i don't want any more lessons with the sec 1s

My sudoku is under someone's desk. I am going to hammer her tomorrow.

Busy, busy, busy. I have a feeling Wanyi is angry with me again. No, I think it's the whole exco. Cos I needed to leave for Friday's concert and I did not inform them in advance. Was in school uniform together with Joanne, the rest were in their own clothes.
Saturday, peer lites' meeting with our mentors. Then worship prac and youth ablaze all the way until seven. Long day, then to Jack's Place to celebrate my mum's birthday. I love baked salmon, yum yum. So that's 2 days gone, with no time to study for lit.
Sunday, I had cramps and couldn't move. Dragged myself for the 2nd service, haw haw haw. Clarissa had some school choir stuff and I was going to backup alone, so I panicked. Pulled Grace in for prac for the corporate prayer meeting, I wasn't going to do it alone, no. This is Grace Quek, by the way, not Grace Yong. We need more backup singers, or else I will have to sing every week. My story doesn't end here. After the prayer meeting, was quite late for lunch, we ate anyway. Stood for so long, legs were aching. Then concert at NUS by the chinese orchestra, and blah bblah blah blah blah blah blah blah. Which leaves me with totally not time to study lit.

This morning. Copy bio corrections, social studies, tried to look through the Macbeth but just couldn't. Conclusion: i'm going to FAIL lit, again. Geography marks were really unexpected. God was merciful :) Let's see, what should I talk about. MATHS, HOMEWORK HAVENT DO YET oh no. ... what went on after school? Short term memory sorry... oh yes. Walked out with Stacey, Priya, Adeline and Priscilla. The girl whose name starts with the letter "A" is terribly sick in the brain. Comtaminated with boobs.I feel sick just thinking about it.

Wish me luck for my piano lesson. Hopefully there's no lecture this time. If only I could cancel it as easily as striking out a word written on paper...

LT; finally, a word from you
mel; i only like the seaseed. (:
joey; .........J + C = JC.
tania; (:

haha

Symphony 92.4 . Good music, good life.

I think that's the ONLY thing they say. The rest are mainly classical and romantic pieces.

POA test was very ok! At first I couldn't balance the trial balance. Then I panicked. Was sharing calculator with Joey so it was quite difficult to do my checking. But I balanced it anyway. $25270

PL feels like my home. Especially the classroom. It's so nice to know that we're all going through things together. You may not know what I mean. Was just looking back and it's like, sec 3 already. We only have up to next year to enjoy ourselves in PL. Then everything's gone. As in no more PL girls surrounding you. No more comfort of knowing that, (i also dunno what). There's a safe and secure feeling, being with all the rest of the sec 3s... Looks like I can't express my feelings properly.

All the names I put on my list, the one put up on the class wall wth the photos together with the rest. Actually right, I'm like Persie. Just that the names were not random. I put the whole class so that there would not be any negative feelings. Not all names are on my list. I mention it here because I know this blog is visitor-free most of the time. Al most all the time. I know people like Lai Theng just come and read and go without tagging, AM I RIGHT?? Haha. So tag and leave your footprints here okay.

Can't go for the trip. $2400. How to pay?

jia youuuu!

I don't want to die such an early death. Or maybe I should just jump down from my bedroom window (which is the 2nd floor). I can't make up my mind.
1) I'm going to fail the emaths test. Miss Liang still said it was easy?? I couldn't even solve a single question, damn it. And I know I'm going to get -10/25. Whatever, Tania, maybe you'll get a minus twenty. Mrs Wong, quick come back or we will continue to fail.
2) 1A1 class outing proposal!!!! I doubt I'll even work on it, meaning There'll be trouble. I know it.
3) Lit test next week, accounts test tomorrow.
4) My English is deproving like anything.
5) Stupid Adeline keeps laughing at me not experiencing monsoon yet.

Those are the 4 reasons why I should jump. Actually, there's no need to get worried cos you know I wont do silly things. Bit out of point :D

Oh yeah, JOEY. Yesterday she and Adeline were arguing about J------ being macho and all. How one said a girl can't be macho and another one say can. But the fact still remains that a girl cannot be macho. Yuhui said they looked like husband and wife fighting. LOL. She laughed the most. So after school I mentioned the husband and wife thing. Did I say that it was the first time a wife was taller than her husband? Can't remember.

me: haha, Adeline is your husband
Joey: I don't like, like her
Hilary: You mean love?

Somehow, they kept being repeated throughout the journey back to hougang. Kept replaying like a tape recorder. I bet the same thing will happen tomorrow.

Got back our bio results today, we did not do well at all. Except for Melody, smart ass. Our results were terrible. Almost the whole class was depressed after the lesson. But, that isn't the end of the world, not yet. Do not be discouraged, we still have a year to Os.

Boxer had said in Animal Farm, "I will work harder!" In fact, that was his motto. We can try to be like him. Worrying about the CA marks or getting depressed won't help to pull up the marks, otherwise the cumulonimbus clouds will permenantly cover the earth. We must work harder! We can do it! Maybe we should stay back everday and study together, this way we can spur and encourage one another. Then we will all pass our tests with flying colours! It wouldn't be nice if the colours started to sink and get dissolved, then there will be no more colours and we will all die together. Paper chromatography won't be able to help at all. 3c2, jia1 you2!

Be considerate, spare a thought for others. I get really irritated when people keep asking what others got for a test, just because they scored well. Neither is it good to say you got lousy marks, what carelsess mistakes and "can actually be the highest one lor", all these comments should be kept to herself. It justs makes things worse for those who didn't do very well. I am speaking (typing) on behalf of the weaker ones, myself included. Can't encourage, I suggest he or she shuts up. Whatever it is, we should not discourage a person.

I think I'm abnormal. I want to be normal! Why haven't I experienced monsoon yet? Why isn't the lover part of my body growing? Lol, think I"m going to be referred to SGH on day about this problem.

biology

Right eye is sore and bothering me. Miss Ting has long feet. My rabbit is horny. It wants to mate with the cloth. There's a bio test tomorrow, E maths test the day after, and a POA test on thursday. Have to submit the class outing proposal to Miss Chan for the sec 1s' class outing by Friday. Peer lites meeting with mentors on Saturday, then my group will go to old folks' home, orphanage or childcare centre to do some stuff. I can't go, must go for worship prac and it's quite important cos of Sunday. About the Julia and Nisa thing, we still haven't tell any of the teachers, I'm prepared to get a lecture from Miss Kok and Mrs Soh. I want to watch I Not Stupid Too. I am deprived of TV. Don't even know what 'snuppy' or whatever it is about. I want to go for the Symposium!!!! But no money, so can't even think about it. Sharon amswered all the questions during SS today, unfair! Grace is so pink. Hyun bin, wahahaha.

RIGHT. Those were totally RANDOM stuff. Let's get on with a biology lesson.

Enzymes
*biological catalysts made up of protein.
*molecules that speed up reactions without themselves being chemically changed.
*produced by living cells.

Digestion is the breaking up of large, insoluble, indiffusible molecules into smaller, simpler, diffusible molecules.

Hydrogen peroxide is sometimes released during chemical reactions.
It is poisonous!
-the cell produces enzyme catalase which catalyses the breakdown of hydrogen peroxide into water and oxygen
-in this way, the toxic effect is prevented.

Classification of Enzymes
- Digestion is an example of a chemical reaction called HYDROLYSIS.
--- using water to speed up/water splitting.
--water molecules are needed to break down a comples molecule into simpler molecules.
.:. Enzymes that catalyse hydrolytic reactions are known as HYDROLASES
-Examples of hydrolases:
--Carbohydrases
*amylase (salivary/pancreatic) which digest or hydrolase starch.
*cellulases which digest cellulose. Not produced in mammals, that's why animals cannot digest cellulase.
--Proteases (Pepsin in the stomach pH2, Trypsin in the small intestine pH9)which digest proteins.
--Lipases which digests fats (lipids)
-Digestive enzymes are used in some washing powders!

Characteristics of enzymes
-they speed up chemical reactions w/o being changed.
-they are required in small amounts
-they are highly specific in their actions
--e.g amylase will only act on starch, not proteins or fats.
--action of enzymes illustrated using the LOCK AND KEY hypothesis
----the enzyme (lock) has an active site that is of a spatial configuration.
----Only a specific substrate can bind to the active site of the enzyme.
----Only substances that can complement the shape of the active site can be broken down.
-Effect of temperature
--inactive at low temperature, 0°C to 30°C
--temperature ↑, activity ↑
--enzyme twice as active for every 10°C rise until the optumum temp is reached (40°C to 48°C for most enzymes)
--enzyme denatures beyond the optimum temperature.
WHY DO ENZYMES BECOME DENATURED??
because i want them to
because, Too high temp will destroy the protein nature of the enzyme.
- effect of pH on enzymes
--enzymes are very sensitive to pH.
--can only work within a narrow range.
--choose the narrowest optimum pH thing in MCQ.
-Effects of substrate and enzyme concentrations on rate of reaction
--(refer to page 41 of TB, fig 4.4) As the substrate concentration increases, the rate of reaction increases initially until point X is reached. A further increase in substrate concentration does not increase the rate any further. This is because, at any given instant, all the enzyme molecules are being saturated or made used of. The amount of products formed per unit time is the same.
WHAT IS A LIMITING FACTOR??
it is any factor that directly affects the rate at which a process, such as a chemical reaction occurs if quantity is changed.
HOW CAN YOU INCREASE THE RATE OF REACTION AT POINT X?
Increase the enzyme concentration la!

Some stuff on diffusion and osmosis.

The stem curls outwards, with the cortex cells expanding more than epidermal cells.
This is caused by the turgor pressure in the cortex cells.
Cortex cells prevented fom expanding be the epidermis layer, made up of epidermal cells.
They are held by a cuticle and so less capable of stretching.
The cuticle also protects the epidermal cells against water loss.
Cutting releases the restraintexerted by the epidermis.

Sitll have a lot, I'm not typing anymore. Time is 11.35pm

schools

School's alright so far, I guess. I'm begining to like 3c2, though I still miss 2c1 heaps. I know many of us still do. I like the times where we would simply stay in the classroom after school, with simply nothing to do, or contribute to the decorating of the class. Things are different this year. I wasn't so interested in helping with class stuff, also because most people aren't. You need a strong support in order to pull people in to stay back and help. I'm confused and depressed with some personal stuff, all these thoughts are getting nowhere actually. What crap am I talking about? -.-

Blog some other time. Need to prepare for church and worship prac. Hopefully everything will go well. Tania's blog is highly amusing. Go there when you have the time. It helps brighten up your day. time now is 10.47am, saturday, 18 feb

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I feel so lousy all over again. The atmosphere here is getting more and more depressing, I admit. Just wanna say something

Christel, Faith, and even Jon, I'm sorry I screwed up the whole thing. (Saying this though I know they'll never be here.) I guess I wasn't really prepared for it, the message was too last-minute. Yeah, this is not the first time I screwed up, please give me another chance if you guys are thinking of doing something about or to me. The more I think of it, the worse I feel. I know you'll say that it's okay and I just need more confidence, etc... But that's just how I feel about yesterday. I hope to do better in the future. Thanks for the many chances you have given me last time. My weakness, I confess, is not being sure when to start and that my 'confidence is running low'. I have been perfectly honest now, don't comment on this if any of you even see it. No, I take back my previous sentence. Shouldn't be runniny away from mistakes and a chance for others to correct me or give advice.

I feel like crying. Seeing the rest of them together happily makes me feel like shit.

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Have to do the Macbeth ppt on Microsoft Word. The entire music project is weighing me down. Deadlines are Monday and Thursday respectively. Need to practice my piano scales, do music homework, finish up my mountain of schoolwork and study for Social Studies, Geography, Chemistry, Biology and Principles of Accounts. Tests. Not forgetting the PC lesson with 1A1 tomorrow which I have yet to prepare. Nisa isn't replying my messages or answering my calls, which leaves me to prepare for the lesson alone. All group works seem to be my work now. I might just collapse the next minute and everything would be fine. Oh, happy dreaming, man. Looks like all the negative stuff are pushing their way into me. Pray for me, please. Thanks guys.
time:1pm, and it's sunday not saturday

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All of a sudden, the word 'us' has a completely different meaning. Things have changed. Quite dramatically, I'm afraid. Feeling so... alone. Doesn't feel nice, when one of your *closest* is no longer *like this*. I wish certain things could remain like last year. Break times have never been the same again. These words might confuse you, yes, but details about this should not be put here, yea? Don't wanna offend anyone.

Tests. Projects. Homework. They're the reasons why I haven't been blogging. Even my time with God has been cut. Oh, not forgetting peer lite stuff and church. Might not sound stressful, but try putting on my shoes. You'll see what I mean. It all comes to the same conclusion: Too many things to do, too little time. Come what, come may. Time and the hour runs through the roughest day.

I kinda regret joining as a peer lite, come to think of it. Nah, it's about helping and serving. Should be happy doing it right? Planning for games and lessons are a headache. They are taking up a lot of time. Teaching a group of noisy sec 1s is no easy task, sometimes they get out of control. Anyway, I would appreciate if someone could help me with the ice-breakers. Running out of ideas.

Geography lessons = copying lesson = stress x stress
Miss Ting is going so fast, I honestly have no idea what the climate thing is all about. All our wrists gets overworked at the end of every lesson. I fear that one day the whole hand will fall out. So much for pure geography.

Thanks, Jasmine. Thanks a lot. Many thanks to Yu Ting too. Both of you, for listening to my troubles and being there for me.

I will change my blogskin. Not sure when, but when I do, (fret not,) some of your links will be added in. The whole thing is outdated man. time now is 12.22am, 8 Feb 06.