor bee ling. she rocks man! fun to have her around. talked about daring to be different and her childhood.interesting.
poor Jon lost his voice at the end of the day.

sat 2nd day of camp:
i had a good nights' sleep. so comfy.. for the 1st time
the main thing of the day was holy spirit night. shall talk about that later.
all of us went to toa payoh. took 153 there. the game was called "a walk to remember". rule was cannot run only can walk. Joe and Stacia went with us. got lotsa help from them, though stacia almost lost all our clues. in my opinion, this game was less tiring than previous camps. lunch for us was at a japanese restaurant. i had terriyaki chicken (?) very filling. our 1st clue was some 110% refund thing and the ans was courts. kah wan said "look high and low." i got the hint. high means look up and some places requires us to go up. low means ground leve. F.O.N. means fabric of the nation. our 2 clues were at the same place one is take a pic of the fish and the other, count the no. of do not touch signs. my group was just plain lucky. pet lovers' center, splendid colours (salon), rotiboy were at the same place. all the clues we got were like in order-- pet lovers centre then unscramble the words [ans is splendid colours] and then rotiboy. and the library one. i knew the place was the library cos other groups went there, and the word 'loan' was there.

[ooh shit my father is chasing me off to bed . bye shall continue tmr

.piano lesson

piano lesson changed to 4.15! so little time left...

continue from yesterday about saturday...
a walk to rmb rawks lah... our final task was easy, compared to other groups. just stand at the big circle thing, spread out... and sing a song loudly. and then went back to church. being the first group, we had plenty of time to bathe. after that discussed the skit. everyone was like, no ideas, or very sian just dun wan to contribute.. in the end did a star wars one.. the group was very unprepared. script written by ruben, christel's bro. edited by me, then further edited by benedict. was very messy on stage lor.. but still ok. like charmaine's group's skit. haha about the game..
"yellow card yellow card!" sounds familiar?
"oh now game master hand itchy already ah!" hey i heard that somewhere...
haha camp commandant. jon actually sounded like that. dinner we had steamboat.
then it was a time with God. where everyone just cried and were touched. Wendy prayed for me. felt like she had been giving me special attention, like my mama in church.. and when she continued to pray for me, i broke down. dunno.. . like never really felt like this before.. still having the feeling that i have been sinning and letting God down over and over again, very unlike what Wen said in her prayer.. and after all that weeping it was praise songs. had a good time. then supper. and then worship prac. tired but no choice still had to go on. ended at around 12.35AM. took a bath and went to bed, i meant sleeping bag. that night (morning) i slept like a log and reluctantly got out of the bag at i think 8am the next morn.

sunday.
woke up and cleaned the toilet. my group split up. 2 girls and 2 guys from me grp cleaned the toilet. fun wad.. not as horrible as most people think. just that the dustbin was overflowing and one pad dropped on the floor eeks.. ok i'll shut up .
breakfast at the dining hall... eat until very full.
worship prac again.. wierd to have so many pairs of eyeds fixed on you as you practice you know.. but thankfully there's Charmaine to block me heeheex. christel was the ldr. king of majesty the chorus and bridge sang one octave lower haha sounded so funny. and show me yyour face was transposed 1 key lower.. that was easier. again many ppl were ministered.
night was the wedding dinner of my father's cousin. i didn't know what to wear so just anyhow pick and ended up like the odd one out. will not continue

and i have to leave in 1/2 hr's time! better get going.. bit more time for me to practice my 3 pieces.. grade 6 is so hard.. how i wish i was grade 1 again.. wah that was the best. can slack like nobody's business.

Thursday, June 02, 2005

camp tmr

School can be rather demanding.

okay, ignore that.

yesterday my group gathered to do our english project. went to the school library in the morning and then ate wanton mee for lunch and went to hunt for the CD, a tale of two sisters. the plaot was confusing. didn't understand what it was. but hey, i understood star wars. and you know right star wars more 'cheem'. so we got the VCD at $3, no we erented it. and don't have to be above 16. the previous 2 shops we went to required our IC, which we obviously didn't have... and rental was like so high.