worship Him!

Today's Youth Ablaze service was a rather musical one. It marks the end of April, worship month.

I arrived at 12pm in church for worship practice/jamming. No electric guitarist, no 2nd keyboardist. -.- we did it anyway. Charmaine was reallyyyy late. Andy changed some of the songs, end up we didn't have a lot of them. (just realised he's always suanning me) Jon photocopied them for us, and they're pink! What's with the pink paper in the copier.... haha..

Backups Grace (Quek), Stef and I went to warm up our voices. But we couldn't sing in the original key, no guitar or keyboard in that little room. You know whenever a guy leads worship, the girls suffer, all the songs are sung in a high key. Today... the praise songs were all in G! Usually when girls lead they sing in E. We did it anyway. Just that I zhao xia-ed into the mic. But no one will know because of facial expressions. They're important, they show when a person is having difficulty with a song or had zhao xia-ed or uncomfortable with anything. Haha I pretended nothing happened. So there. Nobody brought that up during debrief.

Today's service was very different from the usual. Sang two praise songs first, followed by the sermon/message, then praise and worship again. It was awesome. Though there were some obvious technical errors and faults. Keyboard went off by itself. Everything else was just... great. I could feel the presence of God so strong in that auditorium, it was so overwhelming... Especially when we sang Shout To The Lord. If all the earth would really shout to the Lord, sing of His power and majesty, give praise to the King... That's just... wonderful. Teared on stage, I couldn't help it. I could see that everyone, including the younger P6 and sec 1 kids were worshipping God, every self-conciousness taken away. It was so nice to see that everyone of them were engrossed in worship.. & nobody was looking around or simply staring at the stage...

This month, more than 100 people gave their lives to Jesus. That is a BIG number, for my church, which is neither big nor small. That's something to rejoice about. The angels above are celebrating.

Oh yea.. Andy wanted to sing the song Everyday, was damn impromptu... Charmaine the keyboardist didn't know the chords. haha... Halfway through the song, his hand cramped, and stopped the guitar. I thought Jon and Eugene would continue with the drums and bass. Haha they were confused and didn't know whether to play or just silence, voices alone. Backups didn't sing into the mic. So that last song was screwed up and awkward. Who cares, at least God appreciates it.

If this kind of spirit, hungry for more of Him, were to continue throughout the different generations of Christians... that would be amazing. Totally. The devil is so not welcome into Daddy's house! (learning to address our Father as Daddy, haha thanks to 2 ppl) I'd love to see the youths in church keeping up this enthusiasm for God and pass it down to the new youths who join us every year.

All who love Him, say 'amen'!

To T:
It's really time to get new specs, lol... 2 advantages. Look better and see clearer! Then you won't be able to say, 'I didn't see you'. Haha no offence, but they really look very old fasioned!

it's sat, i think it's fri anw

Haha.. super long day. Started out with Mrs Lum talking about the elections and stuff... how our school would be used for the polling next Saturday. We're supposed to leave school at 1.45 sharp next Friday. No CCA =( Picture this scene: 1000+ PL lites at the few bus stops around the school. I'll just walk to heartland mall. The school made next next Tuesday a holiday. HAHA. Mrs Eng, you're going to miss another 2 periods of accounts with us!

Blah blah blah blah

The leaking ceiling is getting worse each day. Today a small part of it droped on Wen Yi's chair. Lols.. And it rained darn heavily.

I like CCA now. We get to play new songs :) And it's all for that crazy event coming up...

The school is going to do this 90 hours of music, record-breaking thing... It's just. Madness. Yes that's the perfect word to describe it. The school is turning 90 this year, but wassup with the 90 hours of non-stop music? So far this is what I have to do/perform. Handbells -- 45min. Every 1/2 class -- 1/2 hr. Crazy la! Can we get help from outside school? I know the perfect person... This. Is. Crazy!

So during handbells all the prefects were not around and the Beauty and the Beast sounded super bo gay. Missing notes here and there.. The treblers aka high bellers akways progress faster than the rest. Melody line, and usually the easiest. But it looks difficult.. We have to hold 2 bells in a hand. Total: 2 hands 4 bells. Haha... Compare it with the bass bells, I'm thankful that I'm not handling them. So big and heavy! Once, the bass bell droped and everyone screamed. Small one, still got hope. But the big one....! It was alright in the end.

Lynette, Ethel, Wan Yi and Wen Xin. They were telling ghost stories. Haha. I just sat and listened. When asked, I said I had none to share, really forgot everything. What's so scary about ghost stories? When you know Jesus is in your heart... all fear is gone. Almost immediately. Haha so the rest were screaming like mad and I was calm :)

Rained like anything.

Reached PLMC, late. The bus took very long and was crowded! Haiya. So they were like waiting for me, paiseh! I still feel bad. Cos of me... have to miss the first piece. (Ms Tan always emphasises, song is for singers, music piece is piece)

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I typed them out okay! Never copy and paste.

Our band is rather good. Dynamics were present and distinct (so unlike keyboard). The juniors - impressive. I spotted a few mistakes though. Overall was good. Congrats on your success, band members! Must get a Gold for next year's SYF!

During the intermission... people kept crowding around the back area. I feel so weird for the instructors la. 'People' refers to sec 3 campers at the Camp Rock. Haha.

After that it was supper until quite late.

=))

Tomorrow is the day!

Emmanuel VI, PL Band Concert. our band friends have been working extremely hard for this big event. Must support them! Haha especially Wen Yi, she sits behind me and the ceiling directly above her is like, leaking? This morning we came to school only to find her chair wet, with rainwater from the previous day. Yeah the school is that run-down. Oh and there's a mini river outside the classroom. Have I mentioned this before? Damn freaky pls. It's gonna get into the class one day..

Band girls are given a certain number of tickets to sell. I got Wen Yi's last one. Haha. So she could clear all her tix.

Somehow. I seem to keep owing money. What's with the sudden money problem? Bio 5 years series $6, chem 5 yrs series $4.30, handbell fund $8, big walk registration $4, concert tickets for NUS $16.30, class chalet $5.90, WHAT IS THIS LA. I'm not that rich. All the teachers are making us get the 5 years series thingy. Up next is geography. So many liabilities. I'm still schooling okay! And I only have like 80 cents for tmr. No dinner, no recess, just a pathetic bowl of fishball noodles for lunch. BUT. Of course, someone owes me $9. Hmm that will go to Wen Qin and Jasmine. Then I'll be left with 50c. Oh well... that's really all I'll have. It goes into the offering bag on Saturday I guess. No dinner! Will die one lor.

I like the harp. Haha.. so nice to play. If you have music background, piano for example, then it'll be easy to pick up any other instrument. Yay so now I know how to play an additional instrument. Lol. Just not sure of the fingerings and the right way of plucking the strings.

The staff room is reallllllllllllly messy. It's like some kind of junkyard. And yet the teachers complain that our classrooms are dirty and messy. Look at the staff room la. 10x worse, lol. Can't blame them also, they have to teach so many classes and are only given a small workstation. Trust me, it looks a lot messier on the inside than at the windows outside.

Miss Tey didn't come for maths lesson again. Valerie and I talked to some of the 3c1 girls. I think they're really nice people :) Outgoing bunch of girls... They were surprised that I don't have a TV at home. Haha. I mean, there's one but my father literally cut off the wire so that my siblings can't watch. And now it's the whole family being affected by it. What difference does it make, staring at a blank and unwachable TV ? That's equals to having no TV at all. TV-less since 1 Jan this year.

SUPPORT PAP!! =D

=)

here i am
humbled by Your majesty
covered by Your grace so free
here i am
knowing i'm a sinful man
covered by the blood of the lamb

now i've found
the greatest love of all
is mine
since You laid down Your life
the greatest sacrifice

majesty
majesty
Your grace has found me just as i am
empty handed but alive in Your hands

singing majesty
majesty
forever i am changed by Your love
in the presence of Your majesty
majesty

here i am
humbled by the love that You give
forgiven so that i can forgive
here i stand knowing that i'm Your desire
sanctified by glory and fire

According to Sarah Teo, they're gonna sell the band tickets at the door. If she's wrong, or if they run out of tix.... well. Pray hard that's not the case.

So I actually agreed to go for TNP Big Walk?! What was I thinking? 10km! Walk until the legs break lor. All thanks to Jasmine and Joey. My $4 is now with the organisers as some registration fee. Oh mans... 10km!!! We'll just run out of things to talk, only 3 people. Unless more come and walk, which is most unlikely. Who'd want to walk 10km for fun la.. Haha.

i stand before You Lord
and give You all my praise
Your love is all i need
Jesus You're all i need

my life belongs to You
You gave Your life for me
Your Grace is all i need
Jesus You're all i need

hold me in Your arms
never let me go
i wanna spend an eternity with You

now that You're near
everything is different
everything's so different, Lord
i know i'm not the same
my life You've changed
i wanna be with You
i wanna be with You

I just love singing, singing to Him. When we worship, make sure it's not karaoke, no feeling. God is the audience here and not man. And there's no point singing worship songs if you don't mean what you sing. Haha.. The piano helps quite alot. Much more familiar with chords now after i realised that those slashes are actually telling you what inversion the chord is. Slow la, I know. D/F# means D major1st inversion! Lol. =)

i love to be in Your presence with Your people singing praises
LSBC Youth Worship Team! :)) We will continue to shine for God and make non-believers so in to worship when they come for youth service. we'll see many salvations one day.


Q: what's the last text message on your cellphone say?
A: from Tim, sth... deleted. oops

Q: whose bed did you sleep in last night?
A: my own.

Q: what color shirt are you wearing?
A: sch u - blue and white

Q: most recent movie that you watched?
A: i havent watched for ages

Q: name one thing that you do everyday?
A: i use my brains =)

Q: what's the color of your bedroom walls?
A: orangey yellow

Q: how much cash do you have on you rightnow ?
A: 70 cents and i'm not kidding

Q: What is your favorite part of the chicken?
A: the skin!

Q: What's your favorite sport to watch?
A: i have no tv at home.

Q: I can't wait till...?
A: band concert!

Q: When was the last time you saw your mom?
A: 6.30am this morning before leaving for sch

Q: Who got you to join Friendster?
A: boon yeow.

Q: What did you have for dinner last night?
A: rice

Q: Look to your left. What's there?
A: The wall.

Q: Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
A: does being in the fitting room count? borrowd to try from the shop wad. haha..

Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
A: i'm in sch during the day

Q: Do you have an air freshener in your car?
A: i dont drive. wahah..

Q: Do you have plants in your room?
A: why fight for oxygen with them at night?

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
A: my eyes. i wanna sleep!

Q: What city was your last taxicab ride in?
A: not city, but to kovan mrt. haha going home mah.

Q: Recent time you were really upset?
A: last saturday

Q: Would you have a problem if your friend went after your ex boyfriend/girlfriend?
A: (not going to answer)

_______Last________
1. Person you saw:
my maid

2. Talk on the phone with:
forgot who.

3. Hugged:
Kara. that's like last last week? Hahas.

_______Today________
1. What are you doing now:
typing

2. What are you doing tonight:
finish up maths hw

3. What did you eat for lunch:
Bee hoon soup

________Tomorrow___________
1. Is:
Wednesday.

2. Got any plans:
nah..

3. Goal:
spend time with God at least 5 times a week

4. Dislikes about tomorrow:
chinese lesson.

5. Do you have work:
nopes

________Currently_________
1. in love with someone:
................

2. listening to:
the rain.

3. wearing jeans:
no

4. eating:
no

5. tasting:
salivary amylase digesting starch into maltose

6. whats on your mind?
i hate going for piano lessons.

7. smoking?
NO WAY.

8. drinking?
drinking as in alcohol or what. haha in that case, NO.

9. who is your bf/gf?
my rabbit. lol ignore that please

10. do you miss anyone?
yes

11. do you think of the "blue stuff" now?
elaborate?

life is beautiful... is it?

This song... well the lyrics says it all..

before the world began
you were on His mind
and every tear you cry
is precious in His eyes
because of His great love
He gave His only Son
everything was done
so you would come

nothing you can do
could make Him love you more
and nothing that you've done
could make Him close the door
because of His great love
He gave His only son
everything was done
so you would come

come to the Father
though your gift is small
broken hearts, broken lives
He would take them all
the power of the word
the power of His blood
everything was done
so you would come

During yesterday's cell time, we were discussing about worship and all.. How your attidude should be, what kind of heart you present to God when you come into His presence to worship. ('Many many more') Kevin was sharing... about not doing QT (quiet time with God). "Like a pathetic once a week.." at this point, all eyes were on me. Whatever. Yeah then he said, whenever he doesn't feel like doing QT, pastor Benny's words will come echoing in his mind. Now it's in mine. What if, one day, God closes His door, and just dump you? If He shuts you out, how are you supposed to live?

Everytime we are stuck in a difficult situation... the first thing we as Christians do, is to cry out to God and ask for help. [Imagine those who do not know God, they can only turn to family and friends, who might not always be there for them] And He, without fail, will always help us. It says somewhere in the bible... I will never leave you nor forsake you. / Ask and you will receive, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you. There's so many of these in the bible, so many, we tend to take them for granted. If we reflect on our life... how many times have we turned to God when in need? Were those the only times we talk to Him? How many times did He turn us down? It's ZERO for me.

Then think again... what about when He calls us, gently, softly, for that 1 or 1/2 hr to be spent with Him, how many times have we rejected Him? If we can spend hours on a storybook or on the computer or simply doing nothing, then what about QT? "No time, this week very busy." Ha, ha. If we put QT as priority and trust the Lord to help us with whatever uncompleted work we have, I'm quite sure things will turn out well. Are we the Sunday Christians who act like one when they are in church, and then go back to their usual self from Monday to Saturday? Hypocrites, you say. (Before we open our mouths to judge, first think about ourselves and our actions.) Which links back to the question posted above. What IF, one day, God closes His door and dumps us... what's gonna happen to us? I dare not think about it.

=) That's quite a lot for cell discussion.

About last night...
Everything's fine now, for those wondering what's happening to me. Fine, really.
Thank God for dp-pic-changer, it has damn been hard on him. Quite obvious who this person is, haha. Thanks for your prayers. Horse is talking to me again. I don't understand why he's apologising, I should be the one doing that. Me who created the mess did not tidy it up. He did it for me and I still feel bad about it. Remember that I needed someone to talk to? I didn't even talk much. I just looked at his messages. The reassurance was there. I felt and am still feeling blessed to have (God who sent) this dp-pic-changer to... help me. Thanks a trillion, :))

Life is beautiful after all.

Holding back my tears.
What's the use of weeping?
I am absolutely terrified of facing the them again.
I need someone to talk to...
Someone..
Who would advice me on what to do next.
Or I'll just explode, literally.
How am I supposed to smile and be cheerful again?

to the one who changed display picture because i asked you to:
it's not just the few of you.
i'm in deep shit as well.
i took the risk...
and now this.
i still have a lot more to say, but not here...
and whatever it is
it pains me to lose contact with anyone.

peng chao da

Just 2 days ago... I was feeling high and all...

today. it's a totally different thing. I already bought my ticket, and now because of this he's not going, she's not going (they have not bought the tickets) and I'm left alone. Loner. Joining Joey would be the lastest of the last thing I'd do. If you think harder... you might be able to find out why. Who's that freaking teacher? Miss Ang? .. This is affecting my mood. School kinda sucked. And now I'm worrying for the senior instructors because of serious things happening. It might cause the senior instructors to lose their jobs. Oh man. Feel so... for lack of a better word... shitty. If not for some of us.. this would not........

Somehow, whenever I am not rostered for worship duty, this would appear on my hp screen.
"hey joyce, can you take over me for backup tmrw?"
Uhh, don't you think it's a bit too late to inform me one night before? I can't be singing every week. I have school. The problem is, there are only 2 teams for the backup vocalists. 3 in each team. Every week without fail one person will say he/she cant make it for practice. He/she calls someone from the other team. The latter ends up being on duty for a few consecutive weeks. That's what happened to me. Damn tiring la... I just sang last week. Just now Stef sent me a msg. Saying the usual thing. I am tired.

Jasmine dear, don't be too sad. 'Cus I am too. We can always study POA together. I understand how you're feeling. Results aren't everything.

uber stresed

Praise God for my excellent maths quiz results.

Other than that, today totally sucks. I'm feeling damn stressed now, the midnight oil is going to finish burning. There's so much work to do, I feel drained out, yet I do not have a choice, this burden is going to be stuck here for dunno how long...

(skip this part if you're not interested in the details)
I left my bag in the classroom and went to get food. 3c2 English class girls were going to have their summary test, cont'd from the comprehension. Unaware of what time they were starting it, I did not hurry. Who knows that when I reached the classroom, Ms Ang was standing there, about to start the test. She was in a foul mood. So obviously she wasn't pleased to know that I wanted to get my bag and go for O level music lesson. Screamed at me. That already spoilt my day, I hate being shouted at. Who doesn't?

The pile of music assignments are pushing me down too. SO much, you'll just die on the spot. Imagine the look of terror on our faces when Ms Tan told us what we had to know and would be tested on.

There's so much work! I'm going to just die in front of the comp. shou3 mang2 jiao3 luan4, was rushing like hell so I couldn't dig for my SS notes and text. So now I'm without the two most important things needed for this bug piece of work worth 12 marks. And it has to be TYPED OUT, meaning I can't do it in school tmr morning. Stressed..

Not only that, there's a Chinese composition test and I haven't done a single shit about it.

Maths is like, halfway 'cus i thought SS was more important now. Ms Ang will just blarh at me. I'm damn scared of her now can. And I doubt I'll be able to finish the whole thing... in one hour.

And what about the other subjects? Those are killing me too. Friday's timetable sucks like anything, only one double period and that's Chinese. Poof.

Anyway. In conclusion. I'M VERY VERY STRESSED. Blogging doesn't help. Neither does saying that I' stressed. But that's the truth.. Any help with SS is greatly appreciated. Thanks Joey for scanning in all those stuff for me :)

It'll be a miracle if I survive till Saturday.

to God be the glory!

My teeth hurts! Tightened braces, it's purple now. Not bad la. I was 15 minutes late, thanks to crapping in the classroom with Tania, Persie and Madeline. The place was very empty, not the usual crowd of people waiting for their turns. I think all those sitting there were under my dentist. The number at room 16 kept changing. Haha.. Pain!

Not just my teeth, also my thighs and tummy! I'm not sure whether it's or cramps or muscle ache. This morning, pain like anything lor. It's a wonder that I still can run 2.4 today. Even had difficulty walking, let alone running.

Praise the Lord for my timing! I was aiming for an A, 14.21 and I got 13.58! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I cried out to the Lord, and he heard me. His love endures forever! Haha.. Yesterday the first half of the class ran, and all of them were like so fast, I started to get scared. Today's half was mostly non-sporty peeps, including me. But still got 1st for today's half. Hahahahahahah. Persie came after me. Persie and Adeline overtook me a few times, but God helped and they ended up behind me. See, God is good, he helped me run even when I complain of pain here and there!

Oh and I can't laugh or sneeze or cry. Dumb cramps. Think I'm a bit slow. Depression and tiredness the past few days, cramps..... of course. PMS. Monsoon season again, soon. Grrrrrrrr, how I detest this.

PL Band Concert! This Friday. Haha sounds exciting. I was supposed to go with Horsey, but then I think I'd be some extra person 'cus she'll be talking to *cough cough*. So now I'm going with Timothy, Priscilla and Liying! Haha. Friday, meaning there's CCA. Dumb bells Handbells. So rushing! 1 hr.. don't think there's enough time. Unless the seniors let us off earlier, which will never happen, so forget it. I'll just waste money on the taxi fare.

Tania better not put those yucky pictures up.

How great is our God
Sing with me
How great is our God
All will see how great
How great is our God

:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAI THENG :D

Well today's a rather interesting day.

Did some copper(II)sulphate thing for chemistry. All that black stuff.. copper oxide.

The school showed us the PUB bill. Fainted. So high! Now they're gonna make us survive without fans/air cons one of these Thursdays. That would be hell for us. Plus no mini-fan. Like woah, I'm SO excited, I cant wait for that day, ... -.-

NAPFA 5 items tes. I suck okay? No chance of getting my gold award. No chance of proving that skinny people are as fit as the normal ones. Just ONE point. Argh. Better get A for 2.4km run.

Was supposed to stalk Joey with Yuhui, at Compass Point. In the end, it was Desmond, Joey, Yuhui, Madeline and Persie. Haha. I could sense some uneasiness within the group. Especially ahem ahem. Talked a lot of crap. Like really crap. Very random stuff. And I AM NOT ANTI-SOCIAL OKAY. Joey knows the reason why I walked in front and faster la. *cough cough* I AM NOT ANTI.

My father wants to get me a maths tutor. Uh-oh. I'm so gonna hate it. Unless......

some rubbish. dont read la.

1.Where have you been an hour ago?
- Joey's house, doing SS.

2. State your name?- joyce.

Do you like your name?
- what kind of question is this

4. Can you remember what you did on the first dayof your school?
- laughed at the sec 1s.. Lol i know it's mean :D

5. What do you want to be ten years from now?
- church staff or zookeeper

6. What did u feel upon receiving emails?
- no feeling

7. At what age you first learned to use a pc?
- 6

8. Have you ever eaten any exotic food?
- define exotic? worms?

9. What was the last illness that you had?
- i have STM. can't rmb

10. Do you like listening to rap music?
- no.

11. Have you ever thought of driving the train touni ?
- what's that? train?

12. What did you do last 1st November 2005?
- "do i look like a hard disk with 60GB internalmemory to you?"

13. Which do you prefer? sunny dayz or rainydays??
- both. well it all depends on my mood :D

14. When was the last time you browsed the bible?
-heh.

16. What is the brand of your first wristwatch?- some cheapo watch from the pasar malam... brandless

17. Look at your back. what did you see?
- ironing board with an iron.

18. Say something about the person whom u like..
- cute

19. Do you sing while you are taking a bath?
- yeah, sometimes. also depends on my mood.

20. What did you have for breakfast today?
- carrefour cheap chicken flavoured instant noodle. a pack of 5 costs 90cents. -.-

21. Your last dream that you remembered?-my tuition teacher throwing hw at me. that was freaky

22. What do you usually say when you meet aperson?
- hello!

23. Do you agree on the saying "to forgive is toforget"?
- hmm.. no. it's difficult to forget what you did. forgive... maybe.

24. Last thing you held before using the computer?
- my chord sheets

25. Where is the place you always dreamed of?
- MOE JALAN BAHTERA ADVENTURE CENTRE!!!!!

26. When was the last time your tears fell?
- last day of Camp Rock.

27. Are you goin to leave your parents in time?
- why should i? no shelter, food, love, atm...

28. At what age you are ready to get married?
- eh? too early to talk la. haven't even take Os

29. Long hair or spikey?
- picture me with spikey hair. go on. what do you think?

30. First person to run to if you are depressed?
- Kara, my mentor. then God.

31. Whats the last movie you watched?
- erm. this year haven't watch. so it's last year... Narnia?

32. Who was the last person you sms?
- lai theng. i wanted the piano scores

33. What was your worst flood experience
- menstration. when there's heavy flow. i can hear "yucks" somewhere..

34. Were you attracted to a person ten years olderthan you?

- -hello!?-----

35. Are you happy at this point of your life?
- yeah. half happy, to be excact.

36. What do you want to eat tomorrow?
- ice cream from that uncle who's outside the school everday.

37. Are you in love now?
- that's for me to know and for you to find out.

38. With whom?
-no comments.

ESPRIT

I'm falling in love with our YPM Worship Team all over again. It consists of all the nice people :)

Christel, Jon and Boon Yeow were shocked when I said I stopped learning violin. Then Jon said he stopped piano after a short while. So they think I should continue. My violin case is like shit, my shoulder rest and music stand are like urine. They all make up our waste products. OOP (out of point) But last year, while preparing for the exam, I found that I regretted taking up violin. The results confirmed that my hard work paid off. And this year... I'm thinking having lessons again. But there are other commitments. Sigh...

Today's worship was great. A thousand times better than the practice one, zhao xia a few times. Grace kept laughing at me and telling that to Joel when he missed that bit of prac.

I didn't know Li-En was from PL. Until today. Slow.

Faith and Boon Yeow are getting married! Soon..

remembering our Lord

you know...

I've said this before..

a million times...

but I'll say it again.

I love you.

why?

cos' you're My child.

simple as that.

I had loved you, even before you were a baby.

look at the stars.

go on, look.

see how they sparkle?

see how they shine?

do you know why I put them there?

just for you.

just to show you, how beautiful you are to Me.

tomorrow morning,

the sun will rise again.

as usual, as it does every morning.

no one ever doubts that it will rise.

but do you know?

that My love for you,

is more certain than that?

therefore, no one should ever doubt,

that I love them eternally.

ahh... I saw that.

I saw what you did.

just when you thought no one was looking,I noticed.

but no, don't go against yourself now.

listen to what I have to say.

do you know what happened 2 milleniums before?

it was when I sent My own, My very own Son...

sent Him down with the sole purpose of dying.

the sole purpose, of shedding His blood.

for as He died, you My child, took His place on

the throne.

He was beaten, beyond recognition.

He was striped, til His flesh was exposed.

He was cursed, cursed to the depths of mankind.

He was shown disrespect, where even criminals hated Him.

but why? why would a perfect Being like Himself do that?

just for you.

as He hung there,

as He bled, as He suffered...

He could only think of one thing.

all He saw was one thing.

He could only see your face.

thinking of you, it made Him go on.

He wanted to save you.

He knew, that if He didn't go through with it,

you'd be the one on the cross..

and He loves you so so much...

so much that He'd rather take it on Himself.

He is My son.

My own beloved.

Jesus Christ.

and so when He died,

something great happened.

My son left His throne,

vacated it.

now a new occupant sits on this throne.

you.

while 3 days later,

your Saviour, my Son,

returned home.

this time,

He is honored beyond anyone,

He is given a new throne, by My right-hand.

and you?

you are given dominion over all things I created.

as long as it is something I had created,

its yours to control.

that's the position my Son's death has given you.

and now,

know that you can never be in sin.

cos' whenever I look at you, I can only see all the good things.

I love you my child.

-God

credits to Timothy.

Once again, we are reminded of how our Lord had suffered and died. For us. Imagine, someone as honourable as Jesus, sacrificing His life so that we can be forgiven? God could have used any other person, you or me. No. For God so loved the world, that he gave His one and only begotten son, that whoever believes in Him, shall not perish, but have eternal life. -John 3:16 Something as simple as believing in Him, giving Him your all... could get you into heaven.

Think about it. Who else on earth would willingly (note: not reluctantly) die so that you could live?

We don't reflect on Jesus' death only on Good Friday. In fact we do it everyday. His love is worth so much, only those who believe in Him will not perish, but have eternal life.

(Read Aunty Kate's testimonies and you'll find them full of meaning.)

The choice is yours. Accept God's love, or reject it.

3 words...




i miss you



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9 subjects in a day

Yes, 9. Including music. Friday's timetable sucks la. All single periods, want us to die is it. Not tired one meh. It's the longest school day ever.

Can you believe that 3c2 got the most disciplined class again? Well I can't. 3c1 was also the most disciplined class. All hail sec 3 C classes! Though it seems like we only get this 'award' after a huge scolding from Miss Ang. That does not mean she should scold us more often okay. She's scary when she flares up.

We had only 1/2 a lesson for today's o level music. Miss Tan had to go on a course, so it was just Miss Chiang. Lesson was in the handbell room, it was so hard to sit and write music notes on the floor. The harp room key was nowhere to be found. I trusted the key to Grace and Peiqi. If they leave any traces of food... I am SO going to get it. The room was in a mess before I left. Please let it be neat.

It's nice being with the o level music girls. Bussed back with Genesis, Fiona, Xi Ying and Jia Yan. We were singing all the camp songs and cheering. (C-A-M-P-F-I-R-E-S-O-N-G SONG - CAMPFIRE!) Lol. I'm still in camp mood. There's no way I can study without thoughts of pushing their way into my mind.

FINALLY bought new undergarments. Like FINALLY. wait. tell you for what?

FINALLY, Timothy is back from camp. Does he know about the ddaft?
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This Saturday, my church's easter programme for youths...

ESPRIT celebrate life, live again
Living Sanctuary Brethren Church
L2 Auditorium
15 April, Saturday
4-6.30pm


Please come! It's gonna be great. ALL are welcome.

i have powderful England

I have been SO busy, with the fanclub stuff. You might say, make yourself so busy, for what? My reply is this: Cannot meh?

The administrators, (the horses) told me that the fanclub thingy will not have ranks, to avoid unwanted disagreements. Everyone's equal =) Isn't that nice?

Don;Des;Ash;Frad;Tim
ddaft.blogspot.com

I think the admin owes Desmond half their lives. He can't get any nicer.
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OK so it's Religious Emphasis Week. Chapel for the last period yesterday, and last 2 today. Partnered Priscilla, at least she sings during praise and worship. Others are like, doing their own things. Chatting among themselves, looking bored... I wish they'd stop that. It's God we're worshipping. Especially these 2 classes. Please shut up and spare a thought for others.

Miss Sem didn't come for bio lesson today. She forgot? Weird. Miss Tey didn't come for lesson yesterday. Seems like the teachers have something up their sleeves...

I GOT THE BAND TICKETS and they are so fragile please. The right part is so going to tear off. Should I be excited about it? I dunno. Horse aka neigh aka guitar aka Joey is over the moon sun about the concert. I've been to enough of these kind of concerts. Think people will start getting bored and talk or leave the place.

Horse has been coming over these few days to study. Studying is important, dun play play! This type of thing, cannot take it 'likely'! Haha.. Except for Monday, we were doing something else and gave that person a shock. I won't do it again, don't worry.

Well I guess that's all for now. Posts are getting shorter again. Back to normal. Ulcer is gone! :))

...that summons thee to heaven or to hell

I'm supposed to study POA with Joey the guitar cum horse.
What are we doing now?

I'm keeping mum.

She this morning 6.25am blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah until now.

Pity me.

leave all the rest to me

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
I LITERALLY FAINTED. JUST NOW HAVING TUITION, I WAS CAMPSICK AND COULDN'T CONCENTRATE. like feeling down and all... THEN I CAME HERE AND MY MOOD CHANGED COMPLETELY. NOW I ALSO DUNNO HOW EXCATLY I'M FEELING :D


[edited to add:]
Oh well, school's starting. Back to sitting in the classroom and dozing off during lessons. Like I am SO looking forward to school. *rolls eyes* Already, there's Mrs Eng waiting with that stack of POA test papers. I can see her smiling to herself. I rather have camp everyday than to go to school!

Ash will give me his email only after a few weeks or months, I cant remember. Good luck to all those who crush him. Oh and so far those instructors I asked, non of them has Don's email :(( Tim said 95% of the instructors didn't know him, what '1st-timer'... haiz.

FINE, JOEY, DESMOND IS CUTE.

Ascribe to the LORD the glory due his name;
worship the LORD in the splendor of His holiness.
-Psalms29:2

Wahahaha...
So Ash actually took the bus from the wrong direction and it was a loop.
He said he ended up sitting there for more than an hour.
LOL.

[edited to add:]
oh man
I'm suffering from post-camp depression.
i sooooooooooo miss the camp!!
cried again, i keep thinking about the camp.
but there's nothing i can do about it.
sigh.
i miss the camp and instructors!
especially Don :(
and the fact that i will never see them again.
Fraddy is online, his dog's so cute.

hear it not, (-i--r-), for it is a knell

INSTRUCTORS (AND TEACHERS)! THANK YOU FOR MAKING THIS CAMP SO ENJOYABLE FOR ALL OF US!

(ha, ha, ha, like they would even come here)

2006 SEC 3s ROCK! CAMP ROCK INSTRUCTORS PEBBLES! MISS CHONG STONE!

As you can see, I am feeling high!

Wednesday, 4 April
Came to school early in the morning, with all that luggage, gathered in our classes all over the hall. We wanted to know our groupings for the camp darn badly. Excitement was in the air. The groupings were finally put up and almost everyone rushed to the board. (sounds as if i'm narrating some story) So found out I was in group 4, with Hilary. My mortal! As well as my partner for the camp. This group consists of all the quiet and stone people. One doesn't talk at all, one cries easily.

The instructors came in to the hall, we were like "Wah so young..." I thought they were a bunch of cute weirdos. There was this introduction on stage, and they did a lot of funny things. From this intro, we could actually sense that the camp was going to be a crazy one. My group's instructor was Donovan. HANDSOME GEEK, says Joey. I think he's more on the cute than handsome side lor. Haha.. Had some time with the instructors, to make our flag and come up with some cheers. My group really stoned. No one was even making an attempt to suggest good cheers, interact like other groups... Don's attempt to make us talk and discuss ended up with playing whacko. We used his yucky shirt to hit :D

The small eyes instructor, Timothy led Major Group A in cheers. He's a funny guy.

Bused to MOE Jalan Bahtera. The sight of the high elements made us freak out. Scary. Had our lunch there, freaked out again when we looked up and saw the lizards on the ceiling. Thought it would drop into our plates, haha. The queue for food is always damn long, and you have to eat up anything they give you. No such thing as "I don't want vegetables". Of course la. What d'you expect? You think this is some hotel? Think again.

We were introduced to our other instructor, Lihui. She's very nice!

Lihui led us in the low elements. They were all team-building games, which makes the group more bonded as one. [Miss Chong was the teacher attatched to our group and she followed us around, btw] The toughest ones were the wall climbing and squeezing onto that small square platform. We had to smell each other's body odour, grab on to the sweaty shirts, step on foots, do lots of weird stuff to squeeze the whole group onto that thing. Succeeded :D From this, I learnt that every group member is important, every person counts. Every little bit of space on that thing is precious.

The wall climbing. Step, carry, push, pull.... Teamwork! The leaders, Shi Yun and Glynnis were really great. They take a lot of initiative to do things. And they led the group well. Good job, guys :)

I was a nice person. The rain was pouring and people were stuck at the toilet without umbrellas. Helpful and kind people like me, Joey, En Ling and Joanne went to rescue them. It's nice to see people happy that they can get sheltered to their huts. At least they appreciate it, not like some others Joey mentioned. People happy, you happy, everybody happy, PEACE. LOL!

Dinner brought screams from all over the canteen. Flies and lizards, mosquitos and a cat. Not forgetting a frog during debrief. Whatever, we still managed to eat in peace. Somebody once said that camps fatten you up by giving you a lot of food, haha..

RAIN. Our enemy. Because of RAIN, the night activity was replaced by mascots from the various groups. Most of them were not very nice ones, which kind of made the teachers mad. About the high belt and long skirt, the balloons which were put somewhere... Miss 'Gay'sha! That instructor was so funny. He and Jeremy. Gosh one look at it and you feel like puking and laughing and embarrased at the same time. I didn't know excatly how I felt. Instructors taught us the campfire songs. I like the titanic one. We shall sing it in class.

Group debriefs with instructors. Mine was under Hut 3. Hillary, as usual, screamed when she saw the frog a the grassy area. She never walked on the grass after that. LOL. Didn't write down the reflections thingy, I'm blogging it.

Was a good night, I slept through. It was a little hot at first. Warm. Other huts did not have that spotlight. Ours was on all night, so it attracted little friends. Yes, the flies, hahahas. En Ling couldn't sleep and was counting flies. Now the whole cohort knows she was counting flies. Temperature decreased and it became cold, the PL jacket is so comfortable. Yuhui promised to wake the whole hut up with her loud voice and alarm clock. Haha..

Thursday, 5 April
Woke up looking into Yuhui's face. Didn't even need her alarm clock la. We were supposed to wake up at 6.30am but got up half an hour earlier.

Devotion and singspiration. I love singspiration! :) Followed by yummy breakfast.

And then. Our fears. High elements!!! I wanted to try the walking on the log one, the stable log which was the easiest of all the elements there. No chance to try, too many people wanted that. Next one was the broken bridge, where we had to walk across the shaky planks. Lihui belayed us. Kar Mun fell halfway, and it was damn scary! Lihui almost flew up okay, if not for Hillary as anchorman. (in this case, woman) Then I was going up already and then they said CHANGE STATION. Wah lao I wanted to try that one lor!

So I ended up doing the rock wall aka rock climbing. That was scary. I couldn't climb, my shoe spoilt. Couldn't even get past the red line, only like a few fingers. Shabana did our group proud by touching the top! She's amazing. Glynnis fell as one of the rocks on the wall dropped off.

The challenge pole, Shabana did it again by grabbing the bar! This girl arh, I dunno how come she's so brave and can do so many things. Simply amazed by her character. Yeah and Miss Chong did a demo for us! She was shaking up there, then calmed down by taking deep breaths. I could see her mouth opening and closing :D

Before that, Clara Ying was stuck up there for like 1h 45min. She was paralysed, just sat there and didn't move. The darker-skinned instructor Timothy was there persuading her to get down. He was there with her for a long time too. Wow. When Clara finally jumped, she was crying away and people downstairs cheered to encourage her. So. If you think you're too scared to do something, don't do it because you don't want to lose face or just want to put on a brave front. Well that's wrong. Look at Clara.

Lunch was fantastic! Don's always serving rice :D He will put the rice in En Ling's small compartment in her plate and then the other instructors serving will look at it and show the weird face. Bully En Ling arh! Haha.. Hillary loves the 'fruits guy". Very cute meh? Lol.

Hmm. After lunch it was the zip line aka flying fox. We sat burning in the sun for a long time before getting the chance to fly down. I am officially redder now. Went up the abseiling (?)tower, the stairs was not scary at all, some people take a year to get up! Everything looked frightening from up there. Hillary took quite awhile to take off. Wasn't as scary as I thought. Just moved my legs away and zoom. Fun! Yuhui said it was a great way to relieve stress.

Abseiling. Scary cats like me stayed on the ground. My shoe spoilt hor. How to go down the wall? The left lane took a long time to come down, the instructor there gave them a super long briefing. the right side was much faster. Cheered for friends coming down from that wall.

Then our enemy came again. Stupid rain, took away our chance to go for kayaking!! I wanted to try that. Cumulonimbus clouds and convectional rain always takes away all our fun. So we practiced for the campfire item instead. Don, Lihui and Miss Chong were very engouraging. They also made us shout and scream like nobody's business. Lihui taught major group A the roti prata cheer. Woot, that was nice :)

Dinner, dinner, yum. Hungry. The food tasted better than usual. So much nicer! We wanted to take a group photo at the table but some were missing and our instructors were not there. Oh well.

Campire's burning in the dark dark night. Ooooh yeah! Yippee Yippee yeah!

We had a roaring good time singing songs, cheering, watching performances by every group. Mine screwed up. I totally forgot all the lyrics and actions. Some more standing at the front row. How embarrasing. Acted normal, lip sync, haha. The sea of yellow people freaked me out.

Noticed something. Fraddy always goes "PL OEI" whenever he takes over the mic.

We didn't win, but that's okay. It was the fun we had while preparing and performing the thing out. I actually cried when the instructors did their item for it. Like so touhing! Reality hit me as I realised that it was already the 2nd night, the last night at Jalan Bahtera. Last night fooling aroung with the instructors. Yes it was that saddening.

Debrief with Don and Lihui. They talked about the past two days, how we've growed to be more bonded together as a group (did they say that?) About our objective of the camp on the first day, which was to have fun. We did. They made it sound like a farewell thing, like they were going to die. Just 2 days and I feel that the instructors were so attatched to our group, like glue. I felt like tearing againg and asked Hillary, "can I cry?" Don heard that. Like whoops. Then he said don't cry, be happy, ..... But it's really very sad lor. Those memories... The times we had together as a group...

With Yuhui, Nisa and En Ling around, it was very hard to sleep. They talk about absolutely anything under the half moon and many stars. Anything. It was practically impossible to sleep with them around. Two keeps talking about rubbish and funny things. One keeps laughing non-stop. I didn't even get to do my personal reflection and QT. That night was nice to sleep. We slept without the lights, one of the bulb fused and the whole thing just died. Lights should never be connected in series. Miss Chong, Constance and Lihui came up a few times to check on the lights. Don reported the faluty lights. The day ended with a sleepy and energyless (-.-) atmosphere.

Lets give ourselves an adidas clap.

Today, 7 April
Woke up looking at Yuhui again. Just felt like lying down there, enjoying the last few minutes of lying in the hut. Washed up with Hillary and En Ling then went to pack up our things. Was so messy, the hut. Plastic bags, spoilt shoes, ...

Singspiration and devotion felt sad. Those songs we sang arh, made me want to cry again. Sec 3s were bonded together and sang as one voice. The song One Voice is nice. Mrs Chong, lead in devotion also say all the sad and serious things.

When the instructors took over the mic, they were like looking at out sad and sian faces, haha. "PL oei."
"oei."
"hey oei louder leh, PL OEI!"
"OEI!!"

Instructions were given for area cleaning. My group cleaned up the dirtiest toilet in the campsite. We just stepped in, and looked at the dustbin, "EWWWWWWWWWW!" It was overflowing like anything. Pads, shoes, slippers, panties, fork and spoon, more pads,.... Really gross. Be thankful that you weren't there okay. You'll just puke on the spot. So many people were having menses. We had to clear the overflowing dustbin, like it was totally yucky? Someone left a bra in the shower and I had to clear that. YUCKS YUCKS YUCKS. There were pads sticking at the shower area. PADS WITH BLOOD. PAD IN THE TOILET BOWL> PLASTIC BAG IN THE TOILET BOWL. BRA LEFT THERE. AND THE POOR GROUP 4 PEOPLE HAVE TO CLEAN UP AFTER YOU??! If you are guilty of any of the above, please la, don't ever do that again. It's very hard work for the cleaners. Hair was all over the place. Why do girls drop so much hair? We cleared the darn heavy bags of rubbish and cleaned up the place till it was like some 7-star hotel pls. Try doing that. Lihui said she was proud of us.

Next, everyone was seen walking around with markers, getting instructors to sign on their shirts. I only got a few. Was looking around for Donovan, this guy actually left at night without saying goodbye to our group! So he thinks he's very nice la?! We're his group people lor, never even say a proper bye bye. The debrief the night before also never say he's not going to be with us in the morning. Some of us were pretty upset, hello, we're short of one signature. Some more he's taking our group.

So the group photo was damn incomplete, without Don and Miss Chong (she disappeared. Still can see her in school anyway.) At least we still had Lihui. But no Don..?

Gathered at the MPH to say a final bye to the instructors and vice versa. Jeremy promised all of us ice-cream :D I think he's faking it. If he really buys us ice-cream, must come back personally and bring the whole bunch of instructors along. Then sec 3s will go mad until need to be admitted to Woodbridge hospital. Really wish that we can see them again.

Mr Thomson gave out prizes for the best campers and best group. None of them were from Major Group A. *Oh we were sad*

Then the instructors said a lot of things, "PL we love you!", I cried again. Tell me how not to? At first I managed to stop and then I couldn't take it and cried, again. It was a hard time for us, especially me. Wonder if anyone else ended up like me? Really cannot help it, the tears just flow like that. The more I try not to think of it, the more I can't control the tears.

INSTRUCTORS, WE LOVE YOU!!!
DONOVAN AND LIHUI, GROUP 4 (or rather, I) LOVES YOU TRUCKLOADS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DON DON DON DON DON DON!!

Some of the instructors got up the bus with us, they were going to take the bus at Serangoon. We could not get any contact number or email from them. Otherwise, n-o-p-a-y. nopay. No pay. But of course, the younger instructors have lots of other methods. I have Timothy's blog address and email, and Fraddy's email. A silent clap please :D

Into the bus we went, outside the bus the instructors stood. Some had another camp to run. Poor things. As the bus left, they waved to all of us. I almost cried again, this time I managed to control. The camp may be over, but those memories... would be stuck in our hearts for a damn long time. Perhaps forever. I'll make sure all the other sec 3s remember it for the rest of their lives. Sigh.. This camp really means a lot to me.

I slept throughout the journey back to PL. Pushing away all thoughts of missing the camp was no easy task. What else could I do? I was going to end up in tears again.

The sea of yellow girls, teachers and the few instructors came out of the bus and scattered all around. Girls said one final bye to the instructors and went their own ways. Having no idea where to go, I followed Joey and Liying out. We were going to eat prata, and stalked the instructors. In the end, Asher, Andrew and a female instructor had prata, milo dinosaur and Indian Rojak with us.

Heard them talk about a lot of things, some disputes among the instructors. Of course, they were humans. How to live in total peace? These we understand. Other things like why can't the camp be longer, we can't understand. I think they are fantastic. They can hide all these and help us make the camp fun, like nothing not so positive is happening among them. They did not let their disputes afftect how they run the camp. Okay. Talked and talked. We were the last ones in PL to spend extra time with the instructors. (Those who like Ash, you guys jealous?) He has long eyelashes, ...

Then the female instructor, instructor Andrew and Liying cabbed back. They lived in the same area. The other one took 136 with Joey and I. Saw Joelle and Rebecca, I hope they were not thinking out of the box. It's just bus with instructor Ash. He took the bus going in the wrong direction again. -.- Joey saw him in the 11x bus. Whoops.

So here I am, sitting in front of the computer. Blogging. My eyes hurt.

in thunder, lightning or in rain?

Actually, it's in all three. Thunder was like so scary. Boom. It's cold !

Saturday's youth service. Eugene led worship and it was only his 2nd time. I think he did a pretty good job. His faith is so strong, you can actually feel the calmness in him when something worrying happens. Like before cell time, Charmaine's keyboard went off for no particular reason, Sean and Kah Wan could not do anything about it. Eugene simply believed that it would be fine, and it did :) He did not panic like the others on duty that day. Faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains. The key is to trust God in any difficult situation. He does not think very much about playing the wrong chords, said it doesn't matter 'cuz people are worshipping and they won't notice. Some other worship leaders are not like that la. They are very particular about correct chords.

Thanks to my mentor Kara and last Saturday's 'sermon' by Boon Yeow, I have started praying and doing QT more often :D How can anyone say they have no time when the first thing they do when they step into the house is to switch on the comp and go online? That's ridiculous. Ok that was from my cell people.

Heard they're doing something about my cell. 2 girls is a BIG number man.

I'm so tired. Business proposal is the worst kind of project, ever. Friday work until 5+, Sunday survey the people in Heartland Mall (until kena chased out) and Hougang Mall for a few hours, yesterday work from 7.40am to 1.50am. Yes I'm serious, AM. Sarah slept over at my house. We put in so much effort, hopefully an get at least top marks in the class. Horse put in the most effort. The menu, speech and folder... and editing of ppt slides. Thank you Horse :) Some others just looks as if they can't be bothered.

I screwed up the presentation okay. When I talked, I was trembling. Horse thought it was very obvious. Asked the others, they said they didn't notice. It was really scary. Not even like first time doing presentation. And then I was doing the projection and didn't click the mouse on time. Sheila found our skit highly amusing. Chocolate makes you happy and pimply.

Gave Tania the moose cusion. She looks happy with it :)

This is April, worship month.

Come to my church,
ESPRIT! Celebrate life, live again
Living Scantuary Brethren Church
Level 4 auditorium
15 March 2006
4pm-6.30pm

I shall NEVER, sit directly behind or in front of her again. So irritating please. Ask her to stop being so dirty-minded and noisy and more people will like her. Persie also. Ask her not to touch my ponytail she keep touching.

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY FAITH!

when shall we three meet again?

Woot I'm so proud of my group for Innovation Week. We worked OT.

Morning, stayed in class to discuss the survey and interview questions. It was not easy okay. Miss Ting accepted it and we went to Serangoon Gardens to conduct the survey. The first auntie we met was very friendly :D Took a long time there.

Then to Serangoon Central. There were so many other students doing surveys as well, not just PL. Peicai also. This time it was much easier. Pictures! haha. Reached Sarah's house at around 1.45pm. Worked until 5 plus, we did part of the skit, part of the presentation and part of the stuff for the folder. The skit is going to be nice, something very different from others. I seriously think 2 days is not enough for this business project. Going to work OT again on Monday I think.

Our aim:
Top the class for this project.

I'm so tired. Need my bottle of Power Booster. Too bad it's fake.