2 down, 6 to go

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4 down. 4 to go.

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Yes. 2 down, 6 to go.

Persevere, my fellow acsians!! We will conquer the promos! "Retain" is not in our dictionary, understand?!

(God, help me... for there's only so much that I can do... I really need a crystal clear mind, one that's organised and not congested with information.. congestion is an external cost - the lost of manhours? it can't be compensated.)

I will sleep by 2am. I WILL. I have 2 H2 papers (econs and bio) later.

To my dear friends who really mug(ged) with me during this grueling period - Xi Ying, Amelia, Claire, Jerome, Jess, mama's boy?, Kenneth - Thanks a lot yeah (: For putting up with my odd habits like having the tendency to read out my notes...
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I was truly, deeply touched by the CPS9 anointing service.
Next time I see that auntie at her 'throne', I'll tell her the time without her having to ask (:
(hehe, you know what I mean right...)
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I just viewed the new PLHB blog, and the symposium video. I am proud to be part of the handbell alumni. I'm super proud of my juniors (: =) :) I wanna go back to visit them, but time does not permit... I don't even have the time to go home - for home is like my hotel - let alone go back to PL.

Which reminds me.. I need to collect some cert from PL's general office! think it's the class rep thing for alumni activities...
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With God all things are possible, and nothing ever stays the same

crap crap crap it's 2:11!! good morning, world!

God is good, He always is (:

They've been telling me, time and again, but I somehow I never did it.

For the first time after all these years at chapel, I actually cried during chapel. Worship was simple, with just a guitar and two main voices.. but worship is never about the music, it's about God. I felt that the worship leader's words were directed at me.. we sang Still, which totally described what I should and wanted to do-

Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hand


When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father, You are King over the flood
I will be still, know You are God


Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

I just needed to trust Him with my situation. I thought nobody understands me, but I was wrong. I forgot that there is a King who knows me inside out, He's just waiting for me to turn to Him instead of struggling with the load alone. Boy, I was right.

Prayer is the key (:

I trusted Him, as stated in Proverbs 3:5-6... and I survived yesterday and today without Nescafe in school.

The speaker for chapel spoke about forgiveness, just as Yeo Mei had shared her devotion on Saturday. Maybe that was for me, for I realised today that there are people I need to forgive. Those who have caused pain in ways unimaginable. It's him, and her.. (they're not teens btw)

Many thanks to my wonderful friends who were there with me yesterday when I was all teary (: Love y'all always.


Even Ang Ren said I cry a lot... or is it only during this period? 

Random bits of info

I think Thursday's DC session broke some school or national record.

According to my classmates who were there,
223 people were down for DC. Can you believe it?!?!
223 students in the second floor of the library having detention class??
Some people got double DCs cos' they were late for DC so they got issued with another one on the spot -.-

I went to collect my retainers today.. That's when I saw that I'm taller than my orthodontist!! He's been doing my braces for me for so long, yet I only noticed it now. And what's disturbing is, he looks like Mr Soh, my cca teacher-in-charge -___-

First I had lots of metal in my mouth. Now it's plastic. Wonder what's next!

CIP at HortPark

Happy 17th birthday to the other pos. :)

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Saturday's CIP was at HortPark. The turnout from our school was rather disappointing.. but we can't blame them. There was a miscommunication between the teacher-in-charge and the organisers, so the whole lot of us actually went on the wrong date -.- after which the teacher smsed all of us to apologise and say that we're not obliged to go for the actual thing.

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In the end, only six of us turned up - the others decided to drop the CIP opportunity. 6 of us.. 4 guys whose names I didn't catch, Amelia, and myself. The most annoying thing was that ALL of them wore the red collegiate and I was wearing another colour -.- so I looked out of place.

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ANYWAY.

Joe aka Shepherd and Daryl will LOVE HortPark. If they haven't already been there, that is. It's a gardening hub.

We thought the CIP was some 1.6km lantern walk thing, but no, it was nothing of that sort! We were there stringing and decorating "lanterns" made from plastic bottles together with students from another school. Gosh. Amelia and I were socialising with the aunties and old folks and kids when the crowd got larger and people were observing our work.

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I'll cut down on the words now. ("let the pictures do the talking" is so, so cliche.)

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I must stop leaving my things around the school! Last term, my foolscap paper went missing. I happened to meet Lukas in between lessons and it turned out that he saw it in some classroom, so he helped me keep it. Then early this term I left my beloved PL jacket under the desk of another classroom, only to get it back a week later. Not long after, I left my bio notes and water bottle in a classroom. It was Daryl who told me that he saw my stuff, and then brought them along with him so that he could pass them to me after school.

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Tsk. I may not be so lucky the next time.

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The J2s' prelim results were released last Friday.

This was what we saw after GP lesson on that day, while we were walking back to the main building from the NLs.

Apparently, the teachers were supposed to return the prelim scripts earlier, but were late. So the J2s were all gathering there and throwing things down -.-

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Yesterday, Santi, Victoria, Jenisse and I went to the library during our free periods. Santi suggested that we pray together since the promos were so near and our plates were full. So she did, and well...I broke down as she was praying. (I think they got a shock) I really needed that prayer. I needed to let go and let God. My own strength, so meagre, was obviously insufficient.

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Argh.. it's very personal, this matter...

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McDonald's, here I come.

Oh and the Mochaholic rocks :)

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To one:

You can't feel it now, can you?

The gap is widening by the day.

The hiatus is very much unbearable.

But bear with it, I will.

So trivial, ha ha, so trivial.

And to another:

I now know, they're the reason why you're behaving like this.

I feel really bad about this.. missing church because of school, school, school!
I'm working on the written report for project work now... and I had a bad headache for the whole of yesterday. I proceeded with CIP anyway. Photos will be up soon.

Happy birthday to the POS.! :)


[edited, 8.15PM]

Our WR is finally out of ICU :) Thank You Jesus!

Now I've gotta rescue the Spirito ticket design so I can send them over to the teachers-in-charge... and then finally, start on my revision.. It's really late, I know.

Gonna meet my SR OGL again at macs to do work.

reflections on the switch in CCA (bells to CO)

I clicked the 'pictures' folder of my laptop, and this was what I saw

My gosh!!! Anyway, they were playing with my 0.5MP webcam and you have just seen the results...


CCA
When I was still with the handbell ensemble in secondary school, I must admit that there was a certain level of pride in me... proud of the ensemble, definitely, but add a little more and you may just get what I mean.

The Gold with Honours award last year went to three schools. That's 3/8, which is freaking !@*$U#$YD#. Sure, our alumni ringers were unhappy, we were unhappy.. We wanted to be the only school with the award. We wanted to pwn all the other schools. A hint of complacency, perhaps?

Naturally, that award made us one of the more favored performing arts group in the school. It was evident - we had many opportunities to perform for internal events, we were always being praised by students and teachers alike. Maybe it really was the quality of our music, maybe it has been a tradition of the school, for handbells to be so active in performing...

Imagine the change when I switched over to the Chinese orchestra when I joined this college.

ACCO, in my opinion, takes the backseat in the performing arts scene in the college. The reason's quite obvious, what with other performing giants like the choir and band, both having gone international and clinched top awards. (I'm not saying that they don't deserve the attention. they do)

We rarely perform internally, what more externally? This is a drastic change for me, from being so occupied with preparing for performances and the performances themselves, to almost nothing. I mean, apart from the CNY concert (what's CNY like without Chinese music?), our own concert and CIP performances (it's rare), do we actually get other chances to perform? I don't think so.

Being in this CCA has taught me to erode pride and instead, to tone down and be humble... From being in the frontline to being chucked away at the back, I know that things don't always go the way I want. Someone or some group has to make the sacrifice eventually, and it has to be our orchestra.

This is one (hard) lesson on humility.

August Birthdays w BFC

Thank you BFC! The cake was one of the best I have ever tasted :D Thanks for the card too :)

Jerome[6] new WHITE shoes.. says:
its ok..
joyce says:
i'm nice
Jerome[6] new WHITE shoes.. says:
i dun need the credit..
Jerome[6] new WHITE shoes.. says:
if u wan repay me.. u can always gimme a kiss..
joyce says:
there u go again
Jerome[6] new WHITE shoes.. says:
lol.. becos i know u wouldn't ma..
Jerome[6] new WHITE shoes.. says:
smart rite?
joyce says:
yea yea
joyce says:
so smart then better get all As and Bs for a levels ah
Jerome[6] new WHITE shoes.. says:
er...
joyce says:
must put pressure on u
joyce says:
if u really get that then i'll kiss you
joyce says:
not saying u cant do it
joyce says:
hahaha
Jerome[6] new WHITE shoes.. says:
lol.. sure anot?
joyce says:
dunno!
Jerome[6] new WHITE shoes.. says:
lol.. now talk only.. later i get As.. dun pretend nvr say hor..
joyce says:
OK
joyce says:
haha
Jerome[6] new WHITE shoes.. says:
lol.. i save the conversation le.. WOO HOO! u better buy lotsa lip gloss..
joyce says:
OMG WTH
joyce says:
LOL
joyce says:
maybe by that time i'll change email and hp no
joyce says:
make myself uncontactable
Jerome[6] new WHITE shoes.. says:
lol..
Jerome[6] new WHITE shoes.. says:
i know where u live?

Nonsense, really.

I think I'm just too sleepy.. from working on homework and attempting to find some info on this sex determination thing, when there's a presence of a Y chromosome or absence of a second X chromosome, stuff I'm supposed to do for bio case study.

updates

There's so much you don't know
so much you ought to know
so much, yet I don't want you to know
it spells d-i-s-a-s-t-e-r if you do know
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I (L) BFC

But, unfortunately, this Sat's CO prac is from 2.30 to 5.30pm, and I'm leaving halfway at 4pm for a CIP which will last till 9pm. Read: I can't join you guys in church :( Will still seeya on Sunday though :)

I second Daryl's thank you list in the cell blog.. Many thanks especially to Smarties who organised the bonding (look at the number of PIOs and cell blog posts by him) and Shepherd for providing us with a place to spend the night at. I'm sure all of us enjoyed ourselves tremendously :) didn't we?

Cell shirts were awesome, cheap and good! Headed by Yeo Mei and Kai Wei, the shirt committee (which is like the whole cell) worked to produce home-made shirts, literally. Lets wear it for the youth camp at the end of the year. We'll wear it for next year's national day too.

The badminton session was a time for us to chill out (the opposite) and display our skills.... We all know who the freaking pro players are! We even had a coach within our midst *winks at Smart and Josh* Lol, wanted to ask Sophia to invite the family at the court to go to church, since she played with the boy.. good chance right! But didn't la. awww.
Glad to know we'll be having more of such sessions in the future! :) I like. But muscles ache!

Iris' laughter rocks. Nothing new! Her laughter can brighten up anyone's day!

Don't say that I'm always studying because I'm not. I had to do some work during the bonding because I don't have enough time to complete everything AND start studying for promos.. I still have a ton of work left, there's no way I can start revision this week. :(
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McDonald's is my new second home.
(Kovan - mug with XiYing/Joey/Hilary/myself
KAP - Claire)
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I'd rather you not know

It's the September holidays, but it feels nothing like a holiday.
I don't know how I'm going to handle all these shit...
(Not by might, not by power, but by the spirit of God)

Will blog about cell bonding when I feel more calm.