do you know. that. i'm a peer support leader. am i supposed to be happy or sad. somehow, i feel that i really regret my choice to even submit that form. well, haiz.... what now. there's a camp coming up. i wonder how tough that will be. do i have leadership qualities? i don't think so. darn. exams are coming. and what am i doing? typing crap here. i really should not be doing this. i'm wasting such a lot of time man.

i won at fruit machine yesterday. 2500 np and a poppit. took neoprint with joey, persie, jasmine, madeline and this girl we met there called wai shin i think. haha... didn't really study yesterday. didn't do QT also. *feels guilty* at tombola, i'm a bottle of blue sand and 147 NP. isn't this as good as winning? at coltzan's shrine, always nothing happens one! i'm getting SO frustrated. i'm going to play gormball. haha.

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wah so many things happened.. i was banned from using e com.. so now then i can post. CME exam over. and shit my father is coming up with a CANE. damn it. haveta get out now. finished chapter 4 of my maths. finished doing all the exercises, that it. ok bb

tired

just finisged worship prac.. jon kept asking us "any problem?" dunno why, haha.. then he didn't tell us what time practice tmr.......... so me and jace asked bee.. hahas// yesterday, helped them to fold the letters for CP seminar and insert the brochures into the enevelope. altogether abt 1200.. i went there at 11 something.. spent most of my time on the letters.. janice wun do her own work. must ask other ppl to do for her one.. i wonder why...// it's already saturday and i still haven't show my result slip yet!! what am i gonna do..? i feel like running away from home.. i just dun dare to show it! sigh.. i'm quite sure my parents will nag at me and scold me again. how? i'm scared! i'm scared i'm scared!

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what should i do? go to church or stay at home? stay at home will be tempted to use computer. like now. go to church nobody go with me then i'll be all alone then so lonely. how?? haiz... yesterday i went there with sara we ate at 7-11. saw beatrice delia and doreen(my auntie) they were so freaky.. pop out from nowhere.. so. yesterday completed all the eng and maths hw. then sara was kinda flirting. shall not comment further on that. i asked jace to come. received sms. this sat got worship prac. jon tsang leading. i always get all these smses through boon yeow. dunno y. hey. should i go or not. if i go then eat where. dun tell me 7-11 again. haiz.......... i lazy to walk all the way to s11. only got $3. eat shit ah. how how how....... neopets now my bank interest is 63NP btw. ok i think i'll go. G O go.

whew.

ok,. yester day the exam was... HORRIBLE!! i kept playing wrongly!! shit. then go s'pore conference hall for that darn performance. again, play wrongly. too nervous. but after that, there's this kinda feeling, like very reluctant to leave. it's the bond between us.. the seniors and juniors. and maybe dr wong and mr ten as well. i dunno how to explain this... hust ask those who were involved in the musical. THAt kind of feeling. this morning, went for handbell prac, the man from s'pore chinese orchestra came and took out his VIDEO CAM and... u know the rest. then went for the chinese storytelling thing. i kept reffering to my book. damn. think my marks are very low. dun even think i can pass grade 5 cos it's staccato all the way for sight-reading. everything went wrong. wasn't really prepared. leaders were encouraging. yea.. i might have died without them.. :D