她脸上露出了笑容，啊，终于写完了一篇作文，心里丝毫满足感。她答应自己，今晚不把该做的事做完，就不许睡觉。幸好有哪贯咖啡，要不然，这些作业就永远是空着的了。
加油，加油， 才剩下三份作业！多三个小时应该能完成任务吧？ 也许她应该先去休息一下。。
不，不能这样做。她知道一放松的话，待会儿在学校就完蛋了。她决定持之以恒，集中精神，乖乖地继续拼下去。。。
上帝就在她身边，给她无微不至的爱，给她它须要力量，让她有能力去专心。
*不好意思哦，这几天就用华文来打博客。没办法啦，我这样才能练习。当然，我也知道这里的读者会大大减少，但我不管，少也好！
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
救命！救命！
这是一个竞争激烈的社会。它不断地向前走。追不上的人就非常吃亏，不知几时才会追上来。
作者梁文福有说过，“潮流，是已股抗拒不了的力量”。 他说得一点也没错。
救命啊，我快要爆炸了。
我好想逃避，但我能逃到哪儿去呢？ 现在的烦恼简直是太多，太可怕了。我想一步一步来，漫漫的像婴儿一样爬起来，可是时间不能为我而停下，它一直在走，在走。
我想自暴自弃，但我不要后悔，不要浪费这最后一次的机会，考了它们后，我反而永远都不再去碰到它们了。（这指的是考试）
还是抓警时间来竟快地逼自己做事吧。我不是在自找压力，我是在面对事实。算我活该，小时候没把华文学好。现在别人都在大大地进步，向前走，我却被留在后面默默地跟烦恼挣扎。
等等我啊，我正在追上。。。
作者梁文福有说过，“潮流，是已股抗拒不了的力量”。 他说得一点也没错。
救命啊，我快要爆炸了。
我好想逃避，但我能逃到哪儿去呢？ 现在的烦恼简直是太多，太可怕了。我想一步一步来，漫漫的像婴儿一样爬起来，可是时间不能为我而停下，它一直在走，在走。
我想自暴自弃，但我不要后悔，不要浪费这最后一次的机会，考了它们后，我反而永远都不再去碰到它们了。（这指的是考试）
还是抓警时间来竟快地逼自己做事吧。我不是在自找压力，我是在面对事实。算我活该，小时候没把华文学好。现在别人都在大大地进步，向前走，我却被留在后面默默地跟烦恼挣扎。
等等我啊，我正在追上。。。
Sunday, October 12, 2008
600th post
This is my 600th post, and it's about a series of unfortunate events which happened yesterday.
I woke up late, at 8am. CO starts at 8.30am.
Instructor shouted at Sheena and I, and all the pressure was on me.. It was hell. I don't hear any melody in the piece, all I was playing was notes, notes and more notes. I was sight reading all the way. Those who know me know how bad my sight reading is. Doesn't help that the rhythm was so complicated and I didn't play through that piece prior to the practice...
I wasn't myself after sectionals. I was still traumatised by the instructor. I walked right into the sloped low ceiling of the CO (store)room, hit my head real HARD against it, and fell backwards on the floor, knocking down the instruments beside me. I couldn't do anything else but remain at that spot for the next few minutes. There's a lump on my head now, I can feel it. The pain's worse when I wash my hair, comb it, or tie it up.
The left side of my contact lens came out halfway during the movie with BFC. I spent such a long time trying to put it back, I didn't exactly pay attention to whatever was being screened. I went home with a half-clear-half-blurred vision.
My head still hurts :( Damn the CO room.
I woke up late, at 8am. CO starts at 8.30am.
Instructor shouted at Sheena and I, and all the pressure was on me.. It was hell. I don't hear any melody in the piece, all I was playing was notes, notes and more notes. I was sight reading all the way. Those who know me know how bad my sight reading is. Doesn't help that the rhythm was so complicated and I didn't play through that piece prior to the practice...
I wasn't myself after sectionals. I was still traumatised by the instructor. I walked right into the sloped low ceiling of the CO (store)room, hit my head real HARD against it, and fell backwards on the floor, knocking down the instruments beside me. I couldn't do anything else but remain at that spot for the next few minutes. There's a lump on my head now, I can feel it. The pain's worse when I wash my hair, comb it, or tie it up.
The left side of my contact lens came out halfway during the movie with BFC. I spent such a long time trying to put it back, I didn't exactly pay attention to whatever was being screened. I went home with a half-clear-half-blurred vision.
My head still hurts :( Damn the CO room.
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Open House
College open house today, Wednesday, and the turnout was.... haha.. .
It's probably due to the bad timing. I mean, open house on a weekday afternoon? At this time of the year when some O levelers are still having exams? hmmm.
I didn't see many PL lites =(
Last year's was on a Saturday, and it started in the morning, if I'm not wrong.
The day passed quickly, and the orchestra performed only twice at the lobby. Some from our CO also played an ensemble piece. So that's that. We kept shifting instruments, chairs and music stands around. I remember tripping over my own instrument and I realised it went way out of tune just before the conductor stood in front of us, but (phew) I managed to get it tuned with minimal noise. Audience was uh.. small, I guess.
I made it a little too obvious today. Oops. I had to. Things get out of hand sometimes, and it irritates.
I bet all the J1s were all half-dead from today. Though the crowd was only this big, the energy level was almost at its optimum. The singles' club (hahaha) still went to Ikea for meatballs =D Amelia acts like anywhere can be her home. Press the "doorbell" when we were in the bus. Seriously, !!!
I reached home at 11pm.
This post is garbage. Joyce is sleepy, you see.
It's probably due to the bad timing. I mean, open house on a weekday afternoon? At this time of the year when some O levelers are still having exams? hmmm.
I didn't see many PL lites =(
Last year's was on a Saturday, and it started in the morning, if I'm not wrong.
The day passed quickly, and the orchestra performed only twice at the lobby. Some from our CO also played an ensemble piece. So that's that. We kept shifting instruments, chairs and music stands around. I remember tripping over my own instrument and I realised it went way out of tune just before the conductor stood in front of us, but (phew) I managed to get it tuned with minimal noise. Audience was uh.. small, I guess.
I made it a little too obvious today. Oops. I had to. Things get out of hand sometimes, and it irritates.
I bet all the J1s were all half-dead from today. Though the crowd was only this big, the energy level was almost at its optimum. The singles' club (hahaha) still went to Ikea for meatballs =D Amelia acts like anywhere can be her home. Press the "doorbell" when we were in the bus. Seriously, !!!
I reached home at 11pm.
This post is garbage. Joyce is sleepy, you see.
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
End of Promos
joyce says:
your action was cute
joyce says:
not you
joyce says:
LOL
Andrew says:
hahahah
Andrew says:
the action belongs to me
Andrew says:
so im cute
joyce says:
i think i'm cuter (:
Andrew says:
ya la
Andrew says:
of course
HAHA, I know I'm cute =)
Yes promos are over... and it ended horribly.
Many would agree with me about the bio SPA skill BC. (hold your breath-cos tonight will be the night that i will fall for you this is a post-review review on the experiment's anomalies)
I knocked over my pectinase 0.5% and 0.25% solutions and had to make new ones with whatever little 1% pectinase i hade left, I knocked over the test tube labels so they were all over the floor but I didn't bother to pick them up, I didn't know how to weigh the apple puree (whether to put the boiling tube in the beaker in the electronic balance and tare it, THEN put the apple puree in, or what), I told the teacher I didn't have a syringe when it was less than 30cm away from me on the bench, I didn't even mix the different concentrations of pectinase with the apple puree, let alone put it in water at 40degrees or filter it, I faked my own results, I didn't know the exact function of pectinase, and I didn't include the mass of the apple puree in my table.
In short, skill BC wasa nightmare an afternoon-mare, my worst spa yet.
(FYI spa = science practical assessment)
IT'S OVER. I should stop dwelling on it right? yeah. Look ahead. What do I see? Open house. CO. CO. CO. OP. OP. CL. OP. CL. CL. OP. CO. CL. OP. Oh dear..
Okay, I shall sleep early tonight!
LOL I should have done that during the exam period eh! Haha ohwells. Performers have to turn in early when there's a performance the next day. Now I wouldn't call this a performance. Still... g'night!
Actually, I feel like eating something. I shall read the papers and snack on a snack. Hehe (:
your action was cute
joyce says:
not you
joyce says:
LOL
Andrew says:
hahahah
Andrew says:
the action belongs to me
Andrew says:
so im cute
joyce says:
i think i'm cuter (:
Andrew says:
ya la
Andrew says:
of course
HAHA, I know I'm cute =)
Yes promos are over... and it ended horribly.
Many would agree with me about the bio SPA skill BC. (hold your breath-
I knocked over my pectinase 0.5% and 0.25% solutions and had to make new ones with whatever little 1% pectinase i hade left, I knocked over the test tube labels so they were all over the floor but I didn't bother to pick them up, I didn't know how to weigh the apple puree (whether to put the boiling tube in the beaker in the electronic balance and tare it, THEN put the apple puree in, or what), I told the teacher I didn't have a syringe when it was less than 30cm away from me on the bench, I didn't even mix the different concentrations of pectinase with the apple puree, let alone put it in water at 40degrees or filter it, I faked my own results, I didn't know the exact function of pectinase, and I didn't include the mass of the apple puree in my table.
In short, skill BC was
(FYI spa = science practical assessment)
IT'S OVER. I should stop dwelling on it right? yeah. Look ahead. What do I see? Open house. CO. CO. CO. OP. OP. CL. OP. CL. CL. OP. CO. CL. OP. Oh dear..
Okay, I shall sleep early tonight!
LOL I should have done that during the exam period eh! Haha ohwells. Performers have to turn in early when there's a performance the next day. Now I wouldn't call this a performance. Still... g'night!
Actually, I feel like eating something. I shall read the papers and snack on a snack. Hehe (:
Saturday, October 04, 2008
One more paper to the end of promos
(don't expect you to read. long post ahead. blogged for memories' sake.)
God has been very real to me during the promos, especially for the econs and Chinese papers...
I asked for peace, and He gave.
Usually, I'll get really anxious before papers. This time, however, I was so relaxed till it got to the point where I'd start to worry about why I was so calm -.- Haha, you get the point.
Last Sunday, I spent the entire afternoon and early evening revising bio. I only started on econs at around 9.30pm. It was hard to focus, especially since a friend of mine suddenly came into macs (I was studying there) looking troubled. Yes, I was concerned, but I had to fix my mind on econs as well. So I prayed... prayed for wisdom, to study the right thing and to make full use of whatever time I had left.
That night I kept staring at the back portion of my market failure notes. I just felt that I had to read through them. PLUS it was the first time I was reading that part of the notes. I made my own notes by summarising whatever I read onto a piece of paper. Tradable permits, Kyoto Protocol, controls of monopoly... I got some doubts (natural monopoly and government-controlled private monopoly - wait a min. it sounds odd) clarified with my friends who were there. I recalled the hints that my econs teacher gave during tutorials, and decided that demand and supply wouldn't come up as an essay question alone, it's meant to be applied. I read up a lil' on market structure, since I didn't exactly go through that topic at all.
The econs paper was almost a breeze. Cos' everything I covered slightly more than twelve hours before the paper was being tested. I couldn't believe it. Needless to say, I did the market failure essay question.. It was as if God Himself was telling me specifically what was going to be tested for the promos! Amazing? Definitely!
As for the Chinese paper...
I'm proud to say that it was the FIRST TIME
- I understood whatever I was reading (ok, almost everything. there were still parts that put question marks floating above my head)
- I completed the entire 3-hour plus paper without excessive rushing.
Usually, I'll scribble my way through the last compre passage. This time I had better time management..
- I was actually so awake for a CHINESE paper!
I mean, the tests are usually during curriculum time or after school.. as in the case of the mock exam... and I always find myself either nodding off or reading a blurred mass of characters.
I know for sure that this supernatural strength (which I had requested for) is definitely from God. It was not from myself. I mean, look at what time I sleep..... people say, you don't sleep early, you won't have the energy to do the paper. I know it's true. How then would you explain that energy boost (esp for this paper) even though I have less than 5 hours of sleep everyday?
On Monday, the day before the Chinese paper, I zzz-ed right after I got home. It was a refreshing nap, I'd say. I went to some nearby void deck to TRY to study. I say TRY because there were 3 guys at another table, and man, they were vulgar! Then duh, I got very disturbed. I tried listening to the radio and was unable to do any productive studying for the rest of the night. lol. I only read one 课文，这里真安静， and one page of 爸爸的花儿落了。What came out for the paper was from zhelizhenanjing, the passage which I glossed through during the unproductive revision. Well, at least it was from that 课文！
I'll prove the laoshi wrong. You wait.
I speak of how smoothly some papers went. They did indeed, but whether or not I answered them correctly...
is another thing altogether...
From Philippians 4:13; 4:6-7 respectively (NIV):
Tell me, how true is that? =)
_____
I speak as if it's the end of promos.
After the Chinese paper, Claire Amelia and myself went to Tiong Bahru to lunch, walk around, look for more food, ... we acted as though it was the end of promos.
Fact is, it isn't. I still have bio science practical assessment (SPA) the coming Monday.
While there are people around me who rejoice over the end of their promos, Isulk am reminded that this isn't the end for me. Yet. I'm not losing the momentum, I'm not! It's so tempting to loosen the strings now that there's just one 'paper' left.
I've come a long way. So have others.
I don't want to regret for the rest of 2009. I need the SPA marks badly.
If there's something else I can dance about, it's the fact that this college made us submit our final EoMs and WRs long before the promos (as in the case for the former). We have one less thing to fret over =)
Seriously, now that I think of it, there's no such thing as "it's over", or "the end". If I think short-term, there's college open house right after promos, I have to finalise the concert ticketing stuff, there's Chinese A's, oral presentation for PW, preparations for the year-end concert and next year's SYF, then a whole year starts again right till A levels. (if i promote) If I think long-term, then it'll be university matters (if my A level grades are good enough), uni itself (if i make it) and on to the working world. Then I'll be faced with the responsibilities of a young adult. and so on.
_____
After geog today (yesterday, rather) I went to BK at Holland V for lunch with Ang Ren and Tong, followed by Macs ad S'pore Poly before returning to school for the math paper.
I managed to do some math questions, yes... but still felt that the time could have been used more wisely by remaining in school instead of going out! Goodness. What have I done. They're the ones who don't need the revision, I do!
God has been very real to me during the promos, especially for the econs and Chinese papers...
I asked for peace, and He gave.
Usually, I'll get really anxious before papers. This time, however, I was so relaxed till it got to the point where I'd start to worry about why I was so calm -.- Haha, you get the point.
Last Sunday, I spent the entire afternoon and early evening revising bio. I only started on econs at around 9.30pm. It was hard to focus, especially since a friend of mine suddenly came into macs (I was studying there) looking troubled. Yes, I was concerned, but I had to fix my mind on econs as well. So I prayed... prayed for wisdom, to study the right thing and to make full use of whatever time I had left.
That night I kept staring at the back portion of my market failure notes. I just felt that I had to read through them. PLUS it was the first time I was reading that part of the notes. I made my own notes by summarising whatever I read onto a piece of paper. Tradable permits, Kyoto Protocol, controls of monopoly... I got some doubts (natural monopoly and government-controlled private monopoly - wait a min. it sounds odd) clarified with my friends who were there. I recalled the hints that my econs teacher gave during tutorials, and decided that demand and supply wouldn't come up as an essay question alone, it's meant to be applied. I read up a lil' on market structure, since I didn't exactly go through that topic at all.
The econs paper was almost a breeze. Cos' everything I covered slightly more than twelve hours before the paper was being tested. I couldn't believe it. Needless to say, I did the market failure essay question.. It was as if God Himself was telling me specifically what was going to be tested for the promos! Amazing? Definitely!
As for the Chinese paper...
I'm proud to say that it was the FIRST TIME
- I understood whatever I was reading (ok, almost everything. there were still parts that put question marks floating above my head)
- I completed the entire 3-hour plus paper without excessive rushing.
Usually, I'll scribble my way through the last compre passage. This time I had better time management..
- I was actually so awake for a CHINESE paper!
I mean, the tests are usually during curriculum time or after school.. as in the case of the mock exam... and I always find myself either nodding off or reading a blurred mass of characters.
I know for sure that this supernatural strength (which I had requested for) is definitely from God. It was not from myself. I mean, look at what time I sleep..... people say, you don't sleep early, you won't have the energy to do the paper. I know it's true. How then would you explain that energy boost (esp for this paper) even though I have less than 5 hours of sleep everyday?
On Monday, the day before the Chinese paper, I zzz-ed right after I got home. It was a refreshing nap, I'd say. I went to some nearby void deck to TRY to study. I say TRY because there were 3 guys at another table, and man, they were vulgar! Then duh, I got very disturbed. I tried listening to the radio and was unable to do any productive studying for the rest of the night. lol. I only read one 课文，这里真安静， and one page of 爸爸的花儿落了。What came out for the paper was from zhelizhenanjing, the passage which I glossed through during the unproductive revision. Well, at least it was from that 课文！
I'll prove the laoshi wrong. You wait.
I speak of how smoothly some papers went. They did indeed, but whether or not I answered them correctly...
is another thing altogether...
From Philippians 4:13; 4:6-7 respectively (NIV):
I can do everything through him who gives me strength
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Tell me, how true is that? =)
_____
I speak as if it's the end of promos.
After the Chinese paper, Claire Amelia and myself went to Tiong Bahru to lunch, walk around, look for more food, ... we acted as though it was the end of promos.
Fact is, it isn't. I still have bio science practical assessment (SPA) the coming Monday.
While there are people around me who rejoice over the end of their promos, I
I've come a long way. So have others.
I don't want to regret for the rest of 2009. I need the SPA marks badly.
If there's something else I can dance about, it's the fact that this college made us submit our final EoMs and WRs long before the promos (as in the case for the former). We have one less thing to fret over =)
Seriously, now that I think of it, there's no such thing as "it's over", or "the end". If I think short-term, there's college open house right after promos, I have to finalise the concert ticketing stuff, there's Chinese A's, oral presentation for PW, preparations for the year-end concert and next year's SYF, then a whole year starts again right till A levels. (if i promote) If I think long-term, then it'll be university matters (if my A level grades are good enough), uni itself (if i make it) and on to the working world. Then I'll be faced with the responsibilities of a young adult. and so on.
_____
After geog today (yesterday, rather) I went to BK at Holland V for lunch with Ang Ren and Tong, followed by Macs ad S'pore Poly before returning to school for the math paper.
I managed to do some math questions, yes... but still felt that the time could have been used more wisely by remaining in school instead of going out! Goodness. What have I done. They're the ones who don't need the revision, I do!
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