Saturday, July 08, 2006

wah i can finally come online after so long

basically there is just too much to say la
i'm trying to cut down as much as possible.

worship team vocalists...
regrouped again!! sighs. i've been in the same team as Grace (Quek)
for like more than a year?!
and now we're separated. =(
so i'm grouped with Joel and Jia Yan.
yeah all Js, how cool... not.
Grace!!!!! .

there's alot going through my mind..
i'm like, conflicted.
alright.

firstly, i'm being held back by alot of things la.
commitments, conscience, studies, class, parents...
sometimes i get tired just thinking of it.
i dunno la...
and this can't affect me too much
she doesn't look like that kind to me
and neither do i think she's totally innocent.
just this should be ok la..
what excatly i'm talking about,
i can't go into detail.
this is the internet man. it's public.
you'll never know who's reading your blog.
so it's back to the original,
let go and let God.

secondly, i think i'm like, alot further from God now.
i'm not reading the bible and praying as often as before.
discipline and commitment
c'mon joyce, He's waiting for you.

thirdly, well...
R's bass has lots of scratches!!
not one, but quite a few...
HOW am i going to answer to him la..?
he trusted me with his antique bass and now i'm returning it
with marks and scratches??
i feel like shit pls..

and fourth..
it's written all over priscilla and joey's blogs.
i don't have to repeat them. same thoughts.
they hit the nail.
but after thinking a bit,
i've come to this conclusion...
who are we to stop you.
go ahead and do what you want la.
everyone's busy, yeah.
but only the jam, that's all we're asking.
i know you feel odd.
but who's stopping you from banging on the instruments?
it's hard to let go you know.
everything from the first jam to last month,
they've left a deep mark in us.
if it's gonna be a goodbye...
if it's gonna be a huge gap between us...
i guess we'll just have to make do with it.
it's not the end of the world yet.

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