the empty space

This Fasion's clothes are so different from last time..
Half the shop changed its clothes.
Waah.
I overheard 2 people saying that it was good.

I make 6 happy, and leave 1 (impt one) disappointed.
Sigh, do I look like I have a choice?

got this feeling you're avoiding me...

when i am dry you fill my cup

in search for answers to her why's

I think I had more than 10 carrot sticks for breakfast.
Plus a huge cup of grass jelly.
So full sia. But actually can eat more one..
Fiona and Xi Ying ate so little!
Still waste the cup of 'lemon juice'!

I don't like the idea of home room in PL...
This year, with 3 banded subjects, a lot of time was wasted in between lessons.
Travelling time.
Not to mention teachers who drag lessons and 'eat' into the next period.
The next teacher becomes unhappy.
And they get angry when noisy people walk past the classroom.
The noise level increases next year, no doubt about that.
Whatever la... More time will be wasted too.
Important year some more.
But we should look at the bright side I guess...
Uhm, that we're different from other schools?

I went to church hoping to complete some chinese homework.
Ended up sleeping on the table for 1 hr -.-
Then woke up to write a quarter of the bao zhang bao dao thing.
Not very productive... went back at 6pm.

self-deceit... sums it all. the frustrations.. the doubts... seriously, what's the use of avoiding the truth? i'm sure this isn't pms. i'm not entering depression zone again, no. the situation gets downhill... here at my side. i don't know why i've been persevering. can i just say goodbye? some things/people are better off without me anyway. masks don't work all the time. make-up is temporary. so is this. i saw through it, but i'm not sure if i'm right. or am i just being paranoid? i am so confused. so, so confused and lost in thought. i wanna scream my frustrations out or bang out on the piano. but look at the time. haiz. i want answers... there are loads more question marks trapped inside me, but the lack of privacy does not permit me to go on. can i cry out? but how can crying help? (if anyone's intelligent enough to hilight the words and discovers this... my one request is for you to refrain from bringing this up. thanks for reading my blog anw.)
What a nice way to end the year. Absolutely... fabulous.

chiong ah!!!

Yes, it's the chionging season.
Rush homework lor, what else...
After helping with the music room stuff tomorrow, I will either go to the church's pantry to do homework, or go somewhere and do it with Sheevonne.

Lord Jesus, I've watched the news...
Please protect east Asia, east and southeast,
from natural disasters..
The people are suffering...

Tag replies
[ivan] haha, then good! don't flood!
[Janice] yeah yours is v sweeeeeeeet! =)
[smarties] haha yea i didn't expect that much also. thought only like 4 or 5.
[Shepherd] it's Aaron! that time i msged him for the QT thing he also didn't reply! haha.

twelve days of Christmas

This post is going to be long. Detailssss...
Pris please scroll all the way down, I've uploaded a picture specially for you.

First of all, thank you all for your smses and tags and testimonials and presents!!!
Who can forget the ULTIMATE...
Thank You Jesus for coming down as a human being..
To die so that we can have life everlasting...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS! =D

These are the presents I received this weekend..
Like woah thanks so much people!
This is a lot to me. Dunno about others.
Haha I don't care about others man.
And I super like the handmade ones...
Like the bib (Janice- that's frigging nice!), bracelet (Pris- it's on the dog so can't really see), green candle (Tim- it's lovellllly), "laminated" yellow thing (Smarties- not bad la hur), laminated picture of mushrooms (Kai Wei- he really drew and coloured it himself! but it's last min), straw thingy (Abigail- hidden somewhere in the pic lol.)

25th Dec, Monday

I was at Yu Ting's house yesterday morning for lunch, her parents cooked a lot of food...
But I could only stay for awhile, had to go down to Ang Mo Kio to meet the two.
I will give them their presents next year. Next week I mean. To Yu Ting, Jie Xin, Wen Qin.. haha.
This is Wen Qin's sister, Wen Qi -.-So cute.

So I took 25 towards Bedok and didn't know. Lame sia.
Then alighted halfway and crossed the road and cabbed there instead.
$5.90 ok so expensive. Still have extra charge $1.
Heartland area, wear until so nice a BIT weird ah...
Haha so, Tim was the last to reach. Nothing unusual =P
Sat down to drink, talk, open presents, talk, talk, take retard pics and said bye.
Already commented about their presents in h so there isn't a need to repeat..

Then at night I just wanted to stay at home la, my parents and sibs went to J8.
I thought they were going to watch Eragon so I didn't tag along.
But WALAUUUU, they watched NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM!
I so wanted to watch that ok!
And what made it worse was,
the bloggers seemed to have ganged up to watch it together!
Means so many people watched it and said it was nice somemore luh.
Make me jealous only. Lols. Why bloggers? Read blogs mah.

24th December, Sunday

Was late for the Christmas service!
10.30am leh. haha!
The sanctuary was packed!!
There were many salvations too... =)
Managed to give out all the presents except for ANDREW's. hah.
Then lunched at Yoshi with Jace the monster and talked about her friends who came for LE...

Uncle Jimmy and family was at my house when I reached home.
I saw them in church, like so surprising. But glad they were there la.
Then his family and mine went to Vivo to meet up with others, uncles Harry Frankie David and Charles.
All my dad's ex-classmates. Haha.
(hey current friends, we must also have gathering like that 10-20 years down the road ok. wahahahs. all the families)
By the time everybody came it was 9 plus already la.
Late late late.
I hate to admit this.. I forgot the names of uncle David's kids. (fine it's 2 teens 1 kid)
I know his wife is auntie Janet. But so pai seh I didn't even dare to ask for their names la!!!
Their eldest daughter is 3-4 years older than me i think.. and she was at LSBC's Love Letter. And she saw me and I saw her but we didn't recognise each other -.- she was invited by a classmate, I forgot to ask who. Darn.
So anyway. 6 families. Super big group making lots of noise.
Sat around and chit-chat while I stoned with some others.
Childhood friends, yes, but Ronnie and I aren't talking and I dunno why. Lol.
He's 16, and he's like not talking to the others also?? I think.
Whatever la. Don't talk lor. Haha. I also don't want to initiate cos' there's nothing to talk about.
His younger sisters are very attatched to me though.. P6 and P5.

Did a lot of catching up with Shi Ling (sec 2).
We actually have alot in common haha..
So basically I just talked to her for the entire night la.

Vivo was so damn PACKED ok...
Like wowness sia.
We happened to be outside, near the sea there when midnight struck.
People sprayed the foamy stuff from 3rd floor lor.
So-called SNOW. Which has caused alot of unhappiness, if you watched the news.
Crowded like anything. I bet the orchard area was worse.

My phone ran out of battery halfway, so when I got it charged,
woah the smses just started coming in. Hahah. Slept at 4am i think.

23rd December, Saturday

Love Letter was great! The musical was superb.
The cast, dancers and behind-the-scenes people put in lots of effort.
Most importantly, God was there on Saturday and there was a number of salvations!
Same as Sunday! Praise God can...
Thank Him for giving us good weather.
And that it wasn't like last year, I didn't see anyone walk out when Melvin went to take over the mic.
Joshua's birthday card was quite rushed cos' I suddenly remembered it was in my bag... supposed to let the cell sign it. hah.
Oh oh and I'm SO glad Xi Ying came!!! Although she only came for the service part..
Well she still made an effort to come and it's appreciated.

Back to the musical, you know I almost cried when I saw (Elizabeth) the mother crying for her son, and when the son Li Xiao Long (Nd) cried when he received the news that his mum's dead.
Because that shows God is always there for us, loving us like the mother but sometimes we just forget about Him and drift away.
Then He calls us back gently but we ignore Him. Just like Xiao Long.
Yet this wonderful God will never die like the mother did, and He is ever ready to forgive us if we repent.
Our God is a merciful and compassionate God! Say "amen".
We don't realise it but sometimes we are just like Xiao Long in the musical... failing to see how much God loves us.

As for the fiesta, our cell did the sausage and cheese booth with Jon Neo/John Ho's.
We rock can.
Haha. I took 2 pics of the people at work... Not very clear. If you see yourself there, tag! If you don't, just tag also! hahahaI was pretty sian, stand there and cut cheese for 1 hour. hahas.
Jacelyn washed almost all the stuff you know!
Thank you so much girl. Wahahah.
Thank everyone for making this event a success, and above all, thank God that He was present.
Haha I know la, God is always here. Still...

=) =) =) =) =) =) =)

Ok so TODAY, or rather, YESTERDAY, (26th dec)
woke up early to play the pieces from the Phantom of the Opera!
Yes my mummy bought the scores for me, like finally!!!!
Haha. I still need the grade 8 piano exam CD for year 2007-2008, but that's outta point.

Jammed with Priscilla and her friend Benaiah (drums), and his friend James (bass).
That James is super quiet and somewhat shy, omg worse than me leh!
Hahahahaha.
And he's a proooo. Haha. Though not as pro as some bassists I know of...
Benaiah is UNCLE DANIEL LIM's nephew! Super omg.
And he's Linus' cousin.
So according to him uncle Daniel is going to be the youth pastor. Hmmm.
He remembers Boon Yeow and Faith and Zach... O_O
Wow Singapore is really so small... it's scary...
Like uncle Daniel is his uncle, Alekx was Tim's ex-classmate and good friend, that uncle David's daughter's classmate is in our church (that's why she was there), my neighbour is an SI reject featured on TV, etc! I can't remember for now.
SINGAPORE IS SO SMALL AND COOL.
Weather's quite bad you know. ooh the rain has stopped! rejoice.

Yeah so we jammed at Fourtones which rarely had rooms available.
Surprisingly! Haha. Or maybe it's because we booked early.
The jam was. Hmm alright. A bit better than usual but still around 'ok'. heh.
I ended up as vocalist cos' the keyboard could not be heard and the other eguit amp wasn't working.
Dunno head or cabinet.
Walau I'm backup vocals wan lor then ask me to sing lead..
Anyway.
Could see some not v happy faces? hurh.
Wasn't able to do what I tell myself to do.
Play and sing for God. Haha. No feeling mah.
I hope the jam later with Smarties and George would be better...
Tried jamming with them once and it was not bad.

What am I doing, jamming and jamming and jamming.
Need more butter.

Haizzzz I think the Day is REALLY approaching.
Look what kind of present nature gave to Asia.
Earthquakes fires floods tsunami fog.
Yea a 1m tall tsunami might hit the Philippines.
It's just not right.
I watched the news with horror.
Oh wells, just hope everything's alright over at Thailand.
Please come home safely!
Reallllllllly have to thank God for protecting us...
Singapore is so small, anything could happen.
God gave us a good government who gave us a good drainage system..
A good everything actually. Which is constantly upgrading and improving.
We could have ended up like the Johor.
If not for the drain thing.
If not for God. hahah.

Look at the picture below and seeeeee, the dew points.
It was a lot more distinct when I saw them LIVE.
This was taken a few weeks back (from the car) when I went to JB.
Water vapour condenses when it reaches dew point, so there you have it.
Clouds with super distinct dew points.

Oh yeah. We live in Singapura.
RACISM IS NOT TOLERATED.
Thank you.

Omg this post is super long.
I took super long to type this too.

Ok now this is the picture.
THE photo.SORRY XIAO QIANG
You had to be killed.
You're just not welcome in my house you know.

we will respect your decision.. it will seem awkward at first, but after awhile, it will be ok. you better not keep it from Faith. tell her. have any probs, we're always here =)

grow up

Sometimes Lord I forget Your unconditional love, that which none can replace. I really want to draw closer to You as the days pass... the Day is approaching...


Oh Lord You’ve searched me,
You know my way;
Even when I fail You,
I know You love me.

Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season,
I know You love me;
I know You love me.

At the cross I bow my knee,
Where Your blood was shed for me,
There’s no greater love than this.
You have overcome the grave,
Your glory fills the highest place,
What can separate me now?

You go before me,
You shield my way,
Your hand upholds me;
I know You love me.

And when the earth fades,
Falls from my eyes,
And You stand before me,
I know You love me;
I know You love me.

You tore the veil, You made a way
When You said that it is done.


Did some homework with Janice today at macs..
Better than staying at home, cos' I know I won't do anything.
Haha.
Janice joined Joey and I for tuition!
Which was quite ok, lol.
Loo Yee couldn't be with us today cus' she was sick...
gaaaah.. get well soon my dear girl!
You have to play host to your friends tomorrow so better be around!
And so sorry Kai Wei, but I really couldn't accompany you.
No money. And I needed the time for piano...
It's getting tougher you see. Yeahs.

Simon's keeping me in suspense and I ain't liking it!
Hurry tell me...

You know the 9 o'clock show, bai wan bao?
It's getting more exciting. Hahah..
Must watch ok! [I want xiaobao and malu to be tgt!]
(-.- malu = road = embarrassing)
It's damn funny.


I've wasted six freaking bucks okay.
SIX. wth...
At least Xi Ying the Great is coming...
Six dollars gone just like that.

homework

Went to Priscilla's house today.
Was at popular before that, and I desperately looked around for a familiar face, cos' i lost my card and needed to borrow one.
When I saw George and Cheng Wee,
my light bulb lighted up -_-
BUT NEITHER HAD THE CARD! =(
So yeah, no discount lor.
And I owe Pris money.
And I also remember, I owe Tim 10 bucks.
Urgh I SO want the $150 from the Good Progress Award so that I can pay off my debts!!!!
But can't get it until school reopens.
Best lor, only 15 and I'm a potential target for loan sharks.
The good thing is,

I don't gamble or go to arcades =)

Funny how I get all tensed up when reminded of O'levels, yet no part of me has the urge to complete the damn homework.
Tomorrow.
It's tomorrow or never. This time, serious!
I NEED TO FINISH UP MY HOMEWORK!!!!!
Why did I agree to jam with Priscilla's friends hur.
I'm not that good with bass... they (pris and her friend, my new friend Benaiah) made a mistake la, asked wrong person.
Sigh when will I learn how to say "no"?


----
Since this person (-glares-) already blogged about it, why shouldn't I?
But I'm only commenting about one small part of it, and I'm not naming anyone.
Up to you if you want to reveal yourself haha.

SOME PEOPLE hor, (first time go to Ben & Jerry's,)
SHARE MIX AND MATCH WITH YOU STILL NO GOOD ARH.
STILL SIT THERE AND CHASE ME AND ASK ME TO HURRY UP.
Not my fault right! The person took awhile to scoop wad...
By right you being GUYS should be the one ordering and I should be sitting there lor!
(often heard at leadership camps,)
"where's the initiative???" hahahah.
At least after that SOMEONE went to take water and not me.
Lols.

Actually I still want to say more BUT, since it's public and SOME PEOPLE might not be happy, I'll stop here. Unless the SOME PEOPLE think I should blog it la. Wahahahs.

sun after dark clouds

THIS POST made the msn convo DISAPPEAR!
Muahahahhas....
Mr. Lu, I still remember what you said. Even tho' you might not.
PLEASE LEARN HOW TO IDENTIFY FICTON FROM FACT.
LOLS.

People, your Christmas presents are driving me nuts ok.
Don't say "eeeee, so cheapo" when you receive them.
Cause, because of this,
I owe my maid $10, and
I owe Loo Yee $8.
Thanks hur!
And now I'm going to owe my younger siblings money cos' I need to borrow from them to buy something.. a 'compulsory item'...

I have 2 extra tickets for (L)(E), or Love Letter!
This Saturday, 23rd December
Attire: Smart Casual
Ticket: $3 per person
4pm: Fiesta (oooh fun fun fun!) at L1 MPH
5-6.30pm: Musical + short service

Ok la, you come,
I GIVE YOU THE OPTION TO PAY ME $3 FOR THE TIX OR JUST TAKE IT AT NO CHARGE.
Well, if you're nice enough, you'll pay because I have liabilities...
But see here, I'M nice enough to let you take the ticket and go for free even though I'm broke like shit.
You hardly see this kind of offer around wan hor!

[edited to add]
Jacelyn and I were preparing the stuff at Hougang Mall's KFC..
And goodness we attracted A LOT of attention la.
That's how fame is like. You get people staring.
Ahahahah ok I'm kidding, you know I am.
Yah then I glanced at the people walking outside, then saw this super familiar person.
The face, the hair, the height...
Desmond. -.-
No mistake cos' he still looks the same after 8 months.
Lol.. This girl still can say, "Who? Your father ah?"
-Faints- Haha.
[/edited to add]

Walau eh, YOU are going to get me into trouble la...
It will come soon.

Piano teacher's making me lose confidence...

well, if you're lucky, =)

Gawsh
This has to be more than just seasonal rain.
Today I got myself wet again.
So did my precious PL jacket and my shorts O_O
This caused flooding in some parts of Singapore, and according to the news, ... ... ...
It looked like another country. I mean how often do you see our country flooded?
Almost never.
Yet the broadcaster said S'pore had worse weather than this.
Rain has it's pros and cons.
Very soon, we'll start wishing for rain.

There was yet another earthquake in Indonesia.
And China's aids problem isn't improving.
Why does the news seem to be filled with bad ones?
I think I'm such a loyal channel 8 supporter, I watch both her drama and news -_-"
And I want to watch the Good Morning Singapore too...
The one on the sailors coming back after Asiad.

8 golds... 5 were by the sailing squad.
I think they can bring back an Olympic medal in 2 years!
Haha they better do that..

"After winning the bulk of Singapore's record haul of eight golds, SingaporeSailing are now the model for all other national sports associations (NSAs). "
-CNA

I feel like watching The Holiday and Night at the Museum!
But, crappp,
no time and no money. Pffffft.
All my money will go to the Christmas presents which I'm getting with Jacelyn tomorrow.
Money. Hate it (for running out so fast) or love it.

northeast monsoon rain

It has been raining non-stop...
I got slightly wet yesterday.
And got stuck in church this morning until my maid came with an umbrella.
Don't stand near a road where there are oncoming vehicles in a heavy rain.
Unless you like getting drenched.


Yea I'm still happy from last night's (short =( ) conversation.
Or should I say.. early this morning?
You seem to know my thoughts...?
And did it.
=)

hope that that "you" doesn't come here... haha.
it's happy dreaming for me..

... a yamaha silent piano..

it's funny, how you made me smile...
for the first time in HOURS..
but you won't know it...
hint: time of posting

[edited to add]
i was thinking of _______'s reaction and the hate list as time crawled, hours before this post.
[/edited to add]

it couldn't get more obvious

hmmm...
Perhaps he's right.
Maybe "insensitive" is the word.
But nah.. who am I to judge?

today's proper blogpost will be posted somewhere else.

24 hours? too short

I take back what I said in the previous post. It will not be edited. zzz.

WARNING: don't read if you get bored easily.
my fingers are itchy so it will keep moving until the itch stops. which will be the end of the post.

Today (Sunday) is like such a long day can...
Nah actually it's both Saturday and Sunday.
I don't think my cell members will read la, and anyway from now onwards I need to be more careful about what I blog.
So I'll just say what I/we did.
It's going to be BORING.
Just feel like blogging like this, so here goes.

I woke up at 11am on Sat morning.
Slacked, lunched, took a bath, ... ... went for Youth Ablaze.
Uncle William's word was vvvvvery good.
[Oh BY THE WAY, my father's also called William Tan, but when the adults ask me who's daughter I am and I answer them, they don't go "Woah he married twice ah?" You know what I mean la.]
No cell discussion but it didn't really make a difference.
Rehearsed for the caroling.
Sang at 207 (a room in church).
Joe drove all of us to block 603 for 2nd round of caroling.
[BY THE WAY (again), it's not "carolling" cos' I looked up the dictionary, there's only one L.]
Dinner, where this boy (or should I say guy) joined us. The name's Benjamin.
Went down to J8 without Ivan =(, Kee L..?? however it's spelt -.- Kaye lah =(, and Smarties.
Joe drove the girls (Loo Yee, SophiaS, Clarissa, me) there while the guys (Daryl, Aaron, Kai Wei, Andrew, Joshua, Ben) cabbed there.
zzzzzz. Played some game and talked to Ben about God.
The chocolate joined us.
We bought popcorn and coke and nachos and all.
SophiaS and I shared a B&J's combo! Cookie dough. Whoooooots (shared among almost all of us so you can imagine all the saliva. -shivers- plus I was the one who finished the last bit so I tasted everyone's deposited salivary amylases. yucks man.)
Watched Deja Vu at 11.45pm. Yes, PM.
We split, Joe drove Clarissa, Daryl and Aaron back.
My dad drove the rest back.
Home sweet home at 3am.
Knocked off at 4am.

10.15am, woke up.
Msged 3 people to make sure they're awake.
Got missed call from Daryl -.- then Joe called to check.
Waited for Loo Yee aka Jacelyn aka Monster at the foyer.
(Cos' I don't like to go in alone so I thought maybe she feels the same)
Worship, communion, sermon. Which was quite ok la. Fine it was more than just 'ok', haha.
Fixed the puzzle thing for QT.
Went to PS with Jace and Janice, did a lot of catching up with Jan.
Lunched at Mos B. Super filling.
Walked round and round the place and into shops then out again. Lols.
(love going out with 'em)
Left at 5 plus, almost 6pm.
Got home and rested for awhile.
Went out again to some restaurant near Raffles Place.
With grandparents (father's side) + my family + 1st uncle's family (incl 2 out of 3 cousins) + 3rd uncle (single. no family)
Super nice + full dinner to celebrate my grandparents' birthday.
haha.
Everyone was happy. So we went home.
Reached home at 11pm.

How very tiring.
I was sooooooo elated when Ryan said today's tuition cancelled can.

I think readers zzzz-ed halfway thru' the post. Wahahahhs. Anyway I'm gonna continue.

Did I make Joe sound like our driver?
Whoops. Haha. It wasn't intentional.
Thanks for driving us around though!
Santa claus came to town!

I broke 2 records.
One - Went home early (REAL early) in the morning without getting scolded or nagged at. Hahahah for once sia.
Two - Watch more than 1 movie (in the cinema) in a month!

We were all so high la.
Or should I say... I was high? Oh wells.
But it's so sad that Pam, Kev, Ivan, KL, KT, Santi couldn't join us!

About Deja Vu...
It wasn't as good as I expected.
Was like, copying the Time Turners in the Harry Potter series lor.
The HP nuts will know. And it probably bored 2 pigs off to sleep.
Beside Jacelyn and me.
(Not SophiaS! who was between us. ahhaahhaah)
It's Kai Wei and Smarties. Ok la Smurfy wasn't as bad, he slept a bit only. [i heard the Astroboy really zzzz-ed! LOLS. waste money]

My dad is like o_O.
Woah... I myself didn't expect him to really wake up at 2am to drive 7 people home.
Thank you daddyyyyyyy.
The seven are from Senkang (Astro, Helmet, Monster), 603 (Ben), 112 bus stop (Emo), near Auntie Kwee Choon's house (Smurf, Sop)

My mother said some things.
1. 8 salvations at 603 [but the msged passed around said 6?]
2. Ben's ma is a Christian. [God must be working. Seeing that she allows him to follow us. Realllly hope that he'll join us!]
3. BF guys are "very good", ... she "asked one very cute and good-looking one" to go and talk to Ben (prolly the movie thing) and the whole group went. [OMG WHO IN THE CELL IS SHE REFERRING TO LA. have "cute" and "good-looking" meh? pls note the quotation marks ok! is she say wan, not me.]

Gosh Jace you're right blogging can be hard cos' of the remembering of names.

My fingers are still itchy, so I shall go on.

JOANNE LIM is so funny can!!! Crapping with her on MSN..

I'll continue blabbling somewhere else lah later the post get too long then you complain. muaahahahahs.

*yawns*

why am i online?
i should be sleeping right?
need to go for service wan leh!
take out my lenses, brush teeth, pray, zzz...

i will definitely edit this post. haha

my mum said there were eight, 8 salvations at the 603 block party!
praise God man! yayyy.

{one person makes a lot of difference}

yoohooooooo

Happy Birthday Kevin (See)!!!!

Never play tic-tac-toe with him for a long time already!
Gahhh, I miss owning him in the games. Haha.

I missed the sec 4 farewell!! =(

Guess what
I have so many things to do:

1) ALL the holiday assignments [that's almost hell]
2) get ALL the tuition homework done [believe it or not, i'm already preparing for chinese o's, thanks to my oh-so-kiasu tutor]
3) perfect (or at least play up to my piano teacher's standard) the grade 8 scales and The Puppet's Dance [headache]
4) shop for Christmas presents! [but- alone???]
5) revise on the year's work - all 8 subjects. [10, to be exact.]
6) cut my nails [-.- can't play the piano with long nails]
7) play bass before my bassing gets rusty

Sheeeesh, why didn't I start on homework earlier?!?!
This always happens.
And I tell myself that the next time there's homework, I'll do it earlier.
But noooooo. Humph.
School + tuition assignments = ~!@#$%^&*()_+
Yikes.

Had fun with Priscilla today!
hahahah
The digital camera's an excellent invention.

The trip to Desaru and Austin Hills in JB was a bloody one. (literally)
I couldn't swim, and believe it or not, my sibs swam on all 4 days.
Waiting for them is like ~!@#$%^&* too.
I brought some homework along, hoping to complete at least some but didn't la.
Only revised on the mole concept. -.-

Took this one from the car. Cute right! Lols. Teh monkeh.

Feels as if I haven't been rostered to sing (backup) for ages.
I still have the red mic cover with me. Hur.

Kay la Ling Ying, I give up.
Fret not, I will still put you up as my display picture every now and then =)

The party there, or watchnight service in church?
An unanswered question.
Which no one can answer.

How will my school life be like next month onwards?
How will church be like?
And what about my friends?
Grade 8? Is there time to prepare and take the exam next year?
Will I be more hardworking... or more slack?
More questions.

I'm happy for you =)
Glad you had a good time. I shan't say more.

Christel and Jonathan

ohminefrigginggosh-
Jon has got to be the only one who plays bass with a guitar pick in our church.
And he does it well.
I'm wow-ed.
He's so talented can! Both his acoustic and electric guitaring are already jaw-dropping, and his bassing is also '!!!!!!!!!!!', and and and he can sing!
He and Christel (vvvvvvery good keyboarding and singing and a bit of guitaring) are a perfect match.
Hees I wonder when will wedding bells ring for them?

shopping! (310th post)

Assume today is Friday kay.

Finally got to watch Happy Feet!
Went with Hui Ling and Man Ling (frankly speaking, it's my 1st time out with them)
And for the 1st time, I was early! Wahahahahs.
Usually people have to wait for me.. hehs.

Some quotes here, they're so damn adorable..

[talking to humans]
Mumble: I'm speaking clear penguin!
---
[after Mumble has jumped off a glacier to chase a ship]
Ramón: Man, how're we gonna tell his mama he brought us all the way out here just to kill himself?
---
Gloria: [to Mumble's unhatched egg] Is it empty? Can I have it?
---
Lombardo: What are you gonna do? Subject him to cruel and unusual punishment?
Raul: Unimaginable torture?
Lombardo: Imaginable torture?
Raul: Your singing?
---
Memphis: What's going on there? What are you doing?
Baby Mumble: [tap dancing] I'm happy!
Memphis: What's with your feet?
Baby Mumble: They're happy, too!

And then, omg Man Ling spilled the WHOLE drink (cos' she couldn't aim at the cup holder) and we were laughing our heads off.
Can you see the ice? Haha. Good thing we didn't attract too much attention.

We spent years in This Fasion can, hahahah...
Hui Ling was like the most thrifty, more thrifty than me!
Woah that calls for a celebration.
She bought this skirt from the budget corner,
an entire floor of uber cheap clothes with only a few nice ones.
I happened to look at the jeans.
It's unwearable! I mean it will cover your entire tummy!
Like Mrs W's. Shhh I never say anything. Shush.
We spent $64 in total. Hees. Is that a small or big sum?

Then we walked over to Heeren and Far East.
Just looked around, never buy anything. haha.
Wah we walk until our legs almost gave way.
K la not that bad.
The rest can be read from Man Ling's blog.

I met Yi Jia my buddy today to have lunch at KFC,
not surprisingly, I was 10 mins late. Lol.
Then we bus-ed down to Bugis.
The route was so long la.. zzzzzz.

This girl ah, can spend like there's no tomorrow.
Cannot tell lor! I mean, 4A1 this kind!
Hahaha...
We just kept walking and walking at Bugis Village,
look around, stop, buy, walk, stop, look, walk back to the same place, buy, hesitate, "buy or don't buy?", ... ...
The embarrassing thing about Singaporeans is we bargain and ask for discounts.
I just wonder what goes thru' tourists' minds when they see us. xP
(Yeah and I was bargaining most of the time la. Yi Jia is like, just pay. But hey can save like $2-3!)
In the end she bought 4 tops which cost around $50. zzz.
I bought 2 tops and a bag. $40 plus.

We window shopped a bit at Bugis Junction before taking a bus back.
Man, I'm really going to miss her and the other sec 4s...
=(

OH YA forgot to take photos with HL and ML yesterday!!!! darn.
Then today only took one pic and our faces are so darn big so I will not upload it.

Here's something for you to laugh at.
Tsk tsk. If you're not laughing then I think you need to brush up your English..

well...

i. am. NOT. attatched!!!!!!!!!



































































That's one good source of entertainment.
Just crap along with them.
HAHA. And what do I get in return?
More crap. Lols..

Later in the day, I guess I have to start on homework.
Will be home for the whole day!
Better be more productive.
Then can have fun on Thursday...

From camp...
"Mr Lust": can i have your Lame and your Lumber?
=DD

Tag replies
[Shepherd] Oh ya there's alot of BB camps also rite. Haha, your last min planning was considered good ok! Really must thank Randy and the com for planning everything for us!
[Janice] Yes yes, love you dearrrr! =)
[manling] wheee it's TOMORROW! =) try and persuade ly leh... whole day play maple.
[WANYI] whoops i hope she doesn't see that. or the tag. ahahah. i will be out of Sg la.. not like I don't want to go right! i also want to see Ethel's rabbit lor. but that isn't the last chance!
[sop] haha ok i'll PRAY that he doesn't! yayness. we won a $50 Ben & Jerry's voucher you know... don't know when we're going to use it. lols. i can't wait!

the risky 'game' of life

'Love' is a very complex word. Still...
Allow me to do some shoutouts will you.

I love You Jesus, deep down in my heart, and I thank You for your undying love for me. This love that never ever fails no matter how much I've sinned. This unconditional love, which cannot be found anywhere else. Jesus loves me and I love Him!

I love you still, Priscilla and Timothy, and please take note that the words 'give up' do not exist in my dictionary. That would be the last thing on my mind. And I mean what I say. It's only been a few months but we can say that we're very much together yes? Looking forward to that day... Started prep work already lor. =p Yeah.. I love you both!!!!

My dearest cell group, Joe, Wan Hui, Kevin, Kai Wei, Smarties, Clarissa, Sophia, Loo Yee, Daryl, Kee Teck, Andrew, Aaron, Joshua, Santi, Ivan. Your faces are on the screen of my mp3 player. Our cell photo alone can make me smile even after I feel like I've just lost the battle of the century. You guys make all the difference. I love you!

Handbells- Ethel, Man Ling, Hui Ling, Ling Ying - gosh I dunno how many 'I love you's I need to say to put my point across! Especially after today... Haha. With the flaccid bunny and the meowing sea creatures =D OH and all that laughter.. There's never a dull moment with you girls around!

Handbells- Wan Yi, Yi Jia, Desiree, Lynette, Wen Xin, Rachel, Melissa, Hui Zi -I really don't want you to leave lor! I love you seniors... And then I won't be around for the sec 4 farewell also... So sad. But yeah thanks for all the times together and for your contribution to PL handbells! Plus you were the ones who brought back the Gold with Honours and set the standard for us. We won't let PL down, and we definitely won't let you down! (Mr Fong is proud of our current batch too..)

Other church friends like Ling Jia, Denise, Cheryl, Grace, Janice ... ... ... I love you and together we will grow with the ministry, growing in Christ as well as our faith, and who can forget this: bringing in more people to YA so that the Kingdom of God can grow bigger?!

Xi Ying, Fiona, Jia Yan, Charmaine! Thanks for everything la. Haha. Especially the laughter and the endless crap we're always coming out with. I love you I love you I love you I love you!

I also love those who said 'I love you' to me during the past few days! Haha, oops. I can't really remember who they are.

=)

From Melvin's blog again. I find that his posts are very worth the read.

then at LOS camp, i broke down before God while playing the guitar for the 5pm and 8pm svc.. it was just too overwhelming for me.. usually i concentrate on the worship leader and my playing each time i play e guitar for either YPM or the Main Svc.. however as Uncle Daniel was just preaching and inviting the youths to kneel b4 God and spend an intimate time w Him, my heart began to cry out so much for the Man who gave His life so we cld live blameless and pure lives...

I knew y i was crying so much.. God was fixing my heart.. He was also strengthening it as He knew my heart for ppl.. My passion is to serve ppl... and when i saw every single youth kneeling down, some jus crying out so earnestly, some prostrating face-down on the ground, my heart just gave way..

and today God spoke to me smth that explained to me how we shld lead our lives... A GOD-FEARING LIFE... so often, we go to church, answer the altar call, cry and then feel so 'rejuvenated'.. THEN, the following day, we go back to our usual lifestyles.. scolding vulgar languages, shouting at ppl, being demanding, making use of ppl... then come Fridays or Sundays, we go back to the altar, cry again and the entire cycle begins again.. *tsk tsk*

it certainly is a gd point 2 ponder aei? i'll share more on this pt tml or the day after.. heh cos i need to gather all my thoughts right first.. dun wanna confuse ppl SINCE usually i do sidetrack haha.. ('.')

This part is where I want to point out.

I knew y i was crying so much.. God was fixing my heart.. He was also strengthening it as He knew my heart for ppl.. My passion is to serve ppl... and when i saw every single youth kneeling down, some jus crying out so earnestly, some prostrating face-down on the ground, my heart just gave way..

Uncle Daniel was supposed to preach. He already prepared everything but in the end he didn't, and we had a marvelous time of worship with God instead. And many many got touched. Me included. The holy spirit was just moving among us la, that's how I felt when we were singing the praise songs. PRAISE. Not even the worship songs yet. Something was already different, and I knew God was stirring us and renewing that passion for Him. He spoke to me... I think, because I couldn't stop crying for quite awhile.. Uncle Dan's words just hit me hard and I feel that maybe that was what God wanted to say to me. As for what they were about... I'm not gonna say it here =)

There's much much more stuff 'bout the camp but the second day,
from the skit to the worship right down to the underground church thing was really the best.
It would have been even better if I got 'tortured' for the underground church la..
But Ling, Dee, Dorita, Ben Thia, 2 other guys and I were hiding at such a good spot that the 'red army' didn't spot us.
Don't take for granted the fact that we have the freedom to do preach, worship, pray etc in Singapore.
AND, whatever it is, don't deny Christ. Yes.

I am like sooooooo happy now! It's a happy day! from 8.30am all the way until now, 1.29am.

Tag replies
[sop] hey you coming this sat or not?? the year's coming to an end... =(
[xiying] haha this blogskin is done by hui ling. nice right? thanks alot girl, i'm wayyy better now. actually it wasn't much of an amazing race la, cos' only around church.. plus not enough time. lol. we were super noisy right.
[MRS GERARD WAY and HILLARY] haha your eyes shouldn't be pain now cos' i changed the blogskin!
[fio] heyys! i will reply your testimonial soon ok. wahahahs.
[Shepherd] thanks A LOT for everything. esp the camp games, we all had lots of fun eating bananas and getting humiliated. LOL. how's it like getting squashed on the last day of camp? =P so funny we were all laughing our heads off at you, Randy and the 2 Andys.
[manling and huiling] i can't wait too!!! and HELLO, it's not 7 nov, it's 7 D-E-C-E-M-B-E-R! woah both make the same mistake some more. you best.
[jace] amen to that! nothing is impossible with God! =)
[clarissa] hey thanks, love you too!! as mentioned in the blogpost. HAH it was like duh more tiring for you cos you slept damn EARLY in the morning, for like only 1 or 2 hrs. i had 4. =P yeah we had fun!

Youth Camp 2006

Lover of Our Soul was a blast!

I have so much to say yet I don't feel like saying.
I'll see how it goes. Don't think I'll be blogging about camp..

Some people make me want to go
"awwwwwwwwwwwww" or
"can you not be so sweet? you're freaking me out."

I was one of the earliest to sleep this morning. Hah.
But now... I still need to zzzzzzzzzzz.

away, and mock the time with fairest show

I need to be refreshed.
I yearn to see God once again.
I want to be on fire for Him.
I have to get out of this mess.
I don't care about anything else.

...for now. c'mon joyce. focus. forget the past. look at the future.it's bright and hopeful.

; False face must hide what the false heart doth know.