first CO practice

[edit] copied and pasted from multiply [/edit]

Excuse me while I rant. I'm serious. RANT.

Blogger's being an ass so I have to blog here at multiply... I doubt the post would even appear at the blogger side la. What's the use of having the cross-post function when it doesn't even work?!

I am feeling quite lost at the moment..
I feel empty, I need God to fill my cup, I need it to overflow once again.
The thought of not being able to go for Youth Ablaze for the next 2 years just irks me. I'll miss my cell group like nuts!! I can only see them after 7.30pm on Saturdays.. or on Sundays for main service.
CCA... not like my first practice was very enjoyable..
Yes I know it's only a matter of time before I get assimilated into this CCA.. cos' currently nothing seems to be going right. Fine, maybe the only thing right is that they willingly took me in because they are short of players -.-
But I have to learn from scratch. Duh. I chose to go there. Picking up a new instrument is fun, though I never expected myself to learn this instrument!!! I loaned one from the college, it sounds out of tune (and I have no idea how to tune it), the bow thing needs rosin and I dunno where I'm gonna get it. Unless I try the rosin for violin.. I think I still have it.

Today I made my way down to school...
I was early, so I sat near the bleachers and read my bio guide book to kill time.
Shujun told me to go to LT2, but it was empty. I think he meant LT3. Being lost (as always), I wandered around outside the LTs and lifts.. then approached this group of girls and found out they're from that CCA. I found out where the instrument store was. -.- Shujun's section leader then got hold of me and showed me around the different sections, asking them to play a tune on their various instruments as a demonstration. Suddenly barging into those classrooms wasn't the ideal thing. Ok I'm exaggerating. Still, it was highly embarrassing. For I dunno what reason. Maybe it's because there were so many familiar faces from the overseas trip last year... and now I'm joining them..? I wonder what's going through their minds.
Sj's SL then deposited me at the classroom full of, well, people. I dunno how red I was, but my cheeks were definitely burning with nervousness and paiseh-ness. It was a horrible feeling, to have everyone staring at me as I moved quickly to an empty chair. I sat down. They whispered among themselves. Nice start huh. I should stop being so paranoid.

There were 2 J3s who, after a while, brought me to the back of the classroom and patiently introduced me to this new instrument. They were being really kind, showing me the right way to hold it, position my fingers, etc. They were friendly =D
Someone took down my shirt size for their CCA shirt.

pause.

What am I doing in ACJC in the first place??!?!!

un-pause.

Of course there were other nice people as well, like Nigel... who was making the effort to help me feel more at home.

Let's just say that I must be out of my mind, to agree to stay in that cca, that particular section, to agree to practice on that out of tune instrument which now lies silently in its case at my living room. Perhaps it's just me and my sensitive ears, I know it's only slightly out of tune. Still...
Tastes and preferences change over time. What I aimed for in sec 4 wasn't exactly realistic although now it does seem to be going according to my plan which I laid out last year. I dunno why I choose to stick to those goals. I'm just doing it. [edit] A detour, perhaps? Pastor Daniel's sermon on 9 March spoke to me. To blog about that will take up another post. [/edit]

JC life is all about independent learning. Sigh. Gotta stop relying on others! Gotta read up on a lot of stuff on my own, and now find tutorials on youtube for that instrument. Oh my gosh. March holidays aren't really holidays after all. I'll have to draw out a plan and follow it.

Got to include God in all my decisions. Got to join CF too in school I guess.Got to keep praying and reading the bible to satisfy that hunger.

You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I'll be a fool
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising again I bless Your name
You are my all in all
When I fall down You pick me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all

that's Daniel for you

N1gHtR0@d™:: its not that u cant its just that u think u cant says:
yea dont worry too much bout me too
N1gHtR0@d™:: its not that u cant its just that u think u cant says:
i know u will be missing me day n night every second of the days ahead
N1gHtR0@d™:: its not that u cant its just that u think u cant says:
but its ok
N1gHtR0@d™:: its not that u cant its just that u think u cant says:
i understand
N1gHtR0@d™:: its not that u cant its just that u think u cant says:
missing me is part n parcel of life^^
joyce says:
SHUT UP DAN


Stupid guy erhu enthusiast with a really big ego.

Outram Park MRT

Mas Selamat has been on the loose for eight days, and till this day there is still no news of him, no sightings whatsoever. I think. This feels as if we're part of a novel of some sort. E.g. JKR's Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban where Sirius Black, having escaped from Azkaban (wizard prison), had his face on posters stuck all over the wizarding world.

Do we question the capability of our police force in the island-wide manhunt?
hmmm...


Yesterday after my econs make up lecture, I took the MRT home. The usual route from Buona Vista to Outram Park to Kovan. But no, when the train was approaching Outram Park station, there was an announcement in the train advising commuters going to the NEL to take the Raffles Place-Dhoby Ghaut route instead of getting down at Outram Park. Everyone's facial expressions were either blank or had the classic Singaporean wah-what-happened-ah look. I didn't know whether to go ahead and get down at Outram Park. The train door opened at that station, and an announcement was heard from that station saying the same thing, that there was "an incident" at the station.

So ok, me being a 奉公守法的新加坡公民，did as advised. The crowd at Dhoby Ghaut was almost double its usual crowd. I should have just alighted at Outram Park instead. Why?

The "incident" was reported in the papers today, it made it to the front page of ST and TNP.
I might have caught a glimpse of the whole saga, I don't think the Outram Park station at the NEL side was closed at all, since it was reported in the papers that services functioned as per normal. Except that the body was being cornered off. Yea, typical Singaporean. The busybody.

Well it was rather interesting.. it's my first time being part of a train diversion! Sort of a diversion of route to Pungol/Harbour Front. Imagine, maybe I didn't have econs lecture yesterday, or if the lecture ended early... I may have witnessed the whole shooting... and get traumatized by it -.-

Piano exam

I miss my friends in SRJC!! Nowadays I'm just making random friends here and there... like, friend's friend's friend, and this J1 girl I met in the train one morning.. you get the picture. I haven't exactly found real friends to 'stick' to. Yes, I still feel like a newbie in AC. Still trying to settle down and adjust to the new environment. Still feeling
very
much

alone
there.


We got into our new classes yesterday, and my class looks like.. no comments... lest someone sees this and I get bashed up (then Germayne's would be right. NO WAY am I gonna let that happen).

I thank the OLM-ers and BFC-ers and some sec 4'07 handbellers for their support, expressed through MSN, SMS, friendster and the tagboard. =D

I prayed fervently, and my heart was racing prior to the examination. There was anxiousness in my voice as I greeted the Caucasian examiner.
Shit, just calm down la... and trust God as you always tell yourself.. Talking to myself in my head, yeah.
The examiner let me warm up my fingers at the piano, so I played a very distorted D major scale. Haha, thank God it was only a trial. She proceeded to test me on my scales and arpeggios, the first one being C major legato, hands together in similar motion. I thought, wow, I must be lucky. Scales were mostly alright except for the chromatic in thirds for left hand where I got my fingerings wrong, and a diminished scale (I played dominant 7th wtc (c = crap)).
Then of course there were the common slipping of keys, hitting the wrong keys, aiming wrongly at wide leaps of the pieces especially for The Puppet's Dance. I totally flipped as I played the wrong notes and expressions.
I think the sight-singing was the best part of the whole exam.
The last part of the aural component was the crappiest I think...

Anyway, it's OVER, that's three-quarters of a load off my back. I still have another quarter...

Should I go ahead and join that CCA???
What am I supposed to do? Now I feel as if I'm the one hiding in the shell, as I used to describe some of my previous classmates from 1S26...

AC Founder's Day

Yesterday was ACJC's founder's day celebration...

It was my first formal event I attended in AC. We sat in the hall for an hour just waiting for time to pass, so the guests and VIPs could stroll in at their own pace. That was just WAITING for it to start. The GoH took a long time to come up. It was very much like PL's...

... but rather boring. I had the 2 ACSI guys Sean and Paul for company. They said that the list of prize winners in their sec sch is much worse, cos' the school gives out the UYO awards on founder's day, together with the academic prizes. So usually by the time it reaches the last person on the list of award recipients, the audience would clap damn loudly.

The hall was freeeezing cold, many of us (or is it the 3 of us?) were putting up with the cold air throughout the service.

After the service, I went to catch The Eye movie with Lai Theng!! The movie was like an English version of the Chinese movie, The Eye. She was trying to cover her eyes LOL. I think overall was ok la, since I already roughly knew how the story was like.

(sleepy now zzzzz)

Joel's dad

I wore my AC uniform for the first time today.. It felt oversized! Like I mentioned in an earlier blog entry, the blouse (though smallest available size) was just huge.

Physical geography lecture seems to be the most enjoyable out of all the lectures I'm attending... The DM is our lecturer. It's a good and bad thing cos' he's LAME, humorous, and everyone laughs throughout the whole lecture! His geog notes rock too, more detailed than SR's, looks more professional too =D


I met up with Denise (Chia) before heading down for the funeral wake..

The memorial service for the late uncle R at Toa Payoh. I didn't expect myself to cry.. when uncle Joseph and Joel gave their eulogies, I just couldn't take it. I thought of how Joel has to cope without any parents or siblings, how uncle R and my dad were good friends and he'd always be so bright and cheery, how my parents said he had a pet shop at home (Joel said it was a jungle)... for those who have been to my house, I think they would have noticed the pond in the balcony. If not for uncle R, the pond wouldn't be there. He was so generous. He knew that my dad has this weird interest in fishes and he gave my pa the big black container which was then transformed into a pond with koi fishes (picture will be up another time). He also gave us this fake tortoise for decorative purposes which is currently residing in one of the fish tanks at home.

It's like a fragment of uncle R will always remain in my house. It is difficult to accept the fact that he's gone, he has left us to be with our Daddy above. At least we know he is now safe in heaven, void of all pain and suffering.

I feel like some emo freak but I'm not la ok. Lol.

Joel's dad

I remember receiving a PIO from the cell group, informing us to pray for Joel Chia's dad who is in ICU. Simon just told me that uncle R's condition has worsened.

Scyf3r says:
hey dear
Scyf3r says:
pray for joel chia's dad
Scyf3r says:
he's in icu
Scyf3r says:
very bad shape
Scyf3r says:
might not survive tonight
joyce says:
that bad??
Scyf3r says:
yeah
Scyf3r says:
been in hosp for more den a month le
joyce says:
i sent him an sms a few days ago to encourage him..
joyce says:
joel i mean
Scyf3r says:
got very bad recently
joyce says:
what exactly is his condition like now?
Scyf3r says:
erm
Scyf3r says:
last msg received from him is saying that the doctors are trying their best and that he might not survive the night
joyce says:
okay... sigh
joyce says:
must be very hard on joel
Scyf3r says:
kinda
Scyf3r says:
he isnt that close to his dad
Scyf3r says:
so it mus hafta hit him hard
Scyf3r says:
pray that his dad gets well and that he takes this chance to be closer to his dad


Joel does not have a mum, neither does he have any siblings. I wonder how he is coping now... Both father and son need God more than ever..

ACJC orientation

I bought my AC school uniform today at Bibi & Baba, Shaw Centre. The shop was crowded with JC1s from RJ, PJ, and AC. Anyway the total cost of 3 sets of uniforms plus a tie is $88+. I'd say that's ok because Jia Yan said one set of her ACSI uniform costs about $50. Crazy.

I got size 14 blouse (smallest size) and it's so freaking big..
I also bought a size M skirt which is still quite tight. Should have bought L instead!
First time wearing skirts that are not XS or S >.<

I was telling Xi Ying that when I prayed for those who appealed to other colleges, I did not pray that they will get a place in the college, but for God to place them in wherever He thinks is best for them. I was just prompted to pray in this way... It didn't seem right for me to pray for them to get into their desired college just because they want to. Many times we attempt to take matters into our own hands (without seeking God's help) and think we're invincible. Uh-uh. This links back to the sermon today.

So Jolene's appeal to SAJC was successful, so was Ken's appeal to ACJC. Haven't got news from the rest.


Many have been asking how's life in ACJC. Well... the 2nd day was a truly awkward one. The 2nd-intakers were assigned to different OGs, while the 1st-intakers stuck to their old OGs. So it was like everyone knew each other and were talking to each other while people like me found it hard to break the ice. I did make an effort to talk to them and ask questions but somehow it just couldn't turn out the way I expected. So yeah I was stoning for most of the day. I should have prayed for wisdom to say the right things and for everyone (myself included) to be friendlier, but I didn't. This is dumb, prayer is like the most essential thing in a relationship with the King! And yet I didn't seek Him..

Carol, my OGL, taught the mass dance steps but she went so fast, I couldn't catch most of it. The JAE people were at a disadvantage because we weren't around for PAE and so the dance seemed quite complicated. Ken said they had 4 days to learn it. Wth. And we 2nd intakers only had 2 days!

The 3rd day was crazy, and this time it was slightly easier to talk to the people in my OG.
We were supposed to have a campfire at night... But it started to drizzle when they were showing the photo slideshow. I found out from Paul that the rain was a lot heavier during the first orientation, and they did not get to start the fire at all. So it was an improvement for the 2nd orientation. The whole orientation ended off with everyone going high and dancing the mass dance, making long and wild human trains which ran out throughout the hall, making us all drenched in our own perspiration, soaking our shirts thoroughly.

I enjoyed the mass rallies! Where we did clan cheers and AC cheers to bond the whole cohort together =D Very effective I think. They kept asking us to "pack in" together so that the cheers could sound louder, also to "huddle up" where we had to put our arms around the 2 persons beside us. This is a bit gross as everyone's hot and sweaty from the scorching heat of the sun and the lack of personal space!

The activities planned for us in AC were many times more exciting than that in SR, though I very much preferred the company I had in SR. It's the people I was with who made all the difference...

So the moral of the post is: I miss SRJC!

By the way, I went back to the clinic today and the the x-ray report was negative. The doctor said there was an improvement in my condition.. (Praise God!) The reason why I cough for so long is because I have sensitive lungs. So she gave me more tablets and an inhaler. The inhaler looks cool. Lol.

JC appeals

I know, it's probably none of my business.. neither am I trying poke my nose into matters which do not concern me. How about this, I'm just expressing concern for my friends... These are the ones who are unhappy with the JCs they are posted to, and are desperate to get to somewhere else. There is nothing I can do except to pray for them and perhaps tell them that they have my support, I definitely will not want my friends to end up sulking for the next 2 years. I could, of course, tell them to accept it and move on, make the best out of whatever they have now. After all, at the end of the day, it all depends on the individual, whether or not he or she makes it to the university. It's all in the mind and the way they think, really. I could try and make them change their perceptions.... and risk being told off by them. I can imagine it already. ("ya la, you got into the school of your first choice, talk so much for what?!")

Just some thoughts now.

Orientation starts tomorrow. Today's programme was nothing much, just talk after talk. At least we get to sit on chairs in AC, unlike SRJC where we sat there till we got butt cramps.

JAE posting results

Well basically I'm too drowsy to type but I insist I must at least type something. Haha.. That bloody syrup (colour is close to red) is driving me nuts, it says "may cause drowsiness" but the effect lasts for like more than 12 hrs?

Here's what happened. My cough got really bad in the morning, it was thick with phlegm and I would cough till I felt like puking. Have been coughing since December last year, you see... So it's a cause for concern. I visited the doctor last night and she said I have bronchitis/early stage of asthma. My lungs (is is lungs?) are clogged up or something.. Since I have been in contact with family members who had tuberculosis (TB) before, there was a possibility that I could get TB. So I was required to go for an x-ray and return to the clinic again on Friday night or Saturday morning.

Now I'm on medication for bronchitis >.<

1.	The results of your application are as follows:
			Posted Institution	:	ANGLO-CHINESE JUNIOR COLLEGE
			Course Name	:	ANGLO-CHINESE JUNIOR COLLEGE (SCIENCE)
			Course Code	:	22S
	2.	If you are posted to a JC/MI, please report to the JC/MI on 20 Feb 2008 at 7.30 a.m.. If you are posted to a Polytechnic/ITE, an enrolment package with the relevant enrolment details will be sent to you.
	3.	If you wish to apply for a transfer to a particular course, you should approach the institution concerned directly. The institution concerned will inform you of the outcome of your application.

Am I happy with my posting? AM I? Seriously, I dunno.. haha. But since the cut-off point is lowered and I'm still at the college of my first choice, I'll just thank God and live as it is. AC then AC lor. Just make the most out of everything!! Same goes to friends who took their O levels in 2007.. I'm sure God has great plans for everyone of us!

Some photos now, we ponned science practical yesterday to go for lunch at Pizza Hut at Kovan
It was my FIRST TIME skipping a lesson ok. I am disgusted by my own actions. But we really didn't see any point in going for the 2-hr class.. not like she was going to teach anyway. One thing for sure, this will not happen in the future! 1S26 girls all the way!

We went back to school for PE lesson because we love our PE teacher Ms Ng. =D Netball wasn't this exciting back in sec 2! 1S25 girls you were a fun bunch of people to be with... too bad we only REALLY talked on the last lesson ..Not many people turned up today.. ah well. 1s26, LOVE Y'ALL HEAPS ALTHOUGH WE NEVER GO CLASS OUTING AT ALL HAHAHA. Derek go plan leh...
Finally to Daniel and Ken... (honoured or not? I mentioned the 2 of you leh!)
Will y'all stop being so retarded on MSN? Get a LIFE man! But haha it's your retardedness which hypes things up. Nice talking to you two today!

God bless, people!

lost in emotion

The whole PAE thing is coming to an end... and it's only now that I realise how much I love 1S26.
I don't want this to sound too cheesy, but that's how it is!
My class is really interesting, you'll see its people with completely different characteristics.
Some are the loud and outspoken kind, while others prefer to sit quietly and watch.
Otherwise known as 'hiding' in their own shells and being restricted to their own bubble, or unwilling to step out of their comfort zone, of which I will not point out who.

[edited Feb 18, 7:25PM] Wah got so many grammatical errors!!! [/edit]


We haven't had an official class outing yet.. We did plan to go to East Coast Park, however, due to poor response, that day's outing was cancelled at the eleventh hour.
I am trying to make my class to either go for dinner together on Monday after our PE, or go for lunch after our dismissal on Tuesday.

TUESDAY IS MY LAST DAY IN SR!! =(

I didn't know Jolene was so vulgar until yesterday. Being exhausted, I rested my head on my arms which were folded on the the canteen table. Ok, I took a short nap. I was then woken up by JOLENE TAN cos' of her F words... Really, I'm sensitive to these words!! She was talking to dunno who and who, then the F words shot out from her mouth (she was sitting beside me). I decided I could not bear it and whacked her with my book soon after. Oops.

Valerie (Tan) is vulgar too.. I don't know how I put up with her crude words for so long! She's a lot more vulgar and fiercer than Jolene. Scary!

Sorry, but I just cannot tolerate such things!


We hated GP, or rather, we hated the GP teacher until we had the short series of debates. The first one was on a topic of homosexuals being allowed to marry, the most heated debate out of the 3 we had. Derek and Germayne were comical to a certain extent, the way they argued their point across was absolutely hilarious. The second motion was about abortion being banned or something like that, and in my opinion was the most peaceful debate ever. The third and final debate o was about promiscuity being unacceptable outside marriage. I would say that the topic was vague (many scenarios for "outside marriage") and difficult for the opposition team. Jolene and I were the proposition for this one, obviously we won the debate hands-down. It was no easy feat for the opposition team. I mean how can anyone say promiscuity is acceptable outside marriage? It's not even acceptable INside the marriage, what more outside?

Anyway, halfway during the debate, we went slightly out of point and all.. Germayne and Darius agreed that sex was their food, something like they can't live without it. I was horrified la!! Like omg now we know what lies beneath their innocent faces.

Today, I mean.. yesterday, the bio lecturer sped through the topic of biochemistry of carbohydrates. She covered the entire topic within TWO short lectures! It's no wonder that I'm not catching any ball (haha) and Yasmin got so bored she slept throughout the lectures. Hearing the lecturer's voice for a long period of time will seriously bore one to sleep.

I'M SO SLEEPY NOW I'M DRIFTING INTO DREAMLAND!

belated birthdays

ohmyshit, how could I forget this....

happy belated birthdays to the 17-yr-olds,

Priscilla Luo
Goh Jia Li
Darius Wong!!!!

CNY photos

I'm so sleepy... Spent slightly more than an hour on the log and ln thing, re-did the examples given in the lecture notes and tutorial. I CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY SAT DOWN TO READ THROUGH. Cos' I haven't been studying and revising. It's just (1) step into the house after school ---> (2) plop on the sofa for a nap ---> (3) dinner ---> (4) bathe ---> (5) piano ---> (6) turn on the computer. Luckily we have biblegateway.com =D which makes things easier sometimes.


On Saturday morning, Hilary, Chelsie and I went to Fiona's house for CNY visiting.
Hilary FORGOT TO BRING ORANGES. What a joke. HAha. Fio's mum kept telling the former off for not being a good host -.- I think she's very good already lor!
And then Xi Ying, Fiona, Hil and I went to Hil's house. Her mum prepared lunch for us! Meals at Hi's house are always something to look forward to, I don't really like to eat rice with small portions of veggies e-v-e-r-y s-i-n-g-l-e day for e-v-e-r-y m-e-a-l. Of course, there was the cam-whoring! I was so afraid that I'd be late for worship prac.. But Hil's dad gave me a lift to church so I wasn't late in the end. Like, woah, go to her house bai nian get ang pao eat lunch still got her dad to drive me to church... HIL'S FAMILY IS TOO KIND!
Andy Quek led worship so yes Jia Yan and I strained our voices to suit his voice range. This guy is somewhere between a tenor and counter-tenor.

I blogged about the sermon and some extra stuff, about what happened after service but I made that post private =)


The next day, Sunday, slightly more than half the cell group went to Joe's house to bai nian. We stayed there from 4 plus all the way till night, playing games like taboo, warewolf and homo! Homo.. I think it's spelled like that. Joe's 2 dogs are a good source of entertainment xD they're so cute!! Iris didn't bring her oranges -.- and she totally freaked out when the dogs ran around the house. Most of the photos are with Jacelyn, we're all waiting for that woman to upload them! Haha. I only have these:
We'll look nicer if we point our toes, lol
This is our my last week in SRJC... =( I'll miss the college!!

persie yang

Persie; hope that you love me says:
if it's empty
Persie; hope that you love me says:
put my face in the frame
Persie; hope that you love me says:
: )
joyce lost in emotion says:
OMG
joyce lost in emotion says:
I THINK THE FRAME WILL BREAK
Persie; hope that you love me says:
no
Persie; hope that you love me says:
it will sparkle


sparkle, my foot!!!

Piano exam

The thought of next month's piano exam sends chills down my spine. This will be my last practical exam IF I manage to pass it, IF I decide not to move on to a diploma.

For now, I MUST stop playing external pieces!! I MUST practice my scales diligently EVERY day until 4 March! I MUST keep practicing for my aural! I MUST practice the 3 pieces (Scarlatti's Sonata in A minor, Kp 175; Clementi's Allegro con spirito: first movement from Sonata in G mionr, Op 7 No. 3; Martinu's The Puppets' Dance) till they sound perfect when it comes to accuracy of notes, dynamics, expressions, pedaling, accents/slurs/phrasing, and interpretation of the pieces!

Darn it.. Joyce, STOP PLAYING EXTERNAL PIECES UNLESS YOU ARE PRACTICING YOUR SIGHT-READING SKILLS!!!!

Just Let Me Say

Just Let Me Say
Geoff Bullock

Key: F

Verse 1:
             F      C/E    Dm   Dm/C
Just let me say how much I love You
       Bb/C           Bb       C    F/D  C/E
Let me speak of Your mercy and grace
             F          C/E            Dm  Dm/C
Just let me live in the shadow of Your beauty
       Bb/C    Bb      C  C/Bb
Let me see You face to face
         Am                      Dm             Dm/C
And the earth will shake as your Word goes forth
         Bb/G       Bb/F        C/E  F/D  C
And the heavens can tremble and fall
           F       C/E    Dm    Dm/C
But let me say how much I love You,
       Bb         C         F
Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend


Verse 2:
Just let me hear Your finest whispers
As You gently call my name
And let me see Your power and Your glory
Let me feel Your Spirit's flame
Let me find You in the desert
'Til this sand is holy ground
And I am found completely surrendered
To You, my Lord and Friend


Verse 3:
So let me say how much I love You
With all my heart I long for You
For I am caught in this passion of knowing
This endless love I've found in You
And the depth of grace, the forgiveness found,
To be called a child of God
Just makes me say how much I love you,
O my Savior, my Lord and Friend

©1993 Word Music, Inc. (Admin. by Word Music Group, Inc.)
All rights reserved. International copyright secured.
CCLI song #1406413

My Music Education

2007 was a year of tears and much unhappiness for me, o level music wise.
There were many instances whereby I felt so close to giving up. I wanted to simply drop the subject and forget about it. It was demoralising, especially when I failed my mid-year music exam. I remember myself crying like shit because it was like, music was my second best subject in sec 3 and I actually FAILED it.

But no, I didn't drop music. I had plans to absent myself for the music practical and listening paper though. Plans which were not carried out in the end. Music, being an additional subject, was a burden which I had to lug with me until O's were over. All that chionging during the O level period will always remain fresh in my mind, haha. We would torture our fellow PL lites by making them put up with our horrendous playing (the Brahms duet!) which was put on 'repeat' mode. It was outright stressful. While everyone else was busy studying for their science/maths/humanities, we had an extra music on our shoulders. I dunno about the other OLM-ers, but that definitely stretched me to the max.

Turned out that all the sweat and tears paid off.. An A2 was printed on my result slip for music =D Praise God.

Now what?

My grade 8 practical is less than a month away. Another round of stress is settling in. My scales are still so screwed, aural is just crap, and my 3 exam pieces aren't sounding good either. * Sigh* I really want to get at least a merit! For ONCE! My grade 4 to 7 exams were merely passes!

I will draw out a plan soon. For now, just keep disturbing my neighbours! Practice for a minimum of 2 hours a day! They are suay to have me as a neighbour. Well... Too bad =P When will I ever get a silent piano?!



I need a maths tutor. I don't understand a thing of what's going on in lectures! And that's just H1 maths. Do I suck, or is the lecturer speeding like a bullet train?

Clission partly Clacomplished

I'll just say, if not for Germayne, I wouldn't have noticed... ...
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I feel accomplished =)
During band today Wen Yi taught me some fingerings for the clarinet.
And I managed to finger more than 2 octaves! Thank You Jesus! (i said 'finger' and not play because I can't hit the high notes yet.) It was only my 3rd or 4th time touching a woodwind instrument.. and the sound I tried to produce was steadier than last week's. *pats myself on the back* I felt so lousy during the other band sessions because I struggled S O M U C H to just produce a SOUND.

AGAIN leh...


J.L. Mental Crash - I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried.. says:
dun worry la..
J.L. Mental Crash - I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried.. says:
AC wun be that bad..
J.L. Mental Crash - I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried.. says:
bored can sms me..
joyce lost in emotion says:
LOL
joyce lost in emotion says:
you better pay attention in sch
J.L. Mental Crash - I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried.. says:
anyway got swimmin pool.. can check out all the hot guys..
joyce lost in emotion says:
tsk tsk
joyce lost in emotion says:
ya la can feast my eyes -.-
J.L. Mental Crash - I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried.. says:
yum yum..
J.L. Mental Crash - I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried.. says:
lol..
joyce lost in emotion says:
too bad cannot 'eat'
J.L. Mental Crash - I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried.. says:
lol..
J.L. Mental Crash - I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried.. says:
so easy go seduce one.. make him urs.. then can eat liao..


FYI Jace, that's my first OGL.. lols.

JAE Application

I don't know what's gotten into me, I don't feel like mugging at all!! Argh.

After much hemming and hawing, I finally made up my mind...
(in order of choices)

1) ACJC Science
2) SRJC Science (so I can still appeal back there)
3) SAJC Science
4) AJC Science
5) NYJC Science
6) NP Accountancy
7) TP Accounting and Finance
8) SP Accountancy
9) TP Aviation Management and Services
10) NP Pharmacy Science
11) NP Environmental and Water Technology
12) NYP Accountancy and Finance