Productivity at Maximum

My throat is still being a pain in the ass. Nonono... a pain in the throat. -__-
I still have problems talking. Please continue to pray =/

Pray also for Mr Jusuf, he's the instructor for PL Primary's Angklung Ensemble, my old CCA. He used to coach the PL Pri and Sec Choir. He is in ICU now for a "mild heart attack", according to Hilary. Being his ex-student, I ought to be concerned.. Questions running through my head are
1. How is he now??? Updates on his condition?
2. His family?
3. His students? How did PL Pri do for SYF? Did he even conduct them this year?

Assuming today is still Sunday...

I asked Xi Ying out to study at macs. Which turned out to be a fruitful 6 hours because
1. There were unusually few people there
2. It was rather quiet
3. THEY DIDN'T TURN ON THE VOLUME FOR THE TV; NEITHER DID THEY TURN ON THE RADIO OR ADVERT HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA FIRST TIME LEH.
4. I finally did my long overdue chinese work
5. I started on econs assignments which are due on Wed and Fri
XY we make excellent study partners!! =P Not saying that Joey isn't la, but I'm just high from the satisfaction of today's impromptu study session.

It's time I reply tags again so, yeah..

Tag replies
Sara; I work, yea, but it's usually only the minimal and not "too hard" like you said! Lol.. Many people sick during this period cos' of the weather, it's terrible!
xiying; You also, pls drink lots of water!!! Both you and Sara have eczema problems acting up, must be the weather also! Anything just blame the rising temperature!! We should study together more often =D but... just find the time
Enmei; Ok, IF THIS YEAR DONT GO NEXT YEAR MUST GO!
Joshua; hey thanks!!!

Fever - updates

I couldn't sleep last night. I kept tossing and turning in bed... my entire face, arms, body, legs felt warmer than before. I felt cold, then warm, and cold again. My throat burned like hot coals.

What a horrible night.

I took my temperature in the morning and it read 38.8 degrees C on the thermometer. I felt so weak, I could collapse and faint just by walking up and down the stairs in the house. There was no way I could go to school. So I just slept. This time, more peacefully.

I THINK the fever's gone now.

My throat is so painful, I can't even talk.

MC 2nd day

I went to school today, though my classmates said I should have stayed at home instead. Lol. Fact is I felt a lot better this morning compared to yesterday, so I just went to school. Amelia kept asking me to just get pink slip and go home! But it's like, I live in kovan, I come all the way to Buona Vista just to stay for a few hours and get pink slip for early leave?! Doesn't make sense. Waste my time only. So might as well stay.
I didn't dare to wear my jacket during bio lecture today cos' this lecturer has a tendency to make people with jackets answer her questions. zzzz.

Friends thought I'm crazy when I said I went for CO today.

Fever has more or less subsided, 37.2 deg (PTL!).. But the damn sore throat still prevails. I think there's an ulcer there. It hurts real bad =(

I'm still receiving emails from the worship team even though Christel has already informed the entire team that I've stepped down. Well at least I still feel like I belong there. And I know what's going on in the ministry.

Tonight I gotta do 2 chinese compos, and study for econs test. Bleh.. what a nice route to recovery eh.

Tag replies
xiying: I guess the result of not getting enough sleep = falling sick!! So you see, sleep = good for health! YOU get well soon too okay!! =)
Sara: omg your tags are so long, like writing essay like that haha. the pimple thingy is normal la, look at me and you'll be thankful your case isn't so severe. I'm not even checking my email can.. only once in a blue or turquoise moon. and you wont want my body because 1) I'm underweight. 2) my menses very irregular. 3) I'm physically and emotionally quite weak. Yup. JUST BE YOURSELF MAN!
LT: YESSSS JC life is like damn tough especially in ACJC. Woah. CCA really tires you out sometimes. Poly better... maybe I should have gone to poly!
Daniel: Wah fine la now I feel so insulted... you only like to quarrel with me is it. I'm not your partner-in-crime HOR.
hweeyee: hey thanks!! but i seriously dunno when we can meet again! now i've learnt my lesson... when you think you're sick, just go home!
Shepherd: AMEN! I'm feeling better! I think..

IMM

MC for 2 days
Excuse PE for 1 week

BUT missed lessons today =( Health is a blessing, really. Treasure it. I've been sleeping for practically the whole day and I still feel so dazed now... so weightless when I walk. haha


to the following people

Hwee Yee: thanks for being my insulator.. I know I kept grabbing your arm, lol. Thanks also for waiting at the station for so long as I alighted at the wrong bus stop -.-
Daniel: thanks for constantly asking if I was ok, and also offering me your jacket. That meant a lot..
Derek: Sorry, you had to put up with the awkwardly silent intervals in the train all the way back to the NEL. I really felt ill.

and if any of them fall sick, it'll be my fault!! oh dear...

Happy Birthday

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY LAI THENG!!!
Pri school friend right up till sec 4! And counting... omg man I suck as a friend, it just hit me like a rock that your bd has passed >.< I know which date it is, but somehow it slipped off my mind! Being busy isn't an excuse grrrrr.

I wanna meet up with the good ol' clique but can't seem to do so... I can't even squeeze out a free day! Even if I can, it does not mean that the others can make it.



I miss talking to the one who went out late at night to eat mee pok.

zombified owl

In my previous post, I said "don't need to sleep already". Fact was that I slept for 1 hour from 4.30am to 5.30am. I rock right... Even so, I didn't manage to complete my revision for the tests >.< And I managed to survive for the day, right until CCA.

Chinese teacher showed us our marks today...

I GOT A BIG FAT D LOL THANK GOD I DIDN'T GET U, I WAS SO CLOSE TO GETTING AN E OR S BUT MY COMPO PULLED ME UP THAT ONE I GOT 38/60 HAHA =P

Did I mention that I passed my grade 8 piano by 2 marks? LOL this sounds like a joke but I'm not sure whether to laugh or cry you know...
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BUT I think I'll laugh. Look at the bright side, my teacher said people usually fail at the higher grades!! The examiner could have failed me and given me 99 marks but no she let me pass despite my largely inaccurate answers for the aural tests and pathetic attempt to sight read, not to mention the major screw-ups in the pieces. I could have failed. Thank You Jesus I passed xD

Tsk it's sad that our PE relief teacher will not be teaching us anymore! Mr Ng (PE HOD) our original PE teacher will be coming back from his reservist i think... sad. The relief teacher was really cute!

I just read Jacelyn's email, it links with the REW chapel on Monday. Is God trying to say something to me now? Seriously, I should stop being so busy and set aside time for Him... I now quote part of her email.

Communication is not one-way. It's two-way. How true. I thought, "time to let God speak, i've been talking so much." And the devotion of the day really spoke to me. It told me, you don't know why God wants you to head there, it's fine. you just have to know who God is, the One who is leading you.. Cause' when we know Him, we have no fear. When we know He's the One guiding you all the way, we can be rest assured. It's just like you know your own dad, that he won't bring you to harm.
So.. it's time for me to tear my itinerary into pieces. To throw away my own plans. God seeks to prosper me. His definition of prosper may not be the world's myopic definition of prosper, but life with God is definitely better than without Him. (:

So anw, just want to encourage you guys to find God in His word, for "the Word was God." Many times we cant hear Him speak, it's probably because we've not seeked Him but we just kept talking non-stop, like I did at first. How do you get the response when you dont seek for response, yup? May He give you such desire to hear Him and seek to do His will. Lets ask God to teach us to love Him more, then we'd have the willingness to let Him guide. (:

Up till now, I still don't know whether joining CO was the right thing to do.
I do know, however, that if I didn't join, I wouldn't be in xuanyue ---> Sheena would not have joined CO (I managed to make her join cos' she showed some interest. hehe), Janet would have been the only J1 girl in xuanyue, she said she would have quit CO because of that, and lets see... There'll only be 4 J1s in that section. All are guys. 4 is like so not enough to take over when the current J2s step down. <--- Now is this still part of God's plan?


Tag replies
WH; great week, yeah, but only to a certain extent!
Sara; MANNN i have yet to get skype... and melody seems to be doing well in the southern hemisphere.. i am not super hardworking, just ask my parents. i do redundant stuff all the time lol and i specialise in chionging homework and getting told off by teachers. yes we better have lunch or dinner together, IF TIME PERMITS! since your sch isn't that near. or we could go to CHANGI AIRPORT haha random...
Daniel; why must you keep trademarking your name! lol. now i envy poly ppl like you. >.< GO for enCOre and buy tickets from me, i asked you before ken did!
Elaine; haha correct it's good game. it's the guys who always say it, if you realise. this is the result of too much gaming!
jace; "I'm carried in everlasting arms, (He'll) never let me go, through it all" =D

Stressed to the max

Tonight no need to sleep already

THREE tests tomorrow
1) H2 Bio - Cells and biological molecules (carbohydrates, lipids and proteins)
2) Chinese - 50 条成语， 课文： 蜜蜂的赞美；孩子，我为什么要打你；最后的牛车水
3) GP - Education package

Preliminary ideas (PI) draft 2 due tomorrow for PW

*pats my own back* good luck Joyce


During bio lecture today, someone's handphone rang and the whole lecture group went silent, followed by "ohhhhhhhhh". You know, that kind of tone, like you're in deep shit. Some guy sitting at the back suddenly said "GG" out loud during the awkward silence. Then everyone burst out in laughter and the owner of that phone, according to the lecturer, blushed. Haha, but funny things like these only happen once in a long time.

REW 2008

Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbear to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine

--

This is beautiful..it has been modified by Chris Tomlin? A modern version of Amazing Grace which speaks of, well, God's Amazing Grace!

Thanks preez, xiying, WH, hweeyee, melody, I'm FINE!! Love you girls =D I won't be downcast for too long lol

My absence from MSN, Facebook, Friendster, blogs can be explained by the hectic lifestyle of a JC student. It's double that when you're an ACSian. *sweat* Tutorials are one thing, projects are another, clumps of scheduled tests are the worst. There's H2 Bio, H1 GP and Chinese tests this Thursday. My 2nd PI draft is due this Thursday. I have math tuition this Thursday. I also happen to have CCA the day before which gives me less time to prepare.

By the time I reach home, I feel so void of all energy, like all the ATP has been used up in respiration. The only thing I'd wanna do is plop onto the sofa and take a good nap. Ok, that's what I've been doing. But I'm determined to NOT do that. I wanna hurry up and gobble up my dinner, then bathe and STUDYYY!!! And play erhu. Trust me, time is a scarce resource, it is never enough. I don't have time to come online at all. Amazing, how I used to be able to spend HOURS on the computer and now I hardly use it. Even if I do, it's only for a few minutes. Just thought I should update now.

Let's see...
I was sent for detention class (DC) today. Long story, I really don't want to repeat it. Just ask my classmates.
So basically for DC we report at the library at 4.30pm and sit there till 6pm to do self-study, no sleeping/eating/using hp or mp3/going toilet ... ... But not today. This sir came up to say he needed manpower for the sports heats so the whole lot of us went to the bleachers (track area) to serve our DC. Interesting right. And it so happened that the DC crowd for the day was unusually large. The whole thing ended an hour later, at 7pm cos' it poured halfway and it was impossible to continue with the events. I was time-keeper for lane 7 -.-
The best thing about this DC is that WE CLOCK IN CIP HOURS HAHAHAHA SERVE DC ALSO CAN GET CIP HOURS. Best.

I don't want to get too many DCs though. 3 DCs = 1 demerit point. Poor Irvin got 2 demerit points for helping his friend tap the attendance card...

Yea I know my post is so jumbled up but who cares. I'll now move on to the REW in AC.
Unlike PL, REW here is like only ONE day. Whatever happened to Religious Emphasis Week? Back in PL it's spread over 3 or 4 days. Anyway...

Everything just fit so perfectly. Everything from the worship to Dr Philip Huan's message titled What Does the Future Hold for Me?

I always say that life is full of uncertainties, you'll never know what's ahead. The future? Uncertain. And each time I just don't know how to move on and progress. I worry about stuff unnecessarily even though I know my future's in His hands. Many times I feel so lost and alone, without knowing how to proceed. Things also always happen at the wrong time, I seem to get myself into trouble all the time.

Worry... why? Why put myself through all that anxiety? (unable to complete revision or homework is another thing altogether, I'd be abnormal if I don't worry about late submission or tests)

So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?'For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Matthew 6:31-33

To put it simply, God will provide us with what we need. His plan and resources will come when it's time. We just have to ask and acknowledge it. But ask is not enough, we have to listen as well. Listen to God's voice for directions.

Before they call I will answer;
while they are still speaking I will hear. Isaiah 54:24

Nothing can separate us from the love of God.. Always remember how God sees us. Our gifts are already His, He gave them to us in the first place.

So they went away by themselves in a boat to a solitary place. But many who saw them leaving recognized them and ran on foot from all the towns and got there ahead of them. When Jesus landed and saw a large crowd, he had compassion on them, because they were like sheep without a shepherd. So he began teaching them many things. Mark 6:32-34

Sounds familiar... sheep without a shepherd. We're not meant to live life without guidance. God never intended for us to handle stress all alone. All we have to do is say "yes" to Him, adn wait for doors of opportunities to open though only one out of that many doors will be the right one. It's about choosing God's plan rather than our own or our parents'.

(there's supposed to be more but i fell asleep)

Teachers

I have a weak heart. Someone tell me how to strengthen it?

It sucks when your teacher shows favouritism. It just sucks.

(Sigh... half the time he's telling the other half of the class to shut up and suddenly he diverts his arrows to us saying we keep talking during his classes when 90% of the time we're the silent ones. AND, he makes no attempt to remember our names. He only knows the names of the other half of the class. But duh I'm not just upset about these, there are more..)

I went for CO prac with red eyes... that's what I get when tears sting my eyes AND I have my contact lenses on. I was distracted for the first half of the practice as I couldn't get over what that teacher said to Claire and I. I could neither follow the score nor play properly. But after the break I decided to get a grip and stop letting that scene play on repeat mode in my head. It worked, I could at least give my best and focus. I can be so immersed in music that everything else just evaporates. It does, however, take awhile for me to settle down after an unhappy incident/issue/event before I can tune in.

I'm so grateful for the seniors and friends who expressed their concern this afternoon... I would otherwise have fallen into depression mode.

I now dread going to school. I fear the mountain of work. And some teachers. Honestly speaking, I only look forward to CCA and physical geog lectures and tutorials.

I miss the teachers from PL and SRJC =( Man... I should really stop harping on it and get back to mugging.

I miss OLM

joyce says:
i dont just miss haydn, i miss sourcing for music books in the librarY!!!
Insecurities building up to Insanity says:
HAHAHAHA
Insecurities building up to Insanity says:
I MISS PLAYING RANDOM PIECES
Insecurities building up to Insanity says:
I MISS ARGUING ABT WHO TO SIT W GRACE
Insecurities building up to Insanity says:
I MISS EATING MAGGI
Insecurities building up to Insanity says:
I MISS SINGING MARIKITA AND IRRITATING ALL THOSE PEOPLE AS WE WALK
Insecurities building up to Insanity says:
HAHAHAHA
joyce says:
I MISS GOING TO BUY BUBBLE TEA AND WALKING TO THE 25 AND 55 BUS STOP
Insecurities building up to Insanity says:
YESSSSSS
Insecurities building up to Insanity says:
I MISS GETTING LOCKED UP IN SCH
Insecurities building up to Insanity says:
I MISS TALKING ABT SONATA FORM
Insecurities building up to Insanity says:
HAHAHAHA
Insecurities building up to Insanity says:
I MISS TALKING ABT THE SOLO INSTUMENT VS ORCHESTRA THINGY

some quiz

uh, ok.. in response to HWEE YEE.... i don't think anyone will bother to read this


instructions: remove one question from below and add in your personal question. Make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 4 people in your list and list them out at the end of the post. notify them in their chatbox that he/she has been tagged. whoever has been tagged will have blessings from all. they will have blessings from all if they do it or not.

1. at what age do you want to marry?
ans: below 30? haha that's if i even get married.

2. what do you want the most now?
ans: i want my pile of school assignments to vanish

3. have you been hurted by someone close to you?
ans: who hasn't? it's "hurt" by the way, not hurted

4. what are you looking forward to right now?
ans: SLEEP

5. if you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
ans: get all distinctions for A levels. a dream.

6. what are you afraid to lose now?
ans: my graphic calculator

7. do you believe in friendship forever?
ans: this can spark off a debate

8. if you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
ans: haha. sadly enough no. HINT maybe. (hweeyee's answer. we think alike.)

9. list out three good points of the person who tagged you.
ans: CHEERFUL, lame (that's a good point?), and hmmmm caring

10. what are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
ans: love God, love me, love my family and friends, love music. hah.

11. what type of person do you hate the most?
ans: i don't wanna get into trouble, best not to say it here.

12. do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
ans: who doesn't?

13. have you ever hated yourself?
ans: yes. but i try not to think this way cos' God loves me -- the insignificant -- so why should i hate myself when He doesn't?

14. what do you think is the most important thing in your life?
ans: Jesus. Which isn't a 'thing'

15. do you find a need to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
ans: not at the moment

16. at this point of time, would you rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?
ans: try something new. experiment with weird ideas for my PI draft.

17. what kind of friend do you hope to be in your friend's eyes?
ans: one who LOVES them (love is patient, kind, humble, does not boast, etc)

18. the place you want to go most with your loved ones?
ans: some western country?

19. what do you want to do right now?
ans: SLEEP.

20. one thing you love the most right now?
ans: you?

friends who have been tagged.
1. you
2. anyone
3. the one who's reading this
4. him. her. them.



My life is kind of crazy now, I have TONNES of homework due this Tuesday. Like really tonnes. Another day has just passed, and I haven't done anything productive. Erm unless you count CCA where I joined in the combined and sectionals from 8.30am to 4pm and actually played along with them. Like WOW finally. Nigel even said my YLL song was not bad for someone who just started learning =D Praise God man. Speaking of Nigel, so many strands of hair came off from his bow today, it was enough to make a small brush. Haha to put it in a nicer way, he's enthusiasm for his music can be seen in the hair he plucked out from the bow.

[edited to add]
N1gHtR0@d : The time has come...NO Compromise says:
u know something
joyce says:
i dunno
N1gHtR0@d : The time has come...NO Compromise says:
if hair comes out of the bow means its not taken care of properly
N1gHtR0@d : The time has come...NO Compromise says:
not enthu

we now hear from the pro. or so it seems.
uh oh... the pro feels betrayed cos' i put this up. =(
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On top of that homework, I kind of made a commitment to practice on the erhu E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y for AT LEAST 1 hour since the concert's just next month and well, I wanna play. So it'll look good on my CCA record. 4 pieces down, 5 more to go. One of them being a super challenging piece. It's so messy and complicated that I can't even read the handwriting on the score, have to clarify with the others.

Oh yes. Today during break for sectionals, 3 jokers were playing the funeral song at the corridor. On the suona and dizi. My gosh I was in the toilet when I heard that, after that Janet and I laughed until we got stomachache -___- Cos' they played it in a very vibrant tone and it was like, WTH?!

I wanna go back to visit my handbell juniors soon. First I must make sure Mr Fong is there. Now I know why people like Wan Yi and Wen Xin like to go back to PL when Mr Fong is around. I never really understood that when I was still in secondary school.
Wah I sound as if I left the school years ago.

19th Fun-O-Rama

Here's FunORama for my class' food stall, better known as the "stall beside the Ikea".
We were located at the canteen, which is apparently "hard to find" cos' people like Jess took a century to find the canteen.

Milo for the milo dinosaur
Marcus with our fondueMuffins sponsored by Jones the GrocerMandeep loves ROTI JOHN but he's supposed to look happy. Dunno why he looked like this.I'm know, I deserve to be beheaded because I abandoned the stall during my shift from 12-2pm, I only worked a little and was running off most of the time to say hi to friends who came. But EHHH after that I worked all the way until the whole thing ended which was past 6.

There was a period where we were standing around with nothing to do, and I tried to attract customers by stopping those who were walking pass our stall. When it rained, that's when the REAL business started. People wanted to be IN the shelter and away from the rain. So the orders (especially for roti john) kept pouring in, and I was so tempted to chase the customers away.. but no, I just hinted to them by saying that they had to wait for "quite awhile". Still, they were willing to wait. Typical Singaporeans. They see a long queue, they join the queue -.-

My handphone was vibrating the whole late morning / early afternoon where calls and SMSes kept coming in, most of them were from friends asking for directions.

Oh wells. I would say that Fun-O-Rama was better than PL's Agape Fair last year where I practically worked for the WHOLE day at the stall, cutting up brownies and heating them up.

I think I should type more stuff hahahahh.