jia youuuu!

I don't want to die such an early death. Or maybe I should just jump down from my bedroom window (which is the 2nd floor). I can't make up my mind.
1) I'm going to fail the emaths test. Miss Liang still said it was easy?? I couldn't even solve a single question, damn it. And I know I'm going to get -10/25. Whatever, Tania, maybe you'll get a minus twenty. Mrs Wong, quick come back or we will continue to fail.
2) 1A1 class outing proposal!!!! I doubt I'll even work on it, meaning There'll be trouble. I know it.
3) Lit test next week, accounts test tomorrow.
4) My English is deproving like anything.
5) Stupid Adeline keeps laughing at me not experiencing monsoon yet.

Those are the 4 reasons why I should jump. Actually, there's no need to get worried cos you know I wont do silly things. Bit out of point :D

Oh yeah, JOEY. Yesterday she and Adeline were arguing about J------ being macho and all. How one said a girl can't be macho and another one say can. But the fact still remains that a girl cannot be macho. Yuhui said they looked like husband and wife fighting. LOL. She laughed the most. So after school I mentioned the husband and wife thing. Did I say that it was the first time a wife was taller than her husband? Can't remember.

me: haha, Adeline is your husband
Joey: I don't like, like her
Hilary: You mean love?

Somehow, they kept being repeated throughout the journey back to hougang. Kept replaying like a tape recorder. I bet the same thing will happen tomorrow.

Got back our bio results today, we did not do well at all. Except for Melody, smart ass. Our results were terrible. Almost the whole class was depressed after the lesson. But, that isn't the end of the world, not yet. Do not be discouraged, we still have a year to Os.

Boxer had said in Animal Farm, "I will work harder!" In fact, that was his motto. We can try to be like him. Worrying about the CA marks or getting depressed won't help to pull up the marks, otherwise the cumulonimbus clouds will permenantly cover the earth. We must work harder! We can do it! Maybe we should stay back everday and study together, this way we can spur and encourage one another. Then we will all pass our tests with flying colours! It wouldn't be nice if the colours started to sink and get dissolved, then there will be no more colours and we will all die together. Paper chromatography won't be able to help at all. 3c2, jia1 you2!

Be considerate, spare a thought for others. I get really irritated when people keep asking what others got for a test, just because they scored well. Neither is it good to say you got lousy marks, what carelsess mistakes and "can actually be the highest one lor", all these comments should be kept to herself. It justs makes things worse for those who didn't do very well. I am speaking (typing) on behalf of the weaker ones, myself included. Can't encourage, I suggest he or she shuts up. Whatever it is, we should not discourage a person.

I think I'm abnormal. I want to be normal! Why haven't I experienced monsoon yet? Why isn't the lover part of my body growing? Lol, think I"m going to be referred to SGH on day about this problem.

biology

Right eye is sore and bothering me. Miss Ting has long feet. My rabbit is horny. It wants to mate with the cloth. There's a bio test tomorrow, E maths test the day after, and a POA test on thursday. Have to submit the class outing proposal to Miss Chan for the sec 1s' class outing by Friday. Peer lites meeting with mentors on Saturday, then my group will go to old folks' home, orphanage or childcare centre to do some stuff. I can't go, must go for worship prac and it's quite important cos of Sunday. About the Julia and Nisa thing, we still haven't tell any of the teachers, I'm prepared to get a lecture from Miss Kok and Mrs Soh. I want to watch I Not Stupid Too. I am deprived of TV. Don't even know what 'snuppy' or whatever it is about. I want to go for the Symposium!!!! But no money, so can't even think about it. Sharon amswered all the questions during SS today, unfair! Grace is so pink. Hyun bin, wahahaha.

RIGHT. Those were totally RANDOM stuff. Let's get on with a biology lesson.

Enzymes
*biological catalysts made up of protein.
*molecules that speed up reactions without themselves being chemically changed.
*produced by living cells.

Digestion is the breaking up of large, insoluble, indiffusible molecules into smaller, simpler, diffusible molecules.

Hydrogen peroxide is sometimes released during chemical reactions.
It is poisonous!
-the cell produces enzyme catalase which catalyses the breakdown of hydrogen peroxide into water and oxygen
-in this way, the toxic effect is prevented.

Classification of Enzymes
- Digestion is an example of a chemical reaction called HYDROLYSIS.
--- using water to speed up/water splitting.
--water molecules are needed to break down a comples molecule into simpler molecules.
.:. Enzymes that catalyse hydrolytic reactions are known as HYDROLASES
-Examples of hydrolases:
--Carbohydrases
*amylase (salivary/pancreatic) which digest or hydrolase starch.
*cellulases which digest cellulose. Not produced in mammals, that's why animals cannot digest cellulase.
--Proteases (Pepsin in the stomach pH2, Trypsin in the small intestine pH9)which digest proteins.
--Lipases which digests fats (lipids)
-Digestive enzymes are used in some washing powders!

Characteristics of enzymes
-they speed up chemical reactions w/o being changed.
-they are required in small amounts
-they are highly specific in their actions
--e.g amylase will only act on starch, not proteins or fats.
--action of enzymes illustrated using the LOCK AND KEY hypothesis
----the enzyme (lock) has an active site that is of a spatial configuration.
----Only a specific substrate can bind to the active site of the enzyme.
----Only substances that can complement the shape of the active site can be broken down.
-Effect of temperature
--inactive at low temperature, 0°C to 30°C
--temperature ↑, activity ↑
--enzyme twice as active for every 10°C rise until the optumum temp is reached (40°C to 48°C for most enzymes)
--enzyme denatures beyond the optimum temperature.
WHY DO ENZYMES BECOME DENATURED??
because i want them to
because, Too high temp will destroy the protein nature of the enzyme.
- effect of pH on enzymes
--enzymes are very sensitive to pH.
--can only work within a narrow range.
--choose the narrowest optimum pH thing in MCQ.
-Effects of substrate and enzyme concentrations on rate of reaction
--(refer to page 41 of TB, fig 4.4) As the substrate concentration increases, the rate of reaction increases initially until point X is reached. A further increase in substrate concentration does not increase the rate any further. This is because, at any given instant, all the enzyme molecules are being saturated or made used of. The amount of products formed per unit time is the same.
WHAT IS A LIMITING FACTOR??
it is any factor that directly affects the rate at which a process, such as a chemical reaction occurs if quantity is changed.
HOW CAN YOU INCREASE THE RATE OF REACTION AT POINT X?
Increase the enzyme concentration la!

Some stuff on diffusion and osmosis.

The stem curls outwards, with the cortex cells expanding more than epidermal cells.
This is caused by the turgor pressure in the cortex cells.
Cortex cells prevented fom expanding be the epidermis layer, made up of epidermal cells.
They are held by a cuticle and so less capable of stretching.
The cuticle also protects the epidermal cells against water loss.
Cutting releases the restraintexerted by the epidermis.

Sitll have a lot, I'm not typing anymore. Time is 11.35pm

schools

School's alright so far, I guess. I'm begining to like 3c2, though I still miss 2c1 heaps. I know many of us still do. I like the times where we would simply stay in the classroom after school, with simply nothing to do, or contribute to the decorating of the class. Things are different this year. I wasn't so interested in helping with class stuff, also because most people aren't. You need a strong support in order to pull people in to stay back and help. I'm confused and depressed with some personal stuff, all these thoughts are getting nowhere actually. What crap am I talking about? -.-

Blog some other time. Need to prepare for church and worship prac. Hopefully everything will go well. Tania's blog is highly amusing. Go there when you have the time. It helps brighten up your day. time now is 10.47am, saturday, 18 feb

-

I feel so lousy all over again. The atmosphere here is getting more and more depressing, I admit. Just wanna say something

Christel, Faith, and even Jon, I'm sorry I screwed up the whole thing. (Saying this though I know they'll never be here.) I guess I wasn't really prepared for it, the message was too last-minute. Yeah, this is not the first time I screwed up, please give me another chance if you guys are thinking of doing something about or to me. The more I think of it, the worse I feel. I know you'll say that it's okay and I just need more confidence, etc... But that's just how I feel about yesterday. I hope to do better in the future. Thanks for the many chances you have given me last time. My weakness, I confess, is not being sure when to start and that my 'confidence is running low'. I have been perfectly honest now, don't comment on this if any of you even see it. No, I take back my previous sentence. Shouldn't be runniny away from mistakes and a chance for others to correct me or give advice.

I feel like crying. Seeing the rest of them together happily makes me feel like shit.

******

Have to do the Macbeth ppt on Microsoft Word. The entire music project is weighing me down. Deadlines are Monday and Thursday respectively. Need to practice my piano scales, do music homework, finish up my mountain of schoolwork and study for Social Studies, Geography, Chemistry, Biology and Principles of Accounts. Tests. Not forgetting the PC lesson with 1A1 tomorrow which I have yet to prepare. Nisa isn't replying my messages or answering my calls, which leaves me to prepare for the lesson alone. All group works seem to be my work now. I might just collapse the next minute and everything would be fine. Oh, happy dreaming, man. Looks like all the negative stuff are pushing their way into me. Pray for me, please. Thanks guys.
time:1pm, and it's sunday not saturday

untitled

All of a sudden, the word 'us' has a completely different meaning. Things have changed. Quite dramatically, I'm afraid. Feeling so... alone. Doesn't feel nice, when one of your *closest* is no longer *like this*. I wish certain things could remain like last year. Break times have never been the same again. These words might confuse you, yes, but details about this should not be put here, yea? Don't wanna offend anyone.

Tests. Projects. Homework. They're the reasons why I haven't been blogging. Even my time with God has been cut. Oh, not forgetting peer lite stuff and church. Might not sound stressful, but try putting on my shoes. You'll see what I mean. It all comes to the same conclusion: Too many things to do, too little time. Come what, come may. Time and the hour runs through the roughest day.

I kinda regret joining as a peer lite, come to think of it. Nah, it's about helping and serving. Should be happy doing it right? Planning for games and lessons are a headache. They are taking up a lot of time. Teaching a group of noisy sec 1s is no easy task, sometimes they get out of control. Anyway, I would appreciate if someone could help me with the ice-breakers. Running out of ideas.

Geography lessons = copying lesson = stress x stress
Miss Ting is going so fast, I honestly have no idea what the climate thing is all about. All our wrists gets overworked at the end of every lesson. I fear that one day the whole hand will fall out. So much for pure geography.

Thanks, Jasmine. Thanks a lot. Many thanks to Yu Ting too. Both of you, for listening to my troubles and being there for me.

I will change my blogskin. Not sure when, but when I do, (fret not,) some of your links will be added in. The whole thing is outdated man. time now is 12.22am, 8 Feb 06.

-no title-

Was looking back at my older posts, and I saw that there are a lot of typos. Too lazy to edit them.

I couldn't worship yesterday, though I tried very hard to. I soon realised why. I guess we just have to learn from our mistakes and move on. Let's not be discouraged, yes? =) God isn't mad with our mistakes, like Boon said. Still, we're sorry if we made it difficult for anyone to worship last afternoon/evening. I had been thinking over some of the things Joel and Eugene said. About how easily pride can come in, in this ministry. It's no good, if you're like fantastic in this area, but do it without any feeling. I hope Grandma would think over and persuade her dad about the matter.

August bit my dad yesterday, serves him right for always wanting to give (August) away :P This bunny hasn't bitten me for a year.

Social studies! Why must Miss Ang give us so much homework. ~!@#$%^&*(_+ I was reading the textbook and fell asleep, only to wake up and realise I had read 1 paragraph. Ain't I a fast reader.

Lucky no PC lesson with sec 1s tomorrow. Or I'll die.

I hope Sarah Tsang doesn't close her blog. I do enjoy reading her posts. Can "eeemproove my Eeeengliishh"

Roster is finally out. 2 vocal teams this time, with Stefanie an addition to my team, and Santi, who's new to this ministry.

-

I feel so useless.

Life seems meaningless all of a sudden.

Things are happening, in school and at home.
These are mostly unpleasant stuff.

Not looking forward to the week, if you ask me.

2 music projects already. Contact me if you know anything about Jazz or Gamelan.
They're for this Music Elective Programme. So I'll be working with Genesis and Hilary. Yes, the one from debate and handbells. Not the onw in 3c2. By the way, there are 4 girls taking Music in my class. Isn't that great.

This teacher was in Dodsworth house last year, and in Lee house this year. How unlucky can the we get?

It's Friday the 13th, I witnessed a bird shitting again. Damn gross please. Like iI was staring at the bird on the chair and it started shitting. Hope those birds won't go round shitting on chairs again next year.

Julia's conversations on MSN are so formal, it's as if i'm talking to a foreigner.

New

It's raining pigs and chickens. There's been a drastic change in the weather here. Like it's freaking cold? Yeah, how could you even feel cold in Singapore, but the weather is seriously bd.

New year, new teachers, new subjects, new cell...

NEW CELL.

Do you know that this new cell is not very good.? Altogether only 4 girls including Wan Hui. PAthetic! Look at how many guys there are this year. Can they rearrange the cell members? Like at least a similar number of guys and girls...

BBQ for Esperanza people at Wee Kiat's house. I saw Ling Jia cleaning up. I helped. Denice helped. Ling Jia went home. Cheryl helped. Andew and Benedict helped. We did mass cleaning at that area. Drowned a snail. Poor thing. Sec 3s helped to clean up leh! So nice right. And the rest just enjoy (:

Class outing/bondind session/steamboat/BBQ/whateveryoucallit.
LIVE PRAWNS, Like they are alive and just put them with butter and kill them. Then the poor prawn gets cooked and eaten up. Delecious. Sat with Miss Ang and Mrs Goh, Shelia, Sheevonne, Chamaine Leong, Melody, Wen Qin. Took so much food pls. Wahahah..

Worship team BBQ. Frankly, there was not enough food. Some marshmallows were eaten without being melted, lol. While mine was totally burnt. I ate it anyway :D Sting ray! Yummy.

A problem. Between the few of us. It would be unwise to type it out. Let me say that the teachers have to be informed to avoid too much trouble. It wasn't me who wanted to change in the first place. No. Hurry up please.

I went to have a look at the handbell auditions. So many sec 1s. Talked to them and most of them were nervous, naturally. Thank God no one put as 5th choice. Or they can forget about joining. Heard from 1 of them that Mr Fong's not teaching in the primary school anymore. Hopefully he'll be guiding and training us next year. =Gold with honours=.

thelast thing i want to see is this
why is it like that??
can't you stay away from ...., or go find someone else?
nevertheless
i shall concentrate on my studies and try hard not to be bothered by you and you

Over

Yeah, it's over. Had been so busy with rehearsals "that now i kinda feel lost not doing anything for a while... haha.. its was a great time though..:D" That was taken from someone's blog, I find it very true.

Esperanza was not much of a success. When the sermon started, LOADS of people stood up and left. Cast and dancers had to go in to sit there and give Melvin some support. It's very sad to see that they only go for fun stuff, and leave when the serious part comes in. Oh wells. Guess it just takes time for them to learn to sit through the whole program. The adults one on Sunday was shocking. The whole sanctuary, packed with people, some even had to stand or drag extra chairs and sit at the back. It was scary and made me feel a little nervous. Haha, but it's OK since i took off my specs, that made the audience seem less scary. They were very responsive, that's good. :)

I want to be involved in next year's Christmas evangelistic event!

Merry Christmas to all, and thanks a million for your prezzies :) Brownie from A, K and B tasted yummy, wish there was more.
(chewits! i can't get enough of them...)

Hope I won't be changing cell next year. Love my cell a lot.

Few more days left and it'll be the end of this year! Which means have to go back to school soon. OH, and PC lessons for sec 1s, must prepare. Soon. To avoid last-minute preperations. Homework.... don't remind me.

Korean seaweed rocks. I don't watch the drama, I eat their seaweed.

My braces. The next colour would be pink! Don't ask why.

Time: 12.53am

!!!!!!!!!

HEY!
HAY!




















i know you still can't see, just click on it.

ESPERANZA is open to all, and that includes YOU. Unless you're below 11 yrs old...
Redardless of race, language or religion. It's gonna be great! Grab a friend to accompany you, and don't forget to contact me if you're coming :) This will be the most exciting event of the year, definitely better that waiting to get your results!!!
So what are you waiting for? Drop me a message! Or leave your footprints behind at my (boring) tagboard. It's Christmas man! W00teh. Come and enjoy or sit at home to collect dust, or roam the crowded streets and risk getting banged by people. YOU decide ;)

Something, someone

You know what? I know you don't know so I'm telling you now.

I have a boyfriend. He's the cutest thing you can find on earth. He'll die without me. He is....... ....... ........

my rabbit, August.

HAHAHA.
He's weird. Joey passed me a bunny water bottle. I put that and his own bottle at for him and went off to Bangkok. My grandmother dropped by at my house, and said that August doesn't want to drink from Joey's bottle, he only wants his own. Even when his bottle is empty and he's really thirsty, that stubborn ball of fur just refuses to drink from another bottle. -.-
Just 2 days ago, my maid helped me to fill up August's bottle. and he bit her.
I cleaned up his "land" so many times, stuck the broom in to sweep up that area, even stepped over the fence thing and into his "land" to disturb him. No, he didn't bite me. LoL.
August likes to kick sawdust out of his potty for me to sweep and try to dig a hole at the corner of the balcony. He potty-trained himself. Surprise, surprise! 2 years ago, I put a box with sawdust into his cage for him to sleep in. So warm and nice, and HE SHITTED INSIDE IT AND SLEPT OUTSIDE THE BOX INSTEAD. I tried to make a comfortable part of the cage for him, but it seems that he likes to sleep in the open and shit in the box. I gave up. When he grew bigger, he got this part of the balcony to himself and was much happier. The cage is still there, with his potty and food in it. I leave the cage door open so he can hop in and out anytime he wants to.
I love my August.

Right.

I must remember that feedbacks are good and they help you to improve and work on your weak points, not to critise and make you feel bad. That's very important. If you keep thinking that you're lousy and everyone wants to say bad things about you, wake up. Now. Or you won't succeed in life. Take my word seriously, or regret not doing so.

time is 11.36pm.

iamnotfeelinggood

Just realised... that school's starting soon. I have less than a month to complete all my homework, school and tuition, to revise my work, go for rehearsals and performances, handbell pracs, perfect that piano piece, plan CIP for the sec 1s, prepare next year's PC lessons, start worrying about taking music, blah blah.

I'm should have realised this earlier. It's too late to regret not starting on all these last month.

I
AM
STRESSED

Panicking wont help to finish my homework, so there's no use doing that. What I need to do is stop staring at the computer and TV screen and pick up my books. Or drag myself to the church office and sit in front of the books and stacks of paper. I MUST move away from distractions, they can't fly away from me. Looks like I need my father to start nagging at me again.

There's a handbell performance on the 23rd, at night. And there MIGHT be a rehearsal. I better inform Joanne or Wan Hui soon, or risk getting kicked out. Jia Yan went on a holiday without informing them in advance and she was out of the drama. See how strict the sules are? Jolene's stricter too. Scarier.

I missed the camp.

Bangkok is nice and over-populated. The traffic is always jammed. Things there are very cheap, still can bargain. I bought a lot of things. Uncle Jimmy's family got the most things. The kids want to keep snakes as pets. o_O . In Singapore, it's stray cats. Over there is dogs. S'pore's much, much cleaner and greener. Now I know what people mean by 'clean and green city'. It is very difficult to find a dustbin there, and here, there are dustbins everywhere. I witnessed the elephant shitting. Yucks gross. Jetstar Asia is a small plane. Taking off is nice. HAhahaha.

Tomorrow will be a busy day for me.
Worship prac, Youth Ablaze service followed by rehearsal.

Wonder when's the next time I'll blog again.

time is 12.01AM, Saturday morning.
dunno where the time and day thing went to O_o

=)

Peer lites' camp/

Peanut Butter rocks! haha.. That's my group name.
I've learnt A LOT from the camp. Setting realistic goals, thinking positively, overcoming obstacles... Planning the CIP for the sec 1s will be the biggest headache. We can do it! It'd just the commitment and all that. After that still have to send Julia my schedule. -.-
We are divided into 4 groups. Each group has 2 mentors. Mine only has 1. Her name's Jianxin and she's studying in HWA CHONG JC!! All of us were like, staring at her with that shocked look when she told us that. Haha. Oh, and we have mentors because the programme is called YLPM, Youth Leaders and Mentors Programme. Yep.
The campsite was in Buona Vista, near Kent Ridge park, at NACLI, also called National Community Leadership Institute. It was the best, man. We slept on beds in air-con rooms with attatched bathrooms and each had our own room key card. Like hotel right? Jungle and Cave lodge were the best rooms. I got the Cave one! Special, got 2 toilets, and a platform for the beds. Bigger than the other rooms. (better than home, cos I don't have a single air con in my house. Now my father's planning to remove the TV, which leaves me with only textbooks and the computer.) That camp was damn slack la, 1.5h break for us to bathe and all that. That's like, so long, considering we had bathrooms in every room. Right. Enough about rooms.
There was this hike or adventure trail on the 3rd day at Kent Ridge park. Each pair in the group took turns to lead. One of the tasks was to crawl under the drain for dunno how many metres. That was the worst. I think not everyone did that. We had to climb over this wooden wall thing, which was obviously high for all of us. But it was fun! LoL.. If any of my group members see this they're going to scream at me... One stupid task was to count the number of wooden planks on the bridge. There were more than a thousand of them.
The trainers were all so nice. It was so sad to leave NACLI.
Reached home at 8+, there was a traffic jam.

Braces...
My dentist was on MC.
Persie's did the tightening for me.
Changed colour to light blue.

The musical in December is going to be great. Though I've not read through the script.
Do you think, a skinny person like me can dance?
I don't know.
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
Sec 2s are going to do a dance item as part of the musical. I"ll be involved in practices until Christmas. Sounds tough.
I can already hear a voice telling me, "You'll never know until you try. You can do it! Must stay positive!"
I seem to like hearing voices in my head -.- I had included them in my compo during the exam this year.

[Of course! Why didn't I think about this before??? LULU is ...... Stupid la haha.]

I'm not going for the camp. Kingdom settlers I think. Cos i'm going to Bangkok from the 1st to 4th of Dec. Those interested (The camp la, pig) :

When? 2-4 Dec
Where? LSBC
$$? free
no it's not free. wait long long eh.
How much? $35

It's the FIRST YPM camp! Be excited! BUt I can't. )= Thoguth I've never missed a single camp before.

Handbell preformance this Sunday, rehearsal on Saturday. Means I can't go for Youth Ablaze. Means I have to tell Ben or Christel. Means I need to ask them if need replacement. Means I have to look for one. Means if that peson cannot I must find someone else -.-

Captain Peanut!
We're the hero
We're gonna crush you down to zero
We will whack you
wirh our pillow
Until you become a soft marshmallow

blah blah. That's the cheer (=

Youth Ablaze

Right.
Today was the first service. I was totally exhausted and couldn't really concentrate during cell discussion and Melvin's sermon. Almost fell asleep. He sort of gave an introduction to this new change and the name. Like Ablaze and being on fire for God. Yah wasn't very alert.

Cell photos taken at the end of the service. No wonder they asked us to wear the same thing/theme. I think my cell was the best. Formal clothes. My skirt's close to beige (sp?) and the other girls (in my cell) wore a dark colour. Eeeeeeks. Shu Kai and Ivan toh wore the wrong thing. Zach mentioned to Kai wad. I was suddenly involved in their conversation. -.-

Today's worship. Still can la. But the musicians can't see the worship leader. And there were too many songs. The mic i was holding- cover/sponge too smelly. Drums can't really hear. Other than that, yeah it's okay. All of us were late for cell by 15 minutes. 1at time mah, can't expect everything to be perfect.

[just ended my game of tic tac toe with Kevin. Who won? of course it's me!]

Not going for 1st/2nd service tomorrow, there's tuition. You must be wondering, how come holiday still have tuition. Ha, it's to sort of prepare for next year, and the teacher says there's a lot to cover. I've seen the textbooks. They're definitely thicker than the sec 2 books. My 3B shou3 ce4 still haveb't buy yet. I'm prepared to get killed.

wanhui says there'll be a sec 2 graduation thing. I kind of expected that.

I want a Zen Microphoto. i want i want.
stop dreaming, you know that your parents can't afford it. They can't even get you a phone line. You have to continue to share the handphone with your mother. This makes it terribly difficylt for your friends to contact you, like Lai Theng and Grace tried to this morning. Wake up, Joyce, wake up.

Homework is piling up. Chemistry, maths, music, chinese, english....
i need to sit down and complete them. look at everyone else.

I want to say this:
Yes, I feel offended. But it's just that I don't show it.

church friends

5 hours of library work made me half-dead yesterday.

cell bonding was the best man.
though we waited more than half an hour for everyone to arrive. haha.. we had dinner at KFC, and talked about Chinese names. Everyone had a good time laughing. We mixed up all our leftover food - chicken bones, cheese, ice, ketchup, chilli and mixed them all up. LOL. ha we can be THAT gross.
Clarissa and Andrew went to get stuff for games, while the rest of us went to cold storage. It was cold.
or maybe it's me. I had been feeling cold even sitting at the basketball court.
302 made it even worse. The game forfeits were terrible but since i never kena at all, it was fun! Yah we had a good time of bonding, together with Stacia's cell. Oh they're quite pathetic. Onlt Dorita, Bryan, Cheryl and Denise slept over. Everyone played card games and monkey until almost 4am. Crazy right. I was different la, very guai one. I tried to sleep but cannot sleep, too noisy. Wanhui said i kept scaring her. She's very funny la! And got freaked out by Johanes who was wearing white and standing outside the door. 302 was like a freezer.

morning we woke up and did QT. 1/2 hr or QT. we prayed for a number of things. Yep. It's nice to do QT as a group. Then we had carrot sticks for breakfast and went for 1st service. Surprise that nobody dosed off, because of the lack of sleep.

Today's the last time we have youth/teens service on a Sunday. Kinda sad eh.
Worship was great, but Chris and Boon said singers were too soft. hello? i almost lost my voice, lol. But it'll be different at the 4th level.
Jacelyn came today. I was glad to see her, but she doesn't seem to feel very herself. Just look at her blog. i dunno what else i should do about this, but to pray. And I still got my other friends to be busy with. Last night when I was praying, I almost cried. That- is not for you to know.

Cell lunch at Macs. We did gross things again. (mixing sauce with ice, what else did you expect?) Were ballooning around with Kara's cell. Those little kids balloons. Discussed what we're wearing, and it's formal clothes! Oh. My. Rabbit. That will mean spending $$$$ on clothes. For a suitable blouse and skirt. Skirt! I never wear skirts. Darn. Kara's cell so much nicer lor, they're wearing jeans and dunno what shirt.

Kara's cell and me the extra were standing outside Macs talking rubbish. What dog grow long ears, rabbit bark and suck the tortoise out of the shell. Errr? HahA.
I had intended to walk around heartland mall with Clarissa. (I'm really sorry!)
But then Charmaine and Jia Yan wanted to go to my house, and Jon Soh had to go for a haircut. So Ben Thia and Chong Yang ( a bit ----- lah) went with him, then went to my house. I pity my piano. And the neighbours. Thanks so someone, hah. Still think he very smart when can't even play scales.

This year's sec 2s rock. [stone][reminds me of persie]

results

Lets learn to be positive and satisfied with whatever God has given to us.
In my case, He put me in 3C2


subjects:
English
Chinese
E maths
Bio/Chem
SS/Lit
Geography
Principles of Accounts
and Music! my choice, this one...

3C1 is pure literature and elective geog.
C1 and C2 -- POA, art and F&N
Meaning when it's time for these lessons the class will split
since POA is a new subject, i might be able to score here.
I wanted to take A Maths. Too bad.

Worship prac today. This Sunday will be the last Sunday YPM servive.
It will change to Saturday next week, at the L4 auditorium. By the way, no more Young People Ministry, it's now Youth Ablaze! Seriously, doesn't sound very nice..
I came back home from church feeling as if I had just ran 10km. Exhausted.

tomorrow ah,
7.30am meet up with friends go Delifrance eat the breakfast buffet.
11am go compass point library for NYAA service
4.30pm rush home
6pm meet cell members at the church for your bonding thing
sleepover!

Good news! With the help of the Lord, I managed to get Jacelyn to come to church! But I won't be able to meet her, must ask Clarissa to do it.
HAppy is me.

:)

Lord, thank you for friends. Thank you once again, for people around me.
Didn't expect them to come and tag and give encouragement too.
Ah. I feel blessed.

I've learnt to become more confident when leading or speaking to a group after going for the peer lites' camp. They taught us a lot of stuff, including how to handle difficult students. Next year's peer lites are going to organise a class outing AND class CIP. meaning ours would be done for the year if we did it with the sec 1s.
Proposals. I/Cs. Budget, food, admin....
Sounds stressful.

Taking music next year.

I'm happier with the new worship roster.
Looks better. hah. The last time i was 'on duty', it was a disaster, man. ZAO XIA.
I have learnt that, warming up before practice and the service is very, very important. Or else... I dare not think about it.

I see....... a busy year ahead of me.....

even the holidays. my schedule is gradually getting packed.

(Interesting, both Chris and Jon signed in together. :p)

I cannot bear to split up with the class. We've been so together.
When I look back, it's actually very sad to see that we'll not be able to laugh, joke or be serious with certain things together.
It's the bond between us. Those times... When we made the teachers scream at us, when a whole lot would be sent outside the class for not doing homework (includig me), when we secretly ate in class, when we put our heart and soul into decorating the classroom for CNY and the safari, when we planned for the programme for the Child at Street 11 CIP, when we helped one another with the various happenings in our lives this year. Thinking of Wynn as the mermaid, getting 3rd for dunno what, raising the most money in the level for walk-a-jog, getting the cleanest class for a few weeks, preparing for Kar Mun's farewell party. Not forgetting Miss Ho, who was always scolding us when we wereout of our minds.
2c1. 2c1. haiz..
i love 2c1.

right.

get ready for more handbell practices. There's a performance on the 27 of Nov and 23 Dec. Be happy! okayy, yay i'm very happy.

looking forward to the day when i can see all my close friends --------, ----------- in the ----- -- ---. Better still, everyone I know.

Pamela and Rachel are very nice people. Ther were my group leaders for the camp.

angry or sad?

i am FOURTEEN this year.
FOURTEEN, 14
yet i'm getting whacked, caned, beaten up, scolded. i swear the entire block could actually hear all the commotion. people who got higher marks than me and still complain about being lousy, how are those who flunked supposed to feel? what about me? a total idiot who cannot do well for english, math, science, history..? going to take music next year, and i've no idea how on earth can that help me. i hate it when parents scold and instead of giving encouragement, end up getting beaten up. why are they always comparing me with the A class students? for some subjects, i have done a little more than expected. i'm getting the idea of myself being an idiot. it's hard to avoid the cane or beating. again, i'm 14. not 4. they want me to go to a university which is like, impossible, and get some degree when i can't even get a B3 for english maths and science.
if i'm wasting their money on tuition fees, then why are they still letting me have tuition?
right now, i'm left in a state of confusion. this, or that, or what.

the one who scolded me the F word isn't making my life easier either.
please, be more sensitive towards other people's feelings.
just because your results are good, that does not give you the
right to shoot vulgarities at your targets. you have absolutely no
idea how much you've hurt them

it's best not to hate someone. the feeling that the world hates you is, horrible. it'll be good if we all treated FL with a little more patience and be warmer, not colder. she can be quite nice.

life is unfair, but we still have live on. no one can change it except God. no matter how much effort i put in, those demanding parents of mine will never be satisfied. i'll continue to be caned till the age of 21. how's that.

I'm a failure

just got SA2 results, and they suck.
my english and science are like, shit
i failed history.
chinese is bad, my tuition teacher's going to KILL me.
---
just calculated my final marks, and
0.8 MARKS TO MY A MATHS!!!!!!!!!!
i'm going to ask my mother to appeal.
and i failed bio, which was a total disappointment, that has always been my best subjects.
so it's physics/chem for me.
pure geog, lit sucked. so much for long essays.
maths, i was surprised, that i was actually the one of the 1/5 of the class who passed.
thought i would fail.
art, also thought will fail.
chinese paper 1 die lor... almoST failed.
art is a NO for me. enough of banana.

i dunno whether to hate or love myself.

founder's day

yep.
i think we did quite well
ethel was half asleep during the sermon, lol.
we got scolded by a teacher when we returned to school.
i shall not elaborate
but he went mad, totally, like competing with the rain.
*seals my lips*

played badminton with joey yesterday, the shuttlecock (?)
kept hitting the cars.
thank God neighbours did not come out and complain.
today prepared the costume for safari day.
a bit.
my class is so united pls.
our child at street 11 cip photos appeared on the screen with mrs lee saying what we did. those were the times. loads of prep work for it. and the kids who kept wanting to go to the toilet. ahahah.

say "yay".

hello2

as i was saying,
i'm angry with myself for those dumb results.

the rehearsal.. was like so ( what ?) lah! was one of the worst, ever.
give thanks was damn messy?
we seemed disorganised, lost, whatever...
hurrrrrrr
choir not bad lah, but i still prefer bells.
elizabeth, the pro. her fingers are like, whoa.
founder's day service at plmc. nice change.
i still can't see how the whole school including staff and guests
is going to squeeze in. unless they remove the walls.
impossible.

went to eat fries with ling ying. that person put so much salt.
then dunno where to walk.
"left or right?" "anywhere lah." "quick , upstairs or downstairs?!"
"you say where you want to go!" "hurry!" "no, you decide! anywhere also can!"
lol
ended up in poular. we were looking around, then went to look at the monopoly
and computer stuff.
and ling spotted mr fong.
verry funny ah. it was the 2 instructors.
HAHAHA
we tried to hide from them and see what they were doing.
ling waid they took a lot of scotch tape?
we wanted to go out of popular. they were paing money then.
"faster run before they see us!!"
unfortunately, uh....
so unlucky can. saw them at the escolator try and run again,
out of their sight.
ended up running out of heartland mall. like police and thief.

i need to buy rabbit food.
someone accompany me?
or by bunny will starve.

hello

exams are over, yay.

I CANNOT TYPE PROPERLY.
COS I'M IN THE SCH LIBRARY.

anyway, my point is that the end time is coming. i think almos all Christians think so.
tsunami, hurricane, earthquake, dengue....
don't you think so?
and also people who claim that they are the Son of Man
in other words, false prophets. global warming is getting worse too.
perhaps. the time is near. near...
the unsaved have to be saved, soon, or we'll all regret not doing so.
man.. the horrors of hell.
maybe, God has prompted me to do it. they're stressing the importance in church,
and in my devotional book.
perhaps, perhaps

YPM service going to change from Sunday to Saturday, 4-9pm
Which makes life harder for me. Worship practices, CCA, dental appointments,
tuition......
more than a hundred things are going through my tiny lil' brain.

violin results
merit.
JUST three more marks to distinction!!!!
how can i not be angry?!
and piano



i'll talk later, bus is here.
to plmc.

bellers!

yesterday was the day.
played 'give thanks' and 'you are my all in all' twice in PLMC. they actually recorded our songs!
eeeeks! my hair was wuite messy, haha.
i saw miss ho there. and didn't know miss koh was a worship leader there.
i still prefer LSBC :)

we went to Pasir Ris Elias CC. dumped the bells, tables, scores, cusions, stands, skirttings in the ''storeroom''.
and changed in the 1st holding area. lunch at macs. had a good time tricking each other into thinking that something was happenning when there wasn't.
LOL.
back to the CC, and it was a different holding room. with a bunch of irritating freaks.
who kept annoying us and making lots of noise, while we were trying to study.
[hilary kept wanting to show off on the piano, even in their presence]
they went out, like after a looooooong time and we had the room to ourselves. they played games and i tried to study on the piano.
unsuccessfully.
for the same reason, hilary insisted on opening up the piano. i got a little pissed.
then into the small changing room for a quick nap.

we got scolded from mrs wong for holding the others up and being disorganized.
scary man. but when it comes to scolding individuals, *ahem*, i rather not say it here.
all of us were in a foul mood during dinner.
(there's seriously too much to say, i'll cut it short)
we were early for the thing, so sat backstage and played hand games. dunno who said we're very early. scared late mah, after the scolding.
good thing was-
SAW AARON AZIZ!!!!! haha.
melissa went mad over that.
it was one of the worse performances ever. but i think we didn't show any
shit i played wrong note kind of face.

the bus got all of us back to serangoon. i tried to get more people to go prataing with us.
no use lah. me, rachel, des, ling ying and hilary walked outside, past the school.
freaky things started to happen. we saw the handbell room lights on! looked carefully and guess what/who we saw. nothing! no human, at least. and it was strange, we always remember to turn off the lights. can't be the alumni.. orr someone would have spotted the lights on when they reached the school in the morning. neither could it switch itself on...
desiree went back in a taxi, which leaves the rest of us walking towards the prata shop. next thing we saw-- a pair of silver high heel shoes! no, they weren't spoiled.the bus stop was empty, except for the few of us, and we were like, ghost! and ran.
then, picked up a ngee ann poly ezlink card. rachel's parentswere going to sent it to the police i think. maybe the card belonged to someone who's -gulp- dead! riiiight.

today, lao shi forgot about ting xie! w00t.
oral changed to this friday. fish lah.
3 assignments due this week. D&T, IT, and art. lets hope that ms hazelin can take over art this friday. that'll be wonderful.i dunno how on earthj i'm going to complete these three.plus exams to juggle. somebody, kill me.

wanton mee for lunch. with sarah, jasmine nd joey. k lah they are nice people. unlike those in the room with us yesterday. and then we did maths at mac.
they went over to my house for a movie
i know! feeling guilty, wer're supposed to be studying.

i'm sleepy.

YOU MUST READ THIS

church is a nice place. lsbc in particular.
just saying hello to people makes you feel good.
there's newspapers. to read, obviously.
and there's the small room to study in.
sweets at the reception.

ah. and no, that's not some kind of poem.

i went there today. ( i went on tuesday, wednesday, thursday and today) saw the yuying gb girls again. they are nice people. nice and friendly. very soon i'm going to make friends with the whole brigade.
lol!
yah.. and they kept laughing and saying silly things. thankfully, while i was studying, they were quiet. almost. and when one of them is noisy, they would say,"oii, ren jia yao study lah!" and they start laughing. really, quite fun ppl . in my opinion, better than xinmin gb girls, from what i went through during sec 2 camp.

i overheard something. christel said she wanted to have 4 kids! and beatrice went for some party at sentosa. both were feeling tired. pearlyn said she wanted to get a job? something lke that. and was looking for ads in the papers.

you know what?
the last time i had fever, i had most of the symtoms of dengue fever.
i had the fever for almost a week.
my eyes were painful.
nauseous, but did not puke.
this spotty thing broke out. like rash.
i had totally no appetite.
felt very weak.
maybe i had dengue. but must thank God that nothing serious happened to my family. or else..
well i dare not even think about it. now what we really need is God's protection over Singapore. this is becoming like SARS. looks like sth must happen to our country. just when i thought we were lucky, protected against natural disasters, along came the dengue breakout. perhaps the End Times's coming. i can feel it. look at the news, man. hurricane katrina, typhoon in japan, plane crash in jarkata, fever in singapore, tsunami just the end of last year... don't you think God is working on something? to destroy the earth...?

time is running out. repent, accept Christ as your Lord and Saviour. He died so that you can have eternal life-- life after death. you might have heard this many times, and now you're seeing it at my blog. this means only one thing. a confirmation that it's time to turn to God. i don't mean to insult anyone here. remember the seventh month? when people were terrified of this and that? 'hungry ghosts'? think about it. Christians didn't do anything, life went on normally. no 'offerings' were made. nothing strange or bad happened. we didn't follow those rules like when someone calls you, don't turn around.. or be home before dark. nothing! we weren't scared scared of it! we had God's assurance, that those traditions were not going to affect us, and there was nothing to be afraid of. of course nothing happened.

when you accept Christ, all you need to do is pray. i'll advice you to look for someone to help. pray, i'ts simple. pray with a willing heart. no need for any ceremony or anything. when you ask for forgiveness, God will forgive, just make sure you don't make the same mistake again. you don't have to ask God to punish you for sinning, or expect a disease to strike, and say later that it's your punishment. no, our Father isn't that -well- cruel, he won't do something like that.

if you are wondering, like, what proof do i have to show that God is real, i have a few.
(this sounds stupid). i prayed for God to control my shit before. and that happened a few times. once, in malacca, i couldn't find a toilet and it was like an "emergency case". i prayed, and believed, and God helped me.
many years ago, when i was just born, my parents brought me to this 'master tan' thing, to make predictions, or i-dunno-just-what-it-is. he cursed me, saying that i'll be coughing for many years, and many bad things about me. true enough, i coughed for that few years of my life.this was recorded in a book. then my parents became Christians, some people from the church came over. they prayed over that record or curses and idols, them, and my cough stopped miraculously. there.
there's this healing room thing in my church, those who needed to be healed of some sicknese went there, they were prayed for. Doctor Jesus healed, they were alright. it's truem and it's not black magic.

if you need any more information, feel free to email me
at joyce_ca_hahaha@yahoo.com.sg

cheers!




WOW. i evangelised at my blog. wonderful. i wanted to just make and ordinary entry, talking about what i did, and how i felt. but i just wonder if this would work. not many ppl come here. at least i make an attempt to get ppl saved, not spend my time typing this out on neopets. hey, it's not easy to even think of something which might help bring more people into the kingdom of God. everyone's stubborn, or stick to their own belief of " i believe that there is me, myself and i", or "there is no God," so it would be good if a non-Christian comes here and turns to Christ. all credits to the Lord, He helped me type this.

interesting, how God can change your mood throgh a blog. i was just posting angry thoughts in another more private journal/diary/blog. and thought maybe just update this one in a happier tone. and BOOM. i don't remember typing so much in two months. (:

exams are drawing nearer each day. we should use whatever time is left to study and then it's over, and pllaaaaaaaaaaaayy!

lol. see ya in a few days ;)

oi

today they did the thermal fogging thing around my area. air pollution!! but that's to kill unwanted guests. un-tahanable, the smell.

finally washed my rabbit's cage.

i went to church yesterday and today to study. will be going tmr and the day after. anyone who's interested in studying with me, do not hesitste to email me.
i had just started my work, when mr. ho came out and said there's practice at 5.30. stupid, i still thought it's friday or saturday. haha. end up is today. . and then Faith (ong, not leong).. hmph. or.. maybe she's. why me? and she said,"**..blah**..blah," and i think she's just trying to make grace and i feel better. i'm not angry or anything, no. but. HAIZ. nevermind. :p

i sorta promised. right? there.

GRINT.



lazy to find.
and you. you who are reading. you must tag. you can make my day by tagging. i'm not like those famous ppl who get lots of visitors everyday.

feel like changing the skin.

hello

friday. i was eating... rice. and then i saw a coin. i continued eating the rice around the coin, being careful not to touch it. the next thing i knew was, there was another coin. lucky? i'm not sure. $1.50 in my bowl of rice. almost like getting it for free.

don't wanna talk about my results. dissappointing.

and now. presenting....

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JAMES AND OLIVER PHELPS!!
they're so cute! :)



this one's nice






















well that's all for now.

next, rupert grint. and maybe more helpings of the phelps twins.

hey

i'm listening to my piano exam pieces on CD. Allegro and Bagatelle- die. why's the tempo so fast hurr. taking exam on tuesday! super scared pls. and oh i'll have to miss the visiting of primary school teachers. sad :((

cyberweek discussion. more than 50 pages. and i was the one editing and shrinking it to 4 pages. not easy lor. haha then tania and i were arguing over who should speak chinese. like, YOU . you . you you you you. end up both of us will take turns in 2 diff reports or scenes. not that bad lah.

methodist get-together!. absolutely rocked. the mgs pri teacher conducted and it was worse than s***. oops. then when mr fong conducted.. you know lah, everything was in order, the timing, dynamics.... after the performance, went to eat prata with ling ying and rachel came to check on us. then walked to the 136 bus stop and took a bus home.

that was a happy thing. of course i was still in a good mood when i reached home. and then my father mentioned the physics quiz, which i failed miserably, and scolded me for still being happy when i got that kind of mark. then what do you expect? frown ah. cannot feel happy ah. show sad face all the time ah. siao! no way.. i wasn't going to let the marks ruin my mood, esp after the mgt. he's like, scolding me everyday... i'm even banned from reading books. except bible and textbooks. HaHA. (sacarsm) so much for encouraging us to read books. i'll still continue to read, tho.

i quit violin already. forced to quit because of the exams. wtf.

my

my mother's being over-sensitive. siblings just went up to a neighbour's house to play. and she went up and scolded them and brought them home and scolded again. same rule, cannot go to anyone's house. that's the reason why i can't go anywhere. and projects had to be done ay my house. this sounds ridiculous.

it has been a hard and killing week for me.
last friday, came back from funan and had a fever. skipped worship prac on saturday cos of the fever. didn't go to church, fever. at night made an attempt to study for history test on monday. I went to school, still feeling very sick. what to do.. all thanks to funan the IT mall. tuesday also lah, same. during violin -- unbearable. temp went up to 38.4. piano lesson was bad, since i felt terrible. missed school yesterday, fever 38.1 deg. i was half-dead and decided i could not make it (to school, not the coffin). slept the whole morning. glanced at the clock every 1 hour. then.. 1.45. thought maybe had energy to get up and go to the pri school for handbell. went home halfway when i couldn't take it.

i have the nicest seniors in the world. sec 4s... they're leaving.. i don't want them to! who does? it was no big deal, just me being sick.. and they were telling me to go home and stuff. not forgetting wanyi and the other sec 3s. all of them are nice. except one person who's always trying to get herself more notes..

lai theng came over to my house yesterday after basketball to pass me the list of homework and a present. that's awfully nice of her to do that.. and writing DnT things down which, unfortunately, is not understood by me. still, i thank God for friends around me who care. someone like lai theng is hard to find.

today is a nice day. saw the orthodontist. she looks ok.. big eyes. i had the option to go for a jaw surgery... some problems with it. but it's a very borderline case, so i didn't want to. yep. got to school, saw miss gan and had to tell her that i was at the national dental centre. jessica yip gave me something. quite unexpected. heh.. she's my ex-partner. i know you know that. the class sang me a birthday song. 2c1 rocks. my neighbour is my new partner. yes, that's joey.she wanted to borrow my com..?? but my parents brought me out to watch 'the maid'. wonder if she's done her art...

that's all i've got to say for now. maybe i'll get SARS when i return from funan tomorrow....

long

things happen when i'm mad. really mad.
shan't elaborate. but there's something i want to share.
i'm sick and tired of getting scolded everyday. the whole block knows what's happening in my house.
(thanks A LOT, man.)
i get scolded over the tiniest thing. fish it.
was supposed to go for festival of praise with my cell.
i had to miss the whole thing.
while my friends were enjoying themselves, i had to be a goody-goody lil' girl, staying at home and studying her brains out.
nagging ans scolding. everyday. i've had ENOUGH.

yes. enough of that.

Kar Mun's gone for a week. sigh. can sense that not everyone's missing her.

orthodonkey appointment on my birthday next week. there's also a lit test. some birthday that is. anyway, i've waited two years to see a donkey. finally. and quickly get braces on.

think i've made up my mind. continue to be a peer lite. this means be more responsible with my work and all... it'll be fun to help sec 1s. however, no guarantee(??). only God knows if He wants to give me this position.

last Saturday, had a damn hard time at the library, putting up with the librarians' nagging. a whole FIVE hours. at least i did various types of work. packing (20 books per box), sorting (the easiest one of all), and shelving. BORING. which reminds me. write in the NYAA diary, before all the details float away with my music notes while practicing.

Monday, national day celebration. yeah.. some celebration that was. went off at 8.30AM. then to McDonald's with Jessica Lay and Shu En. and i took the bus. wrong direction... all the way to ANG MO KIO. darn. then went back to hougang. home. then heartland mall. took neos with yuhui, zelia, jiahui and yuting. retarded faces, all of us. especially mine. one look, and you'll be rolling on the floor, and into the toilet, smelling the toilet bowl. crapss. sakae sushi. we kept irritating the waiter, haha. "excuse me...", "excuse me, i want this ...". frankly, we made a damn lot of noise. laughing and joking. "excuse me, how come my chawanmushi so long ah?" lol... who ask them to charge 10% for service. and i bought monopoly! the fake one, duh.

today got tuition.

yesterday, the barbecue. (thanks to miss loh, i always thought that it was spelt as barbeque)
fun. taufik and rui en look good together. maybe they'll become an item... nice.
i didn't eat much. the few of us played with my fake monopoly. we had fun.

"stress is the word that describes how everyone is feeling right now. schoolwork; tests;cca;datelines;tuition;piano exami shall not complain x)"

that was taken from melissa's blog. i agree. school work, tests, quizzes, cca, tuition, piano exam, violin exam, projects... they are never ending. NEVER.i feel like killing myself, then i would not have to face all these. and i'm only in sec 2. go to school, "english project how?", "geog project how?", "art how?". still got sec 4 farewell this sat and kar mun's last farewell party on sunday. there. a weekend gone. save me from this terrible dream. oh yeah, i'm dreaming... wake up and it'll all be over.

YAH RIGHT.

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today's practice at the primary school rocked. assigned to new bells. my fingers were pain, and the whole hand was super red. just holding bells. some more those were the smaller bells. i admire the way wanyi does it. esp at the complicated part. like, whoa.. plus not complaining about hand pain, not like me. now, just thinking of the little bells make me go stiff.

i think the song sounded fantastic. and it will sound better if all three schools are combined together. am i suay or what, both pieces of paper (scores ?) kena written on by mr fong. 1 piece is he used a marker and now i cant see the other side with the notes. how sway can i get. oh yaa just now i got home and realised no key. so i was trapped outside. welllll. it's getting late. good night!

herr herr herr herr herr herr herr herr herr herr herr

ohmy

oh. my. gosh.

i can't believe that. i just cannot. i sacrificed so much time on a book. a book called harry potter and the half-blood prince. it's 12am, there's a test today (as today is monday). i got the book yesterday, at $40 with a $10 voucher and a rubbish little bag worth $3.90.
anyway.
the train stations yesterday were crowded like anything, which reminded me of miss tan. yeah, miss t². about s'pore being over-populated. true, true.
i spotted a mistake in the book. Rowling was put 'Rupert' instead of 'Ron'. RRRRRs.
it's so sad.. the person whom we least expected...... died. and all that stuff about voldermot. and malfoy and the room of requirments. the death eaters. you might think all these are junk. but these junk kept my eyes glued to the book for hours. the author has a way to make you want to go on reading, like yesterday i was reading on the sofa and fell asleep and woke up on the sofa. duh, i slept there. snape. dumbledore trusted him too much. how could he. so harry was right after all. i urge people to get this book, only if there is time to read it. don't end up like me, plastered to it and forgot to study for geog test.

seriously, i was quite surprised after seeing the 3 tags from seniors. like so.. unexpected. my blog has been abandoned, in a way... like no one tagged for a long time. didn't expect ppl to pop by here, while i went around tagging 'hello.'s. am i feeling embarrased? no. not used to it, maybe.

still very uncomfortable, for the fact that i've wasted my time on a harry potter book.

i am very stressed out, it's another busy week ahead of me. my parents' cell bonding is this saturday, i don't know what kind of games we are going to play. it's not easy being the planner. i've yet to approach mrs teo regarding basketball, for fear of being reprimanded about baking out last minute. but what choice do i have, it seems like handbell is more important, you know... i can't possibly persuade her to change the time, right? and not forgetting piano and violin exams.. there's not enough time to even lay hands on my instruments. i'm not even reading my bible and praying. distractions, temptations are blocking my way, and i cannot avoid the pile of activities i am having.

*faints*
(i did not take an hour to post this, i paused and read up about empoldering and land reclamation, pig.)

eeeeeeekkkkks

yuck yuck yuck yuck yuck my brother just showed me the stuff from his nose. so gros pls!

there are a no. of things to thank God for
1) My ezlink card has been found! but not too sure abt the wallet . God answered my prayers.
2) Simon's mom is better now.
3) 1 salvation last Sunday!
4) New exco's elected.
5) Lit, physics and chem tests are over! not too much to worry for the week.
6) YPM worship team! we so rock.
7) new timetable, so PE's not after recess and i can, once again, eat as much as i like w/o worrying abt puking

there is something i want to say.. [it's my blog i can say anyone i want to, duh]
NEVER EVER SUPPORT NKF
even came out in the papers today. about that chief. some chief he is. 1k on a tap. toilet bowl from Germany. siao! like hello it's just a toilet why use the money meant for patients to get a toilet like this. my mother has always disliked NKF and she knows the company is dishonest, even before the article came out. i agree with miss loh for once. no good to have the artises risk their life doing stunts when all the money raised goes to an idiotwho spends them all on himself? has anyone ever stopped to think, NKF raises so much money every year, where does all the money go to? there's enough for the victims of these horrible diseases, isn't there? aren't we all being very stupid? i think we are. yah really, a few million is definitely enough to help them. but every year it seems the patiens do not benifit from the fund. the money flies into the company's ever-stretching pocket. ridiculous. i rather donate to the community chest.

A few birthdays in August..
8- Shu En
13- Yu Ting
15- Jiahui
16 ( i think) - Zelia
18- Mine and Melissa Png's.

there's more, just that i can't remember. :) now i remember something. there's some dumb research to do on technology, for a compo test tmr. for what? for english. either i don't like the teacher, or the HODs for giving tons of tests. research. a pain

i seem to be complaining about everything. don't forget i've had some things to give thanks.

hey

it seems like months since i last posted.

so many things have happened. too many.
chapel performance is over, i think we sucked for the sec 1 chapel. overall, it wasn't good. [i bet christabel was grinning her head off when she heard us. ]

new exco has been chosen. i want to congratulate wanyi, wenxin, lynette and melissa png. though i know desiree is very disappointed. my heart goes out to her. (eeks this sounds so... bleh.) of all the sec 4s, i think i'll miss melissa chua the most. she's da best. that's my opinion.

methodist get together, founder's day... practices with the primary school on wednesdays 2.30 to 3.30!!! i am SO dead. we were informed of this only after i signed up and paid for basketball for nyaa. that starts at 3. what am i going to do???? leave the pri sch at 3.15 and rush back reach at 3.45, and miss 45 mins of it? i really don't know. very confused..i don't think i have the money to take a cab as well... hrrr. there's so much going on, i don't even have the time to worry about the upcoming physics, chemistry and lit tests which are on the same day. plus that pressure from jacqueline to practice my violin and from my piano teacher to practice.. ahhhhhhh. shitto. how how. exams are next month you know.then there's the handbell performances, exams, and on the 1st saturday of sugust 5 hours of library work. and what about my friends' birthdays? in my clique some more? still have their presents to settle. little me juggling giant things. i feel like an ant again. this time it's a slave and under pressure. and it's the queen ant who's giving lots of work. the more i think of it, the more i'm scared. not forgetting my studies. they're more important. streaming. this batch of sec 2s is not as easy as you think. i'm in a C class. go ahead, look down on me. oh God, please help.

today er is yesterday i went to do shelve books at the library again. the librarians are so naggy. "you must straighten the books..." "no no no, don't take the books from there, that one haven't return.." hellooo? the other librarian saw me taking the books from the right shelf. " "why so slow? do faster lah...." still have to put up with them for another 10 hours. mind you, we're not your slaves. and the kids. mess up the books. see already can get headache. so it is very important to put the books back at the right place, after you browse through them. and when dumping books into the bookdrop, do it slowly. or it'll cause a jam. return the books to the library you borrowed from. like, borrow from hougang return to hougang. it's a lot of work, having to return the books to other branches and packing them up.

i grabbed a burger and went to the bus stop. with lai theng. waited for 153, reached church at 4.30 for the bonding thing. more like retreat.observed the main team (adults) how they practiced. there was this thing, you had to"punch" together.ahem. for us singers it was something from sue ern, teaching us about harmonising and voice production and warming up and all that.. i think we did ok.the 'tsk tsk' one was hard. a little. oh yah and she also like got us to sing scales (only the 1st 3 notes accending and desending [did i spell it correctly]) and she took down our voice range, but still haven't tell us who's alto and soprano. harmonising was fun, but it wasn't our first time doing it. we know what it's like.
all of us went back to the chapel and "jammed". joel led, dunno who played drums bass and guitar, charmaine and sheena played the keyboard and the rest of us shared the mic.5 ppl share 2 mikes. and dinner. pizzas, thank my pa melvin for paying. [don't forget, wendy is still my mummy] and the biggest eater goes to......... ling jia's brother. for finishing up the leftover pizzas. haha. hey that's the 1st haha in today's entry.
a time of worship led by boon yeow. when the entire team worshipped and sang out to God. hen hao. and something from melvin, he taught us abt some stuff. which he waill repeat tmr. then go home. christel still ask me to call her when i reach home. aww. isn't that nice. lol..

yesterday, no, yesterday the yesterday, had violin "lesson". by jac. wah want to die eh. practice in 2a1 classroom. when i went up to class to get my stuff, i could hear someone shout stop and the violin sound. so loud eh. so my pieces are A:2, B:1 and C:1. grade 2 aural. i forgot what it's like. piano teacher must help me. only know that it's definitely much easier than grade 6 aural. hahahaha. the violin was so loud, i could even hear it while walking out of the school gate, and to the bus stop where i met xi ying and took the bus together then i dropped at the church stop and went to the office to complete maths homework and then went to the chapel for worship prac. which was until 8. charmaine and i had dinner with christel and jon and rachel and her bf, dunno who, who got dinner for us. FOC. i feel bad, still going to pay.

wah very early hor, sunday liao leh. i'm awake. let's see... pearlyn is also awake. church one laa. for me, thank God for the day and go to bed. i don't want to be late tmr. i mean, today.

yo

yesterday night. 3 cheers for it! took the bus with last year's sec 4s, elizabeth's batch, uncle david and auntie maggie, jia yan, my mother n father, and some others. we reaached there late, so hundreds of eyes were glued on us when we strolled in. so embarrasing pls.. but anyway.

the worship was fabulous. the choir, dancers, musicians and flags. yeah, i said flags. God must be extra delighted to see most of His christians here gather here to pray for Asia and praising Him as one nation. Personally, i think ppl my age are too young to knock on neighbours' doors and preach... no one is too young to do His work, though. as a start, i think we should try to bring our cliques to Christ, then the rest of the classmates, then other school mates, and then when we are confident enough then to our block.

East Timor. it reminds me of the clay marble book. seems as if they're having a war there. it's the youngest and poorest nation in asia. as we look back, we are reminded abt how S'pore gained independence. our country's very blessed. look at her today. only 40 but so advanced. walk down the streets, observe ppl and all the more we think they should know Jesus.

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i'm going to the library later.
after that metting up with my friends to do art.

monday is youth day, supposed to be a rest day.
unfortunately, no rest for me. meeting up again to do geog project.

tuesday, go for handbells
then fly to yamaha for piano lesson.

wednesday
the performance

thursday, this teacher made it COMPULSORY for all of us to go for eng remedial. not all of us are free lorh. and i still have tution on that day.

friday, thank goodness i'm free.

saturday, on some saturdays, worship prac and now they want to make violin lessons on saturday mornings.

sunday, church, for the rest of the day, work.

so you see, i'm that busy. now there's angklung. i really want to join but i can't. i just can't. there's too many activities. plus going to start the basketball course soon.

hi

uuurgh.. stupid boon yeow made do it alone, or solo whatever. i think i sucked. and the mic/mike was so loud. so horrible pls.. but i'm doing it for God lah, so it's not that bad after all.

there's a worship team bonding next next sat. (should be called 'retreat') christel says it's until at night. and i have to go to toa payoh library to do shelving.. so maybe i join them at 9am, go off at 11.15am, and back again at 3 plus. i'll miss out so much, but don't want to shange the shelving date cos it may be inconvinient for jessica lay and lai theng.

homework! i'm going nuts. all sorts of nuts. pistacho nuts, cashew nuts... you name it.
the darn puppet has yet to be completed. and there's lit character analysis. and maths. i bet my seniors are also in the midst of completing theirs. as for me, it's a huge truck i'm carrying. don't know when i can release it. (truck is my version of burden lah, pig)

i dread going back to school. get up at six, rush out of the house, try and catch the early 136, run into the classroom, talk, waste time, copy homework do some homework, wait for the prefect to switch off the lights, go for assembly, sit in the sun and read, then LESSONS, recess, AND MORE LESSONS.. then lunch and my after school activities. it's a daily routine, but definitely not boring- TIRING.

my parents got bus ticket for me for this friday without telling me. am i supposed to be pissed? i don't want to go with them, i want to go with my cell. that is, IF they're going. otherwise maybe jia yan's cell wouldn't mind me joining them...

hello

i'm back, after what seemed like ten years.

something like grounded. my father didn't allow me to use the internet unless i complete my homework. so you think i've done all of them? no. still left with lian bi, lit settings and character analysis, the stupid puppet and d&t. stress. i got the wires for da internet from.. the car. just had this feeling that it's there, and bingo.

boon yeow sent a message. worship prac tmr. but it's not my turn yet! actually planned to go out with my mother and sister after cca. now i don't even think i can. and i might have to miss the 7 o'clock channel 8 show. practice is usually 2 hours.
service in fullness
yes yes. i'm doing it for God. be happy. don't complain. yah..

handbell practices. they're not the same anymore. it's just... different. lower sec practice is fine, but the upper sec prac (sec 2s included) .. i dunno. like all the sec 3s and christabel are chatting away and ethel and i, quiet. it wasn't like this before syf. don't want to say already.

yi jia's still the best. and desiree. and melissa png and huizi i think. they were with me at the bus stop.

what else...
maple leaf rag is not an easy song.

i bought the monopoly cd-rom. $14.90. not bad.

die

die

diedie

DIE DIE DIE DIE

HOMEWORK. is a pain. can teachers just give us a homework-less holiday?
i still have a ton of it untouched.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
how how??
next week is so busy. handbell on monday, wednesday and friday.
tuesday, piano at9am, tution at 3pm.
i regret not starting work earlier. sheesh...

worship practie-
i only got the message yesterday. sometimes i wonder why they can't inform us earlier.. oh well. maybe they're busy.

my grandparents and some other relatives left for China. going for a week. God bless them. and journey mercy as well, yes.

yesterday was shu kai's birthday. sent him an sms.

*lots of typos in my other entries.

i created a forum (or board) for the worship team.. don't know if it's a good idea. i'm the only member for now. should i tell them about it? haiz..

camp

continue from yesterday.
[ i really really super miss msn and yahoo messengers!]

camp 2nd day:
woke up. i was the last to wake up in my family. HA. and then went for breakfast. still remember that i ate koko crunch. and was very full. lol... after that was worship and word. no.. before that was devotion. though i thought devotion should be in small groups or individually not the whole congegration.
uncle edwin was like so funny.. chickucha-ed the last one who settle down. end up all the davids did the chickucha thing.. hilarious, it was. for group discussions, valerie led my group, christel was the leader but had not arrived in malacca yet. so yeah.. our ending prayer was like one person pray one sentence.. i started it, so it was quite easy for me.
for lunch, wan hui tried to get our cell together and eat. end up only jayne, joanne, wan hui, zach and me. the rest stayed in s'pore. yup so we had lunch by the swimming pool, which was hot. then went to walk aound the hotel with joanne, her friend, jayne and joan. (hey all J`s) went to tan kim hock and didn't buy anything. joanne did. then we just walked lor.. and to the provision shop. i wanted to buy some snacks, but went back to the hotel empty-handed.
the indoor games were good, although my group (AGAIN) did not win anything. well we did. that was grapes. not bad huh. my partner for all the games was Charmaine. wont talk abt the 1st one, don't like it. the 2nd game... pair up and crawl to the newspapers and bananas.. the younger one must wrap the newspapers aroung the older one like diapers, then put tape on it. after that both crawl further up, towards the cornflakes. they were in small containers. the younger ones fed it to the older ones. [charmaine wanted to make me "accidentaly" overturn the corn flakes and say'oops!' and then run off. lol] after the flakes must run back to the bananas and newspapers. then both are blindfolded and the younger ones will feed the older ones... BANANAS! when they did the demo for this.. all of us were practically laughing our heads off. anyhow aim and the banana landed on the hair instead of the mouth. in this game i was the younger one, haha. and charm suffered as i stuffed the whole bananas into her mouth. then i made her spit it out. gross.
the second game. again in pairs, one had to piggy back the other to where the rubber bands were, then take two rubber bands and tie up your own hair. [the guys looked funny] then use some elastic band thingy and put it through 4 ppl's legs. how do i phrase this... it's like 3 legged race, just that with 4 ppl it becomes 5-legged. yah then walk over to another side. btw, this game involved 12 ppl from each group. in the end all 12 ppl walked back clumsily with the bands around everyone's legs, which means 13-legg back to the starting. .
last game's complicated, according to me.
after all the games, went swimming with charmaine and her brother darryl.then it was bath time and dinner together. again, a full dinner for all of us. followed by worship and word again. every worship session was, uh, nice. can't find another word.
after everything, charmaine went to look for her parents and brother while i went back to my room. and then uantie zelia and uncle edward deposited Joy and little Darryl in my room while they went out with my parents for supper. the kids, together with my siblings, were super noisy.. received a call from charmaine from her aunty's room. she sounded disappointed, saying that her parents went for supper with her brother w/o telling her... so i told her to come to my room for sleepover. first the came and stayed for awhile, then i accompanied her to her room to get her pillow, twisties.. and went back to my room. shared the twisties with the kids. went back to her room again and wait for her to brush her teeth. then left a message on the dressing table. and saw her father come back into the room. she said she was going to sleep in my room for the night, since they left for supper w/o telling her. that night we shared a bed.. surprisingly, there wasn't a need to squeeze. it could fit both of us.
actually, i wanted to tell charmaine that it was also quite hard for them to look for her after word, cos the hotel was big. i wanted to make her forget that incident and just, well, take it lightly. but she said they forsake her and leave like that never tell her. oh wells. that night we slept quite well

3rd day:
charmaine and i woke up together, meaning at the same time. and it was already like, 8.00. onnly my maid was awake then. she went back to her room to wash up, then met for breakfast. again, we ate like pigs. then worship and word. then discussion. this time with christel around. she arrived there the previous afternoon. [my phrasing is horrendous] we shared abt how we felt about the camp and the message.. after discussion was lunch. charmaine, jayne, joan and i went to the italian restaurant (capers). ate and chated with some of the adults who were sitting at the table with us. then i went to the room to dump my stuff there. and to the pub, for some self esteem workshop. the speaker was late. haha... at first i wanted to sleep. not just me, in fact most of us who attended that workshop were struggling to keep awake. and then he said, tell the person next to you what you're good at. something like that.. i could hear lots of "i'm good at sleeping". lol.. and the next thing i knew was- he put the mike in front of me and asked what are you good at. i said erm.. sleeping? and then everyone started laughting. somebody said dancing, badminton... blah blah.. and then dunno rastus or rasmus said "flirting". all of us laughed harder.. at least that laughter kept me awake.
free and easy.. charmaine say want to go swimming,. didn't feel like it. followed my parents to this place which i think is called tesco. did a little bit of shopping. got a present for clarissa and went back to the hotel. to bathe, and dinner with charmaine again. was late, because of me. heh. there was a table for 2 so we sat there. that night was holy spirit night, but it was more like potato night. there was potato soup, mashed potato and a few other kinds of food with potato. mash potato and the soup rocked. i took more food than charmaine. this time, we ate like nobody's business. delia walked past and said "wah... so romantic ah". and we were like "we are having a hard time here.. cant finish the food".talked to auntie Cindy and she said we young people need a lot of energy.. then what take our time to eat... and uncle kk came over to talk to us about the food.. and then...
HOLY SPIRIT NIGHT
all of us really worshipped God. alter calls almost everyone went up. SP got ppl to pray for us, and get a word from God. i was kneeling there, kind of desperate for God to touch me. i couldn't really feel His presence. auntie ee koon came ane prayed for me.. when she prayed in tongues, i started crying. dunno.. there was something about it. then she reassured me that i was loved by God.. that he sent Jesus to die for me (us). i felt that God hasn't left me aside and He was speaking through me through auntie ee koon. then the word came. it was "service". some thing about serving. she ended and said "aye, joyce, i didn't know it was you.". like, WOW. these things were really from God then. [what am i talking about] i went to the side, wanting to talk to God alone for a moment. SP said that if you just want to be alone with God go to the side and pray. there i was, talking to God and along came auntie Kwee choon. no, i'm not angry or anything. when she prayed, she mentioned that i was special, and she always saw me as a flower, like blooming fog God. cant rmb the details. and the word was fullness/completeness. i was puzzled. had absolutely no idea what that meant. after that was high praise, and as usual, all the young ppl went high again. i didn't join the rest, but stood beside auntie lin pak. she looked so lonely. haha. stand with her lor.. i'm a good girl. after the whole, thing, caught up with charmaine. she told me that dunno who prayed for her, and satan was trying to break her family up. and the person didn't even know what was going on. charm and her mother aproached SP about this. when i asked charmaine about the 2 words i got, she said "oh! service in fullness!" i owe it all to her man.. like i was thinking about these two words for so long and couldn't figure out what it meant, and i just ask her and she knew. oh yea.. Faith gathered our YPM worship team and we prayed together in tongues and then SP prayed for us. the team wasn't very big. [faith, christel, jon, joel, kah wan, sean, joan, charmaine, rastus, rasmus, (was darryl there?), and me. hope i didn't miss out anyone.] i felt that it was rare, to have the team gathered together. we should even have a worship team retreat. haha. i was thinking of a forum, creating a board...
that night, my parents and the cell went out for supper. i stayed in the hotel. and slept. they came back at 2am. 0_0 lucky i didn't follow.

last day:
woke up late late late. but lucky for that morning, breakfast was extended. eat lorh.
then went swimming. i taught my siblings how to go underwater, as in, just dipping their whole head underneath.
checked out of the hotel. [i'm missing that place already] walked to tan kim hock with my family to get stuff for grandparents. and we saw uncle alan's family eating at the chicken rice ball there. the kids were hungry. so everyone had to wait for them. lunch they went to shop while the rest went to another chicken rice restaurant, a better one. the rice balls were fantastic. yummy. i want more. Mmmmmmm... talked abt the holy spirit night the night before. that my father gotr the same word. something about serving.
the journey back. didn't even stop for a break. felt as if i spent most of the day in the car. uncle roy led the way. we were going to the 2nd link there. the stop, or the little coffee shop and kfc. end up going round and roung, and kept u-turning. haha... then. the toilet! everyone went to the toilet. quite clean actually. lol. dinner. i ate 2 burgers. bought stuff. [it's better not saying what it is or i'll get fined if a police comes across this blog.]
the causeway was jammed. as xpected. wait in the car lor. wait wait.. it was fast lah. and then the checking part where the police will check your luggage. one of the bags looked suspicious i think. asked to open it. but there wer crackers and clothes. lol. can you imagine.. if the first thing the police guy say was. underwear? haha. just a thought.
reached home at 10 plus and unloaded the stuff from our bags.

thenextday, sunday.
very little ppll lah.. i think most of them stayed in malaysia. and in my cell. no guys! only ivan (ong). and the rest of us were girls. all the girls in my cell turned up. so guai pls.

i'm tiredof typing. piano lesson later, going to practice.

i miss playing bells.

camp again

here i am to blog abt another camp. the annual church camp. this year, it's held in malacca. renaissance hotel. though last year's hotel was better.

day one, wednesday.:
my father drove there, together with uncle roy and uncle alan's family. auntie susan, auntie daphne and uncle chee keong sat in uncle roy's car while uncle michael sat in my father's car. it was a loooooooooooong journey. i read some of the clay marble, did cross stiching and slept. when wefinally reached the hotel, we went up to the 7th floor and got the name tags and camp booklets. i was in the same group as charmaine! ha. then went to the function room and played a game and had briefing. because there were about 500 of us, and the hotel staff had to clear around 200 rooms, most of us went to walk around outside the hotel and buy things. my room wasn't available at that time. charmaine and i stayed in the hotel and played stress. i was winning and winning. lol then she said don't want to play already so we played the piano there. and walked around... to the squash court, then gym, then swimming pool...
dinner was great, ate and ate until my stomach expanded like a balloon..
and the message by pst benny ho. it was about worship.

hey i can'tgo on for now. will continue tmr

camp over

i can't sign in to MSN and yahoo messenger! WHY why why?????? there might be a problem with the connection but from my point of view, i don't see any! what's wrong?!

my previous entry was short, reason being i typed halfway and left the com on.. and MY FATHER WENT TO SEE ALL MY OTHER ENTRIES!!!! but lucky for me, i'm aware that this is the internet, and can't put too personal things up. so no harm done :) but then... haiyah.. i don't like it.

today was the CIP thing and the kids from 'child at street 11' childcare center came over to the school. the young ones were very cute, but always "jie jie/teacher, i want to go toilet." the ice breakers were quite boring. i don't think the younger ones understood the handkerchief game. soccer was a disaster, kids went out of control. some didn't want to play, complained that the weather was too hot, 4 boys never listen to instructions and run about on their own... and a teacher had to scold them. so fierce man.
as some of you know, my group prepared rice crispies for the class and kids, spent a ton of money and many hours just preparing for it. glad that most of them liked it. some kids didn't like it, i dunno why.. and this person named joey ang said it was gross and she did not even try it. what is this. and i thought she put in a lot of effort as the treasurer managing the money. i was so wrong. this other person, i shall not mention her name, said the food was "ok lah". this type of people dont think about all the hard work which we have to put in. lets forget it for now.

friday 1st day of camp:
reached church early. my group name was live strong. so hard to get them to come up with something you know. janice was the leader, benedict and i were the assistants. actually all the sec 2s were leaders for this camp lah. yes.now i know. it's tough work.
had the olympics... that game under the shade.. whats that called? forgot. it wasn't very fun. but the one something like softball. . or is it softball... i suck when it comes to remembering this type of games. yahh that was funner. though we were under the hot sun. went back to church for another game where everyone had to put a rag behind their backs and try and take it away from other groups.. and then the teens leaders would join in and make the game even tougher hahaha.. that was nice. though my group didn't win. what's important was that we had fun :))
at night walked to the park and played some games. 1st one was quite messy. then the ice one we had to run around.... haha. i was guarding 3 of another group ppl when jon, kah wan (I think) and eugene came over... they said they can unfreeze them . so they were unfrozen and i quickly froze them back again.. lol. that's called being smart (: and then the obstacle course.. i think my group got 2nd. the last few obstacles hor... i had to run on that thing and steven was blocking me so "fell" a bit. then after that Naomi or Joseph tapped him which means he must do whatever he was supposed to do but he just stood there with a blur look.. and that was the group's precious few seconds.
went back to church and oh yes i almost forgot to mention the speaker from COOS. pastor bee ling. she rocks man! fun to have her around. talked about daring to be different and her childhood.interesting.
poor Jon lost his voice at the end of the day.

sat 2nd day of camp:
i had a good nights' sleep. so comfy.. for the 1st time
the main thing of the day was holy spirit night. shall talk about that later.
all of us went to toa payoh. took 153 there. the game was called "a walk to remember". rule was cannot run only can walk. Joe and Stacia went with us. got lotsa help from them, though stacia almost lost all our clues. in my opinion, this game was less tiring than previous camps. lunch for us was at a japanese restaurant. i had terriyaki chicken (?) very filling. our 1st clue was some 110% refund thing and the ans was courts. kah wan said "look high and low." i got the hint. high means look up and some places requires us to go up. low means ground leve. F.O.N. means fabric of the nation. our 2 clues were at the same place one is take a pic of the fish and the other, count the no. of do not touch signs. my group was just plain lucky. pet lovers' center, splendid colours (salon), rotiboy were at the same place. all the clues we got were like in order-- pet lovers centre then unscramble the words [ans is splendid colours] and then rotiboy. and the library one. i knew the place was the library cos other groups went there, and the word 'loan' was there.

[ooh shit my father is chasing me off to bed . bye shall continue tmr

.piano lesson

piano lesson changed to 4.15! so little time left...

continue from yesterday about saturday...
a walk to rmb rawks lah... our final task was easy, compared to other groups. just stand at the big circle thing, spread out... and sing a song loudly. and then went back to church. being the first group, we had plenty of time to bathe. after that discussed the skit. everyone was like, no ideas, or very sian just dun wan to contribute.. in the end did a star wars one.. the group was very unprepared. script written by ruben, christel's bro. edited by me, then further edited by benedict. was very messy on stage lor.. but still ok. like charmaine's group's skit. haha about the game..
"yellow card yellow card!" sounds familiar?
"oh now game master hand itchy already ah!" hey i heard that somewhere...
haha camp commandant. jon actually sounded like that. dinner we had steamboat.
then it was a time with God. where everyone just cried and were touched. Wendy prayed for me. felt like she had been giving me special attention, like my mama in church.. and when she continued to pray for me, i broke down. dunno.. . like never really felt like this before.. still having the feeling that i have been sinning and letting God down over and over again, very unlike what Wen said in her prayer.. and after all that weeping it was praise songs. had a good time. then supper. and then worship prac. tired but no choice still had to go on. ended at around 12.35AM. took a bath and went to bed, i meant sleeping bag. that night (morning) i slept like a log and reluctantly got out of the bag at i think 8am the next morn.

sunday.
woke up and cleaned the toilet. my group split up. 2 girls and 2 guys from me grp cleaned the toilet. fun wad.. not as horrible as most people think. just that the dustbin was overflowing and one pad dropped on the floor eeks.. ok i'll shut up .
breakfast at the dining hall... eat until very full.
worship prac again.. wierd to have so many pairs of eyeds fixed on you as you practice you know.. but thankfully there's Charmaine to block me heeheex. christel was the ldr. king of majesty the chorus and bridge sang one octave lower haha sounded so funny. and show me yyour face was transposed 1 key lower.. that was easier. again many ppl were ministered.
night was the wedding dinner of my father's cousin. i didn't know what to wear so just anyhow pick and ended up like the odd one out. will not continue

and i have to leave in 1/2 hr's time! better get going.. bit more time for me to practice my 3 pieces.. grade 6 is so hard.. how i wish i was grade 1 again.. wah that was the best. can slack like nobody's business.

camp tmr

School can be rather demanding.

okay, ignore that.

yesterday my group gathered to do our english project. went to the school library in the morning and then ate wanton mee for lunch and went to hunt for the CD, a tale of two sisters. the plaot was confusing. didn't understand what it was. but hey, i understood star wars. and you know right star wars more 'cheem'. so we got the VCD at $3, no we erented it. and don't have to be above 16. the previous 2 shops we went to required our IC, which we obviously didn't have... and rental was like so high.