Firstly,
HAPPY BELATED 16th BIRTHDAY WEN YI! ALL THE BEST FOR BAND SYF TMR, PLS GET AT LEAST A GOLD! JIA YOU PL CONCERT BAND!

Mr Fong has got to be the best handbell instructor. Ever.
It makes a whole lot of difference when you have a Christian instructor you know...
And he was the one who made me feel the holy spirit moving in PL, in that handbell room, everything was so real I swear (cannot swear) am sure it's the only time I felt like that. In the school. The uhm, so-called spiritual side of me just came out today.
Never in my 9 plus years in PL have I cried because (i think) I thought God was speaking, calling me. (back to the heart of worship, to rekindle that first love I had for Him.)

I doubted God, I drifted, I attempted to take matters into my own hands.
I felt like crap. Though I still feel this way now.
The gold with honours is ours, claim it.
We will get sponsors for the trip to Japan, have faith and claim it?
Basically everything is ours and we just need to claim them cos' God gave man dominion over everything on earth. Well almost all at least.
Jesus died for us. His LIFE ok.
The tomb is empty because He has risen, His work finished and the devil defeated.
What more could we ask for?
The Lord has so much in store for us, that amount of money is only part of the many blessings showered upon us.
See... God gave us an opportunity to go to Japan, He let ACS Barker choose PL handbells to go with them, not SC, not MG, not RG, but PL.
Mr Fong is right.
We haven't even go for the competition and we're invited to go overseas already, and this is all part of His great plan!
And now, this is only open to the current sec 3-5s.
To say "I don't want to go" is like rejecting God's blessing.
It's right in front of your face and you push it away. Am I not right?

It suddenly occurred to me...
Since God let PL handbells go, He will provide.
Cos' He knows our every need. And problem.
We only have to pray and trust Him.
I have never seen Mrs Wong so determined to "fight" for us to get sponsors and to pay a smaller amount of deposit, ... ...
She has done a lot. I don't think we should let her down too.

This whole thing has been troubling me a lot recently, I think I've done my part in trying to convince you you and you to go.
I'm tired and this time I'm really leaving the rest to Him.
Don't want to go then don't go lor.

Being level rep comes with a price, you waste SMS and phone calls. Collate, collate and collate.
SMS- omg. I have wasted countless msges on people who do not reply! Call but never answer! Making my life difficult. And I'm not even considered as part of the exco = no extra cca points.
Now I know how it's like to keep chasing...
I will put in extra effort to make sure I hand in homework, consent forms etc. on time.

Today's bio test sucked big time la I bet Ms Koh will puke when she marks my paper.

I dunno why I'm crying so much lately.

Actually there's so much much more on my mind but I'm just going to let go and let God =)
I'm weary and burdened, now I'm going to Him and I will get my rest, as promised in the bible.
Sorry if I seem to flare up or get pissed easily. In other words, sensitive.
timetable's packed like hell... and so is my life now with family + school. urgh.

P.S. Will try to find time to blog about Saturday's Inspiration Unveiled.
Can't wait for cell bonding! I think my parents allow. haha.