i don't want any more lessons with the sec 1s

My sudoku is under someone's desk. I am going to hammer her tomorrow.

Busy, busy, busy. I have a feeling Wanyi is angry with me again. No, I think it's the whole exco. Cos I needed to leave for Friday's concert and I did not inform them in advance. Was in school uniform together with Joanne, the rest were in their own clothes.
Saturday, peer lites' meeting with our mentors. Then worship prac and youth ablaze all the way until seven. Long day, then to Jack's Place to celebrate my mum's birthday. I love baked salmon, yum yum. So that's 2 days gone, with no time to study for lit.
Sunday, I had cramps and couldn't move. Dragged myself for the 2nd service, haw haw haw. Clarissa had some school choir stuff and I was going to backup alone, so I panicked. Pulled Grace in for prac for the corporate prayer meeting, I wasn't going to do it alone, no. This is Grace Quek, by the way, not Grace Yong. We need more backup singers, or else I will have to sing every week. My story doesn't end here. After the prayer meeting, was quite late for lunch, we ate anyway. Stood for so long, legs were aching. Then concert at NUS by the chinese orchestra, and blah bblah blah blah blah blah blah blah. Which leaves me with totally not time to study lit.

This morning. Copy bio corrections, social studies, tried to look through the Macbeth but just couldn't. Conclusion: i'm going to FAIL lit, again. Geography marks were really unexpected. God was merciful :) Let's see, what should I talk about. MATHS, HOMEWORK HAVENT DO YET oh no. ... what went on after school? Short term memory sorry... oh yes. Walked out with Stacey, Priya, Adeline and Priscilla. The girl whose name starts with the letter "A" is terribly sick in the brain. Comtaminated with boobs.I feel sick just thinking about it.

Wish me luck for my piano lesson. Hopefully there's no lecture this time. If only I could cancel it as easily as striking out a word written on paper...

LT; finally, a word from you
mel; i only like the seaseed. (:
joey; .........J + C = JC.
tania; (:

haha

Symphony 92.4 . Good music, good life.

I think that's the ONLY thing they say. The rest are mainly classical and romantic pieces.

POA test was very ok! At first I couldn't balance the trial balance. Then I panicked. Was sharing calculator with Joey so it was quite difficult to do my checking. But I balanced it anyway. $25270

PL feels like my home. Especially the classroom. It's so nice to know that we're all going through things together. You may not know what I mean. Was just looking back and it's like, sec 3 already. We only have up to next year to enjoy ourselves in PL. Then everything's gone. As in no more PL girls surrounding you. No more comfort of knowing that, (i also dunno what). There's a safe and secure feeling, being with all the rest of the sec 3s... Looks like I can't express my feelings properly.

All the names I put on my list, the one put up on the class wall wth the photos together with the rest. Actually right, I'm like Persie. Just that the names were not random. I put the whole class so that there would not be any negative feelings. Not all names are on my list. I mention it here because I know this blog is visitor-free most of the time. Al most all the time. I know people like Lai Theng just come and read and go without tagging, AM I RIGHT?? Haha. So tag and leave your footprints here okay.

Can't go for the trip. $2400. How to pay?

jia youuuu!

I don't want to die such an early death. Or maybe I should just jump down from my bedroom window (which is the 2nd floor). I can't make up my mind.
1) I'm going to fail the emaths test. Miss Liang still said it was easy?? I couldn't even solve a single question, damn it. And I know I'm going to get -10/25. Whatever, Tania, maybe you'll get a minus twenty. Mrs Wong, quick come back or we will continue to fail.
2) 1A1 class outing proposal!!!! I doubt I'll even work on it, meaning There'll be trouble. I know it.
3) Lit test next week, accounts test tomorrow.
4) My English is deproving like anything.
5) Stupid Adeline keeps laughing at me not experiencing monsoon yet.

Those are the 4 reasons why I should jump. Actually, there's no need to get worried cos you know I wont do silly things. Bit out of point :D

Oh yeah, JOEY. Yesterday she and Adeline were arguing about J------ being macho and all. How one said a girl can't be macho and another one say can. But the fact still remains that a girl cannot be macho. Yuhui said they looked like husband and wife fighting. LOL. She laughed the most. So after school I mentioned the husband and wife thing. Did I say that it was the first time a wife was taller than her husband? Can't remember.

me: haha, Adeline is your husband
Joey: I don't like, like her
Hilary: You mean love?

Somehow, they kept being repeated throughout the journey back to hougang. Kept replaying like a tape recorder. I bet the same thing will happen tomorrow.

Got back our bio results today, we did not do well at all. Except for Melody, smart ass. Our results were terrible. Almost the whole class was depressed after the lesson. But, that isn't the end of the world, not yet. Do not be discouraged, we still have a year to Os.

Boxer had said in Animal Farm, "I will work harder!" In fact, that was his motto. We can try to be like him. Worrying about the CA marks or getting depressed won't help to pull up the marks, otherwise the cumulonimbus clouds will permenantly cover the earth. We must work harder! We can do it! Maybe we should stay back everday and study together, this way we can spur and encourage one another. Then we will all pass our tests with flying colours! It wouldn't be nice if the colours started to sink and get dissolved, then there will be no more colours and we will all die together. Paper chromatography won't be able to help at all. 3c2, jia1 you2!

Be considerate, spare a thought for others. I get really irritated when people keep asking what others got for a test, just because they scored well. Neither is it good to say you got lousy marks, what carelsess mistakes and "can actually be the highest one lor", all these comments should be kept to herself. It justs makes things worse for those who didn't do very well. I am speaking (typing) on behalf of the weaker ones, myself included. Can't encourage, I suggest he or she shuts up. Whatever it is, we should not discourage a person.

I think I'm abnormal. I want to be normal! Why haven't I experienced monsoon yet? Why isn't the lover part of my body growing? Lol, think I"m going to be referred to SGH on day about this problem.

biology

Right eye is sore and bothering me. Miss Ting has long feet. My rabbit is horny. It wants to mate with the cloth. There's a bio test tomorrow, E maths test the day after, and a POA test on thursday. Have to submit the class outing proposal to Miss Chan for the sec 1s' class outing by Friday. Peer lites meeting with mentors on Saturday, then my group will go to old folks' home, orphanage or childcare centre to do some stuff. I can't go, must go for worship prac and it's quite important cos of Sunday. About the Julia and Nisa thing, we still haven't tell any of the teachers, I'm prepared to get a lecture from Miss Kok and Mrs Soh. I want to watch I Not Stupid Too. I am deprived of TV. Don't even know what 'snuppy' or whatever it is about. I want to go for the Symposium!!!! But no money, so can't even think about it. Sharon amswered all the questions during SS today, unfair! Grace is so pink. Hyun bin, wahahaha.

RIGHT. Those were totally RANDOM stuff. Let's get on with a biology lesson.

Enzymes
*biological catalysts made up of protein.
*molecules that speed up reactions without themselves being chemically changed.
*produced by living cells.

Digestion is the breaking up of large, insoluble, indiffusible molecules into smaller, simpler, diffusible molecules.

Hydrogen peroxide is sometimes released during chemical reactions.
It is poisonous!
-the cell produces enzyme catalase which catalyses the breakdown of hydrogen peroxide into water and oxygen
-in this way, the toxic effect is prevented.

Classification of Enzymes
- Digestion is an example of a chemical reaction called HYDROLYSIS.
--- using water to speed up/water splitting.
--water molecules are needed to break down a comples molecule into simpler molecules.
.:. Enzymes that catalyse hydrolytic reactions are known as HYDROLASES
-Examples of hydrolases:
--Carbohydrases
*amylase (salivary/pancreatic) which digest or hydrolase starch.
*cellulases which digest cellulose. Not produced in mammals, that's why animals cannot digest cellulase.
--Proteases (Pepsin in the stomach pH2, Trypsin in the small intestine pH9)which digest proteins.
--Lipases which digests fats (lipids)
-Digestive enzymes are used in some washing powders!

Characteristics of enzymes
-they speed up chemical reactions w/o being changed.
-they are required in small amounts
-they are highly specific in their actions
--e.g amylase will only act on starch, not proteins or fats.
--action of enzymes illustrated using the LOCK AND KEY hypothesis
----the enzyme (lock) has an active site that is of a spatial configuration.
----Only a specific substrate can bind to the active site of the enzyme.
----Only substances that can complement the shape of the active site can be broken down.
-Effect of temperature
--inactive at low temperature, 0°C to 30°C
--temperature ↑, activity ↑
--enzyme twice as active for every 10°C rise until the optumum temp is reached (40°C to 48°C for most enzymes)
--enzyme denatures beyond the optimum temperature.
WHY DO ENZYMES BECOME DENATURED??
because i want them to
because, Too high temp will destroy the protein nature of the enzyme.
- effect of pH on enzymes
--enzymes are very sensitive to pH.
--can only work within a narrow range.
--choose the narrowest optimum pH thing in MCQ.
-Effects of substrate and enzyme concentrations on rate of reaction
--(refer to page 41 of TB, fig 4.4) As the substrate concentration increases, the rate of reaction increases initially until point X is reached. A further increase in substrate concentration does not increase the rate any further. This is because, at any given instant, all the enzyme molecules are being saturated or made used of. The amount of products formed per unit time is the same.
WHAT IS A LIMITING FACTOR??
it is any factor that directly affects the rate at which a process, such as a chemical reaction occurs if quantity is changed.
HOW CAN YOU INCREASE THE RATE OF REACTION AT POINT X?
Increase the enzyme concentration la!

Some stuff on diffusion and osmosis.

The stem curls outwards, with the cortex cells expanding more than epidermal cells.
This is caused by the turgor pressure in the cortex cells.
Cortex cells prevented fom expanding be the epidermis layer, made up of epidermal cells.
They are held by a cuticle and so less capable of stretching.
The cuticle also protects the epidermal cells against water loss.
Cutting releases the restraintexerted by the epidermis.

Sitll have a lot, I'm not typing anymore. Time is 11.35pm

schools

School's alright so far, I guess. I'm begining to like 3c2, though I still miss 2c1 heaps. I know many of us still do. I like the times where we would simply stay in the classroom after school, with simply nothing to do, or contribute to the decorating of the class. Things are different this year. I wasn't so interested in helping with class stuff, also because most people aren't. You need a strong support in order to pull people in to stay back and help. I'm confused and depressed with some personal stuff, all these thoughts are getting nowhere actually. What crap am I talking about? -.-

Blog some other time. Need to prepare for church and worship prac. Hopefully everything will go well. Tania's blog is highly amusing. Go there when you have the time. It helps brighten up your day. time now is 10.47am, saturday, 18 feb

-

I feel so lousy all over again. The atmosphere here is getting more and more depressing, I admit. Just wanna say something

Christel, Faith, and even Jon, I'm sorry I screwed up the whole thing. (Saying this though I know they'll never be here.) I guess I wasn't really prepared for it, the message was too last-minute. Yeah, this is not the first time I screwed up, please give me another chance if you guys are thinking of doing something about or to me. The more I think of it, the worse I feel. I know you'll say that it's okay and I just need more confidence, etc... But that's just how I feel about yesterday. I hope to do better in the future. Thanks for the many chances you have given me last time. My weakness, I confess, is not being sure when to start and that my 'confidence is running low'. I have been perfectly honest now, don't comment on this if any of you even see it. No, I take back my previous sentence. Shouldn't be runniny away from mistakes and a chance for others to correct me or give advice.

I feel like crying. Seeing the rest of them together happily makes me feel like shit.

******

Have to do the Macbeth ppt on Microsoft Word. The entire music project is weighing me down. Deadlines are Monday and Thursday respectively. Need to practice my piano scales, do music homework, finish up my mountain of schoolwork and study for Social Studies, Geography, Chemistry, Biology and Principles of Accounts. Tests. Not forgetting the PC lesson with 1A1 tomorrow which I have yet to prepare. Nisa isn't replying my messages or answering my calls, which leaves me to prepare for the lesson alone. All group works seem to be my work now. I might just collapse the next minute and everything would be fine. Oh, happy dreaming, man. Looks like all the negative stuff are pushing their way into me. Pray for me, please. Thanks guys.
time:1pm, and it's sunday not saturday

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All of a sudden, the word 'us' has a completely different meaning. Things have changed. Quite dramatically, I'm afraid. Feeling so... alone. Doesn't feel nice, when one of your *closest* is no longer *like this*. I wish certain things could remain like last year. Break times have never been the same again. These words might confuse you, yes, but details about this should not be put here, yea? Don't wanna offend anyone.

Tests. Projects. Homework. They're the reasons why I haven't been blogging. Even my time with God has been cut. Oh, not forgetting peer lite stuff and church. Might not sound stressful, but try putting on my shoes. You'll see what I mean. It all comes to the same conclusion: Too many things to do, too little time. Come what, come may. Time and the hour runs through the roughest day.

I kinda regret joining as a peer lite, come to think of it. Nah, it's about helping and serving. Should be happy doing it right? Planning for games and lessons are a headache. They are taking up a lot of time. Teaching a group of noisy sec 1s is no easy task, sometimes they get out of control. Anyway, I would appreciate if someone could help me with the ice-breakers. Running out of ideas.

Geography lessons = copying lesson = stress x stress
Miss Ting is going so fast, I honestly have no idea what the climate thing is all about. All our wrists gets overworked at the end of every lesson. I fear that one day the whole hand will fall out. So much for pure geography.

Thanks, Jasmine. Thanks a lot. Many thanks to Yu Ting too. Both of you, for listening to my troubles and being there for me.

I will change my blogskin. Not sure when, but when I do, (fret not,) some of your links will be added in. The whole thing is outdated man. time now is 12.22am, 8 Feb 06.

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Was looking back at my older posts, and I saw that there are a lot of typos. Too lazy to edit them.

I couldn't worship yesterday, though I tried very hard to. I soon realised why. I guess we just have to learn from our mistakes and move on. Let's not be discouraged, yes? =) God isn't mad with our mistakes, like Boon said. Still, we're sorry if we made it difficult for anyone to worship last afternoon/evening. I had been thinking over some of the things Joel and Eugene said. About how easily pride can come in, in this ministry. It's no good, if you're like fantastic in this area, but do it without any feeling. I hope Grandma would think over and persuade her dad about the matter.

August bit my dad yesterday, serves him right for always wanting to give (August) away :P This bunny hasn't bitten me for a year.

Social studies! Why must Miss Ang give us so much homework. ~!@#$%^&*(_+ I was reading the textbook and fell asleep, only to wake up and realise I had read 1 paragraph. Ain't I a fast reader.

Lucky no PC lesson with sec 1s tomorrow. Or I'll die.

I hope Sarah Tsang doesn't close her blog. I do enjoy reading her posts. Can "eeemproove my Eeeengliishh"

Roster is finally out. 2 vocal teams this time, with Stefanie an addition to my team, and Santi, who's new to this ministry.

-

I feel so useless.

Life seems meaningless all of a sudden.

Things are happening, in school and at home.
These are mostly unpleasant stuff.

Not looking forward to the week, if you ask me.

2 music projects already. Contact me if you know anything about Jazz or Gamelan.
They're for this Music Elective Programme. So I'll be working with Genesis and Hilary. Yes, the one from debate and handbells. Not the onw in 3c2. By the way, there are 4 girls taking Music in my class. Isn't that great.

This teacher was in Dodsworth house last year, and in Lee house this year. How unlucky can the we get?

It's Friday the 13th, I witnessed a bird shitting again. Damn gross please. Like iI was staring at the bird on the chair and it started shitting. Hope those birds won't go round shitting on chairs again next year.

Julia's conversations on MSN are so formal, it's as if i'm talking to a foreigner.

New

It's raining pigs and chickens. There's been a drastic change in the weather here. Like it's freaking cold? Yeah, how could you even feel cold in Singapore, but the weather is seriously bd.

New year, new teachers, new subjects, new cell...

NEW CELL.

Do you know that this new cell is not very good.? Altogether only 4 girls including Wan Hui. PAthetic! Look at how many guys there are this year. Can they rearrange the cell members? Like at least a similar number of guys and girls...

BBQ for Esperanza people at Wee Kiat's house. I saw Ling Jia cleaning up. I helped. Denice helped. Ling Jia went home. Cheryl helped. Andew and Benedict helped. We did mass cleaning at that area. Drowned a snail. Poor thing. Sec 3s helped to clean up leh! So nice right. And the rest just enjoy (:

Class outing/bondind session/steamboat/BBQ/whateveryoucallit.
LIVE PRAWNS, Like they are alive and just put them with butter and kill them. Then the poor prawn gets cooked and eaten up. Delecious. Sat with Miss Ang and Mrs Goh, Shelia, Sheevonne, Chamaine Leong, Melody, Wen Qin. Took so much food pls. Wahahah..

Worship team BBQ. Frankly, there was not enough food. Some marshmallows were eaten without being melted, lol. While mine was totally burnt. I ate it anyway :D Sting ray! Yummy.

A problem. Between the few of us. It would be unwise to type it out. Let me say that the teachers have to be informed to avoid too much trouble. It wasn't me who wanted to change in the first place. No. Hurry up please.

I went to have a look at the handbell auditions. So many sec 1s. Talked to them and most of them were nervous, naturally. Thank God no one put as 5th choice. Or they can forget about joining. Heard from 1 of them that Mr Fong's not teaching in the primary school anymore. Hopefully he'll be guiding and training us next year. =Gold with honours=.

thelast thing i want to see is this
why is it like that??
can't you stay away from ...., or go find someone else?
nevertheless
i shall concentrate on my studies and try hard not to be bothered by you and you

Over

Yeah, it's over. Had been so busy with rehearsals "that now i kinda feel lost not doing anything for a while... haha.. its was a great time though..:D" That was taken from someone's blog, I find it very true.

Esperanza was not much of a success. When the sermon started, LOADS of people stood up and left. Cast and dancers had to go in to sit there and give Melvin some support. It's very sad to see that they only go for fun stuff, and leave when the serious part comes in. Oh wells. Guess it just takes time for them to learn to sit through the whole program. The adults one on Sunday was shocking. The whole sanctuary, packed with people, some even had to stand or drag extra chairs and sit at the back. It was scary and made me feel a little nervous. Haha, but it's OK since i took off my specs, that made the audience seem less scary. They were very responsive, that's good. :)

I want to be involved in next year's Christmas evangelistic event!

Merry Christmas to all, and thanks a million for your prezzies :) Brownie from A, K and B tasted yummy, wish there was more.
(chewits! i can't get enough of them...)

Hope I won't be changing cell next year. Love my cell a lot.

Few more days left and it'll be the end of this year! Which means have to go back to school soon. OH, and PC lessons for sec 1s, must prepare. Soon. To avoid last-minute preperations. Homework.... don't remind me.

Korean seaweed rocks. I don't watch the drama, I eat their seaweed.

My braces. The next colour would be pink! Don't ask why.

Time: 12.53am

!!!!!!!!!

HEY!
HAY!




















i know you still can't see, just click on it.

ESPERANZA is open to all, and that includes YOU. Unless you're below 11 yrs old...
Redardless of race, language or religion. It's gonna be great! Grab a friend to accompany you, and don't forget to contact me if you're coming :) This will be the most exciting event of the year, definitely better that waiting to get your results!!!
So what are you waiting for? Drop me a message! Or leave your footprints behind at my (boring) tagboard. It's Christmas man! W00teh. Come and enjoy or sit at home to collect dust, or roam the crowded streets and risk getting banged by people. YOU decide ;)

Something, someone

You know what? I know you don't know so I'm telling you now.

I have a boyfriend. He's the cutest thing you can find on earth. He'll die without me. He is....... ....... ........

my rabbit, August.

HAHAHA.
He's weird. Joey passed me a bunny water bottle. I put that and his own bottle at for him and went off to Bangkok. My grandmother dropped by at my house, and said that August doesn't want to drink from Joey's bottle, he only wants his own. Even when his bottle is empty and he's really thirsty, that stubborn ball of fur just refuses to drink from another bottle. -.-
Just 2 days ago, my maid helped me to fill up August's bottle. and he bit her.
I cleaned up his "land" so many times, stuck the broom in to sweep up that area, even stepped over the fence thing and into his "land" to disturb him. No, he didn't bite me. LoL.
August likes to kick sawdust out of his potty for me to sweep and try to dig a hole at the corner of the balcony. He potty-trained himself. Surprise, surprise! 2 years ago, I put a box with sawdust into his cage for him to sleep in. So warm and nice, and HE SHITTED INSIDE IT AND SLEPT OUTSIDE THE BOX INSTEAD. I tried to make a comfortable part of the cage for him, but it seems that he likes to sleep in the open and shit in the box. I gave up. When he grew bigger, he got this part of the balcony to himself and was much happier. The cage is still there, with his potty and food in it. I leave the cage door open so he can hop in and out anytime he wants to.
I love my August.

Right.

I must remember that feedbacks are good and they help you to improve and work on your weak points, not to critise and make you feel bad. That's very important. If you keep thinking that you're lousy and everyone wants to say bad things about you, wake up. Now. Or you won't succeed in life. Take my word seriously, or regret not doing so.

time is 11.36pm.

iamnotfeelinggood

Just realised... that school's starting soon. I have less than a month to complete all my homework, school and tuition, to revise my work, go for rehearsals and performances, handbell pracs, perfect that piano piece, plan CIP for the sec 1s, prepare next year's PC lessons, start worrying about taking music, blah blah.

I'm should have realised this earlier. It's too late to regret not starting on all these last month.

I
AM
STRESSED

Panicking wont help to finish my homework, so there's no use doing that. What I need to do is stop staring at the computer and TV screen and pick up my books. Or drag myself to the church office and sit in front of the books and stacks of paper. I MUST move away from distractions, they can't fly away from me. Looks like I need my father to start nagging at me again.

There's a handbell performance on the 23rd, at night. And there MIGHT be a rehearsal. I better inform Joanne or Wan Hui soon, or risk getting kicked out. Jia Yan went on a holiday without informing them in advance and she was out of the drama. See how strict the sules are? Jolene's stricter too. Scarier.

I missed the camp.

Bangkok is nice and over-populated. The traffic is always jammed. Things there are very cheap, still can bargain. I bought a lot of things. Uncle Jimmy's family got the most things. The kids want to keep snakes as pets. o_O . In Singapore, it's stray cats. Over there is dogs. S'pore's much, much cleaner and greener. Now I know what people mean by 'clean and green city'. It is very difficult to find a dustbin there, and here, there are dustbins everywhere. I witnessed the elephant shitting. Yucks gross. Jetstar Asia is a small plane. Taking off is nice. HAhahaha.

Tomorrow will be a busy day for me.
Worship prac, Youth Ablaze service followed by rehearsal.

Wonder when's the next time I'll blog again.

time is 12.01AM, Saturday morning.
dunno where the time and day thing went to O_o

=)

Peer lites' camp/

Peanut Butter rocks! haha.. That's my group name.
I've learnt A LOT from the camp. Setting realistic goals, thinking positively, overcoming obstacles... Planning the CIP for the sec 1s will be the biggest headache. We can do it! It'd just the commitment and all that. After that still have to send Julia my schedule. -.-
We are divided into 4 groups. Each group has 2 mentors. Mine only has 1. Her name's Jianxin and she's studying in HWA CHONG JC!! All of us were like, staring at her with that shocked look when she told us that. Haha. Oh, and we have mentors because the programme is called YLPM, Youth Leaders and Mentors Programme. Yep.
The campsite was in Buona Vista, near Kent Ridge park, at NACLI, also called National Community Leadership Institute. It was the best, man. We slept on beds in air-con rooms with attatched bathrooms and each had our own room key card. Like hotel right? Jungle and Cave lodge were the best rooms. I got the Cave one! Special, got 2 toilets, and a platform for the beds. Bigger than the other rooms. (better than home, cos I don't have a single air con in my house. Now my father's planning to remove the TV, which leaves me with only textbooks and the computer.) That camp was damn slack la, 1.5h break for us to bathe and all that. That's like, so long, considering we had bathrooms in every room. Right. Enough about rooms.
There was this hike or adventure trail on the 3rd day at Kent Ridge park. Each pair in the group took turns to lead. One of the tasks was to crawl under the drain for dunno how many metres. That was the worst. I think not everyone did that. We had to climb over this wooden wall thing, which was obviously high for all of us. But it was fun! LoL.. If any of my group members see this they're going to scream at me... One stupid task was to count the number of wooden planks on the bridge. There were more than a thousand of them.
The trainers were all so nice. It was so sad to leave NACLI.
Reached home at 8+, there was a traffic jam.

Braces...
My dentist was on MC.
Persie's did the tightening for me.
Changed colour to light blue.

The musical in December is going to be great. Though I've not read through the script.
Do you think, a skinny person like me can dance?
I don't know.
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
Sec 2s are going to do a dance item as part of the musical. I"ll be involved in practices until Christmas. Sounds tough.
I can already hear a voice telling me, "You'll never know until you try. You can do it! Must stay positive!"
I seem to like hearing voices in my head -.- I had included them in my compo during the exam this year.

[Of course! Why didn't I think about this before??? LULU is ...... Stupid la haha.]

I'm not going for the camp. Kingdom settlers I think. Cos i'm going to Bangkok from the 1st to 4th of Dec. Those interested (The camp la, pig) :

When? 2-4 Dec
Where? LSBC
$$? free
no it's not free. wait long long eh.
How much? $35

It's the FIRST YPM camp! Be excited! BUt I can't. )= Thoguth I've never missed a single camp before.

Handbell preformance this Sunday, rehearsal on Saturday. Means I can't go for Youth Ablaze. Means I have to tell Ben or Christel. Means I need to ask them if need replacement. Means I have to look for one. Means if that peson cannot I must find someone else -.-

Captain Peanut!
We're the hero
We're gonna crush you down to zero
We will whack you
wirh our pillow
Until you become a soft marshmallow

blah blah. That's the cheer (=

Youth Ablaze

Right.
Today was the first service. I was totally exhausted and couldn't really concentrate during cell discussion and Melvin's sermon. Almost fell asleep. He sort of gave an introduction to this new change and the name. Like Ablaze and being on fire for God. Yah wasn't very alert.

Cell photos taken at the end of the service. No wonder they asked us to wear the same thing/theme. I think my cell was the best. Formal clothes. My skirt's close to beige (sp?) and the other girls (in my cell) wore a dark colour. Eeeeeeks. Shu Kai and Ivan toh wore the wrong thing. Zach mentioned to Kai wad. I was suddenly involved in their conversation. -.-

Today's worship. Still can la. But the musicians can't see the worship leader. And there were too many songs. The mic i was holding- cover/sponge too smelly. Drums can't really hear. Other than that, yeah it's okay. All of us were late for cell by 15 minutes. 1at time mah, can't expect everything to be perfect.

[just ended my game of tic tac toe with Kevin. Who won? of course it's me!]

Not going for 1st/2nd service tomorrow, there's tuition. You must be wondering, how come holiday still have tuition. Ha, it's to sort of prepare for next year, and the teacher says there's a lot to cover. I've seen the textbooks. They're definitely thicker than the sec 2 books. My 3B shou3 ce4 still haveb't buy yet. I'm prepared to get killed.

wanhui says there'll be a sec 2 graduation thing. I kind of expected that.

I want a Zen Microphoto. i want i want.
stop dreaming, you know that your parents can't afford it. They can't even get you a phone line. You have to continue to share the handphone with your mother. This makes it terribly difficylt for your friends to contact you, like Lai Theng and Grace tried to this morning. Wake up, Joyce, wake up.

Homework is piling up. Chemistry, maths, music, chinese, english....
i need to sit down and complete them. look at everyone else.

I want to say this:
Yes, I feel offended. But it's just that I don't show it.

church friends

5 hours of library work made me half-dead yesterday.

cell bonding was the best man.
though we waited more than half an hour for everyone to arrive. haha.. we had dinner at KFC, and talked about Chinese names. Everyone had a good time laughing. We mixed up all our leftover food - chicken bones, cheese, ice, ketchup, chilli and mixed them all up. LOL. ha we can be THAT gross.
Clarissa and Andrew went to get stuff for games, while the rest of us went to cold storage. It was cold.
or maybe it's me. I had been feeling cold even sitting at the basketball court.
302 made it even worse. The game forfeits were terrible but since i never kena at all, it was fun! Yah we had a good time of bonding, together with Stacia's cell. Oh they're quite pathetic. Onlt Dorita, Bryan, Cheryl and Denise slept over. Everyone played card games and monkey until almost 4am. Crazy right. I was different la, very guai one. I tried to sleep but cannot sleep, too noisy. Wanhui said i kept scaring her. She's very funny la! And got freaked out by Johanes who was wearing white and standing outside the door. 302 was like a freezer.

morning we woke up and did QT. 1/2 hr or QT. we prayed for a number of things. Yep. It's nice to do QT as a group. Then we had carrot sticks for breakfast and went for 1st service. Surprise that nobody dosed off, because of the lack of sleep.

Today's the last time we have youth/teens service on a Sunday. Kinda sad eh.
Worship was great, but Chris and Boon said singers were too soft. hello? i almost lost my voice, lol. But it'll be different at the 4th level.
Jacelyn came today. I was glad to see her, but she doesn't seem to feel very herself. Just look at her blog. i dunno what else i should do about this, but to pray. And I still got my other friends to be busy with. Last night when I was praying, I almost cried. That- is not for you to know.

Cell lunch at Macs. We did gross things again. (mixing sauce with ice, what else did you expect?) Were ballooning around with Kara's cell. Those little kids balloons. Discussed what we're wearing, and it's formal clothes! Oh. My. Rabbit. That will mean spending $$$$ on clothes. For a suitable blouse and skirt. Skirt! I never wear skirts. Darn. Kara's cell so much nicer lor, they're wearing jeans and dunno what shirt.

Kara's cell and me the extra were standing outside Macs talking rubbish. What dog grow long ears, rabbit bark and suck the tortoise out of the shell. Errr? HahA.
I had intended to walk around heartland mall with Clarissa. (I'm really sorry!)
But then Charmaine and Jia Yan wanted to go to my house, and Jon Soh had to go for a haircut. So Ben Thia and Chong Yang ( a bit ----- lah) went with him, then went to my house. I pity my piano. And the neighbours. Thanks so someone, hah. Still think he very smart when can't even play scales.

This year's sec 2s rock. [stone][reminds me of persie]

results

Lets learn to be positive and satisfied with whatever God has given to us.
In my case, He put me in 3C2


subjects:
English
Chinese
E maths
Bio/Chem
SS/Lit
Geography
Principles of Accounts
and Music! my choice, this one...

3C1 is pure literature and elective geog.
C1 and C2 -- POA, art and F&N
Meaning when it's time for these lessons the class will split
since POA is a new subject, i might be able to score here.
I wanted to take A Maths. Too bad.

Worship prac today. This Sunday will be the last Sunday YPM servive.
It will change to Saturday next week, at the L4 auditorium. By the way, no more Young People Ministry, it's now Youth Ablaze! Seriously, doesn't sound very nice..
I came back home from church feeling as if I had just ran 10km. Exhausted.

tomorrow ah,
7.30am meet up with friends go Delifrance eat the breakfast buffet.
11am go compass point library for NYAA service
4.30pm rush home
6pm meet cell members at the church for your bonding thing
sleepover!

Good news! With the help of the Lord, I managed to get Jacelyn to come to church! But I won't be able to meet her, must ask Clarissa to do it.
HAppy is me.

:)

Lord, thank you for friends. Thank you once again, for people around me.
Didn't expect them to come and tag and give encouragement too.
Ah. I feel blessed.

I've learnt to become more confident when leading or speaking to a group after going for the peer lites' camp. They taught us a lot of stuff, including how to handle difficult students. Next year's peer lites are going to organise a class outing AND class CIP. meaning ours would be done for the year if we did it with the sec 1s.
Proposals. I/Cs. Budget, food, admin....
Sounds stressful.

Taking music next year.

I'm happier with the new worship roster.
Looks better. hah. The last time i was 'on duty', it was a disaster, man. ZAO XIA.
I have learnt that, warming up before practice and the service is very, very important. Or else... I dare not think about it.

I see....... a busy year ahead of me.....

even the holidays. my schedule is gradually getting packed.

(Interesting, both Chris and Jon signed in together. :p)

I cannot bear to split up with the class. We've been so together.
When I look back, it's actually very sad to see that we'll not be able to laugh, joke or be serious with certain things together.
It's the bond between us. Those times... When we made the teachers scream at us, when a whole lot would be sent outside the class for not doing homework (includig me), when we secretly ate in class, when we put our heart and soul into decorating the classroom for CNY and the safari, when we planned for the programme for the Child at Street 11 CIP, when we helped one another with the various happenings in our lives this year. Thinking of Wynn as the mermaid, getting 3rd for dunno what, raising the most money in the level for walk-a-jog, getting the cleanest class for a few weeks, preparing for Kar Mun's farewell party. Not forgetting Miss Ho, who was always scolding us when we wereout of our minds.
2c1. 2c1. haiz..
i love 2c1.

right.

get ready for more handbell practices. There's a performance on the 27 of Nov and 23 Dec. Be happy! okayy, yay i'm very happy.

looking forward to the day when i can see all my close friends --------, ----------- in the ----- -- ---. Better still, everyone I know.

Pamela and Rachel are very nice people. Ther were my group leaders for the camp.

angry or sad?

i am FOURTEEN this year.
FOURTEEN, 14
yet i'm getting whacked, caned, beaten up, scolded. i swear the entire block could actually hear all the commotion. people who got higher marks than me and still complain about being lousy, how are those who flunked supposed to feel? what about me? a total idiot who cannot do well for english, math, science, history..? going to take music next year, and i've no idea how on earth can that help me. i hate it when parents scold and instead of giving encouragement, end up getting beaten up. why are they always comparing me with the A class students? for some subjects, i have done a little more than expected. i'm getting the idea of myself being an idiot. it's hard to avoid the cane or beating. again, i'm 14. not 4. they want me to go to a university which is like, impossible, and get some degree when i can't even get a B3 for english maths and science.
if i'm wasting their money on tuition fees, then why are they still letting me have tuition?
right now, i'm left in a state of confusion. this, or that, or what.

the one who scolded me the F word isn't making my life easier either.
please, be more sensitive towards other people's feelings.
just because your results are good, that does not give you the
right to shoot vulgarities at your targets. you have absolutely no
idea how much you've hurt them

it's best not to hate someone. the feeling that the world hates you is, horrible. it'll be good if we all treated FL with a little more patience and be warmer, not colder. she can be quite nice.

life is unfair, but we still have live on. no one can change it except God. no matter how much effort i put in, those demanding parents of mine will never be satisfied. i'll continue to be caned till the age of 21. how's that.