mayfair and park lane! build hotel!

Firstly,IdonotliketowastemyblogspaceforunworthythingsthusIwillnotbecommentingonit.
Secondly,Idonotliketotalkbadaboutpeopleespeciallyifiknowtheywillseeit.
Thirdly,whybothertodoit?

My piano teacher says I should major in performing instead of composing.
Well that's if I decide not to drop music, darn it.
Theory exam's fast approaching.
Gotta mug for that one.
Haha don't ask me how.

I thought the pain got better lor, but it isn't!
Why why why?! Argh.
I have no idea how to describe it.
If you gave me a choice, I would rather skip the meal than to force myslelf to go through the pain all over again just to get food into my digestive system.
How to eat properly with my cell group this Saturday?
And oh, I HAVEN'T PREPARE ANYTHING YET!

Wanna thank Serene for the comb and mirror, it's so pretty! Lols.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6

Dear Lord I trust that you will heal me and I won't end up in the hospital for any kind of x-ray or scan. (am i being paranoid? but i only eat half my meals now.)

wait for death or die waiting

I know, but I pretend I don't.
Now how do you know what I'm referring to?

The pain has subsided alot, really.
This morning was so bad I threw the cup of milo away.
No, _____, I didn't go to the doctor.
Doctor Jesus is the best. haha.

Thank God for:
1) making me feel better.
2) good practical results, tho' I know the listening component already CMI.
3) everything, from the shelter over my head to good weather.

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Ephesians 6:12

Pastor Prince is so funny.
"You can't say, 'I'm dying for that piece of cake'.
How can you get the cake when you're dead?"
Main point is, the power of life and death lies in the tongue.
Why use words related to death.

We stand and lift up our hands
For the joy of the Lord is our strength
We bow down and worship Him now
How great, how awesome is He
Together we sing, everyone sing
Holy is the Lord God almighty
The earth is filled with His glory
It's rising up all around
It's the anthem of the Lord's renown

Lord, please have mercy on me...
It hurts so much.
I dare not eat or drink anything..
I don't want my parents to worry about me...
No one else worries this much and they still have to take care of my 2 younger siblings.
Daddy please cease the pain cos' I feel hell inside when I swallow anything.
My life is in Your hands Lord.
Only You can take the pain away.

Thank you so much, _____
When you're down and out, guess who comes to your rescue.
The people you least expect.

sth extra
[~timothy] -memories relived says:
haha ok la someone bass senior alrdy what... pro liao mah.. lol

Transfer of "02 Only One For Me.m4a" is complete.

,joyce [bassing] where the love lasts forever says:
??
[~timothy] -memories relived says:
why question mark.. hah
,joyce [bassing] where the love lasts forever says:
high self esteem again
,joyce [bassing] where the love lasts forever says:
or should i say skin too thick
,joyce [bassing] where the love lasts forever says:
hahaha
[~timothy] -memories relived says:
haha i was meaning u
[~timothy] -memories relived says:
wasnt implying that to myself

wth

is it that rare for a guy to take pure lit?

Wheeeeeee
I'm looking forward to the cell dinner next week!
Can I count it as cell bonding? haha.
I've been thinking all week and no, still can't come up with anything nice for her birthday.
Got another week left.

I'm determined to pray for everyone in the cell =D
Here's something for the bloggers. I'm just not sure whether Clarissa and Smarties will see this.
Don't give up, Jacelyn!
The Lord has won the victory, you have the sheild of faith! =)
Just do your best and God will do the rest ya.
You heard what Wendy said today so remember it well.
Psalms 91 too. /(thanks for the card.)
(and i still wanna clarify,
THERE IS NOTHING ON BETWEEN HIM AND ME.)
Sophia I think you're ok with studies?
You also didn't come for service,
overall attendance dropped alot today.
All the best for your maths and geog alright! =)
Jia you, I can buy oil for you.
See you next week!
To Clarissa, I will pray for you,
for that strict art teacher of yours!
How can anyone not like their own work la.
I can see that you like geog alot
so keep that interest level going!
Cos' once you hate it you're never gonna score. =)
So yeah!
Do whatever you can, you are intelligent.
Hmm Smarties...
Just go and do your maths with confidence, dun give up!
Our cell is behind you.
You have any problems with your poa can still ask me,
wo ke yi bang ni k =)
Lao shi says good things about you la ok.
Come on man you can do it! Colossians 3:23.

I'm totally losing my appetite.
I don't even want to drink water or eat like a glutton.
Just don't want to consume anything.
It's worse la, the pain varies directly with the haze.
I describe how it's like.
Eat/drink. Swallow. Feel every bit of peristalsis down the oesophagus.
It's a slow painful process and it doesn't just stop there.
It will spread this way <--- ---> so it's like my whole chest will hurt.
Am I ok? I dunno...
Every time I swallow something, be it liquid or solid, I get tormented by this.
There's no link between this and the haze right?
Someone help me please...

Haiz. How unfortunate.
The winds are still blowing from the south and south-west.
The haze will continue to to spread over from Sumatra to west Pacific.
Northeast monsoons, come quick!
We want rain and a change of wind direction!
What a brilliant planetary wind system.
And yeah, PSI just scares me to my grave.
A drastic increase.

chanced

options
(1) the sky is especially bright tonight
(2) my eyes are not working
(3) there is a problem with my lenses
(4) the haze
(5) it's the last day of the mid-autumn festival so everyone's out burning with their lanterns, thus causing the 'smoke'
(6) a volcano has errupted

(2) and (3) are totally out, it's neither my lens nor my eyes.
Haha and it's not a volcano.
It's the haze man, and it's getting worse. Freaky.
This is from the NEA website, the PSI at 4pm.

egion	24-hr Sub-Index at 4pm, 6 Oct 2006					PSI*	Air Quality Descriptor	Responsible Pollutant
	Sulphur Dioxide	PM10	Ozone	Carbon Monoxide	Nitrogen Dioxide+
North	13	56	30	10	-	56	Moderate	PM10
South	6	65	16	12	-	65	Moderate	PM10
East	8	55	20	3	-	55	Moderate	PM10
West	42	80	18	18	-	80	Moderate	PM10
Central	3	57	8	10	-	57	Moderate	PM10
Overall Singapore*	42	80	30	18	-	80	Moderate	PM10

Take your time to analyse it.

While other schools are mugging like who-knows-what, PL sec 1-3s are free as a butterfly.
Today marked the end of our examinations =)

The bio/chem paper was easy.
Geog was, hmm, no comments.
Music made me lose more hair ok.
Like it was damn difficult??!
I don't know a single shit about gamelan and Indonesian and Indian ethnic music!
My composing plain sucks lar.
I'm prepared to fail this exam.
2 options, while people celebrate the end of the examinations, I study triple hard, or just give up and drop it.
I think I'll take the latter.
I'm just not as intelligent as the rest la.

terrible sia.

Omg this is bad.
I haven't really started on bio, chem and geog.
Lets see, if I start now by doing the MCQs in the 5 years series, one hour for each subject, I'll sleep at...
3am? Ok better get off the computer.

I'm losing a LOT of hair.
Like when I bathe and wash my hair my hands will be filled with...
hair.
Oh no I'm going bald.. haha.

____-sick =(

tag replies
[pulleysystem] yea damn cool. my house mah. HAHA. i'll eat my shoe if you can find a light bass guit. XD
[pris] you mean now then you know i'm nice?? wah you're super fast. super. B&J's or venezia? duhhh B&J's! next week or sth.
[timsty] how about i teach you time signature (how many counts in a bar) and crotchets and quavers (the note value)? it's very easy. then i'll just tell you which note to play, e.g. C#, F#, D. lols. tab also can, i'll give it to you in, hmm, ten years. hahaha!
[xiying] WOAH YOUR ESSAY TAGS AGAIN! yep it's quite impossible to study at my house can. not for ppl with music background, cannot get anything done wan. =D haha i can take a pic of them. you help me exhibit lors. andddd, hello i have the pics in my com and my thumbdrive- return the latter asap ok! by the time you see this our exams will be over already.

Haha I have absolutely NO idea why I keep blogging =P
Ok.
I MANAGED TO PLAY REVOLUTION ON BASS!
haha it's damn nice to play can. wheeeeeeee

No school for 3b1, 3b2, 3c1 and 3c2 today, cos' the pure science classes took their exams.
Pure physics, chemistry and biology.
So I met up with Valerie at 8.40am to teach her a bit of topographic maps, she said she never listen in class!
Haha. We memorised the qualitative analysis thing too.
Calcium in sodium hydroxide- white ppt insoluble in excess!
Lols. Studied at Macs, where it was almost empty.
1st time leh.
All was peaceful until some other students came in.
That marked the beginning of-
the noisy shift.

What to do for Wan Hui's birthday????
Buy cake again?
Hmm. I was thinking of a cell bonding then we surprise her after dinner.
No idea man.

house of music

Xiying and Fiona came over, we were supposed to study for music exam.
But we ended up playing with all the instruments in my house!
Piano (duh we're all pianists), guitar, bass guit, violin and angklungs!
HAHA.
My violin really grew mouldy you know!
Lols, I can hear a couple of 'ewwwwww's already.
Like duh right, never touch it for months.

Felt good to touch my bass again.
I've been controlling, cos' of the exams.
Now that they're all ALMOST over, hahaha I can go back to playing with my instruments.
I have a strong urge to play bass NOW. 2 something in the morning.
Haha! With the scores (music notes) I don't have to listen and take years to figure out how to play certain bass parts!
Thanks again Timothy!
Ahhhhh crap I really feel like taking out my bass =D

accounts exam tmr

English and chem were manageable!
Surprise surprise!

I need to start preparing for Wan Hui's birthday...
10 days from now.
What to do??? Our cell leader leh.
Someone help me with planning something big for her?
Or your birthday i/c will start coming up with weird ideas.

the wonders of it all.....

Depression is more or less, gone!
Thank you Jesus =)
I'll be doing speed-revision after this.

Not going to memorise formulae.
What's the periodic table for? haha.
Not going to talk about today's maths and bio too, 'cept that circles and speed-time graphs are fun.

Lunched with Priscilla today, wanted to go to macs but it was full.
We THOUGHT it was full.
Then dear Elaine and Hillary told us there were seats.
Haha. Wanton mee anyway.
Saw the usual people, Jui Wei, Bernice, Auntie Kwee Choon, Joanne (Foo) etc.
or is it eunice?? eunice or bernice? omg i mixed them up

And I was locked out, again!
Nobody at home, no keys.
Didn't want to sit at macs, so, the smart me happily went to church forgetting that the office is closed on Mondays.
Smart right, you cant find anyone smarter. ha ha ha.
I sat at the void deck near the church, but couldn't concentrate.
So I went back to the one behind my block, 234? or 236? (oh whatever)
And sat there for 3-4 hours with chemistry.
Thank God I brought my chem file along.

Yeah there's bound to be irritants at public places, and here's one good example.
I shall give the students of that school some face and not name the school.
They were at the next block, the other void decks, making sooooo much noise la!
There were girls too, kissing and all that.
The rougher ones can be seen from the above image.
Eh you don't wanna study, please be considerate and spare a thought for the residents there can!
And poor me (*lols) who has to revise on a whole year's worth of chemistry!
(I think one of the girls saw me snapping this with my phone)
These are the kind of people who give the school a bad reputation.
Now PL-lites sound so angelic, haw haw.

Children's Day gifts from our form and co, Mdm Zakiah and Mrs Ong.
What's 'wow' supposed to mean?
Makes no sense!
But I still think mine is nicer than Priscilla's =D
Mine's the one with 'wow'.
'wow, i'm smart!' hahahaha that's so ego.
i'm in the uploading mood today so you get to enjoy some photos taken with my tootified phone.


Taken by Sheila, our whiteboard that day.
Social studies, summary of each chapter.


*gasp*
Jia Yan! Whatever happened to your face?? Since when you replace your head with a kit kat?!
Kk look at the next one. What's the hippo doing? Look hard before you scroll further down.




Like isn't is obvious?
He ain't pee-ing, he's filling up his little pool with a hose, you goondoo head!
I bet you thought dirty, didn't you, huhhh? Admit it, you did!
HAHA! Took that off the TV.

prefect;
"good morning school, here are the announcements for today. the first announcement, all sec 3 o'level music girls, please remember to hand in your scores to Miss Tessa Tan as soon as possible or face the consequences....."
WAAAAAAAAAAH! Dreamt of that you know!
Enough! Okok I got it.
O'level music girls, stop chasing cos' I got the message I'll go hand in tomorrow!
What a nightmare.

Alright that's all for today.
Dunno when will be the next time I upload pics.
To entertain you. haha.
[I miss you Serene! Looking forward to Friday!]

long tag replies.
[sop] It's ok if you don't, my (school) exams officially end this Friday. But I still have music theory need to 'study'. So yes? No? Not pressing you ok! Happy Children's day!
[pulleysystem] Where got rain and wind? Haze still have la. LOLS. You call the town council lor, or go see MP and ask =D It was windy wad! Studying at the void deck is nice. Plus got free music- all your grade 8 pieces ;)
[smarties] I msged you twice after your reply then you never say yes or no so how I know whether you got my 2 msges or not?? haha
And can you two not say the same thing? "ask ... ... then you dunwan". LOL.

Oh gawsh..
I think I'm suffering from severe depression...
or is it PMS.

Even lost interest in my revision for bio and maths exams tmr.
hunted high and low for someone who can lend me a curve ruler.
thank you, grace (quek)
forget it, i know i'm gonna fail anyway.



Just let me say how much I love You
Let me speak of Your mercy and grace
Just let me live in the shadow of Your beauty
Let me see You face to face
And the earth will shake as Your word goes forth
And the heavens will tremble and fall
Just let me say how much I love You
O my Saviour my Lord and friend

Just let me hear Your finest whispers
As You gently call my name
And let me see Your power and Your glory
Let me feel Your spirit's flame
Let me find You in the desert
Till this sand is holy ground
And I am found completely surrendered
To You my Lord and friend

So let me say how much I love You
With all my heart I long for You
For I am caught in this passion of knowing
This endless love I've found in You
And the depth of grace the forgiveness found
To be called a child of God
Just makes me say how much I love You
O my saviour my Lord and friend

can't take my mind off you

I look back at my life so far...
How many times have I added fuel to the fire?
Countless.
So many that I can't even remember one incident.
I was foolish and revengeful.
My actions were a total disgrace to the Christian community.
Perhaps I've made them think, "How come Christians are like that wan".
Instead of handling these pissable situations alone, why didn't I submit it to God and ask Him to make me meek, slow to anger like He is?
Hatred is something the devil loves to see in us.
Don't give in to him, though it's so much easier.
Jesus was tortured and killed by the people He loved, yet He asked God to forgive them.
He went through much more than we did.
I shouldn't bother the people bitching behind my back...
What can be worse than Jesus' sufferings?

During ministry after the service, the worship team played and sang this song, and one line really struck me.
"... You hold my life in Your hand."
Yes, excatly, our lives are in God's hands.
He could crush it whenever He wants to.
We are so impure, so small, so full of sins.
The very fact that we are still here talking and laughing like it's a normal thing reflects God's love and mercy.
Otherwise... we would be somewhere in hell now.

If only spreading God's love was as easy as them spreading that...
That which makes me wanna ask,
"What is the world coming to?"
The devil is constantly pulling souls away from the Lord.
Before I even think of mission trips, first think about the people around me, those I know.

Ok that was some things I thought about today.
Don't wanna drift further away from God, but closer to Him.

Studied in chuch with some church friends today, not very productive.
Forgot lots of bio stuff.
POA drove me nuts for the 2nd or 3rd time. haha.
The 5 year series questions are damn challenging la.

Then service, which led me thinking of current issues.
Should have taken a photo of Joshua and the pringles!
It was downright hilarious! haha.
When will Ivan and Andrew will stop 'fighting'? lols.
And my 'worksheet'... kena vandalised.
Like what am I supposed to do with it now??

Went for dinner with Jacelyn and we did alot of catching up.
Never talk to her for like soooooooo long about some things.
That was a good one.
'bout the past...
"Memories they are, memories they shall remain."
(Tim's line)
Well that's last time.
You will not backslide as long as you walk closely with God.
(And hey, there's nothing on between him and me ok!)

And I met up with Charmaine (Seow) who's currently obsessed with, er, something I'd rather not say.
Influenced by the media!
She came over to my house and kinda did the 24-365 thing with me by worshiping God.
She on the piano and I, guitar.
I plan to pray the actual thing later =)
15 minutes is too short!

BF, any of you want to study in church during the week?

Pris and Tim I wanna go for B&J's next next week!

humanities craze

I like the climograph question best.
Tropical Monsoon Forest, confirm.
Haha, that's the only question I can answer confidently!
If I hadn't slept at 3am, my whole geog paper would have been just-

a blank space.


Haha.
K today, nono, yesterday, stayed back with Sheila to study in class.
We did a summary of the 5 chapters on the board.
It's filled with SS stuff now. Lols.
We're like studying so much for that 25 marks, the SEQ.
I'm trying hard not to drag until 3am tonight...
Must cover all case studies and reasons for conflicts and merger and diplomacy and deterrence and industrialisation and developement IN DETAIL.

Left school at 4 plus, then there was no one at home and I was locked out.
Again.
Where else could I go to? Church lor, lol.
Studied in the office... yes, alone.
And left at 6pm.

Oh, Chinese paper 2 tomorrow!
De lao shi wants me to get an A2, a BIT mad ah...
Don't even know whether can pass. haha.
By the way, she's my tuition teacher.

I'm going to pray a long prayer this morning.
There's so much to pray for.
God works wonders yeah.

Lord give me strength to live for You and glorify Your name

I'm mixing passwords up again.
-___-"

HOW?? how how?
I only did weather, temperate climates, winds and rains, weathering, forests/vegetation! (in detail)
Still have coastal processes, rivers and their formation of soooo many features, plate tectonics- vulcanicity, earthquakes, folding & faulting and block mountains and rift valley crap!!!!!!!!!!!
Someone kill me so I don't have to take the freaking geography paper!
Cannot afford to fail or get a C for this!

Not just that, Macbeth?
Isn't elective lit = pure lit???
I don't see any difference!
All the character analysis and themes and motifs!
Only touched a BIT of this lor!

Die sia...
Sleeping late will affect my energy level tomorrow, but do I have a choice??


tag replies, lazy to type at the tagboard.
sop; =)
smarties; i've added in some stuff below so you can go see whether you like it! don't fight with josh la. lol. you're almost equally good.
clarissa; whoooo yeah! not just same cell, it's same ministry too! worship. haha. yes, love you to bits! cya all on saturday for youth ablaze, and come early to study. ;)

YOU gave me wings!

First of all, to some of you, thanks for your prayers!
I didn't burn myself with acid.
My test tube dropped but it didn't break, so I still have all 7 of my test tubes! hahah

I finished 1/2 hr earlier, so I kept re-doing the chemistry tests for cations and anions and gases.
Waste their solid S and M and sodium hydroxide and hydrochloric acid and nitric acid and barium nitrate and aqueous ammonia and calcium hydroxide and silver nitrate and litmus paper and distilled water and gas for the bunsen burner!
Wait a minute...
That's everything on the bench. -_-
It was fun =D
I had the whole bench to myself cos' Serene wasn't there.
Biology was so-so.
I wasted one piece of cobalt chloride paper can!
Dropped it and it turned red immediately. hahaha.
Did I draw the right thing?
The celery was U-shaped right!
So I drew that and the xylem and did magnification at the side.
Correct correct??

The Singapore Idol results...
I liked the performance by Electrico and our top 2 best.
THEY WERE DAMN GOOD PLS!
And the drummer, how to backup and drum at the same time??
Woahness!
And I didn't know they had a keyboardist!
That's our local talent, be proud of it man!

Jonathan had the looks, he's cute!
Hady's not as cute as Jon... Haha he's the one with the better voice.
Singapore likes Malays alot eh?
Taufik and Hady... Sylvester and Jonathan...
See the similarities?
Wahahaha.
The girls never seem to make it.
Gayle and Jasmine! Whooooooo.

wanhui!!

~~Trust God~~[Jonathan is the Singapore Idol !!] says:
Dear Father,
I pray that u will bless Joyce not to feel too anxious or jittery for her bio/chem practical exam later in the morning..n i pray for her to be calm n feel ur peace running through her. Pray tat she'll focus and do the experiments well. Pray for her to read carefully & follow instructions. Father i pray that she'll sleep well and feel refreshed when she wakes up. I thank you for Joyce
~~Trust God~~[Jonathan is the Singapore Idol !!] says:
and her diligence. In Jesus's name, AMEN

yes i will do well =)

who is Banquo?

He is Macbeth's good friend.
Supid kid.
Go read up on your literature la.
hahaha. ok zi4 yan2 zi4 yu3.

I didn't realise how much I miss Serene...
My science labbie partner.
Until we started talking on MSN just now.
I've been sitting alone in the lab, and since we sit according to our index no.s, the seat behind me is empty.
Here's the good news.
She'll be back in S'pore and to PL to visit us on the last day of our exams!
Refer to the exam timetable on your left...
FRIDAY. lols. Looking forward to seeing her again!

Warning you in advance, this is gonna be a lengthy post!
Hey, no one's forcing you to read right.
Don't read lor.

My cell group rocks.
Yea I know I've mentioned this many many times but, haha.
Look how much closer we are now, compared to the start of January this year.
Clarissa and I were the only girls among the many guys until August.
We were joined by Jacelyn and Sohpia.
Other new addidions this year were Aaron and Joshua.
Wheeeeeeeeeeee. haha

Our leaders are Kevin, Wan Hui and Joe.
They are like our mentors who guide us throughout the year(s)
The cold jokers are Smarties and Andrew.
Lol we laugh at their not-veh-funny jokes.
And when all of us laughs, we cannot stop laughing because it becomes funny.
Haha good for you if you know what I mean.
*correction, Smarts is a good joker...
like ha ha ha ha! so funny!
-he wanted to be labelled as 'good joker' wan lor. hey i've done it you joker. haha is it better now?
Then we also have Ivan who's ALWAYS early for service, not being sarcastic ok!
We're praying that he'll have more interest in his studies.
He knows he's not doing well and yet doesn't want to touch his books, for the same reason most of us are struggling with.
The arty girl Clarissa, we've been in the same cell ever since we entered youth ministry.
Can say that we 'grew up' in youth together la.
She's one caring girl.
Daryl's like the secretary, takes down our prayer requests and goals.
I'd like to see this sponge (who absorbs) talk and open up more =)
Jacelyn came in P6 then stopped coming for thousands of years, and she joined us again this year!
I was so happy to see her back in church you know!
haha if you're looking at this, remember what I wrote in the card k!
Sophia is very new, but I can tell she's starting to open up...
That's greaaaaaat! wahahas
Joshua has the best brains in our cell, he remembers all the memory verses correctly, word for word!
Like WOW. haha.
Kai Wei comes once in a yellowish-orange sun (blue moon la).
He's right in front of me in our cell's relay system, meaning he will forward msges to me and I'll pass it on.
To Wan Hui and she'll pass down to Aaron and he sends it to Joshua and the list goes on. lols.
Aaron the cheerful guy is always smiling.
But he's damn quiet. haha.
His parents are in the same cell as mine.

Yep so that's my cell.
Benjamin (Toh), Shu Kai, Roderick(?), Yong Liang and Santi have stopped coming...
Really want to see them back with us =(

Had dinner at Serangoon Gardens with some of them,
Joe, Kevin, Wan Hui, Andrew, Smarties, Aaron, Joshua and "guest" Andy (Teo).
$$$$$$$$$$$ 100 plus ok! super omg.
Next time eat something cheaper la. haha.
Looking forward to the next cell retreat!

I thank God for putting these people into my life...
We are one body growing together and hmm, I think we're the only cell memorising verses?
Haha!

Oh yar, we were supposed to say something good about the person sitting on our left.
I had talk about Wan Hui.
But she was not in the room! Toilet I think...
So it was Boon Yeow who was sitting at the table nearby.
(he came to observe/sit in for my cell discussion today)
I already prepared my little speech, then they asked me to talk about him!
So impromptu la... orbit.
Not enough time to think so I only said he was nice.
Now I know what to say already so I'm gonna type it here. haha
And he won't see this cos' he's not the shake-leg-nothing-to-do-go-and-blog-surf kind.
Get ready to zzzzzzz if you read until here.

Boon Yeow is a very good worship leader who walks closely with God.
When he's leading worship, he'll send out the email to the worship team about 4 days before Saturday.
Unlike other worship leaders who are last-minute.
He is a good role model who is admired for his passion to serve and help people. Youths, to be exact.
He's also very patient and easy to talk to.
This guy is blessed with talents like playing the guitar, drums and singing.
And he's not any ordinary guitarist or drummer.
It's extraordinary, one of the best I know.
(sounds familiar...)

[Christel, Faith and Boon Yeow were the ones who had faith in me and kept me in the worship team despite me singing like dunno what 2+ years back.
They never stopped encouraging me after failing 3796543 times.
Groomed me, I would say.
Without them, I would not be where I am today.
Still put me in the 'older' team. wahahas.]

Ok that's very long.
I'm basically describing him instead la.
Overall... this post is loooooooooooooong.
Please tag so that I know someone has read the whole post.
If not then it's ok, next time I'll post long ones knowing that there wont be readers, and any secret or stuff worth reading will not be known.
Haha.

concerto grosso

While other schools have their EOYs 12 days away...
Ours have started.
Because of that, I'm unable to go for the harp fest.
AND THE MASTERCLASS.
That's like the first harp festival to be held in S'pore.

Never underestimate the power of prayer.

they await

ARGH.
It freaking annoys me, I feel like screaming into their face and making them read Monday's post.
HELLO IF THERE'S NO TROUBLE WHY LOOK FOR TROUBLE.
Especially to this one called _____.
She hasn't done anything to you.
Ah and this one too.
Is there a problem with ____ing and ____ing?
But what's the point of telling you when you don't read my posts.
I'm trying hard to throw you into the drain and focus on God and studies.
What's this portion of the class doing, fooling and bitching around like there's no tomorrow?
TIME TO WAKE UP.
I've sensed the coldness too.
How'd you like it if it turned around to bite you.

I'm going to stay up again...
Knocked off at 3am last morning.
Trail balances, ledgers, trading and profit and loss accounts, source documents and books of original entry.
Aim: ___ the _____ ___ ___
In case you're thinking, why can't I just type it out instead of leaving them as blanks?
The answer's simple.
I don't want to be labelled as something negative.

Not hallucinating, am I?
This is not the time to cry.
I hear voices calling out to me.
They surround me, I cannot flee..
There is no escape.
Textbooks and notes, they await.

aural

I just realised that I have to go to the exam venue alone tmr. =(
EVERYONE WILL BE IN SCHOOL AND MY PARENTS ARE WORKING.

This is making me so tensed up, the 20th century piece/the one from the C list is the ultimate killer!
Why the staccatos and in 3rds?? Argh my fingers keep slipping...
Hope all goes well.
Trust God. Trust God. Trust God!

Special thanks to this certain few for all your encouragement!
I needed that...
And you know who you are ;)

excatly 12 hours left
10.20am. omg omg omg.

must it be that when i post here, it's something angsty?

She has a name ok.
I've got quite enough of you calling her "your best friend" when talking to me.
Your best friend this your best friend that.
I'm insulted.
I've told you to just call her by her name.
Not just you, it's you, you, you and you too.
Is it very difficult to do that?
Does it take the amount of energy needed to erupt a volcano to just say her name?
If you'll get struck by lightning or murdered by a cow, by all means continue to call her "your best friend" in front of me.
Otherwise please stop it.
And stop acting like she has a disease.
That's another insult.
Also stop giving me hints that I made the wrong choice.
Because I haven't.

Happy birthday SARA =)
Sorry I kinda forgot.

2 days,
Associated Board of The Royal Schools of Music

wt_

eff those effing rumours.
just pisses me off.

7 days,
Associated Board of the Royal Schools of Music.

2.5 hours of practice,
vented my anger on the piano.

schooling

We were eating ice-cream.
We stood at the traffic light to wait for the green man.
-Starts to drizzle-
"what the. my ice cream is going to be acidified."
-waits-
-rain becomes heavier-
"why so long!?"
And the group of PL lites stood there, drenched because the stupid light took super long to change colour.
Then finally the green guy appeared and everyone ran across the road to the pathetic bus stop.
What a day.
The rain was so heavy, the wind was so strong, Lai Theng and I almost flew away.
If not for that pillar. hah.

Did maths with her after school till around 5pm, then went back.

Exams are freaking near.
Piano and oral exams next week.
I gotta sleep about 2 hours earlier so that's... 12am?
Now's so not the time to fall asleep in class.

I feel like shutting off everything and just drown myself in books, notes, my stationery the $18 calculator and my 2nd hand piano.
Goodbye, world.

9 days to Grade 7 practical examination for piano,
Associated Board of the Royal Schools of Music.

tomorrow is monday

Yes, tomorrow is Monday.
And I haven't touched my list of 30 chinese idioms.
Call that 'asking for trouble'

I didn't know that Aaron's parents are in my parents' cell!
We're in the same cell group but I didn't know about his parents until yesterday.
wahahah.
This Aaron is not my brother ok Fiona, take note.
haha... and I dunno his surname so I can't bracket it -_-"

I feel like talking about the private blog. haha.
I always mix up the password there and here!
lols.
In the posts, Timothy will sign off with the usual 'timstymadehismarkhere',
Priscilla will end with 'pris :D' occasionally, meaning she forgets to leave her name.
As for me, haha.
I don't even sign off. Just end the post like that.
Hahah but they know it's me not because I'm the only one who doesn't 'label' the post with my name.
But because of the way I type and blog. haha...
Priscilla also never 'label' it sometimes mah.
That's how good friends are like... they know it's you even though you don't identify yourself.
Awwwww. wahahs.

You know what, I finally went for main service today after dunno how long!
hahahaha...
Cause there's no tuition!
And I told my Chinese tuition teacher to come earlier so that I can still make it for 2nd service at 11.15am!
Must make it a point to go for both Youth and main services. =D

kks better go, cut my nails and learn those idioms.
AND hunt for my school tie or face Miss Gan tomorrow morning.
Stress sia!
Exams! Not to mention there's gonna be maths tuition twice a week until the maths paper is over!

Lord, please remind me that I am to put You above everything.
Even family and friends whom I love a lot.
Because when I leave, they cannot leave with me...
These are earthly things...
Lord You are to be my main focus and not anything else.
"I love you more than any other, so much more than anything"
And Father, I want to make this true.

it was a moment of folly

To the one I used up lots of msges on...
Don't think about him ok...
Ignore him, don't show the weaker side of you, remain confident of yourself.
And stay strong =)
After all, you're not the one who wants the misunderstanding to remain uncleared.

My family's like watching Tarzan...
At this time of the night.
So noisy! hahaha..
As for me, I should be doing my tuition homework instead of being on the computer =/

Some people remember Esperanza.
Last year's Christmas event.
Today Charmaine, Jia Yan and I recalled the dance!
And boy we still remember every step!
Super omg la! lols..
But we only danced when the corridoor was empty.
We're going to do the same next week =D

So now that Paul's out,
Jasmine, Hady and Jonathan have to compete against one another.
Who do you think is the next to go?
Jasmine has really changed from a potato sack to a flower.
Hady's voice is strong.
Jon... ??????
"let me do the dishes in your kitchen sink..."
Hady, Jonathan or Jasmine? hmmmmms.

10 days to Grade 7 practical examination for piano,
Associated Board of the Royal Schools of Music.

I should just give up on that... If it's God's will, He will do it for me. Anyway what's the rush? Time is what I have. But it's so hard to try to stop thinking about it... that left a deep impresssion on me. sighs.

woohoo

First, queued to take the IC photo.
Then, queued again to take number.
Finally, queued to register.
Q Q Q Q Q I Q YOU THEN YOU KNOW EH!
Hahahahah.

I walk into heartland mall everyday (the bus stop is there) and each time, without fail, there'll be this conflict going on inside me.
To buy or not to buy.
To buy or not to buy.
But it looks damn good!
Who can resist Venezia?!
Of course, that can't replace Ben & Jerry's but it's freaking tempting!
Ahhhhhhhhhhh.

"Conclusion- never to share mix & match with Joyce because the ice cream will melt by the time she decides on the nest flavour. Lol."
EHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
PRISCILLA YOU NUT!
I like everything okay!
Meaning I'm fine with any flavour!
So the one who shares with me is at an advantage because he/she can choose all 3 flavours!

I still need to get picks.
Lost my one and only pick. ~!@#$%^&*
HO. ho ho. Santa Claus will give me a box of picks for Christmas.
OH oh oh, and B&J too!
Yeah man!

This is our Merlion, haha taken by me in the bus on the way to S'pore Conference Hall last month.

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Hello!
My Chinese tuition teacher didn't forget after all, she mixed up the dates and came YESTERDAY when I told her last week, TUESDAY.
And she still said, hao, ke yi.
Haiyoh.
So because of that I had to tell Ryan last minute to have maths tuition later in the day.
He had school, so we had it at 8pm at Sarah's house.
Hey Sarah, I didn't get to keep the change...
My dad remembered. =.=

I realised that I have not played 'monkey' for a loooong time.
Haha, Fio and XY!
That day, all of you became the monkey but I never kena!
Wahahahahs...
Lets go and play again!

Ok I better go, if I'm late again Priscilla is going to complain.
lols.

12 days to Grade 7 practical examination for piano,
Associated Board of the Royal Schools of Music.

shi guang fei shi, yi zhuan yan, JIU YUE YI JING DAO LE!

My Chinese tuition teacher forgot to come yesterday!
*winks at Lai Theng*
Haha! Ryan is different ok, he won't forget wan.

Steve Irwin.
Steve Irwin.
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!
The crocs loved him so much, they didn't lay a paw on him.
But the sea creatures were envious... they didn't have such attention!
Hence they sent the stinking stingray to kill him.
BUT, I still like seafood.
Yeah man.
He died such a horrible death...
Most of us put a turtle up in our MSN nicks.
In loving memory of Steve Irwin...
*sob sob*

I'm getting more slack these days.
Just can't study at home la!!!!
Not with so many distractions.
Pris, can we go to macs? Oh no there's no time.
Darnnnnn.
I'm left with 2 options.
A or B.

Going to take my IC photo this Friday, then head down to ICA.
And Priscilla is going with me. hahah yay..
And then, we'll go for B&J's!
She got this $5 voucher from a friend.
I thought of asking our B&J friend/fan along...
But I think he'll be too exhausted.

There are a lot of nice bak chor mees in Singapore.
That coffeeshop outside our school is just normal lor pris.
Hahaha I prefer the lemon chicken rice there.

Remember, if you want to have mee siam without chilli,
say mee siam mai HIAM and not mai HAM.
Because they don't put HAMs in mee siam!
wahahahahs... okok.
And SMILE when you see the IMF delegates!
And and and,
make them try our bak chor mee and mee siam! lols
Lame mrbrown joke.

The dentist said I have healthy gums!
Hahaha
And class 3 teeth. =(

14 days to Grade 7 practical examination for piano,
Associated Board of the Royal Schools of Music.

No I'm not dead yet but practising like nobody's business.
It's MY business anyway. hahah.

It's like talking to the wall la...
Sometimes even the wall responds.
Don't ask me how.

the sweetest name of all

My neighbours absolutely LOVE and ADORE me...
I'm sure you're dying to be my neighbour too...
Of course, with so much music coming from my house,
bass, piano, guitar...
Who wouldn't?
(note sarcasm)

It's gotta be the noisiest/most melodious unit in the block.
[Guitaring/keyboarding with Priscilla rocks... we always do that at my house. hahah.]

I can't run away from it anymore, I have to face it...

16 days to Grade 7 practical examination for piano,
Associated Board of the Royal Schools of Music.

Ican'tdieyetIcan'tdieyetIcan'tdieyetIcan'tdieyetIcan'tdieyet

I forgot to add,
church has this workshop thing on jamming and care of equipment and how to play together as a band and the rest i'm not too sure,
open to sec 3 and above.
I signed up for keyboard.
Did I make the wrong choice?
Keyboard or bass?

you are the reason.. bet you didn't know that.

Ok I'm going type out a proper post for yesterday. And today.

Is it me and my depression, or are my friends really weird today?
Something's not right...
They seem out of place.
And it's not my friend.
Is my friendS.
Oh wells.

Yesterday Priscilla had to wait for my father to finish scolding me before we could leave for Bugis.
He didn't even finish la, I just walked out when he paused.
Hahaha..
We attempted to speak chinese, with Sharmaine, and it was damn funny.
We even wanted to speak chinese for the rest of the day.
Failed la, thanks to Tim.
That's the reason why our chinese oral is like shit. lol.

The studio is small. And dim.
Was as if you're being locked in. haha..
Found a few picks there. And lotsa rubbish.
If you're a cleanliness freak, don't go there.
Wahahah... Plastic bags, wrappers, ...
Four of us stayed there for 2 hours.
I think it's so-so la, good, and the last song was the best.
It's when (in my opinion) I could really play and sing to the Lord.
Yup. Next time better prepare what we wanna jam beforehand...
Or waste time thinking about what song to play next.

Bras Basah next to get Priscilla's canvas...
That art shop really has alot of interesting things.
Tim was being crappy, what hello panda and sour powder...
And then to the sports & music shop to get pick and look around.
The more I look at the guzheng, the more I wanna learn how to play!
(don't say it's cheenafied ok. )
at least I know a BIT. And a BIT of harp =D
I also wanna learn the piccolo (it's a kind of flute, the highest pitched instrument in the orchestra. and the timbre is damn distinct) and the clarinet!
Makes me wanna go and study the instruments of the chinese and western orchestra.
Hahahhahaha. Out of point la.

Then of course, like duh no need to say wan, we found ourselves in Cathay.
Muahaha. Dinner and dessert.
Pris likes oysters too, haha!
We'll go to Jack's Place for raw oysters next time yeah. Lols..
Up till now, I can't decide on what my favourite B&J flavour is.
Everything also nice leh.
Moooooo, says the cow.

Home sweet home...
I wasted 20 minutes going from towards Harbour Front, and then back to Dhouby,
finally to Kovan.
Just so I could get a seat. And chat with Pris for extra 5 mins.
haha.

Today, lunch with mom and sibs at Pizza Hut.
I so like the cheesy bites!
Topped with extra cheese, just sprinkle! hahaha..
The cheesier the better.
Hey if there's another cheese lover out there, lets go to Pizza Hut!

My maid's in hospital.
She has tuberculosis.
Her bill's gonna cost a 'little boy' and 'fat man' bomb.
Meanwhile I can only pray.

The topic for Youth... was something which parents would call taboo.
Some say it's dirty and disgusting.
Guessed it?
Sex.
I wanted to run away from cell discussion because they were talking about the right way to wear a condom.
That was the eekiest part of the day mans.
But the main thing was about pre-marital sex.
Sex should be saved for your husband/wife.
With so many people doing it, it becomes normal. To them.
And when they marry they won't enjoy sex with their partner as much as they did with their multiple partners.
Plus sex is supposed to be enjoyed.
You start out with someone you think you love,
hold hands, then arms around shoulders or waist, then hugs, then pecks on the cheeks, then frenching, then the next thing you know, ... ... because the temptation is there.
The devil succeeds.
Okok I'll stop here if your freaked already.
In case you didn't know, we have an hour of cell group discussion, then praise and worship and finally the sermon and ministy/altar call every Saturday.
OH YEAHHHHHH
KAI WEI ACCEPTED CHRIST!
HAHAHA I'M SO HAPPY FOR HIM CAN!
He has been coming for quite awhile, and his family members are very strong Buddhists.
His only problem now is how to tell his mother that he's officially a Christian.
hahah...

Before I go off...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENE!

Guess what.
Hillary told me she saw Lihui at Jurong Point!
Yes, our instructor!
!!!!!!!

educational hub

I love my teachers so much, I spent so much time preparing stuff for them.
Lets see.
Ten teachers. And no, I didn't prepare one for Miss Tan.
because she didn't give me my 0.1 mark needed to get another grade!
x9.9 leh!!!!!
No la it's not because of that.
x is a number ranging from 5 to 9.

Can SOMEONE just submit the design fot the peer lite shirt?
Who wouldn't want a free shirt la?
Yes free, because the school's recognising our efforts. hahaha.
But nobody's coming up with any design templates.

I've been waiting forever for this,
THIS FRIDAY IS THE NIGHT DAY.

yu guo tian qing? i'm not that sure.

My results are devestating...
Dropped 10 marks for combined humanities, all thanks to social studies.
Dropped 2 marks for combined science, which means I'm no longer top 20%.
Dropped about 15 marks for music, like wth... it was my best subject.
Failed chinese oral presentation.
Failed emaths yet again.
Failed the damn social studies.
Failed 90% of my chinese formal letter-writing, or gong han.
Average for this term is simply, argh. Dropped about 3 marks.

At least that's what my parents want me to think.
When I tell them the better results, they tell me this class is lousy.
I'm quite surprised lor, I didn't even put my heart and soul into studies this term, still can pass the tests ah.
Overall... failed one subject. Duh it's maths.

English improved by 1 mark.
Geography improved by 12 marks.
Chinese improved by 9 marks.
E maths improved by 17 marks.
Accounts improved by 1 mark. I'm still 2nd, hope to move up or stay there.

Valerie thinks I can be a counsellor in the future.
Haha.
"You really very nice lor..."
Yeah I'm too nice already, didn't you know?

The good thing is...
Priscilla is feeling much better now.
Shan't elaborate on that here, it's going into the private blog.
Perhaps you have heard us mention the private blog numerous times...
and you are dying to find out the contents of it.
Hahaha, all I can say is this: Good try. I wish you luck.
That's IF you even wanna know.

I've had enough ok, enough.

WILL YOU ALL JUST STOP IT??
HOW LONG ARE YOU GOING TO FIGHT?
WHEN ONE STOPS, THE OTHER PARTY WANTS TO CONTINUE,
THIS WILL NOT DO OK.
WHATEVER WILL MISS ANG SAY IF SHE KNOWS ABOUT THIS.

Can't y'all just shift your attention to studies?
You are going to retain if you continue to fight like this, mark my words.

And please stop questioning me.
I am very happy with Priscilla, fullstop.

I am sorry...
But I just don't feel very 'me' these days.

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I'm too tired to continue the previous post.
Still have to update private blog
Still have to do music project, damn...
Still have to revise chinese for tomorrow's tuition
Still have to do maths tuition homework
Still have to do lit and bio!!!!! Kill me pls. lol

Went without food from 7am to 7.30pm.
that's twelve and a half hours.
No breakfast, no lunch. Only plain water.
And Joel, he couldn't sing today and never tell me earlier!
Then I could have helped him get a replacement...
Actually since he was the one who couldn't make it he should hunt for replacement.
BUT HE SAID HE FORGOT.
So there were only 2 backups la.

This morning's workshop was on conflict management...
How to handle conflicts as a leader.
The causes, effects and solutions.
I thought that helped alot.

And then for Youth, the topic: God's holiness
Because of Jesus who paid the price for us, we are made holy.
We stand out from the pre-believers.
But when faced with temptation, to the extreme...
How many of us actually choose to give in?
Sometimes it's easy to just say,
oh I won't give in to peer pressure.
But in reality that isn't as easy as we think.
"It is up to (us), (our) responsibility, to practise holiness.
and have a fear for God, not forgetting that he lives in us.
when you lie, you dun admit your wrong, you surf some "funny" websites, say some "flowery" languages, you shall be answerable to God.
He's always there, watching over you, search your minds and soul, every single day, whether you tried to remain pure, or would you fall into the temptations of the devil. and slowly guiding you to hell. it's up to you.
whether you want to take a stang on Jesus. up to you.
well it impacted me though, cuz no one is perfect, if u sin, it's alrigt. God wont blame you.
He is forgiving, but if you sin and refuses to repent, that's something wrong.
so guys. stay pure."
And that was taken from Smarties' blog...
Don't say I'm a copycat ok! I gave you credits lor. haha

Clarissa and I both sensed some uneasiness today...
Being girls, we can pick up this kind of things faster.
Cos' Smarties didn't find anything wrong.
It was mainly Joe and Andrew...
I think Joe was too harsh.
What's wrong with my cell...
I guess I'll just have to pray for them and for the cell, that all of us will remain united as before, and not let anything tear us apart.
*thinks of conflict management workshop*

okay I'm going to update the private blog.

harpsichords are antique but wayyy cool

The workshop was enjoyable...
Response was overwhelming, there were so many other music students from other schools...
Until they had to sit on the steps.
Some parts of the master class was boring, I was dozing off la...
Dunno if anyone saw. lols!
There was this girl who played the grade 8 exam piece. The one which every grade 8 candidate plays... I hear until sian already.
She was rushing through the whole piece, play so fast with inconsistent tempo and the man still say nice!

ACS(I) is like so big?!?!?
Can get lost lor! And we didn't know where the female toilet was so we used the staff one hahah.
The boarding facilities are so cool also la!!
ok i'll update this again.

i need a guitar pick

My teeth hurts.
Ouch ouch ouch, cannot eat hard food..
`@#$%^&*()_+
dentist tightened it and added this springy thing again.

Not only my teeth, my left hand fingers hurt too!
It's so fragile now, my nails are going to drop out anytime.
I'm currently typing with my right hand and left thumb.
Ahhhh pain!!
Oh man.
I've been guitaring for the last 3 hours.
But it's all worth it!
I can play the guitar now! Like not just those basic chords like G, D, E, A, C...
I can play the sharps and the minors!! haha finally figured out which chord must bar what fret and why.
It's actually that easy, why didn't I notice and find out earlier??
Save me, I'm in love with the guitar now.
Ahahahahah...
Great so now I can play everything except drums.
Lol, which I have no intention to learn =/
Woohoooooooooo! Bass, keyboard, guitar! I prefer acoustic guitars though.
Cos' I strum without a pick. And it's not possible to strum elec guitars without picks.
Yeah man! I can finally play all the sharped and flattened major and minor chords!
See, I never called myself a guitar idiot. Even though I seemed to suck at it. And I'm glad I didn't anyhow label myself =D
There's still the dominant 7th chords, the sus-es and the inversions, which I only grasped 3/4 of it. If I do better, I'll go on to learn the augmented and dimished!
I apologise for the highness! It's just that I never thought I couldn play so much

Hahaha.. I can't wait to jam again.
Next week.
It's not like we can jam just anytime we want to.
It cannot be so impromptu.
And, the whole band must be able to make it.
"If one cannot then all cannot"
"Haha this is how a real band is supposed to be"
I was the only one who couldn't make it this Friday, so I told the rest to go ahead and jam.
Like in the old band, if anyone couldn't come, the others would just continue with the jam.
You wouldn't even know who is secretly rejoicing because you can't come.
This time it's different, those were the replies I got.
Wow... haha. This portrays 'One for all and all for one'
True team spirit. I'm so touched man. lols.
Of course, such is the character of God's children =)
I love you guys =D

perfect, imperfect, plagal, interrupted cadences??

Today's just wrong.
Everything's so pissable. I think most of it is caused by pms.
Damn Ms..

This morning we were all locked out of the class.
Original key missing.
Spare key was with Stacey and she didn't come to school.
So we went for a tour around the school compound for the rest of the morning.
Though the teacher made Stacey come to school to pass the key to the office.

I borrowed a book from _______ for silent reading...
So obviously after reading it I'll return to her.
BUT.
She barked into my face, saying I was irresponsible and ordered me to go return to ______a myself.
Harlow? You didn't tell me it's her book and when I return it to the person who loaned it to me, I am labelled "irresponsible"?
What kind of logic is this.

POA teacher does not want to connect with the class.
Just look at the way she speaks and teaches.
And she keeps saying, she's only a contract teacher, teach us for awhile only and dunno whether she will teach us next year.
Oh, she said it herself.
That she won't go and get to know each student individually...
So opposite of Mrs Eng.

Bio marks just sucks la.
Never got this low before.
My chem sucks too, so I can say goodbye to A2 and B3.

As if that wasn't enough...
_o____ and her attitude.
No wonder so many people didn't like her.
When she got into trouble, I was the one who helped and spoke up for her.
Apparently she didn't give it a damn.
Camp fever is over lor.
Doesn't she understand that it's AUGUST and not APRIL?
If it's April, then yeah I'll still be talking about the instructors and camp.
But now _______, _________ and I are very very very good friends lor, nothing more than that.
She still keep talking about what the whole class knows about it.
Yar I bet she'll go and spread some crap.
POST-CAMP SYNDROME IS GONE.
Yeah maybe she still can't get over her _______.
Tell her to be thankful I didn't bring that up ok.
Everyone knew how ridiculously dumb that was, what _______ _i___ her.
Please lar.
Don't believe lor, as long as I know I'm speaking the truth, they know the truth, they won't bother about your crap.

And _________, I've kinda had enough of her vulgarities.
Effing at every little thing you know.
If she thinks it's cool, well she's wrong.
It's not.

Thank God I passed my geography...
Surprising, since I failed the assignment which everyone aced.
AND the previous test.

Yar and I got scolded by my piano teacher for not thinking hard enough.
She stressed me up by throwing so many cadences at me and for the first time, I had to ans those aural questions.
Never teach me earlier, of course cannot answer properly la!
Wth.

Come back still gotta face my mother's nagging...
And do jian tie bao.. still have 7 articles.
And do music..
And BOTH have to be handed in by tomorrow.

Today sucks la.
1st day of Ms...
Hurry up and get over with it.

wish you were there

I didn't continue the previous post..
let this picture talk on my behalf















It was free of charge =D shared with my sis.

About the jam...
go to Priscilla's blog to read la.
haha..

I took over Grace (Quek) for backup duty today...
other singers were Stefanie and Sarah (Tan)
Most challenging part was to harmonise the new song.
Which I only heard this morning.
Same thing, they kept commenting about my harmonising...
whatever la. haha..
I taught Sarah the harmony/parts...
Sarah, say cannot do it, just because she struggled to remember the tune.
And I kept telling her can can can, replaced the 'cannot' in her with 'can'.
And she did it! W00t feel so happy for her.
(I teach one mah. lol)
We actually screwed abit during the actual worship..
Could see from the corner of my eye that she had the "oh no i made a mistake" face.
And I tried to tell her to just go on and continue to worship. Which was hard la, how to talk on stage.

JACELYN APPEARED TODAY,IN CHURCH AFTER 2 YEARS!
She was one of my best church friends in P6...
Then she backslided and stopped coming.
We never gave up on her, we continued to pray...
Then she came. I hope she continues to come for Youth...
Cos' currently, the guys: girls ratio is 7:2 in my cell.
If she comes, we'll have one more girl! haha.

Topic was on BGR.
Boy-girl relationship.
They don't want us to date until we're above 16..
The rest, it's mainly guidelines for my church youths.

Cell wanted to burst out the birthday song after service...
but! I siam-ed for worship debrief so they didn't sing! hahaha.
Debrief...
"Singers sang well, the harmony was very nice."
Wahaha Sarah and I almost fainted.
Our mistakes (to us) were so obvious they still say nice! lol.

Went for dinner with my cell girls + Wan Hui + Joan + Joe..
The usual place.
Joe treat me to bak chor mee, mai hiam, mai turkwa..
Everyone went to get their food so I sat there to look after their stuff.
And they came back with a slice of cake, with a candle on top!
(brought the cake home)















Still not enough, they started singing!
Damn malu can...
I rather they sing it in church than in the coffee shop...
Another 2 tables, the church youths, joined in...
Eugene, Elizabeth, Vennie, Joanne, Joel, Larissa, Kah Wan, Alfred, can't remember the rest..
and everyone else was looking! ahhahah
Got the shock of the day, but they made me really happy!
THANKS GUYS =)
















We went back to church for the memorial service.
People come and go, just like the monsoon season.
Zachary's mother, Auntie Joyce, who's the wife of the church elder Uncle Peter,
passed away very recently.
Due to cancer.
Before going for kimo, she was the principal of Living Sanctuary Kindergarten, my church's kindergarten.
She was a very cheerful woman who trusted God with all her heart and the smile on her face was always glued to her.
She always put others before herself.
Her last words were,
"Thank you Jesus"
Even at her deathbed, her heart was with the Lord.
She was concerned for everyone but herself.
Now she's gone up to heaven...
God has taken yet another soul to His kingdom.
What's happening to our church...
First Auntie Jenni, then Joe's mum who accepted Christ before she left, now Auntie Joyce.
Who's next.
Her family is very affected by her departure, duh.
Ben, Lydia, Matthias, Cynthia, Zachary and Uncle Peter.
I pray that they will stay strong and continue to carry the torch like Auntie Joyce did.
I won't be able to go for the funeral on Monday, it's in the morning and there's school.

Next week is a busy one. And I thought I was very free.
Mon; modular workshop. Tues; Piano lesson. Wed; Dental appointment, 1/2 hr. Thurs; Representing handbells to go to NUS for something. Fri; going for some harpsichord workshop? with o'level music girls. Sat; on duty for backups, prac then cell then service. Sun; Chinese and maths tuition.

Will it ever happen.?
straits or times?

what goes up must come down? false. age goes up and never comes down.

I woke up this morning and dragged myself out of bed, like I always did.
Phone read "1 message received"
Of course, I had forgotten. Haha.
Thanks Timothy...
(in fact it was the only bd greeting thru sms)

This year, no presents but lots of birthday greetings!
Wahaha I feel loved =)
You people really make my day =D
Thank you, Jiahui, Priscilla (hey I specially put your name here leh haha), Fiona, Enmei, Xiying, Janice, Jasmine, Sharmaine and 3/5 of the class for your birthday greetings, + the 28 people in class who sang Mrs Tng and I a birthday song!
There were more but I can't remember. Lol..

God has seen me through these 15 years of ups and downs...
I wanna thank Him for everything He has provided, especially good health!
It's only when you look at the less fortunate and handicapped then you remember you are a normal person and learn to appreciate yourself.
God gave me a wonderful (but noisy) family;
granparents from both sides, mom, dad, bro, sis
He gave me friends;
many of them... again i wanna mention the closer ones, (they are considered close,) who have acess to the blog. (again la i know)
He gave me home;
Singapore. She turned 41 10 days ago.

Going to Swensen's now.. blog again later =)

bye common tests!

After school...
Yeah Priscilla treated me to this noodle ommelette thing.
DAMN NICE OKAY!
I'll go back there again, sometime.
The guy put alot of mayo... =D
Thanks girl!!

We walked into the Christian bookshop, looked through the CDs.
And songbooks. You know, those books with vocal, piano and guitar scores...
And then there was an earthquake.
The shelf was unstable so everything just dropped!
Triple whoops. haha everyone was staring a us.

Then we went into Carrefour.
You know us, when there's a keyboard around, we have to touch it.
Lol played around with the keyboards there...
I like the $699 one! So many different sounds, and it has good touch.
There was one $19.90 one, I was so tempted to buy that one and put it in class to play.
At least it has 2 octaves more than Grace's kb right! haha.

PS. What's at the 2nd-last floor?
Yamaha!
Needless to say, we went there and touched all the instruments.
There's this bass which I like... It's super nice.
Now I think my bass looks freaking noobish.
Oh wells, I was the one who chose it anyway, plus it's nice to play on.
So it doesn't really matter.
Pris likes the red electric guitar.. she wants to get it.
Haha wait for the next sale la, so expensive...
That was the more rock part.
We went over to the more classical area...
Where the books, scores, percussion, woodwind instruments, brass instruments, string instruments and pianos are.
The piano, it's like, OMG la.
ALMOST ALL HAVE EXCELLENT TOUCH!
I've always liked Yamaha pianos.
Especially the silent and exam models, pure elegance...
My current piano is like some 2nd hand Hyundai brand.
Which has been with me since I started learning in P1.
It's nothing compared to Yamaha.
(i want i want i want! haha)
And another thing I want,
The Phantom Of The Opera original scores!!!!!!!
But they cost like $47.
Nevermind, slowly save.
(I wanted to get the Canon in D sheet music, the more advanced one.
$8 plus, forget it.)
I can be stuck in that place for hours if not for Priscilla who wanted to move on.. =X

"Aye I feel like eating Ben & Jerry's leh..."
You know were we went to la.
The B&J's in Cathay! Mix and Match again, upsized.
You pay extra just to have a bit more ice cream, not very worth it leh.
So don't upsize when you go there ok. Lols...
We shared Phish food, Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough and Oatmeal Cookie Chunk.
Haha yeah it's the usual flavours, we never seem to get sick of them...
See la Pris! Say feel like eating only then end up really eating it... Spend so much money!
But it was worth it cos' we were full and enjoyed ourselves =)
I found 10 cents on the floor! My lucky day? haha.

no piano lesson today!

LOL this is so funny...
the 4 million smiles thing.
Got smile meh?

Today's jam wasn't that bad...
Just lack of 'life'.
At first I felt very uncomfortable...
because apparently it wasn't much of a cell thing,
more like Yuying's la..
When I stepped into the room,
WOAH. All the ppl in white uniform.
Clarissa's from North Vista so she also felt the same and she ended up 'seeking refuge' by 'studying' with the other non-Yuying church youths.
I 'hid' at the office to do maths.

Ok new discovery.
Smarties is actually very thoughtful..
He made me feel less odd being one of the 2 non-Yuying people around.
Somehow he knew I was 'hiding' in the church office.
Haha thanks man =)

So like I said, not much of a cell thing.
The extra people left and then we were left to jam more peacefully.
Kevin, Clarissa, George, Jiajun, Smarties, me.
Another discovery,
Some older songs have alot of meaning in them.
Those are the songs which have not been sung in a long time,
until today... it was as if we were jamming hymns =/

Kevin = PRESSURE.
haha don't ask why...

waaa aaaack!

I PASSED MY CHINESE, A B3 !!!!!!!!

First time in 1.5 yrs okay!!
Can you believe I got above 65% for the test?!?!?!?!
AAAAHHHH HAHAHAHA
I GOT A B3 I GOT A B3 YAYNESS!!!!!!
Sorry I can help it, Chinese has been one of my weakest subjects, plus I'm in the C band, a 3 is like such a big thing to me la! W0000000Ts!
This calls for a celebration! Lets go and have a good meal!
my treat Pay yourself though, I have no money.. haha!
Congratulate me man!!

Okok, clamed down.
I can play the guitar after all!
Played Mighty To Save and it was quite easy.
Wahaha... How many instruments can I play now?
*counts*

Yay going to jam in church with some of my church friends tomorrow...
Our cell's first attempt to jam.
Can la can la, we are God's children, we can do it!
Cannot have ''inauspicious'' thinking wad right, =D

This Friday's the 18th...
It's when ALL the common tests will be over (all but one)
(for now, there's bio, e maths and formal letter writing, music. 4 more to go)
And then we'll jam!
But then right, there's only Pris, Sharmaine and me.
This other girl can't make it, I dunno who.
So,

Any guitarist/bassist (then I'll do kb)/keyboardist out there???
Electric or acoustic, anything...
We just need someone to play this Friday!
Anyone la, as long as you're a Christian...
maybe I can try out the eguit. haha..

Excuse my 'highness' while I go and post something over at the other blog...

some quiz.

1. Known as?
- Joyce, the super slim person. haha.

2. You are a...?
- look there <------ profile says it all =D

3. Are you still studying?
- no. i'm working as a student. haha

4. Which school?
- working in PL and they never fail to overwork you..

5. Where do you live?
- in a house with a dining room, 3 bedrooms, 1 living room, 1 kitchen, 2 storerooms, 1 staircase, 2 toilets, 1 balcony, 1 piano, 1 violin, 1 classical guit, 1 bass guit, some angklungs, ......... (the list goes on)

6. What is your favourite food?
- loads. haha.. western, chinese, jap (sushi!), indian (prata!)

7. Song you're listening to at the moment?
- mrbrown show.. the one on ERP IU ringtones
"ha ha! 1 dollar go to the government! ha ha!"

8. Your favourite number?
- that'll be seven, 7.

9. How was your day?
- just like any normal day

10. Are you happy at the moment and why?
- nothing to be happy about leh. haha.

11. Are you sad or angry at anyone and why?
- read previous posts. and other blog. whoops i forgot you don't have the url.

12. What are the things that will make you happy and smile?
- friends, jamming, ... having fun?

13. What would you do when someone looks at you and you don't really know that person?
- stare back. lol.. or walk away.

14. Something that you're craving or wanting to have?
- i want a stand for 2 guitars! and go watch a movie soon!

15. What are you going to do next?
- memorize bio stuff..

16. Any plans for the coming week?
- no plans, it's just another passing week...

17. Do you like make-up?
- anything but chinese opera-like makeup. and nothing near that kind with super heavy eyeliner...

18. Have you ever dyed your hair?
- nope.

19. Favourite subjects?
- accounts!!! (it's the only subject which i can get above 90 marks) and music and bio.

20. What subjects are you good at?
- read previous answer

21. Weakest subject?
- HOHO. maths =/

22. What are your interests?
- refer to profile =D

23. What do you want to achieve?
- get below 16 points for o's. my standard now is like, 20.

24. Magazine or books?
- both. haha... mags are more entertaining.

25. Handphone or Mp3?
- handphone. with mp3 functions =P

26. R&B or Trance?
- contemporary christian

27. Rainy or Sunny?
- rainy when in school and at home, sunny when i'm out. lol

28. Flowers or Presents?
- hmm, presents?

29. Hot or Cold?
- neither hot nor cold can.. haha

30. Dark or Bright?
- bright, duh..

31. Short or tall?
- depends on what you're talking abt. short guys look funny. haha.. other than that i guess both are fine.

32. Wine or Beer?
- wine. beer = urgh

33. Shorts or Long Jeans?
- shorts are more cooling =)

34. GUYS ANSWER THIS , Love or Virgin?

35. GIRLS ANSWER THIS , Love or Money?
- both can? haha. ok, love is mort important. love in all definitions.

let every breath, all that I am, never cease to worship You...

*Sighs*
Priscilla doesn't want to go to New Creation tomorrow...
Later in the afternoon, I mean.
I really want to listent to their sermon and see how their service is like leh =(
So I guess I'm not going too.

James 1:2-3
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
*sighs again*

Ok so for today's youth service, Uncle Dong was the speaker.
Who knew la...
The topic was: Friends. How ironic.

Some points which I feel are important...
Proverbs 17:17
A friend loves at all times,
and a brother is born for adversity.
Yeah, why else are they called 'friends'?
Don't give away your friendship cheaply, be wise.
It's painful when you get betrayed and break friendship.
They are like the priest and the Levite in the parable of the good Samaritan.

I think, my best friends...
are the ones who have acess to that blog.

unmasked?

I'm going to be superrrrrr busy next week.
THE WHOLE OF NEXT WEEK SO DON'T ASK ME OUT!
hahahaha... jkjk. lols.
But yea I'm a busy girl, 3 more tests and maybe there's a test on the history of music..
Jamming. WHEN?
Pris and Shar, ?????????
Soon I hope. And it better be good =x
My cell's talking about a cell band too.
Yeah it's my idea, how you know?
Smart yet not as smart as me! Ty!

Priscilla, are we still visiting New Creation this Sunday?
I wanna drop by leh...
As long as I can make it in time for the maths tuition.

I miss Jalan Bahtera. =(

yesterday is history, tomorrow's a mystery

Actually...
I don't need to blog already la just look at Priscilla's for details =D
But I'm still doing it.
And today I'm not blogging at the usual weeeeee hours of the morning..
There's a reason why I'm doing that..
What's the reason? Happy guessing =)

Was supposed to do intense studying at Kovan Macs with Priscilla.
You know what next la...
We didn't really study, only absorbed a bit. hahah..
Saw Joel again! I always see the same few people at the same places. Why, cause I'm always at these same places too. Lols..
Rivers, plate tectonics, vulcanicity, earthquakes, qualitative analysis.
You think we really studied that much meh, no lor...
Only a bit of everything. haha..

At first we were talking about stuff la...
Couldn't really study, plus Macs was quiet so I guess people around us knew what was going on. Lol mans...
Stuffed the fries into my oh-very-small mouth and hopped on to Sengkang MRT.
The same place, McDonalds.
The management should really thank people like us, who keep going to their restaurants...
And then Timothy la...
Late as usual.. The words are in bold okay. haha.

He suggested we put away our books and just talk.
Because according to past experiences, one can never study and talk about a particular topic at the same time.
He was right la haha... we dumped the books.
And talked...

Again he spoke from experience...
Even S'pore's Electrico can't go that far.
If you get what I mean.
What more, .... ?
Cannot wan lor... What we can do now is, sit, stand around, watch and laugh.

Turn back, will they ever do that?
I don't think they would be like those youths in the church.
We know the melting and boiling points of their hearts.
Forget them, it's a waste of our time.
They can be used for other things.
(Then you ask, forget them, why bother to still blog about them?
Cos', I'm saying what needs to be said.
Read my disclaimer.)

People show you different sides of themselves, the exact opposite.
I mean it.
One night they come telling you they wanna die, trying to get words of comfort and sympathy from others...
And the next day, they give you a phonecall, sounding super arrogant.
And they can laugh and go out and enjoy themselves like nothing happened.
Isn't it contradicting...
I take back what I said in the previous.
I don't frigging care about you anymore,
(can already hear it somewhere,
"who needs her care la, who does she think she is")
You, you and you.

I'm going to continue with this blog for as long as possible.
Cos' I think closing a blog just because of one or two people ain't worth it.
They're either running away or wasting their time spent blogging for the past who-knows-how-many months. Both la.

As the saying goes, Yesterday is History, Tomorrow's a Mystery.
Yea that's true...
But I'm still blogging about this simply because I wasn't part of the blogging war when it took place.
Now's my turn to blast.

And so, Tim, Pris and I went on to talk about other stuff...
Noob music shop owners, people crushing him, etc...
The funniest being, someone's book.
Wahahah... laughed our ass off.
Laughter is indeed the best medicine..
Had a darn greeeaaaaat time laughing, crapping and eating today.
Priscilla and Timothy made my day...
Not just today, it's gonna be 2 or 3 days. haha...

You know what...
I kind of know how Tim and Ter are feeling about this.
They passed on their talent to their understudies, or students.
They spent loads of time with them in the studio, and outside.
They taught what they knew, hoping and thinking that it will be used for the right purpose, the right way.
But no...
Their understudies absorbed and learnt from them.
Their understudies knew they were Christians and they weren't teaching for the sake of teaching.
Their understudies went ahead... to do what they think is cool.
Which actually isn't as cool as they think.
Or maybe, so cool that it turns into the dark side.
Not just the genre, the chatacters changed... for the worse.

Hey Tim..
I wish you all the best with your next one...
You will be able to learn without much hiccups,
I just know it la. haha.
And may your next one use the skills (given by God to you, which you will be passing on to,) in the right way.
I think you're careful enough not to make the same mistake yea?

Priscilla...
I look forward to whatever's gonna happen in the near future, don't need to think until so far yet. Lols...
We WILL continue to walk the path of the Lord, doing things right in His eyes.
We will continue to study together... without distractions I hope! Haha!
I've changed my mind about you...
And this time it's for the better, don't worry.
Whatever negative stuff I thought about you last time, whatever people bitched about you...
they're erased =D
Haha dunno mans, I just felt like letting you know..

=)