i stand before You Lord
and give You all my praise
Your love is all i need
Jesus You're all i need

my life belongs to You
You gave Your life for me
Your Grace is all i need
Jesus You're all i need

hold me in Your arms
never let me go
i wanna spend an eternity with You

now that You're near
everything is different
everything's so different, Lord
i know i'm not the same
my life You've changed
i wanna be with You
i wanna be with You

I just love singing, singing to Him. When we worship, make sure it's not karaoke, no feeling. God is the audience here and not man. And there's no point singing worship songs if you don't mean what you sing. Haha.. The piano helps quite alot. Much more familiar with chords now after i realised that those slashes are actually telling you what inversion the chord is. Slow la, I know. D/F# means D major1st inversion! Lol. =)

i love to be in Your presence with Your people singing praises
LSBC Youth Worship Team! :)) We will continue to shine for God and make non-believers so in to worship when they come for youth service. we'll see many salvations one day.


Q: what's the last text message on your cellphone say?
A: from Tim, sth... deleted. oops

Q: whose bed did you sleep in last night?
A: my own.

Q: what color shirt are you wearing?
A: sch u - blue and white

Q: most recent movie that you watched?
A: i havent watched for ages

Q: name one thing that you do everyday?
A: i use my brains =)

Q: what's the color of your bedroom walls?
A: orangey yellow

Q: how much cash do you have on you rightnow ?
A: 70 cents and i'm not kidding

Q: What is your favorite part of the chicken?
A: the skin!

Q: What's your favorite sport to watch?
A: i have no tv at home.

Q: I can't wait till...?
A: band concert!

Q: When was the last time you saw your mom?
A: 6.30am this morning before leaving for sch

Q: Who got you to join Friendster?
A: boon yeow.

Q: What did you have for dinner last night?
A: rice

Q: Look to your left. What's there?
A: The wall.

Q: Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
A: does being in the fitting room count? borrowd to try from the shop wad. haha..

Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
A: i'm in sch during the day

Q: Do you have an air freshener in your car?
A: i dont drive. wahah..

Q: Do you have plants in your room?
A: why fight for oxygen with them at night?

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
A: my eyes. i wanna sleep!

Q: What city was your last taxicab ride in?
A: not city, but to kovan mrt. haha going home mah.

Q: Recent time you were really upset?
A: last saturday

Q: Would you have a problem if your friend went after your ex boyfriend/girlfriend?
A: (not going to answer)

_______Last________
1. Person you saw:
my maid

2. Talk on the phone with:
forgot who.

3. Hugged:
Kara. that's like last last week? Hahas.

_______Today________
1. What are you doing now:
typing

2. What are you doing tonight:
finish up maths hw

3. What did you eat for lunch:
Bee hoon soup

________Tomorrow___________
1. Is:
Wednesday.

2. Got any plans:
nah..

3. Goal:
spend time with God at least 5 times a week

4. Dislikes about tomorrow:
chinese lesson.

5. Do you have work:
nopes

________Currently_________
1. in love with someone:
................

2. listening to:
the rain.

3. wearing jeans:
no

4. eating:
no

5. tasting:
salivary amylase digesting starch into maltose

6. whats on your mind?
i hate going for piano lessons.

7. smoking?
NO WAY.

8. drinking?
drinking as in alcohol or what. haha in that case, NO.

9. who is your bf/gf?
my rabbit. lol ignore that please

10. do you miss anyone?
yes

11. do you think of the "blue stuff" now?
elaborate?

life is beautiful... is it?

This song... well the lyrics says it all..

before the world began
you were on His mind
and every tear you cry
is precious in His eyes
because of His great love
He gave His only Son
everything was done
so you would come

nothing you can do
could make Him love you more
and nothing that you've done
could make Him close the door
because of His great love
He gave His only son
everything was done
so you would come

come to the Father
though your gift is small
broken hearts, broken lives
He would take them all
the power of the word
the power of His blood
everything was done
so you would come

During yesterday's cell time, we were discussing about worship and all.. How your attidude should be, what kind of heart you present to God when you come into His presence to worship. ('Many many more') Kevin was sharing... about not doing QT (quiet time with God). "Like a pathetic once a week.." at this point, all eyes were on me. Whatever. Yeah then he said, whenever he doesn't feel like doing QT, pastor Benny's words will come echoing in his mind. Now it's in mine. What if, one day, God closes His door, and just dump you? If He shuts you out, how are you supposed to live?

Everytime we are stuck in a difficult situation... the first thing we as Christians do, is to cry out to God and ask for help. [Imagine those who do not know God, they can only turn to family and friends, who might not always be there for them] And He, without fail, will always help us. It says somewhere in the bible... I will never leave you nor forsake you. / Ask and you will receive, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you. There's so many of these in the bible, so many, we tend to take them for granted. If we reflect on our life... how many times have we turned to God when in need? Were those the only times we talk to Him? How many times did He turn us down? It's ZERO for me.

Then think again... what about when He calls us, gently, softly, for that 1 or 1/2 hr to be spent with Him, how many times have we rejected Him? If we can spend hours on a storybook or on the computer or simply doing nothing, then what about QT? "No time, this week very busy." Ha, ha. If we put QT as priority and trust the Lord to help us with whatever uncompleted work we have, I'm quite sure things will turn out well. Are we the Sunday Christians who act like one when they are in church, and then go back to their usual self from Monday to Saturday? Hypocrites, you say. (Before we open our mouths to judge, first think about ourselves and our actions.) Which links back to the question posted above. What IF, one day, God closes His door and dumps us... what's gonna happen to us? I dare not think about it.

=) That's quite a lot for cell discussion.

About last night...
Everything's fine now, for those wondering what's happening to me. Fine, really.
Thank God for dp-pic-changer, it has damn been hard on him. Quite obvious who this person is, haha. Thanks for your prayers. Horse is talking to me again. I don't understand why he's apologising, I should be the one doing that. Me who created the mess did not tidy it up. He did it for me and I still feel bad about it. Remember that I needed someone to talk to? I didn't even talk much. I just looked at his messages. The reassurance was there. I felt and am still feeling blessed to have (God who sent) this dp-pic-changer to... help me. Thanks a trillion, :))

Life is beautiful after all.

Holding back my tears.
What's the use of weeping?
I am absolutely terrified of facing the them again.
I need someone to talk to...
Someone..
Who would advice me on what to do next.
Or I'll just explode, literally.
How am I supposed to smile and be cheerful again?

to the one who changed display picture because i asked you to:
it's not just the few of you.
i'm in deep shit as well.
i took the risk...
and now this.
i still have a lot more to say, but not here...
and whatever it is
it pains me to lose contact with anyone.

peng chao da

Just 2 days ago... I was feeling high and all...

today. it's a totally different thing. I already bought my ticket, and now because of this he's not going, she's not going (they have not bought the tickets) and I'm left alone. Loner. Joining Joey would be the lastest of the last thing I'd do. If you think harder... you might be able to find out why. Who's that freaking teacher? Miss Ang? .. This is affecting my mood. School kinda sucked. And now I'm worrying for the senior instructors because of serious things happening. It might cause the senior instructors to lose their jobs. Oh man. Feel so... for lack of a better word... shitty. If not for some of us.. this would not........

Somehow, whenever I am not rostered for worship duty, this would appear on my hp screen.
"hey joyce, can you take over me for backup tmrw?"
Uhh, don't you think it's a bit too late to inform me one night before? I can't be singing every week. I have school. The problem is, there are only 2 teams for the backup vocalists. 3 in each team. Every week without fail one person will say he/she cant make it for practice. He/she calls someone from the other team. The latter ends up being on duty for a few consecutive weeks. That's what happened to me. Damn tiring la... I just sang last week. Just now Stef sent me a msg. Saying the usual thing. I am tired.

Jasmine dear, don't be too sad. 'Cus I am too. We can always study POA together. I understand how you're feeling. Results aren't everything.

uber stresed

Praise God for my excellent maths quiz results.

Other than that, today totally sucks. I'm feeling damn stressed now, the midnight oil is going to finish burning. There's so much work to do, I feel drained out, yet I do not have a choice, this burden is going to be stuck here for dunno how long...

(skip this part if you're not interested in the details)
I left my bag in the classroom and went to get food. 3c2 English class girls were going to have their summary test, cont'd from the comprehension. Unaware of what time they were starting it, I did not hurry. Who knows that when I reached the classroom, Ms Ang was standing there, about to start the test. She was in a foul mood. So obviously she wasn't pleased to know that I wanted to get my bag and go for O level music lesson. Screamed at me. That already spoilt my day, I hate being shouted at. Who doesn't?

The pile of music assignments are pushing me down too. SO much, you'll just die on the spot. Imagine the look of terror on our faces when Ms Tan told us what we had to know and would be tested on.

There's so much work! I'm going to just die in front of the comp. shou3 mang2 jiao3 luan4, was rushing like hell so I couldn't dig for my SS notes and text. So now I'm without the two most important things needed for this bug piece of work worth 12 marks. And it has to be TYPED OUT, meaning I can't do it in school tmr morning. Stressed..

Not only that, there's a Chinese composition test and I haven't done a single shit about it.

Maths is like, halfway 'cus i thought SS was more important now. Ms Ang will just blarh at me. I'm damn scared of her now can. And I doubt I'll be able to finish the whole thing... in one hour.

And what about the other subjects? Those are killing me too. Friday's timetable sucks like anything, only one double period and that's Chinese. Poof.

Anyway. In conclusion. I'M VERY VERY STRESSED. Blogging doesn't help. Neither does saying that I' stressed. But that's the truth.. Any help with SS is greatly appreciated. Thanks Joey for scanning in all those stuff for me :)

It'll be a miracle if I survive till Saturday.

to God be the glory!

My teeth hurts! Tightened braces, it's purple now. Not bad la. I was 15 minutes late, thanks to crapping in the classroom with Tania, Persie and Madeline. The place was very empty, not the usual crowd of people waiting for their turns. I think all those sitting there were under my dentist. The number at room 16 kept changing. Haha.. Pain!

Not just my teeth, also my thighs and tummy! I'm not sure whether it's or cramps or muscle ache. This morning, pain like anything lor. It's a wonder that I still can run 2.4 today. Even had difficulty walking, let alone running.

Praise the Lord for my timing! I was aiming for an A, 14.21 and I got 13.58! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I cried out to the Lord, and he heard me. His love endures forever! Haha.. Yesterday the first half of the class ran, and all of them were like so fast, I started to get scared. Today's half was mostly non-sporty peeps, including me. But still got 1st for today's half. Hahahahahahah. Persie came after me. Persie and Adeline overtook me a few times, but God helped and they ended up behind me. See, God is good, he helped me run even when I complain of pain here and there!

Oh and I can't laugh or sneeze or cry. Dumb cramps. Think I'm a bit slow. Depression and tiredness the past few days, cramps..... of course. PMS. Monsoon season again, soon. Grrrrrrrr, how I detest this.

PL Band Concert! This Friday. Haha sounds exciting. I was supposed to go with Horsey, but then I think I'd be some extra person 'cus she'll be talking to *cough cough*. So now I'm going with Timothy, Priscilla and Liying! Haha. Friday, meaning there's CCA. Dumb bells Handbells. So rushing! 1 hr.. don't think there's enough time. Unless the seniors let us off earlier, which will never happen, so forget it. I'll just waste money on the taxi fare.

Tania better not put those yucky pictures up.

How great is our God
Sing with me
How great is our God
All will see how great
How great is our God

:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAI THENG :D

Well today's a rather interesting day.

Did some copper(II)sulphate thing for chemistry. All that black stuff.. copper oxide.

The school showed us the PUB bill. Fainted. So high! Now they're gonna make us survive without fans/air cons one of these Thursdays. That would be hell for us. Plus no mini-fan. Like woah, I'm SO excited, I cant wait for that day, ... -.-

NAPFA 5 items tes. I suck okay? No chance of getting my gold award. No chance of proving that skinny people are as fit as the normal ones. Just ONE point. Argh. Better get A for 2.4km run.

Was supposed to stalk Joey with Yuhui, at Compass Point. In the end, it was Desmond, Joey, Yuhui, Madeline and Persie. Haha. I could sense some uneasiness within the group. Especially ahem ahem. Talked a lot of crap. Like really crap. Very random stuff. And I AM NOT ANTI-SOCIAL OKAY. Joey knows the reason why I walked in front and faster la. *cough cough* I AM NOT ANTI.

My father wants to get me a maths tutor. Uh-oh. I'm so gonna hate it. Unless......

some rubbish. dont read la.

1.Where have you been an hour ago?
- Joey's house, doing SS.

2. State your name?- joyce.

Do you like your name?
- what kind of question is this

4. Can you remember what you did on the first dayof your school?
- laughed at the sec 1s.. Lol i know it's mean :D

5. What do you want to be ten years from now?
- church staff or zookeeper

6. What did u feel upon receiving emails?
- no feeling

7. At what age you first learned to use a pc?
- 6

8. Have you ever eaten any exotic food?
- define exotic? worms?

9. What was the last illness that you had?
- i have STM. can't rmb

10. Do you like listening to rap music?
- no.

11. Have you ever thought of driving the train touni ?
- what's that? train?

12. What did you do last 1st November 2005?
- "do i look like a hard disk with 60GB internalmemory to you?"

13. Which do you prefer? sunny dayz or rainydays??
- both. well it all depends on my mood :D

14. When was the last time you browsed the bible?
-heh.

16. What is the brand of your first wristwatch?- some cheapo watch from the pasar malam... brandless

17. Look at your back. what did you see?
- ironing board with an iron.

18. Say something about the person whom u like..
- cute

19. Do you sing while you are taking a bath?
- yeah, sometimes. also depends on my mood.

20. What did you have for breakfast today?
- carrefour cheap chicken flavoured instant noodle. a pack of 5 costs 90cents. -.-

21. Your last dream that you remembered?-my tuition teacher throwing hw at me. that was freaky

22. What do you usually say when you meet aperson?
- hello!

23. Do you agree on the saying "to forgive is toforget"?
- hmm.. no. it's difficult to forget what you did. forgive... maybe.

24. Last thing you held before using the computer?
- my chord sheets

25. Where is the place you always dreamed of?
- MOE JALAN BAHTERA ADVENTURE CENTRE!!!!!

26. When was the last time your tears fell?
- last day of Camp Rock.

27. Are you goin to leave your parents in time?
- why should i? no shelter, food, love, atm...

28. At what age you are ready to get married?
- eh? too early to talk la. haven't even take Os

29. Long hair or spikey?
- picture me with spikey hair. go on. what do you think?

30. First person to run to if you are depressed?
- Kara, my mentor. then God.

31. Whats the last movie you watched?
- erm. this year haven't watch. so it's last year... Narnia?

32. Who was the last person you sms?
- lai theng. i wanted the piano scores

33. What was your worst flood experience
- menstration. when there's heavy flow. i can hear "yucks" somewhere..

34. Were you attracted to a person ten years olderthan you?

- -hello!?-----

35. Are you happy at this point of your life?
- yeah. half happy, to be excact.

36. What do you want to eat tomorrow?
- ice cream from that uncle who's outside the school everday.

37. Are you in love now?
- that's for me to know and for you to find out.

38. With whom?
-no comments.

ESPRIT

I'm falling in love with our YPM Worship Team all over again. It consists of all the nice people :)

Christel, Jon and Boon Yeow were shocked when I said I stopped learning violin. Then Jon said he stopped piano after a short while. So they think I should continue. My violin case is like shit, my shoulder rest and music stand are like urine. They all make up our waste products. OOP (out of point) But last year, while preparing for the exam, I found that I regretted taking up violin. The results confirmed that my hard work paid off. And this year... I'm thinking having lessons again. But there are other commitments. Sigh...

Today's worship was great. A thousand times better than the practice one, zhao xia a few times. Grace kept laughing at me and telling that to Joel when he missed that bit of prac.

I didn't know Li-En was from PL. Until today. Slow.

Faith and Boon Yeow are getting married! Soon..

remembering our Lord

you know...

I've said this before..

a million times...

but I'll say it again.

I love you.

why?

cos' you're My child.

simple as that.

I had loved you, even before you were a baby.

look at the stars.

go on, look.

see how they sparkle?

see how they shine?

do you know why I put them there?

just for you.

just to show you, how beautiful you are to Me.

tomorrow morning,

the sun will rise again.

as usual, as it does every morning.

no one ever doubts that it will rise.

but do you know?

that My love for you,

is more certain than that?

therefore, no one should ever doubt,

that I love them eternally.

ahh... I saw that.

I saw what you did.

just when you thought no one was looking,I noticed.

but no, don't go against yourself now.

listen to what I have to say.

do you know what happened 2 milleniums before?

it was when I sent My own, My very own Son...

sent Him down with the sole purpose of dying.

the sole purpose, of shedding His blood.

for as He died, you My child, took His place on

the throne.

He was beaten, beyond recognition.

He was striped, til His flesh was exposed.

He was cursed, cursed to the depths of mankind.

He was shown disrespect, where even criminals hated Him.

but why? why would a perfect Being like Himself do that?

just for you.

as He hung there,

as He bled, as He suffered...

He could only think of one thing.

all He saw was one thing.

He could only see your face.

thinking of you, it made Him go on.

He wanted to save you.

He knew, that if He didn't go through with it,

you'd be the one on the cross..

and He loves you so so much...

so much that He'd rather take it on Himself.

He is My son.

My own beloved.

Jesus Christ.

and so when He died,

something great happened.

My son left His throne,

vacated it.

now a new occupant sits on this throne.

you.

while 3 days later,

your Saviour, my Son,

returned home.

this time,

He is honored beyond anyone,

He is given a new throne, by My right-hand.

and you?

you are given dominion over all things I created.

as long as it is something I had created,

its yours to control.

that's the position my Son's death has given you.

and now,

know that you can never be in sin.

cos' whenever I look at you, I can only see all the good things.

I love you my child.

-God

credits to Timothy.

Once again, we are reminded of how our Lord had suffered and died. For us. Imagine, someone as honourable as Jesus, sacrificing His life so that we can be forgiven? God could have used any other person, you or me. No. For God so loved the world, that he gave His one and only begotten son, that whoever believes in Him, shall not perish, but have eternal life. -John 3:16 Something as simple as believing in Him, giving Him your all... could get you into heaven.

Think about it. Who else on earth would willingly (note: not reluctantly) die so that you could live?

We don't reflect on Jesus' death only on Good Friday. In fact we do it everyday. His love is worth so much, only those who believe in Him will not perish, but have eternal life.

(Read Aunty Kate's testimonies and you'll find them full of meaning.)

The choice is yours. Accept God's love, or reject it.

3 words...




i miss you



.

9 subjects in a day

Yes, 9. Including music. Friday's timetable sucks la. All single periods, want us to die is it. Not tired one meh. It's the longest school day ever.

Can you believe that 3c2 got the most disciplined class again? Well I can't. 3c1 was also the most disciplined class. All hail sec 3 C classes! Though it seems like we only get this 'award' after a huge scolding from Miss Ang. That does not mean she should scold us more often okay. She's scary when she flares up.

We had only 1/2 a lesson for today's o level music. Miss Tan had to go on a course, so it was just Miss Chiang. Lesson was in the handbell room, it was so hard to sit and write music notes on the floor. The harp room key was nowhere to be found. I trusted the key to Grace and Peiqi. If they leave any traces of food... I am SO going to get it. The room was in a mess before I left. Please let it be neat.

It's nice being with the o level music girls. Bussed back with Genesis, Fiona, Xi Ying and Jia Yan. We were singing all the camp songs and cheering. (C-A-M-P-F-I-R-E-S-O-N-G SONG - CAMPFIRE!) Lol. I'm still in camp mood. There's no way I can study without thoughts of pushing their way into my mind.

FINALLY bought new undergarments. Like FINALLY. wait. tell you for what?

FINALLY, Timothy is back from camp. Does he know about the ddaft?
ddaft.blogspot.com please go and tag


This Saturday, my church's easter programme for youths...

ESPRIT celebrate life, live again
Living Sanctuary Brethren Church
L2 Auditorium
15 April, Saturday
4-6.30pm


Please come! It's gonna be great. ALL are welcome.

i have powderful England

I have been SO busy, with the fanclub stuff. You might say, make yourself so busy, for what? My reply is this: Cannot meh?

The administrators, (the horses) told me that the fanclub thingy will not have ranks, to avoid unwanted disagreements. Everyone's equal =) Isn't that nice?

Don;Des;Ash;Frad;Tim
ddaft.blogspot.com

I think the admin owes Desmond half their lives. He can't get any nicer.
----

OK so it's Religious Emphasis Week. Chapel for the last period yesterday, and last 2 today. Partnered Priscilla, at least she sings during praise and worship. Others are like, doing their own things. Chatting among themselves, looking bored... I wish they'd stop that. It's God we're worshipping. Especially these 2 classes. Please shut up and spare a thought for others.

Miss Sem didn't come for bio lesson today. She forgot? Weird. Miss Tey didn't come for lesson yesterday. Seems like the teachers have something up their sleeves...

I GOT THE BAND TICKETS and they are so fragile please. The right part is so going to tear off. Should I be excited about it? I dunno. Horse aka neigh aka guitar aka Joey is over the moon sun about the concert. I've been to enough of these kind of concerts. Think people will start getting bored and talk or leave the place.

Horse has been coming over these few days to study. Studying is important, dun play play! This type of thing, cannot take it 'likely'! Haha.. Except for Monday, we were doing something else and gave that person a shock. I won't do it again, don't worry.

Well I guess that's all for now. Posts are getting shorter again. Back to normal. Ulcer is gone! :))

...that summons thee to heaven or to hell

I'm supposed to study POA with Joey the guitar cum horse.
What are we doing now?

I'm keeping mum.

She this morning 6.25am blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah until now.

Pity me.

leave all the rest to me

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
I LITERALLY FAINTED. JUST NOW HAVING TUITION, I WAS CAMPSICK AND COULDN'T CONCENTRATE. like feeling down and all... THEN I CAME HERE AND MY MOOD CHANGED COMPLETELY. NOW I ALSO DUNNO HOW EXCATLY I'M FEELING :D


[edited to add:]
Oh well, school's starting. Back to sitting in the classroom and dozing off during lessons. Like I am SO looking forward to school. *rolls eyes* Already, there's Mrs Eng waiting with that stack of POA test papers. I can see her smiling to herself. I rather have camp everyday than to go to school!

Ash will give me his email only after a few weeks or months, I cant remember. Good luck to all those who crush him. Oh and so far those instructors I asked, non of them has Don's email :(( Tim said 95% of the instructors didn't know him, what '1st-timer'... haiz.

FINE, JOEY, DESMOND IS CUTE.

Ascribe to the LORD the glory due his name;
worship the LORD in the splendor of His holiness.
-Psalms29:2

Wahahaha...
So Ash actually took the bus from the wrong direction and it was a loop.
He said he ended up sitting there for more than an hour.
LOL.

[edited to add:]
oh man
I'm suffering from post-camp depression.
i sooooooooooo miss the camp!!
cried again, i keep thinking about the camp.
but there's nothing i can do about it.
sigh.
i miss the camp and instructors!
especially Don :(
and the fact that i will never see them again.
Fraddy is online, his dog's so cute.

hear it not, (-i--r-), for it is a knell

INSTRUCTORS (AND TEACHERS)! THANK YOU FOR MAKING THIS CAMP SO ENJOYABLE FOR ALL OF US!

(ha, ha, ha, like they would even come here)

2006 SEC 3s ROCK! CAMP ROCK INSTRUCTORS PEBBLES! MISS CHONG STONE!

As you can see, I am feeling high!

Wednesday, 4 April
Came to school early in the morning, with all that luggage, gathered in our classes all over the hall. We wanted to know our groupings for the camp darn badly. Excitement was in the air. The groupings were finally put up and almost everyone rushed to the board. (sounds as if i'm narrating some story) So found out I was in group 4, with Hilary. My mortal! As well as my partner for the camp. This group consists of all the quiet and stone people. One doesn't talk at all, one cries easily.

The instructors came in to the hall, we were like "Wah so young..." I thought they were a bunch of cute weirdos. There was this introduction on stage, and they did a lot of funny things. From this intro, we could actually sense that the camp was going to be a crazy one. My group's instructor was Donovan. HANDSOME GEEK, says Joey. I think he's more on the cute than handsome side lor. Haha.. Had some time with the instructors, to make our flag and come up with some cheers. My group really stoned. No one was even making an attempt to suggest good cheers, interact like other groups... Don's attempt to make us talk and discuss ended up with playing whacko. We used his yucky shirt to hit :D

The small eyes instructor, Timothy led Major Group A in cheers. He's a funny guy.

Bused to MOE Jalan Bahtera. The sight of the high elements made us freak out. Scary. Had our lunch there, freaked out again when we looked up and saw the lizards on the ceiling. Thought it would drop into our plates, haha. The queue for food is always damn long, and you have to eat up anything they give you. No such thing as "I don't want vegetables". Of course la. What d'you expect? You think this is some hotel? Think again.

We were introduced to our other instructor, Lihui. She's very nice!

Lihui led us in the low elements. They were all team-building games, which makes the group more bonded as one. [Miss Chong was the teacher attatched to our group and she followed us around, btw] The toughest ones were the wall climbing and squeezing onto that small square platform. We had to smell each other's body odour, grab on to the sweaty shirts, step on foots, do lots of weird stuff to squeeze the whole group onto that thing. Succeeded :D From this, I learnt that every group member is important, every person counts. Every little bit of space on that thing is precious.

The wall climbing. Step, carry, push, pull.... Teamwork! The leaders, Shi Yun and Glynnis were really great. They take a lot of initiative to do things. And they led the group well. Good job, guys :)

I was a nice person. The rain was pouring and people were stuck at the toilet without umbrellas. Helpful and kind people like me, Joey, En Ling and Joanne went to rescue them. It's nice to see people happy that they can get sheltered to their huts. At least they appreciate it, not like some others Joey mentioned. People happy, you happy, everybody happy, PEACE. LOL!

Dinner brought screams from all over the canteen. Flies and lizards, mosquitos and a cat. Not forgetting a frog during debrief. Whatever, we still managed to eat in peace. Somebody once said that camps fatten you up by giving you a lot of food, haha..

RAIN. Our enemy. Because of RAIN, the night activity was replaced by mascots from the various groups. Most of them were not very nice ones, which kind of made the teachers mad. About the high belt and long skirt, the balloons which were put somewhere... Miss 'Gay'sha! That instructor was so funny. He and Jeremy. Gosh one look at it and you feel like puking and laughing and embarrased at the same time. I didn't know excatly how I felt. Instructors taught us the campfire songs. I like the titanic one. We shall sing it in class.

Group debriefs with instructors. Mine was under Hut 3. Hillary, as usual, screamed when she saw the frog a the grassy area. She never walked on the grass after that. LOL. Didn't write down the reflections thingy, I'm blogging it.

Was a good night, I slept through. It was a little hot at first. Warm. Other huts did not have that spotlight. Ours was on all night, so it attracted little friends. Yes, the flies, hahahas. En Ling couldn't sleep and was counting flies. Now the whole cohort knows she was counting flies. Temperature decreased and it became cold, the PL jacket is so comfortable. Yuhui promised to wake the whole hut up with her loud voice and alarm clock. Haha..

Thursday, 5 April
Woke up looking into Yuhui's face. Didn't even need her alarm clock la. We were supposed to wake up at 6.30am but got up half an hour earlier.

Devotion and singspiration. I love singspiration! :) Followed by yummy breakfast.

And then. Our fears. High elements!!! I wanted to try the walking on the log one, the stable log which was the easiest of all the elements there. No chance to try, too many people wanted that. Next one was the broken bridge, where we had to walk across the shaky planks. Lihui belayed us. Kar Mun fell halfway, and it was damn scary! Lihui almost flew up okay, if not for Hillary as anchorman. (in this case, woman) Then I was going up already and then they said CHANGE STATION. Wah lao I wanted to try that one lor!

So I ended up doing the rock wall aka rock climbing. That was scary. I couldn't climb, my shoe spoilt. Couldn't even get past the red line, only like a few fingers. Shabana did our group proud by touching the top! She's amazing. Glynnis fell as one of the rocks on the wall dropped off.

The challenge pole, Shabana did it again by grabbing the bar! This girl arh, I dunno how come she's so brave and can do so many things. Simply amazed by her character. Yeah and Miss Chong did a demo for us! She was shaking up there, then calmed down by taking deep breaths. I could see her mouth opening and closing :D

Before that, Clara Ying was stuck up there for like 1h 45min. She was paralysed, just sat there and didn't move. The darker-skinned instructor Timothy was there persuading her to get down. He was there with her for a long time too. Wow. When Clara finally jumped, she was crying away and people downstairs cheered to encourage her. So. If you think you're too scared to do something, don't do it because you don't want to lose face or just want to put on a brave front. Well that's wrong. Look at Clara.

Lunch was fantastic! Don's always serving rice :D He will put the rice in En Ling's small compartment in her plate and then the other instructors serving will look at it and show the weird face. Bully En Ling arh! Haha.. Hillary loves the 'fruits guy". Very cute meh? Lol.

Hmm. After lunch it was the zip line aka flying fox. We sat burning in the sun for a long time before getting the chance to fly down. I am officially redder now. Went up the abseiling (?)tower, the stairs was not scary at all, some people take a year to get up! Everything looked frightening from up there. Hillary took quite awhile to take off. Wasn't as scary as I thought. Just moved my legs away and zoom. Fun! Yuhui said it was a great way to relieve stress.

Abseiling. Scary cats like me stayed on the ground. My shoe spoilt hor. How to go down the wall? The left lane took a long time to come down, the instructor there gave them a super long briefing. the right side was much faster. Cheered for friends coming down from that wall.

Then our enemy came again. Stupid rain, took away our chance to go for kayaking!! I wanted to try that. Cumulonimbus clouds and convectional rain always takes away all our fun. So we practiced for the campfire item instead. Don, Lihui and Miss Chong were very engouraging. They also made us shout and scream like nobody's business. Lihui taught major group A the roti prata cheer. Woot, that was nice :)

Dinner, dinner, yum. Hungry. The food tasted better than usual. So much nicer! We wanted to take a group photo at the table but some were missing and our instructors were not there. Oh well.

Campire's burning in the dark dark night. Ooooh yeah! Yippee Yippee yeah!

We had a roaring good time singing songs, cheering, watching performances by every group. Mine screwed up. I totally forgot all the lyrics and actions. Some more standing at the front row. How embarrasing. Acted normal, lip sync, haha. The sea of yellow people freaked me out.

Noticed something. Fraddy always goes "PL OEI" whenever he takes over the mic.

We didn't win, but that's okay. It was the fun we had while preparing and performing the thing out. I actually cried when the instructors did their item for it. Like so touhing! Reality hit me as I realised that it was already the 2nd night, the last night at Jalan Bahtera. Last night fooling aroung with the instructors. Yes it was that saddening.

Debrief with Don and Lihui. They talked about the past two days, how we've growed to be more bonded together as a group (did they say that?) About our objective of the camp on the first day, which was to have fun. We did. They made it sound like a farewell thing, like they were going to die. Just 2 days and I feel that the instructors were so attatched to our group, like glue. I felt like tearing againg and asked Hillary, "can I cry?" Don heard that. Like whoops. Then he said don't cry, be happy, ..... But it's really very sad lor. Those memories... The times we had together as a group...

With Yuhui, Nisa and En Ling around, it was very hard to sleep. They talk about absolutely anything under the half moon and many stars. Anything. It was practically impossible to sleep with them around. Two keeps talking about rubbish and funny things. One keeps laughing non-stop. I didn't even get to do my personal reflection and QT. That night was nice to sleep. We slept without the lights, one of the bulb fused and the whole thing just died. Lights should never be connected in series. Miss Chong, Constance and Lihui came up a few times to check on the lights. Don reported the faluty lights. The day ended with a sleepy and energyless (-.-) atmosphere.

Lets give ourselves an adidas clap.

Today, 7 April
Woke up looking at Yuhui again. Just felt like lying down there, enjoying the last few minutes of lying in the hut. Washed up with Hillary and En Ling then went to pack up our things. Was so messy, the hut. Plastic bags, spoilt shoes, ...

Singspiration and devotion felt sad. Those songs we sang arh, made me want to cry again. Sec 3s were bonded together and sang as one voice. The song One Voice is nice. Mrs Chong, lead in devotion also say all the sad and serious things.

When the instructors took over the mic, they were like looking at out sad and sian faces, haha. "PL oei."
"oei."
"hey oei louder leh, PL OEI!"
"OEI!!"

Instructions were given for area cleaning. My group cleaned up the dirtiest toilet in the campsite. We just stepped in, and looked at the dustbin, "EWWWWWWWWWW!" It was overflowing like anything. Pads, shoes, slippers, panties, fork and spoon, more pads,.... Really gross. Be thankful that you weren't there okay. You'll just puke on the spot. So many people were having menses. We had to clear the overflowing dustbin, like it was totally yucky? Someone left a bra in the shower and I had to clear that. YUCKS YUCKS YUCKS. There were pads sticking at the shower area. PADS WITH BLOOD. PAD IN THE TOILET BOWL> PLASTIC BAG IN THE TOILET BOWL. BRA LEFT THERE. AND THE POOR GROUP 4 PEOPLE HAVE TO CLEAN UP AFTER YOU??! If you are guilty of any of the above, please la, don't ever do that again. It's very hard work for the cleaners. Hair was all over the place. Why do girls drop so much hair? We cleared the darn heavy bags of rubbish and cleaned up the place till it was like some 7-star hotel pls. Try doing that. Lihui said she was proud of us.

Next, everyone was seen walking around with markers, getting instructors to sign on their shirts. I only got a few. Was looking around for Donovan, this guy actually left at night without saying goodbye to our group! So he thinks he's very nice la?! We're his group people lor, never even say a proper bye bye. The debrief the night before also never say he's not going to be with us in the morning. Some of us were pretty upset, hello, we're short of one signature. Some more he's taking our group.

So the group photo was damn incomplete, without Don and Miss Chong (she disappeared. Still can see her in school anyway.) At least we still had Lihui. But no Don..?

Gathered at the MPH to say a final bye to the instructors and vice versa. Jeremy promised all of us ice-cream :D I think he's faking it. If he really buys us ice-cream, must come back personally and bring the whole bunch of instructors along. Then sec 3s will go mad until need to be admitted to Woodbridge hospital. Really wish that we can see them again.

Mr Thomson gave out prizes for the best campers and best group. None of them were from Major Group A. *Oh we were sad*

Then the instructors said a lot of things, "PL we love you!", I cried again. Tell me how not to? At first I managed to stop and then I couldn't take it and cried, again. It was a hard time for us, especially me. Wonder if anyone else ended up like me? Really cannot help it, the tears just flow like that. The more I try not to think of it, the more I can't control the tears.

INSTRUCTORS, WE LOVE YOU!!!
DONOVAN AND LIHUI, GROUP 4 (or rather, I) LOVES YOU TRUCKLOADS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DON DON DON DON DON DON!!

Some of the instructors got up the bus with us, they were going to take the bus at Serangoon. We could not get any contact number or email from them. Otherwise, n-o-p-a-y. nopay. No pay. But of course, the younger instructors have lots of other methods. I have Timothy's blog address and email, and Fraddy's email. A silent clap please :D

Into the bus we went, outside the bus the instructors stood. Some had another camp to run. Poor things. As the bus left, they waved to all of us. I almost cried again, this time I managed to control. The camp may be over, but those memories... would be stuck in our hearts for a damn long time. Perhaps forever. I'll make sure all the other sec 3s remember it for the rest of their lives. Sigh.. This camp really means a lot to me.

I slept throughout the journey back to PL. Pushing away all thoughts of missing the camp was no easy task. What else could I do? I was going to end up in tears again.

The sea of yellow girls, teachers and the few instructors came out of the bus and scattered all around. Girls said one final bye to the instructors and went their own ways. Having no idea where to go, I followed Joey and Liying out. We were going to eat prata, and stalked the instructors. In the end, Asher, Andrew and a female instructor had prata, milo dinosaur and Indian Rojak with us.

Heard them talk about a lot of things, some disputes among the instructors. Of course, they were humans. How to live in total peace? These we understand. Other things like why can't the camp be longer, we can't understand. I think they are fantastic. They can hide all these and help us make the camp fun, like nothing not so positive is happening among them. They did not let their disputes afftect how they run the camp. Okay. Talked and talked. We were the last ones in PL to spend extra time with the instructors. (Those who like Ash, you guys jealous?) He has long eyelashes, ...

Then the female instructor, instructor Andrew and Liying cabbed back. They lived in the same area. The other one took 136 with Joey and I. Saw Joelle and Rebecca, I hope they were not thinking out of the box. It's just bus with instructor Ash. He took the bus going in the wrong direction again. -.- Joey saw him in the 11x bus. Whoops.

So here I am, sitting in front of the computer. Blogging. My eyes hurt.

in thunder, lightning or in rain?

Actually, it's in all three. Thunder was like so scary. Boom. It's cold !

Saturday's youth service. Eugene led worship and it was only his 2nd time. I think he did a pretty good job. His faith is so strong, you can actually feel the calmness in him when something worrying happens. Like before cell time, Charmaine's keyboard went off for no particular reason, Sean and Kah Wan could not do anything about it. Eugene simply believed that it would be fine, and it did :) He did not panic like the others on duty that day. Faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains. The key is to trust God in any difficult situation. He does not think very much about playing the wrong chords, said it doesn't matter 'cuz people are worshipping and they won't notice. Some other worship leaders are not like that la. They are very particular about correct chords.

Thanks to my mentor Kara and last Saturday's 'sermon' by Boon Yeow, I have started praying and doing QT more often :D How can anyone say they have no time when the first thing they do when they step into the house is to switch on the comp and go online? That's ridiculous. Ok that was from my cell people.

Heard they're doing something about my cell. 2 girls is a BIG number man.

I'm so tired. Business proposal is the worst kind of project, ever. Friday work until 5+, Sunday survey the people in Heartland Mall (until kena chased out) and Hougang Mall for a few hours, yesterday work from 7.40am to 1.50am. Yes I'm serious, AM. Sarah slept over at my house. We put in so much effort, hopefully an get at least top marks in the class. Horse put in the most effort. The menu, speech and folder... and editing of ppt slides. Thank you Horse :) Some others just looks as if they can't be bothered.

I screwed up the presentation okay. When I talked, I was trembling. Horse thought it was very obvious. Asked the others, they said they didn't notice. It was really scary. Not even like first time doing presentation. And then I was doing the projection and didn't click the mouse on time. Sheila found our skit highly amusing. Chocolate makes you happy and pimply.

Gave Tania the moose cusion. She looks happy with it :)

This is April, worship month.

Come to my church,
ESPRIT! Celebrate life, live again
Living Scantuary Brethren Church
Level 4 auditorium
15 March 2006
4pm-6.30pm

I shall NEVER, sit directly behind or in front of her again. So irritating please. Ask her to stop being so dirty-minded and noisy and more people will like her. Persie also. Ask her not to touch my ponytail she keep touching.

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY FAITH!

when shall we three meet again?

Woot I'm so proud of my group for Innovation Week. We worked OT.

Morning, stayed in class to discuss the survey and interview questions. It was not easy okay. Miss Ting accepted it and we went to Serangoon Gardens to conduct the survey. The first auntie we met was very friendly :D Took a long time there.

Then to Serangoon Central. There were so many other students doing surveys as well, not just PL. Peicai also. This time it was much easier. Pictures! haha. Reached Sarah's house at around 1.45pm. Worked until 5 plus, we did part of the skit, part of the presentation and part of the stuff for the folder. The skit is going to be nice, something very different from others. I seriously think 2 days is not enough for this business project. Going to work OT again on Monday I think.

Our aim:
Top the class for this project.

I'm so tired. Need my bottle of Power Booster. Too bad it's fake.

paddock calls, anon

Oh no, I forgot to get a birthday present for dear old Filch. I'll give her a late one.

Please be reminded that I am uncontactable on my handphone.

fair is foul and foul is fair

I AM CURRENTLY UNCONTACTABLE BY HANDPHONE. PLEASE PUT OFF ANY ATTEMPT OF DOING SO because I did something to the phone by accident, and now the fishing SIM card is "rejected". SO I CAN ONLY BE CONTACTED BY EMAIL OR HOUSE PHONE. I may be completely cut off from 2 major ways of communication soon, one of them being the use of e-mail. I might be banned from using the comp for a few months (because i failed to complete all the questions in the e.math textbook), then it's bye bye to my blog posts. Soon, it will be only the house and public telephone. I don't feel safe putting my house number up, ask around for it :)

It's fun to shop with Patricia :) We went to get shorts for the camp after school. Couldn't accompany Horse to the dentist. Walked almost the whole of PS from B4 to L4. The Phantom of the Opera original scores cost 42 bucks. To my Angel: Hints* no la I'm not to mean. Going to save up for it by not eating for recess. I want the scores so badly.

She's pissed with me because I'm pissed with her for pang-sehing me and leaving the group, leaving me with the most dislikable girl in PL. This dislikable girl is not easy to work with, she insists on doing a video ad for English, even when Rui Zi and I thought of doing it live. Priya told me she had no friends last year. I dread meeting them, especially when the dislikable girl is one of them. What choice have I got? Have to meet them to do the stupid ad tomorrow during recess. I'll just pretend I didn't bring the camera. I feel like slapping her. Control, control. Back to her. I wouldn't be deliberately ignoring her if she did not do that. Like, the only person I could relate to (in the group at that time), changing group? Now I don't know whether to be pissed or to break down and cry. Feels like the latter this time.

On a lighter note, well we ran 2.4km today, trials. I was 3rd in the class. 14.21s. Me, a someone who exercises once in a million years, who eats and sleeps like a pig, who avoids any form of exercice for fear of losing weight, be the 3rd to complete 2.4km? Wow. Not bad for a skinny person like me. 0.01s to an A grade. Imgaine my horror when I heard that. The key is never stop jogging even when you feel you are going to die. Keep going on. DON'T STOP AT ALL. Just jog.

I really want it to be like last time,
as if the world revolved around us.
Not speaking to any individual from
the class makes me feel greatly
uncomfortable. I'd love to be on
--ea---- t---- again. I leave the past
behind, and move on.
Forgiveness, the Lord had taught us.
Let us do as He says.
But will you --v- -- -h- --a--- -- d- s-?
I seriously hope so.
Think about the following:

Love is patient,
love is kind.
It does not envy,
it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It is not rude,
it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects,
always trusts,
always hopes,
always preserves


Goodnight people.

so fair and foul a day i have not seen

Was blog-surfing cum lurking, I find that this group of girls' blogs are interesting. Others are just plain boring. I noticed most blogs are black :D Wish some girls will just stop swearing, especially if they're Christians. Spelling the whole word out doesn't look nice on IE. Also because I detest swearing. Some other word can substitute that, like Lai Theng taught me last year. Fish. Mmmm I love fish and chips! Out of point again -.-

Mondays, science day. 4 periods of practical, 4 periods of excessive using of test tubes. I hate those goggles, they're so big. Lighting up bunsen burners can be fun if it gets lighted up when you first press the thing. THE thing. forgot what it's called. We were like panicking during chemistry cause we didn't know the ionic equation.

"Do you have the old notes??"
"How to do?"
"Let me see your answer"
"But I don't know!!"
"AAHHH I KNOW ALREADY ! "
"Quick copy, don't let Mrs Chong see!"
"Are you sure this is the answer? Sulphuric acid leh!"
"Hurry up we need to hand in now!"

Haha. All that drama. It was even more dramatic during biology. We were doing food tests, Benedict's, biuret and iodine. So there were food samples of bananas, lotus seeds, eggs (yuck), potatoes and apples. The sink at my bench was chocked, dunno who and who just emptied the contents of their test tubes there, making a polluted swimming pool out of that small pathetic sink. We could not get the damn water to flow. Hannah saved our lives by using her palm to 'pump'. That got the water flowing. Our hands stunk like garbage. All that food and Benedict's solution and and biuret solution and iodine.

I noticed something. That "haha" is very frequently used in our everyday conversations (both online and direct), and in blogs. EVERY SINGLE blog contains at least x number of "haha"s. HAHAHAHA. See, I just said "haha"! Look at the tagboards man. Almost every tag contains "haha". It has become so part of us that we just "haha" at everything. It's a wonder that many of our English compositions, informal and formal letters do not contain them. Can you imagine, if a person wrote it for English paper 1 for O level? LOL. "Haha" seems so Singaporean. Let's laugh. What do you say when you laugh? Hahahahahahahahahaha.

Similarly, Horses neigh when they attempt to talk. But my horse can talk and she wants her pinafore back from me.

My 2nd generation tamagotchi is going to be an adult tomorrow! No one to mate with, though. Adeline's going to mate with Madeline's. Sarah's is female. Horse's just mated. Her baby Her tama's baby is female. I don't want to see that ugly matchmaker in my tamagotchi screen, hahah. No other male in the group of us to mate with. Rharr.

what bloody man is that?

Menses. That explains why I was feeling depressed the past few days. Not forgetting the cramps. I can't sneeze, cough or laugh. PAIN !

the near the blood, the nearer bloody

Sports day for PL. My job, thankfully, wasn't announcing results like Hilary said. She and her rubbish. It was just bringing the competitors to the 100m and 200m mark, deliver the attendance sheet to teachers, and do crowd control. Pretty easy, the other helpers took over my job halfway and that was all. Priya and Kelly didn't do much either. In fact they were lazier than me.

Lee house, so disappointing, except for the PL family race where the teachers came in 1st, and cheer competition, 2nd. Other than that, it's quite dead. I couldn't really hear them cheering from the competitors' stand. Chew and Archer house in the lead, as expected. When results were announced for the top 3 places, there were very little Lees. Sad, sad. Wanna say thank you to all who made this event possible, the sports and house comitees and the teachers from both schools. And of course, the girls in white, helpers.

Should I go for tonight's concert? I don't feel like going. What's the use of going for it when you have only 2 5cent coins in your wallet? Forget it.

I'm on duty tomorrow again. Meeting with mentors cancelled. I can wake up a few hours later tmrw morning :)

Feeling kinda bored now, I shall go and study.

false fase must hide what the false heart doth know

I'm in a better mood today.

Lee house rocks. Got our wristbands, now everyone wants the green one, 'cuz it's obviously nicer. Lime green. It's the nicest among all the 4 colours, red, blue, yellow and (lime) green. Woohoooo.

I am so NOT looking forward to sports day. Thought I didn't have duties. Thought. And then I checked the notice board. There, are 2 names from 3c2, Priya and I. Guess what we're doing. COMPETITORS' STEWARD!! So what on earth are we supposed to do? Hilary (Tan) thinks we are the commentator cos there are only 2 people in the entire list doing this job. Oh man, please, not that. I suck when it comes to this kind of things. I shall eat lots of laksa and chocolate and make myself get a sore throat so that I don't have to do anything. Poor Priya will be all alone. No, I'm not so mean, haha. If any of us make mistakes, Ms Ferng will chop and fry us for lunch. Why are there only 2 competitors' stewards????? Grrrr.

Surprised that Miss Ting likes my group's powerpoint slides on insolation weathering. She said it was nicer than hers? Hey, she's a teacher. I think we did well, though we did not prepare much. At least it's over, no more geography stuff to worry about. The next worrying thing: Music presentation on the violin and piano with Joanne, about Jazz music with Genesis, English project on advertising a service or product. I want to change group okay. Think my group sucks, I just cannot work with R and R. We are so different. There will be conflicts, I can predict the future. I cannot work with R and R. I cannot, no matter how hard I try to think positively. 'Cannot' is the word.

Mrs Tan made us stand for most of the Chinese lesson. Mainly because we were restless and did not show interest in the lesson. I could sense frustration underneath that smiling face. She tries very hard not to show the bad side of her.

Today's class prayer cell had a greater response from the class. But only 1 quarter of the class. At least Miss Ang isn't too angry with us, not like only 1 person staying back, pathetic. That person would be me. The class esther herself did not stay back. Now she's asking me to take over this position. =.=

There are some things which we must be sensitive about when in someone's house, whether it's your best friend or good friend. I'm not pointing fingers at anyone, just saying it. Basic things like not being itchy-fingered and self-service to stuff, or going into rooms without permission. Lying on beds is one of the things we should not do, especially when it's someone else's bed like parents or siblings. "Make yourself at home", but don't go to that extent. Just remember that it is someone's house, not yours and don't make yourself too at home :)

Good day to you.

away, and mock the time with the fairest show

I think most sec 3s are in the Shakespearean mood now. Just look at the blogs and MSN nicks :D Don't you just love Macbeth? Note: it's underlined, referring to the play and not the character.

My house was polluted with noise. I was the pollutant. Violin and piano, haha. Have to present the music thing on Thursday, I was just practicing! But it sounded like noise instead of music. My neighbours love me man.

What's wrong with me now? Something's not right, here's a mystery for you to solve. I'm feeling the same as what Joey felt in P6. About her. In fact, I feel like avoiding her. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?? She is not the only reason I'm feeling different. Some other people as well, like they have an attitude problem. Man, I feel as is I'm indifferent about things now. This confusion inside me is something which cannot be explained, a thing which can't be expressed in words. Depression? Maybe. But why at this time or targetted at my classmates? Definitely not PMS, not so soon. Sigh*. You may not know excatly what I'm experiencing. I don't expect anyone to. It's just, me.

Tonight, Macbeth rules. I hope not to be in a soliloquy. Cannot be ill, cannot be good. Then what?

new term, new week

Got our new timetables today, I think Fridays will suck. All single periods!! Except for Chinese. So that's like, 8 subjects?! Man. According to Yu Ting, we'll be missing a lot of Fridays this term, which makes it a good thing :D Mondays are the best, ALL double periods. Least books. Yayness.

August is a good bunny

Eh, I am surprised to know that strangers are visiting this blog. Hello and welcome to visitors planning to tag or just lurk. You are strongly encouraged to tag :)

Changed the layout again, I know it's a little too soon. Old spongy was taking far too long to load on my computer. It wasn't 'me' enough.

Watched Sky High and In Her Shoes this afternoon with Jasmine and Joey. Sky High is much easier to understand and enjoyable, it's a family show. In Her Shoes.. Jasmine and I could not figure out what was going on most of the time :D Kids? Whatever. At least I roughly know what it was about.

Sky (Joey's rabbit) shits a lot. Like a shitting machine.

Homework, homework. Chinese gan3 xiang3 (reflections) on an article. I've found the article, but too lazy to start on it. That requires a lot of thinking and energy. My Chinese blog is dead , just can't type in Chinese la. Hmm. I'm done with English, geog, bio, accounts, lit. Left with Chinese and music. Hate composing. It will suck, Joanne and I are going to fail that assignment. Just wait and see.

I cannot get Grace a present, not after spending 27 bucks on a toy.

Nothing much today. Worship prac at 1.30pm. Prepare the songs. Do QT. Drink milk. Eat cookies. Make sure I don't get a sore throat. Pray. Do homework. Practice my scales and exam pieces. Stop typing and shut down the computer so that I can start on some things. Goodnight people.

Stars, hide your fires

It's time. Time for what? That's for me to know and for you to find out.

(in this post/entry, Grace is Grace Yong, not Grace Quek.)

Class gathering/party/outing/bonding/whatever was kinda fun I guess. Eat, talk, eat, talk, play. Her room was pink, expected la. Yuhui thought it was messy. Wait till she sees my room! It's a super tiring day, could feel all my energy being drained out even before going home. Tried to sleep, but Adeline's persuading skills were fantastic. Robbed me of my innocent sleep. We should have stayed longer, though. 'We' meaning Joey and Sarah and I, my dad sent them homw. Our tamgotchi club thingy is growing. Valerie seemed really irritated with someone. So much so that when I did something by accident, she said "Aei, don't be like her!" And then Joanne was irritated with someone else. Joey was irritated with someone at first, I could sense it. I read people's minds ok. Poor horse, some more in front of Miss Ang! Who dares to bully my horse, I will stuff hay into their mouths! Hahaa.. Singray and otah rocks. Should have gotten more otah. Seemed like a lot of them were eating it. AND I SHOULD HAVE TRIED SERENE'S BROWNIES!! Grrrrr. The plates and cups kept flying away, the wind was playing tricks on us, hahaha. I tried to play Grace a birthday song, which was not very successful, there were a lot of wrong notes in the chords. So pai seh. Don't think anyone noticed. According to Joey, they all sang out of tune on purpose, I didn't have a clue to what was going on. Heck the piano. Hey I'm hungry. And tired. *yawns.

Scene in Grace's room.
Girl A playing the violin.
Girl B figuring out how to play the guzheng.
Girl D examining some hair straightener.
Girl C acting as a ghost.
Girls E and F playing with the lights switches.
Girl C takes over the guzheng.
{Disastrous? Why, yes. And we are sec THREEs.}
Then Girl D left the scene, leaving all the rest (uniformed group ppl) and poor Girl A (music group), the latter was confused about all their pumpings and punishments and stuff.

GOOD LUCK, ALL THE BEST TO THE ST.JOHN GIRLS GOING FOR COMPETITION. MAY THE LORD WATCH OVER YOU AND BLESS YOU. MUST MAKE PL PROUD OKAY? :) I don't know excatly who, pardon me.

I stink. Time for a bath.

the time is finally accurate. meaning all the previous ones were not.

test

fish la.

Younger siblings are SO annoying. My brother has been irritating me non-stop, from yesterday morning until today. We (horse and I) could not do the Geography thing in peace, because he kept disturbing me. He told my parents that I dropped my plate of rice and bought the Tamagotchi. So I got a scolding. A bad one. And then when I try to complain about how he has been annoying me for no reason, for the whole day, I get scolded again. The younger ones get away every single time, giving them more chances to be a nuisance. Why do the older ones always seem to get it? Can't parents be more fair? So what if the kids are young? They're dumb too. This is driving me to my grave.

Got my new toy this morning with horse, we saved $3. The old man agreed to sell it at lower price as we were the first to buy the tamagotchi. I find it ok, quite fun to make friends and play games. I'm referring to the toy, not humams. It's definitely better than those lousy imitation ones.

Speaking of imitation stuff, it's time for me to get new footwear. The pair I'm wearing is not wearable. Like it's getting uglier and going to spoil anytime. Birkenstock or something. Bought that from Thailand, only S$4. Cheapo slippers. That's the kind of quality you get for buying imitation goods. Likewise, we shouldn't download music, movies, anything you know is copyrighted or of good quality. Because the free ones, mostly illegal, are 'lower' than the originals. My point is, buy originals and say no to piracy.

Collecting my spectacles tomorrow. I'll look funny.

Yuhui said a lot of peeps are not going for the class party/gathering/outing/whatever? Miss Ang made us cancel all the shit we have to go for this, and they are not coming? Hoho. //I have a feeling that it will be boring, and there will be loads of leftovers. Food. The pig is coming to eat! That's me :)

Today is a busy day. Phone call after phone call, SMS after SMS. I even had difficulty going to the toilet. Not just me, others are busy. Horse is busier than me. Church friends are so busy that I have people queuing(?) up to ask me to replace them for this Saturday's worship. Which makes me busy, 'cause I have been on duty for every Youth Ablaze service. We need more backup singers.

Thank You for the world so sweet

Should I cut my hair? How short? How do I put those contact lenses in? How in the world am I going to finish so much work within this week? Why is it that whenever I meet church friends between heartland mall and my house, Kah Wan is always one of them? Why didn't I practice maths questions before the test and pass my CA and get my MP3 player? Why is there so much to do, and so little time? Who is that person? Why do I keep going there, I'm definitely not obsessed! Why does August shit all the time? Why can't he eat less and shit less and give me less work to do? When is Mrs Wong coming back? Is there any way I can get instant money without breaking the law? How is Kar Mun now? Why must the class party/outing/bonding session/dunno what be at Grace's house (I'm not against it)

Ms Kok praised me today. Haha, just ask the 3c2 maths girls

Going to get my tamagotchi on Monday, so far it's only Adeline and me. I wonder who else is going..? Heartland Comics Connection only has 3, all of them look awfully awful. Anyone willing to pay for my new toy? o_O (stop dreaming la) http://tamatown.com . Rather childish, yeah, but it looks fun. Ah, the feeling of being a kid all over again without inequalities signs, number lines, indices, fractions, decimals, integers, prime numbers, weird diagrams and shapes prying their way into my dreams. Okayyy, out of point.

There's this person staying around here who sneezes very loudly. It even sounds funny. Then I would imitate him. Nothing happens, thankfully.

I walked past a man who burped super SOFTLY (note sarcasm). Just like the girl I took bus with this morning, burp right into my face and claim it's a nice burp. Please la, haha.

HolyFishing shit. So my yahoo mail signature has always been that? NO way. I have been sending out rubbish smileycentral stuff! That site sucks, I was stupid enough to be tricked into downloading their stuff a few years ago. There's this email, (I've got enough of it, thanks) which says click here for free ipod or something like that. Hey, that's obviously not true, there's no such thing as free. One person clicks on the link, his/her entire contact list gets it. Think before you click on anything suspicious, please.

edited.
Just talked to Joey, aka my horse. We talked for almost an hour at my doorstep. Why not in my house? I dunno. Outside's more cooling? xP HAHAHA, hand wrist. For the 1st time, horse is busier than me. Tomorrow, go order the otah, go to comics connection to ask about the tamagotchi, and do the geography thing. Better do a good job. Most of us didn't get a very good grade and that's counted in CA/SA1. I hope it doesn't turn out like the Macbeth thing where I end up doing all the work.

Neopoian Stock Market. Must make money!!

No, I didn't sleep at 5am, had a stomachache. So slept at 2 plus. Maybe I'll be able to do it tonight? Copy bio text, POA, find some geog stuff, start on music and not wait for Joanne, (hmm..) English- find advertisments and do reading rites 4, read up the Macbeth stuff, Chinese do some newspaper thing, plus FINISH UP ALL THE MATHS QUESTIONS IN THE TEXTBOOK FOR CHAPTERS 1, 2, and 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh man. Tonight, homework has won the battle. Sleep lost. Time to start unpaid work. Goodnight. (oh no, it's happy working for me.)

pizzas are yummy

Just passed Horse my files, she's gonna 'refer' to them, hah I've done my filing (: Poor Horse, must eat more hay and jog less, you need all the energy for your busy schedule. You don't need to be so kind and let Adeline have the pink one, who ask her to have a pink bag and pencil case and previously, pink blog. I sound mean :p

I'm going to do the maths textbook questions and some homework until, say, 5am. Must finish everything ASAP! Then can go out from Wednesday to Friday. I wonder how that can be done. Sounds like yours truly has been transformed into 'superwomangirl'. Piano lessons are less enjoyable these few weeks, because I can't play the dumb piece from the C section. (Title: For Johnny Mehegan) It may be just 2 pages long, but it's difficult to play 2 completely different rhythms/articulation/whatever simultaneously. I haven't touched that piece for a week, and there's lesson tomorrow. Wish me luck.

God has protected Auntie Zelia and Uncle Edward, what happened recently was no joke. It's downright dangeorous. Praise Him for His protection over them. Jia Yan will know what I'm talking about.

Today's lunch, one word: Yummy.
Pizza Hut student meal with Yu Ting, Jie Xin, Hui Leng and Wen Qin. (notice something? all their names are non-English) Hawaiian pizza rocks stones pebbles shells! I can't wait to go there again. Jie Xin did not touch her Cream of Chicken, that tasted good. I think Wen Qin drank hers up.

My neopets account is rotting. So are my np, they are going to rot together with the a/c.

Famous Amos cookies.
Hashbrowns
Korean seaweed
Sushi!
Pizza
Backed rice and pasta
Lots and lots of cheese
(Mmmm...)
Chicken nuggets
I'm hungry.

cell bonding

It's good to watch movies with the 18-year-olds, especially since they're from church. They know when to censor stuff, fast forward certain parts. Mainly because Sarah and I were the only underaged ones, I think. But the movie was rated PG! Some sexual references, my foot.

"Is a lot of sexual references!" -Eugene.

Slept at almost 4am, the guys still had the energy to play xbox or playstaion. I couldn't take it.

I'm still feeling uncomfortable about my cell, last night's bonding:
13 people, 3 out of the 13 are girls.
Santi didn't stay over. Wan Hui and I slept with the 18 yr old girls, Beatrice and Sarah. Freaking cold in the dance room. I left for home quite early this morning for tuition.

I cannot wait to get my tamagotchi, the transparent green one! Can you believe we actually have something like a tamagotchi club, with already 6 members? We need to elect a president or chairlady soon.

shitheads

I failed English for the first time. Lots of us falied maths, and according to Cheryl, it's UNGRADED, below F9. Yeah it's that serious. I didn't get any Cs, surprisingly. They jumped up to A and B. So I have 2 A1s, 2 B3s, 2 B4s, 1 D7 and 1 ungraded. Conclusion: I have very good and very bad results. Top 20% for bio/chem, geography and POA. Hey I'm not boasting or anything. Because, like I said, failed English and maths, the most important subjects. Isn't that like shit. My father is going to hit the roof when he comes back from his business trip.

Today's mass prayer cell had a GOOD response from 3c2 man, so exciting. Wanna know who went? Filch and I. Applause please. Adeline said she would come but disappeared after her NP thing. Other classes had half their population in the hall. Felt weird, just 2 of us standing there watching the others with their classes. Miss Ang was encouraging, though. She didn't nag at Serene for not handing the list of those who needed lunch.

Thanks a lot to Adeline and Sheila, now Serene and I have to copy out dunno how many pages of the biology textbook.

Mrs Tan is the best Chinese teacher. So far. But then she goes quite fast and we end up ahead of the other classes. You will see me blogging in Chinese soon.

MSN: When my status is away, I'm really away from the computer. So don't start a conversation unless you don't mind late replies (:

Who wants to go to Pizza Hut?

(:

Are you happy? I am.
Walked to Serangoon Stadium with Charmaine, Ling Ying and Jess from school today for the 90m race. Lee house was the last to run.

THE LEES WILL BE ARE BACK BY FAITH!!!

Can't help feeling high. Lee house, all the wayyyyy! Actually, running last has an advantage. Cause most of the other runners have gone home, so there is less pressure from the huge crowd. Archer house must have had a hard time, haha. Poor things. Hey, poor me too. My head was spinning and I almost collapsed after the race. If not for that little energy I had to pull myself to the grandstand.......
My money literally went down the drain. The coins dropped out of my pocket and into the drain. Not sure how much I have lost.

I got F9 for maths. FANTASTIC. You know how fast my class is going? Like, one and a half chapter(s) ahead of others. There's no other reason why we did so badly. I 1/2 wish Ms Kok taught us. 3c1 maths people are currently hopeless. Mrs Wong, come back!

I'm Tania's cat. She's a good owner who loves her pet :)

woot

Did system recovery on my computer, so it's like super fast now, don't have to wait for 2 years before the internet browser loads. Just that some programmes installed are all GONE. Even those MSN emoticons, all gone.

1st time failing English. E. maths was not a negative number, but still a single digit. Thank God for people in church who are willing to help me for free (: Hard to find an English tutor, I have to teach myself again. Pretty surprised with geography, much better than expected. I know you're dying to know, ask me personally, haha. Accounts was close to full marks. Mrs Eng is speeding up so I'm afraid I can't slack as much during her lessons. I bet she will be in class before we reach class tomorrow.

NEWater is so clean, it's safe for drinking! Today's visit was so interesting! I enjoyed myself! Hahaha! -.- Fact is, the whole thing was boring and it was one of the most "enjoyable" learning journeys ever. They wanted to change the puclic's opinion about NEWater, that it is not some sewage water but reverse osmisis and stuff... If I spell as osomosis, Miss Sem will come running after me with a penknife.

I feel like dropping music. So much to do... I'll just see how badly I do for this semester and decide later in the year. Projects, theory, harmonising, composing, figured bass, different characteristics and periods of music, plus all other subjects, I might just die under all these pressure. Unfortunately for me, high pressure does not move over to a low pressured area.

I hate blood. Especially when there is too much discharge of the disintegrated uterine lining together with some blood.

Red blood cells are circular, flat and biconcave. They contain haemoglobin and help transport oxygen from the lungs to all parts of the body. No nucleus, which makes it different from normal cells. The mitochondria is where cell respiration is carried out. Acts as a "power house" . Blah blah blah blah blah. When is Miss Ang going to return us our social studies paper? Next year?

I have a sudden craving for potato chips, chocolate and ice cream. What a nice combination. Similarity: all are junk food. Too much is bad for health! Must control! Eat more healthy food. Hoho, I love eating. Yum yum. Lets have a party at my house during the holidays and eat all you want.

If 3c2 is the most disciplined class again, Singapore will snow. If we are the cleanest class, Joey will become straight.

Forgetting what lies behind
Setting our hearts on the prize
Always keeping our eyes on our Lord Jesus
We're running the race to win
ALl the way to the end
Laying down every sin that will seek to hinder us

And we'll be faithful to our calling
For you are able to keep us from falling
For in your promise we will trust
We'll be faithful to finish the work you began in us

i don't want any more lessons with the sec 1s

My sudoku is under someone's desk. I am going to hammer her tomorrow.

Busy, busy, busy. I have a feeling Wanyi is angry with me again. No, I think it's the whole exco. Cos I needed to leave for Friday's concert and I did not inform them in advance. Was in school uniform together with Joanne, the rest were in their own clothes.
Saturday, peer lites' meeting with our mentors. Then worship prac and youth ablaze all the way until seven. Long day, then to Jack's Place to celebrate my mum's birthday. I love baked salmon, yum yum. So that's 2 days gone, with no time to study for lit.
Sunday, I had cramps and couldn't move. Dragged myself for the 2nd service, haw haw haw. Clarissa had some school choir stuff and I was going to backup alone, so I panicked. Pulled Grace in for prac for the corporate prayer meeting, I wasn't going to do it alone, no. This is Grace Quek, by the way, not Grace Yong. We need more backup singers, or else I will have to sing every week. My story doesn't end here. After the prayer meeting, was quite late for lunch, we ate anyway. Stood for so long, legs were aching. Then concert at NUS by the chinese orchestra, and blah bblah blah blah blah blah blah blah. Which leaves me with totally not time to study lit.

This morning. Copy bio corrections, social studies, tried to look through the Macbeth but just couldn't. Conclusion: i'm going to FAIL lit, again. Geography marks were really unexpected. God was merciful :) Let's see, what should I talk about. MATHS, HOMEWORK HAVENT DO YET oh no. ... what went on after school? Short term memory sorry... oh yes. Walked out with Stacey, Priya, Adeline and Priscilla. The girl whose name starts with the letter "A" is terribly sick in the brain. Comtaminated with boobs.I feel sick just thinking about it.

Wish me luck for my piano lesson. Hopefully there's no lecture this time. If only I could cancel it as easily as striking out a word written on paper...

LT; finally, a word from you
mel; i only like the seaseed. (:
joey; .........J + C = JC.
tania; (:

haha

Symphony 92.4 . Good music, good life.

I think that's the ONLY thing they say. The rest are mainly classical and romantic pieces.

POA test was very ok! At first I couldn't balance the trial balance. Then I panicked. Was sharing calculator with Joey so it was quite difficult to do my checking. But I balanced it anyway. $25270

PL feels like my home. Especially the classroom. It's so nice to know that we're all going through things together. You may not know what I mean. Was just looking back and it's like, sec 3 already. We only have up to next year to enjoy ourselves in PL. Then everything's gone. As in no more PL girls surrounding you. No more comfort of knowing that, (i also dunno what). There's a safe and secure feeling, being with all the rest of the sec 3s... Looks like I can't express my feelings properly.

All the names I put on my list, the one put up on the class wall wth the photos together with the rest. Actually right, I'm like Persie. Just that the names were not random. I put the whole class so that there would not be any negative feelings. Not all names are on my list. I mention it here because I know this blog is visitor-free most of the time. Al most all the time. I know people like Lai Theng just come and read and go without tagging, AM I RIGHT?? Haha. So tag and leave your footprints here okay.

Can't go for the trip. $2400. How to pay?

jia youuuu!

I don't want to die such an early death. Or maybe I should just jump down from my bedroom window (which is the 2nd floor). I can't make up my mind.
1) I'm going to fail the emaths test. Miss Liang still said it was easy?? I couldn't even solve a single question, damn it. And I know I'm going to get -10/25. Whatever, Tania, maybe you'll get a minus twenty. Mrs Wong, quick come back or we will continue to fail.
2) 1A1 class outing proposal!!!! I doubt I'll even work on it, meaning There'll be trouble. I know it.
3) Lit test next week, accounts test tomorrow.
4) My English is deproving like anything.
5) Stupid Adeline keeps laughing at me not experiencing monsoon yet.

Those are the 4 reasons why I should jump. Actually, there's no need to get worried cos you know I wont do silly things. Bit out of point :D

Oh yeah, JOEY. Yesterday she and Adeline were arguing about J------ being macho and all. How one said a girl can't be macho and another one say can. But the fact still remains that a girl cannot be macho. Yuhui said they looked like husband and wife fighting. LOL. She laughed the most. So after school I mentioned the husband and wife thing. Did I say that it was the first time a wife was taller than her husband? Can't remember.

me: haha, Adeline is your husband
Joey: I don't like, like her
Hilary: You mean love?

Somehow, they kept being repeated throughout the journey back to hougang. Kept replaying like a tape recorder. I bet the same thing will happen tomorrow.

Got back our bio results today, we did not do well at all. Except for Melody, smart ass. Our results were terrible. Almost the whole class was depressed after the lesson. But, that isn't the end of the world, not yet. Do not be discouraged, we still have a year to Os.

Boxer had said in Animal Farm, "I will work harder!" In fact, that was his motto. We can try to be like him. Worrying about the CA marks or getting depressed won't help to pull up the marks, otherwise the cumulonimbus clouds will permenantly cover the earth. We must work harder! We can do it! Maybe we should stay back everday and study together, this way we can spur and encourage one another. Then we will all pass our tests with flying colours! It wouldn't be nice if the colours started to sink and get dissolved, then there will be no more colours and we will all die together. Paper chromatography won't be able to help at all. 3c2, jia1 you2!

Be considerate, spare a thought for others. I get really irritated when people keep asking what others got for a test, just because they scored well. Neither is it good to say you got lousy marks, what carelsess mistakes and "can actually be the highest one lor", all these comments should be kept to herself. It justs makes things worse for those who didn't do very well. I am speaking (typing) on behalf of the weaker ones, myself included. Can't encourage, I suggest he or she shuts up. Whatever it is, we should not discourage a person.

I think I'm abnormal. I want to be normal! Why haven't I experienced monsoon yet? Why isn't the lover part of my body growing? Lol, think I"m going to be referred to SGH on day about this problem.

biology

Right eye is sore and bothering me. Miss Ting has long feet. My rabbit is horny. It wants to mate with the cloth. There's a bio test tomorrow, E maths test the day after, and a POA test on thursday. Have to submit the class outing proposal to Miss Chan for the sec 1s' class outing by Friday. Peer lites meeting with mentors on Saturday, then my group will go to old folks' home, orphanage or childcare centre to do some stuff. I can't go, must go for worship prac and it's quite important cos of Sunday. About the Julia and Nisa thing, we still haven't tell any of the teachers, I'm prepared to get a lecture from Miss Kok and Mrs Soh. I want to watch I Not Stupid Too. I am deprived of TV. Don't even know what 'snuppy' or whatever it is about. I want to go for the Symposium!!!! But no money, so can't even think about it. Sharon amswered all the questions during SS today, unfair! Grace is so pink. Hyun bin, wahahaha.

RIGHT. Those were totally RANDOM stuff. Let's get on with a biology lesson.

Enzymes
*biological catalysts made up of protein.
*molecules that speed up reactions without themselves being chemically changed.
*produced by living cells.

Digestion is the breaking up of large, insoluble, indiffusible molecules into smaller, simpler, diffusible molecules.

Hydrogen peroxide is sometimes released during chemical reactions.
It is poisonous!
-the cell produces enzyme catalase which catalyses the breakdown of hydrogen peroxide into water and oxygen
-in this way, the toxic effect is prevented.

Classification of Enzymes
- Digestion is an example of a chemical reaction called HYDROLYSIS.
--- using water to speed up/water splitting.
--water molecules are needed to break down a comples molecule into simpler molecules.
.:. Enzymes that catalyse hydrolytic reactions are known as HYDROLASES
-Examples of hydrolases:
--Carbohydrases
*amylase (salivary/pancreatic) which digest or hydrolase starch.
*cellulases which digest cellulose. Not produced in mammals, that's why animals cannot digest cellulase.
--Proteases (Pepsin in the stomach pH2, Trypsin in the small intestine pH9)which digest proteins.
--Lipases which digests fats (lipids)
-Digestive enzymes are used in some washing powders!

Characteristics of enzymes
-they speed up chemical reactions w/o being changed.
-they are required in small amounts
-they are highly specific in their actions
--e.g amylase will only act on starch, not proteins or fats.
--action of enzymes illustrated using the LOCK AND KEY hypothesis
----the enzyme (lock) has an active site that is of a spatial configuration.
----Only a specific substrate can bind to the active site of the enzyme.
----Only substances that can complement the shape of the active site can be broken down.
-Effect of temperature
--inactive at low temperature, 0°C to 30°C
--temperature ↑, activity ↑
--enzyme twice as active for every 10°C rise until the optumum temp is reached (40°C to 48°C for most enzymes)
--enzyme denatures beyond the optimum temperature.
WHY DO ENZYMES BECOME DENATURED??
because i want them to
because, Too high temp will destroy the protein nature of the enzyme.
- effect of pH on enzymes
--enzymes are very sensitive to pH.
--can only work within a narrow range.
--choose the narrowest optimum pH thing in MCQ.
-Effects of substrate and enzyme concentrations on rate of reaction
--(refer to page 41 of TB, fig 4.4) As the substrate concentration increases, the rate of reaction increases initially until point X is reached. A further increase in substrate concentration does not increase the rate any further. This is because, at any given instant, all the enzyme molecules are being saturated or made used of. The amount of products formed per unit time is the same.
WHAT IS A LIMITING FACTOR??
it is any factor that directly affects the rate at which a process, such as a chemical reaction occurs if quantity is changed.
HOW CAN YOU INCREASE THE RATE OF REACTION AT POINT X?
Increase the enzyme concentration la!

Some stuff on diffusion and osmosis.

The stem curls outwards, with the cortex cells expanding more than epidermal cells.
This is caused by the turgor pressure in the cortex cells.
Cortex cells prevented fom expanding be the epidermis layer, made up of epidermal cells.
They are held by a cuticle and so less capable of stretching.
The cuticle also protects the epidermal cells against water loss.
Cutting releases the restraintexerted by the epidermis.

Sitll have a lot, I'm not typing anymore. Time is 11.35pm

schools

School's alright so far, I guess. I'm begining to like 3c2, though I still miss 2c1 heaps. I know many of us still do. I like the times where we would simply stay in the classroom after school, with simply nothing to do, or contribute to the decorating of the class. Things are different this year. I wasn't so interested in helping with class stuff, also because most people aren't. You need a strong support in order to pull people in to stay back and help. I'm confused and depressed with some personal stuff, all these thoughts are getting nowhere actually. What crap am I talking about? -.-

Blog some other time. Need to prepare for church and worship prac. Hopefully everything will go well. Tania's blog is highly amusing. Go there when you have the time. It helps brighten up your day. time now is 10.47am, saturday, 18 feb

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I feel so lousy all over again. The atmosphere here is getting more and more depressing, I admit. Just wanna say something

Christel, Faith, and even Jon, I'm sorry I screwed up the whole thing. (Saying this though I know they'll never be here.) I guess I wasn't really prepared for it, the message was too last-minute. Yeah, this is not the first time I screwed up, please give me another chance if you guys are thinking of doing something about or to me. The more I think of it, the worse I feel. I know you'll say that it's okay and I just need more confidence, etc... But that's just how I feel about yesterday. I hope to do better in the future. Thanks for the many chances you have given me last time. My weakness, I confess, is not being sure when to start and that my 'confidence is running low'. I have been perfectly honest now, don't comment on this if any of you even see it. No, I take back my previous sentence. Shouldn't be runniny away from mistakes and a chance for others to correct me or give advice.

I feel like crying. Seeing the rest of them together happily makes me feel like shit.

******

Have to do the Macbeth ppt on Microsoft Word. The entire music project is weighing me down. Deadlines are Monday and Thursday respectively. Need to practice my piano scales, do music homework, finish up my mountain of schoolwork and study for Social Studies, Geography, Chemistry, Biology and Principles of Accounts. Tests. Not forgetting the PC lesson with 1A1 tomorrow which I have yet to prepare. Nisa isn't replying my messages or answering my calls, which leaves me to prepare for the lesson alone. All group works seem to be my work now. I might just collapse the next minute and everything would be fine. Oh, happy dreaming, man. Looks like all the negative stuff are pushing their way into me. Pray for me, please. Thanks guys.
time:1pm, and it's sunday not saturday

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All of a sudden, the word 'us' has a completely different meaning. Things have changed. Quite dramatically, I'm afraid. Feeling so... alone. Doesn't feel nice, when one of your *closest* is no longer *like this*. I wish certain things could remain like last year. Break times have never been the same again. These words might confuse you, yes, but details about this should not be put here, yea? Don't wanna offend anyone.

Tests. Projects. Homework. They're the reasons why I haven't been blogging. Even my time with God has been cut. Oh, not forgetting peer lite stuff and church. Might not sound stressful, but try putting on my shoes. You'll see what I mean. It all comes to the same conclusion: Too many things to do, too little time. Come what, come may. Time and the hour runs through the roughest day.

I kinda regret joining as a peer lite, come to think of it. Nah, it's about helping and serving. Should be happy doing it right? Planning for games and lessons are a headache. They are taking up a lot of time. Teaching a group of noisy sec 1s is no easy task, sometimes they get out of control. Anyway, I would appreciate if someone could help me with the ice-breakers. Running out of ideas.

Geography lessons = copying lesson = stress x stress
Miss Ting is going so fast, I honestly have no idea what the climate thing is all about. All our wrists gets overworked at the end of every lesson. I fear that one day the whole hand will fall out. So much for pure geography.

Thanks, Jasmine. Thanks a lot. Many thanks to Yu Ting too. Both of you, for listening to my troubles and being there for me.

I will change my blogskin. Not sure when, but when I do, (fret not,) some of your links will be added in. The whole thing is outdated man. time now is 12.22am, 8 Feb 06.