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5 hours of library work made me half-dead yesterday.

cell bonding was the best man.
though we waited more than half an hour for everyone to arrive. haha.. we had dinner at KFC, and talked about Chinese names. Everyone had a good time laughing. We mixed up all our leftover food - chicken bones, cheese, ice, ketchup, chilli and mixed them all up. LOL. ha we can be THAT gross.
Clarissa and Andrew went to get stuff for games, while the rest of us went to cold storage. It was cold.
or maybe it's me. I had been feeling cold even sitting at the basketball court.
302 made it even worse. The game forfeits were terrible but since i never kena at all, it was fun! Yah we had a good time of bonding, together with Stacia's cell. Oh they're quite pathetic. Onlt Dorita, Bryan, Cheryl and Denise slept over. Everyone played card games and monkey until almost 4am. Crazy right. I was different la, very guai one. I tried to sleep but cannot sleep, too noisy. Wanhui said i kept scaring her. She's very funny la! And got freaked out by Johanes who was wearing white and standing outside the door. 302 was like a freezer.

morning we woke up and did QT. 1/2 hr or QT. we prayed for a number of things. Yep. It's nice to do QT as a group. Then we had carrot sticks for breakfast and went for 1st service. Surprise that nobody dosed off, because of the lack of sleep.

Today's the last time we have youth/teens service on a Sunday. Kinda sad eh.
Worship was great, but Chris and Boon said singers were too soft. hello? i almost lost my voice, lol. But it'll be different at the 4th level.
Jacelyn came today. I was glad to see her, but she doesn't seem to feel very herself. Just look at her blog. i dunno what else i should do about this, but to pray. And I still got my other friends to be busy with. Last night when I was praying, I almost cried. That- is not for you to know.

Cell lunch at Macs. We did gross things again. (mixing sauce with ice, what else did you expect?) Were ballooning around with Kara's cell. Those little kids balloons. Discussed what we're wearing, and it's formal clothes! Oh. My. Rabbit. That will mean spending $$$$ on clothes. For a suitable blouse and skirt. Skirt! I never wear skirts. Darn. Kara's cell so much nicer lor, they're wearing jeans and dunno what shirt.

Kara's cell and me the extra were standing outside Macs talking rubbish. What dog grow long ears, rabbit bark and suck the tortoise out of the shell. Errr? HahA.
I had intended to walk around heartland mall with Clarissa. (I'm really sorry!)
But then Charmaine and Jia Yan wanted to go to my house, and Jon Soh had to go for a haircut. So Ben Thia and Chong Yang ( a bit ----- lah) went with him, then went to my house. I pity my piano. And the neighbours. Thanks so someone, hah. Still think he very smart when can't even play scales.

This year's sec 2s rock. [stone][reminds me of persie]

results

Lets learn to be positive and satisfied with whatever God has given to us.
In my case, He put me in 3C2


subjects:
English
Chinese
E maths
Bio/Chem
SS/Lit
Geography
Principles of Accounts
and Music! my choice, this one...

3C1 is pure literature and elective geog.
C1 and C2 -- POA, art and F&N
Meaning when it's time for these lessons the class will split
since POA is a new subject, i might be able to score here.
I wanted to take A Maths. Too bad.

Worship prac today. This Sunday will be the last Sunday YPM servive.
It will change to Saturday next week, at the L4 auditorium. By the way, no more Young People Ministry, it's now Youth Ablaze! Seriously, doesn't sound very nice..
I came back home from church feeling as if I had just ran 10km. Exhausted.

tomorrow ah,
7.30am meet up with friends go Delifrance eat the breakfast buffet.
11am go compass point library for NYAA service
4.30pm rush home
6pm meet cell members at the church for your bonding thing
sleepover!

Good news! With the help of the Lord, I managed to get Jacelyn to come to church! But I won't be able to meet her, must ask Clarissa to do it.
HAppy is me.

:)

Lord, thank you for friends. Thank you once again, for people around me.
Didn't expect them to come and tag and give encouragement too.
Ah. I feel blessed.

I've learnt to become more confident when leading or speaking to a group after going for the peer lites' camp. They taught us a lot of stuff, including how to handle difficult students. Next year's peer lites are going to organise a class outing AND class CIP. meaning ours would be done for the year if we did it with the sec 1s.
Proposals. I/Cs. Budget, food, admin....
Sounds stressful.

Taking music next year.

I'm happier with the new worship roster.
Looks better. hah. The last time i was 'on duty', it was a disaster, man. ZAO XIA.
I have learnt that, warming up before practice and the service is very, very important. Or else... I dare not think about it.

I see....... a busy year ahead of me.....

even the holidays. my schedule is gradually getting packed.

(Interesting, both Chris and Jon signed in together. :p)

I cannot bear to split up with the class. We've been so together.
When I look back, it's actually very sad to see that we'll not be able to laugh, joke or be serious with certain things together.
It's the bond between us. Those times... When we made the teachers scream at us, when a whole lot would be sent outside the class for not doing homework (includig me), when we secretly ate in class, when we put our heart and soul into decorating the classroom for CNY and the safari, when we planned for the programme for the Child at Street 11 CIP, when we helped one another with the various happenings in our lives this year. Thinking of Wynn as the mermaid, getting 3rd for dunno what, raising the most money in the level for walk-a-jog, getting the cleanest class for a few weeks, preparing for Kar Mun's farewell party. Not forgetting Miss Ho, who was always scolding us when we wereout of our minds.
2c1. 2c1. haiz..
i love 2c1.

right.

get ready for more handbell practices. There's a performance on the 27 of Nov and 23 Dec. Be happy! okayy, yay i'm very happy.

looking forward to the day when i can see all my close friends --------, ----------- in the ----- -- ---. Better still, everyone I know.

Pamela and Rachel are very nice people. Ther were my group leaders for the camp.

angry or sad?

i am FOURTEEN this year.
FOURTEEN, 14
yet i'm getting whacked, caned, beaten up, scolded. i swear the entire block could actually hear all the commotion. people who got higher marks than me and still complain about being lousy, how are those who flunked supposed to feel? what about me? a total idiot who cannot do well for english, math, science, history..? going to take music next year, and i've no idea how on earth can that help me. i hate it when parents scold and instead of giving encouragement, end up getting beaten up. why are they always comparing me with the A class students? for some subjects, i have done a little more than expected. i'm getting the idea of myself being an idiot. it's hard to avoid the cane or beating. again, i'm 14. not 4. they want me to go to a university which is like, impossible, and get some degree when i can't even get a B3 for english maths and science.
if i'm wasting their money on tuition fees, then why are they still letting me have tuition?
right now, i'm left in a state of confusion. this, or that, or what.

the one who scolded me the F word isn't making my life easier either.
please, be more sensitive towards other people's feelings.
just because your results are good, that does not give you the
right to shoot vulgarities at your targets. you have absolutely no
idea how much you've hurt them

it's best not to hate someone. the feeling that the world hates you is, horrible. it'll be good if we all treated FL with a little more patience and be warmer, not colder. she can be quite nice.

life is unfair, but we still have live on. no one can change it except God. no matter how much effort i put in, those demanding parents of mine will never be satisfied. i'll continue to be caned till the age of 21. how's that.

I'm a failure

just got SA2 results, and they suck.
my english and science are like, shit
i failed history.
chinese is bad, my tuition teacher's going to KILL me.
---
just calculated my final marks, and
0.8 MARKS TO MY A MATHS!!!!!!!!!!
i'm going to ask my mother to appeal.
and i failed bio, which was a total disappointment, that has always been my best subjects.
so it's physics/chem for me.
pure geog, lit sucked. so much for long essays.
maths, i was surprised, that i was actually the one of the 1/5 of the class who passed.
thought i would fail.
art, also thought will fail.
chinese paper 1 die lor... almoST failed.
art is a NO for me. enough of banana.

i dunno whether to hate or love myself.

founder's day

yep.
i think we did quite well
ethel was half asleep during the sermon, lol.
we got scolded by a teacher when we returned to school.
i shall not elaborate
but he went mad, totally, like competing with the rain.
*seals my lips*

played badminton with joey yesterday, the shuttlecock (?)
kept hitting the cars.
thank God neighbours did not come out and complain.
today prepared the costume for safari day.
a bit.
my class is so united pls.
our child at street 11 cip photos appeared on the screen with mrs lee saying what we did. those were the times. loads of prep work for it. and the kids who kept wanting to go to the toilet. ahahah.

say "yay".

hello2

as i was saying,
i'm angry with myself for those dumb results.

the rehearsal.. was like so ( what ?) lah! was one of the worst, ever.
give thanks was damn messy?
we seemed disorganised, lost, whatever...
hurrrrrrr
choir not bad lah, but i still prefer bells.
elizabeth, the pro. her fingers are like, whoa.
founder's day service at plmc. nice change.
i still can't see how the whole school including staff and guests
is going to squeeze in. unless they remove the walls.
impossible.

went to eat fries with ling ying. that person put so much salt.
then dunno where to walk.
"left or right?" "anywhere lah." "quick , upstairs or downstairs?!"
"you say where you want to go!" "hurry!" "no, you decide! anywhere also can!"
lol
ended up in poular. we were looking around, then went to look at the monopoly
and computer stuff.
and ling spotted mr fong.
verry funny ah. it was the 2 instructors.
HAHAHA
we tried to hide from them and see what they were doing.
ling waid they took a lot of scotch tape?
we wanted to go out of popular. they were paing money then.
"faster run before they see us!!"
unfortunately, uh....
so unlucky can. saw them at the escolator try and run again,
out of their sight.
ended up running out of heartland mall. like police and thief.

i need to buy rabbit food.
someone accompany me?
or by bunny will starve.

hello

exams are over, yay.

I CANNOT TYPE PROPERLY.
COS I'M IN THE SCH LIBRARY.

anyway, my point is that the end time is coming. i think almos all Christians think so.
tsunami, hurricane, earthquake, dengue....
don't you think so?
and also people who claim that they are the Son of Man
in other words, false prophets. global warming is getting worse too.
perhaps. the time is near. near...
the unsaved have to be saved, soon, or we'll all regret not doing so.
man.. the horrors of hell.
maybe, God has prompted me to do it. they're stressing the importance in church,
and in my devotional book.
perhaps, perhaps

YPM service going to change from Sunday to Saturday, 4-9pm
Which makes life harder for me. Worship practices, CCA, dental appointments,
tuition......
more than a hundred things are going through my tiny lil' brain.

violin results
merit.
JUST three more marks to distinction!!!!
how can i not be angry?!
and piano



i'll talk later, bus is here.
to plmc.