beach cleaning at ECP with fellow peer lites

God blessed us with good weather. took lotsa photos!



uh, the sky's supposed to be bright.


don't you just love the beach? so relaxing...


rome of the rubbish picked by my(minor)group. was in major group 2..


sand, footprints and my shadow.


peer lites working without supervision. we can be trusted okay!


one,two,three,four,five of us... group B,love y'all!


credits to Nerizza:) for the middle and right dustbins. haha Singapore has so many dustbins,yet people litter and make us poor girls clean up after them...


Dezarae and *Jillian.. WAKE UP SLEEPYHEADS! lol.


went for cca after that. those are 2/3 of my bells. haha.. handbells handbells!

shhh.

don't ask me anything.

not my usual self today.

the thought of aunty Jenni's funeral freaks me out.

another long day

total: 6
six projects this june.

rushed to church after peer lites' meeting for worship practice.

today's youth ablaze service was like cancelled. it was a memorial service for Aunty Jenni... omg we were all like crying so hard, i mean, it's hard to believe that she's really gone to be with the Lord... she did 3 years of work in Kalimantan for God.. then now we see her soul-less body lying there... we love you, aunty Jennifer!

my parents finally got me a line la.. like i've been bugging them since P6 end each time it's the same answer: show me the results. the phone is so different from the old one can...
some people are getting irritated with me,keep changing number... but it's really not me la...
first i was sharing the phone with my mother.. then she complain the bill always overshoot. like hello one month only got 100 sms of course overshoot la...
so she got me a prepaid card,which was like really cannot cos' the value use up very fast. uncontrollable la... one minute 22cents one msg 5cents....
FINALLY FINALLY got a proper line. can msg without worrying already..

Singapore is small. really super small. first when i found out about this, was already like woah woah... and then things progressed and time passed. and then Joey told me about something related to this. omg la! it's so shocking lor... i mean, your own ______mate? and she's _______'s h___? and i thought it was someone else, still okay... but she's from ___ _c__o_! wah.. i need to buy more chill pills....

whatever's going on is none of my business.

homework and projects, here i come!

the jamming. the snipping.

Mrs Wong said that i'm a very responsible girl! when it comes to handbells at least. haha looks like there's hope... i think i rock leh! alot of teachers like me! ok that's so bhb. sec 4 farewell better start planning soon...

results aren't that good. But, quite happy with my position in class =)
A1 - accounts, music
B3 - bio/chem
B4 - ss/lit
C5 - chinese, geography
C6 - english
F9 - e maths

L1R4: 15
L1R5:20

the jam was more of a practice session... Priscilla & Grace-(she left halfway) keyboard, Joey- drums, Sarah and Raphael(?)- electric guitar, Sacey and I- bass guitar. cool. we practiced for the first hour and jammed for the 2nd. yeah, i can proudly say that we did jam something after a looooooooong time. BUT there were screws here and there... so in a desperate attempt to complete a song, we made this rule, don't stop even if someone makes a mistake/just continue.. haha... i hope we can complete another song. now that One Way's taken out, which one should we start on? erm, director? we still need you. i suggest we start on all the songs even though screws will always be present. rather than get stuck at one song all the time and be unable to move on...

(wait a minute. joey isn't the fixed drummer. i ain't the original bassist. so does that mean our work today... all gone down the drain?)

Sarah, Joey and Stacey..
sorry guys! the woman really took damn long to cut my hair.. i've never sat in front of a mirror for more than an hour before (unless you count last year's dance rehearsals)

mixed emotions

just when i thought things were getting better...

read my mom's msg:
aunty Jennifer had passed away.

why, why does God take away great people like her, who does mission work for almost her whole life, touching lives and turning people to Christ, why? why, when she was such a good example for us to follow? the whole church is like grieving now... why does Dad allow this to happen??? it was only a mortocycle... she was knocked down and that left her in critical condition... and now we know she's up in heaven with Him...

that kinda affected my mood for the day. 'jamming' sucked, (my opinion), because of this very unexpected news. what if one day God took away my friend or family member? will i be able to put my all in Him like i've been doing all these years?

if there's one question i want to ask, it would be this...

"why?"

assume not, for it's not always right

i haven't even wake up from dreamland and the visitors from the other side are already knocking vigorously at my door. haha. it's ok if it's not understood. not meant for anyone to understand anyway.

who said anything about hating anyone?

who said anything about trusting people i got to know for even less than a year? am i that naive? to tell every single detail? i know where to draw my line. my brain cells are still working.
who said anything about pride?

who said anything about crushes? i used to have a crush on 'dad'. no one at the moment. focusing on God, studies, piano and bass now...

who said anything about me being unable to accept differences?

who said that i'm totally shut off from comments?

who said that i hate the people who made comments if they're meant for me to improve and be alerted about things which i'm unaware of?

who said that after not very nice comments, friends become enemies?

who said that, if i don't respond to something, i have not thought about it? i'm just lost... and i'm not sure how to reply, how to gather my thoughts... i needed time to react and put them down in words.. you can't expect me to give you an instant reply right.

who said that i don't reflect? in fact i reflect too much... which comes to this conclusion:
i know you care. i appreciate that, really.. but it sounded really harsh this morning. i wasn't mentally prepared...

assumptions. assume not, for what you assume is not 100% right all the time.


i choose the people i trust, yes. now i'm announcing to the world, PUBLIC (another point: don't assume things before i open my mouth) this is the first time i'm putting this type of thing up for the world to see.
-God, my Daddy never lets me down. He's always there for me. i cry out to Him and he never fails to answer. sometimes i don't even need to express feelings out cause He already knows. He is the first One i turn to, He is the One and Only... nobody can replace Him.
-my trusted mentor is older and wiser, she knows alot and can give good advice. her shoulder has been available for me to cry on since 2003. i know i can trust her. (lunching with her soon, i can't wait)
-parents? well i'm not too sure about that. my life is still quite restricted,they only allow me to make friends from school and church.
-(my 'dad' has been gone for good. he's kinda out of my list)
-friends. a very wide range indeed, so exactly who? it's really quite simple. requirements: i completely trust those who are close, whom i know for at least a year, who are not mixing around with the wrong crowd and are not bad influences. i trust those who are ok-close, whom i know for at least 1/2 a year. note the word 'completely' is absent here. (Hillary and Joanne are different, though.) want to gain my trust, not that easy you know...

does that answer questions?? everything is summarised in this post and mainly the lines in red.

oh yeah, have i mentioned? i don't hate anyone currently. i'm not that selfish and i'm happy for those who are sure of what they want to do in the future so please don't assume.

be blessed, peeps... =)
meanwhile, i'll continue to listen carefully to morning devotions. those this week are having an impact on me.

just when i thought.........
i can always leave if you want me to do so that badly,
i can let you do everything you want
you just can't make me stop that
it's more than just little hints, you know
i'm not some dumb ass who'd let you talk behind my back
and pretend that i don't know a shit about it

trust can be so deceiving...
i can never trust anyone again
not even them...

omg....
so shattered on the inside

where're you when i need you most?
i need to talk to you
missing you badly... it's been a freaking long time

wth! should start smiling with my mouth closed

can't wait to sit in front of the hairdresser... and shove those spectacles away. but the thing is my eyelashes are too long so the lenses cannot go in. what a lame reason, really.

worship team... they re-grouped the vocalists! now there's 3 teams. Grace (Quek) and i are in team 1. and the other 2 teams have 3 singers, so not fair...

should i go for the sonic fest boot camp? christel encouraged everyone in the team to go. but.. there's a musician's elective and nothing for vocalists. i'm not playing any instrument for the team, so quite hesitant about going for the session. they have evening worship which is open to everyone, FOC. to go or not to go?

Adeline kept 'molesting' me this morning during assembly. was poking my back from the top to the waist la... lesson learnt: never sit in front of her.

according to Ade, 50% of the marathon group feels left out, cos' of the jamming discussions... they feel they're not involved enough? hey, that's only for those playing to perfect their instruments, which we have failed so miserably.. (2 hours and not even a complete song...) if we include the entire group for the 'jamms', they'll just complain that the studio is too small and that they're wasting their money. so to solve the problem, all of us are going to practice by singing in between lessons. get the whole group involved. well at least that's my suggestion...

energy all drained

i woke up at 6.05 this morning. only to find that i had 10min to prepare. lols

at the beginning of the walk, it was like, silence. no one spoke. haha.. none among the three of us at least (Jasmine, Joey, & i) then after a long break at suntec, we got high and crapped throughout the remaining 5km. never walked for so long before but hey, we completed the whole 10km! not bad right...

i hate fighting with for buses. typical Singaporean reaction, kiasu until like that. push and push... and we missed like 5 buses? haha... to suntec again, this time for lunch. and waited for someone to come. wah i tell you ah, even the procrastinator cows came home for dinner. (get it? when someone says (something) until the cows come home means they are very slow/take very long) okay. out of point.

super tiring pls.. came home and wanted to do a little of bio. the result, slept on the table. haha...

i've been practicing bass since 8 something. and uh, i'm acoustic guitar to practice because i have no bass guit. lols... my whole arm is like cramped!! now i can only type... Joey's here practicing as well. we tried to do One Way and Tell The World. haha it's a little successful if we do it without the music. urgh, the bad thing about bass is that your hand will just stop halfway and stop plucking the strings.

wahah... my arm is aching.

wherethelovelastsforever

this morning's workshop was on time management, not making right decisions. i admit it's quite useful. learnt things like saying "no" to requests if you are reluctant, don't force yourself or do it and add on to your already tight schedule. then i thought, look at the people i know. how many times have they turned me down? almost never. and now we're taught to say "no" which is somewhat difficult...

rush, rush, wait, rush, wait. the result? 10mins late for the so-called jamm. that wee lee guy was so errrrr... annoying? hah. probs with so many things. ok now i believe the music director. Fourtones is ten times better! will be glad to go back there, though it's further.

Sarah, learn your guitar chords. C#m, G#m, whatever... Priscilla, learn your keyboard chords. it's a MUST. cannot play without knowing at least the tonic triads because we're not singing hymns. Tania, you better come for the next jamm and drum properly. Clare also better come. i know our class 'band' standard is low, just come and contribute. as for me, ...... i'll be an extra again? other than teaching keyboard. note: i'm not a good teacher and i cannot teach so asking me is like asking the wall.

right. after 2 hours, we still couldn't finish up a song. only like 3/4 of it.

i was super late for youth service la... should have left earlier.

so we had cell bonding after dinner. and gosh, i feel that we really bonded, i mean, all of us sitting/lying down in a circle for so long engaged in the activities Joe and Smarties had prepared for us. though i'm one of the two girls in the cell (yes, just TWO) i think.. i like my cell members and they're very thoughtful and encouraging =) overall, had a great time la. Wan Hui drove me home at 12am.

yayness, back from the hospital

tomorrow's gonna be an extreeeeeemly long day.

starts off with the workshop on making right decisions from 0750-1100. then i'll be home to get changed and if there's time, lunch. meeting at 1230 for jamming until 1500. youth ablaze service cum cell discussions, 1600-1830. after that it's cell bonding all the way till the cows come home. as long as it's before the 2300. i won't wanna be questioned by the men/women in blue. can't stay over in church cause, Big Walk the next day.

speaking of cell bonding, i've not done what i'm supposed to do for the cell. prepare stuff. some show-and-tell thing, another of Joe's crazy ideas... and hth (how t h) am i gonna get it... one night? see, that's another example of last-minute work which should be avoided.

to the one i spoke to about it:
i went through alot recently la k.. almost excatly the same case. you're 16 but i'm not even 15 leh... look at my previous post. give your all to God. Philippians 4:6-7, Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requeststo God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. don't waste your time thinking about this kind of people. remember what i told you alrights =)

urgh

a thousand times i've failed
still Your mercy remains
and should i stumble again
i'm caught in Your grace
everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
my purpose remains
the art of losing myself
in bringing You praise
everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

in my heart and my soul
Lord i give You control
consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
become my embrace
to love You from the inside out

everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
and the cry of my heart
is to bring you praise
from the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

that's excatly what i want to tell God... "a thousand times i've failed. still your mercy remains" this whole song just appeals to me la k. He picked me up each time i fell, filled my cup whenever i was dry. His love is everlasting, he will not let _____ undergo that much suffering, His light shines when all else fades. i just need to pray and trust..

i don't care about it already la, why let it affect me so much right. it's "no longer i but Christ in me" so why should i be fretting over it. let her go and say all she wants. go tell the whole church la, "i don't care what people will say, (i'm running after you)". what's most important now is the one in hospital... pray so _____ wont have to go through so much pain and the insides will work well...

i'll try to push that away from my mind. think about the positive things. i might wanna learn the bass guitar more in-depth this time. add on to my list of instruments. haha.. it's easier to learn more instruments when you have almost 9 years of piano background. besides, i already know this many, it'd be easier anyway so why not learn more..

usually pianists have a metronome when they play. it just goes on ticking and they follow the beat and play. but i don't have one... and in order not to let myself go off-beat, i use my left leg to set the tempo and yeah, the left foot 'taps' the beat. speed must be constant and cannot be confused with whatever's the hands are playing on the keyboard. that's just one advantage of doing without a metronome. hand-feet coordination. wait a minute, that sounds familiar...

a little encouragement for today's 'jammers', the ones learning drums:
you're doing great. keep improving! listening to more music helps :)

when i listen to music, i dunno what to pick up. the vocal harmony parts, the keyboarding or for now, bass and drums (because i've been surrounded by drummers and drummers-to-be) wahaha... so it ends up as dividing the song into a few parts and pick our the different instruments and voice. lol.

music is my passion. i'd rather think of this God-given talent than be bothered by negative stuff.

fieldtrip & prep lesson

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lit test sure die.

some world-class speaker was invited by the principal to speak today. almost everyone expected a dull speech. lol we were so wrong... talking about (literally) bad hair day when he was bald, his daughter, being able to play the bass guitar and drums. oh yea, he even demo-ed for us. he has a good sense of humour.

the fieldtrip to labrador park was so-so... threw away my shoes and socks. yucks la, we went there and, high tide. so the waves just wet the entire foot and a lot of sand went inside. so there were 2 parts of the 'lesson': one on weathering and erosion, the other about vegetation. nothing much. the weathering one was super boring. drawing rocks, observing stuff... i wanted to just sit on the sand la.. vegetation was slightly more interesting.

today the class displayed good class spirit and unity. this could be seen during the journey back to school... camp cheers and campfiresongs. haha... we were all so high. remember last year, it was so cliquish, everything was done among their own cliques. this year's different. it's the whole class being involved in activities.

ms Ting said, of all the classes she took for the trip, ours was one of the best. lets see... ms Sen likes us because the whole class passed bio and dear wen qin broke the record for highest marks in dunno how long, ms Ang had said that our class was unlike the previous years' 3c2s. something different about us, haha.. mrs Eng likes us because we did alot better than 3c1 for accounts and we're never late for lessons, mrs Chong likes us because i can see that she enjoys teaching this class.

Stacey, Joey and i were crapping at the void deck opposite the school. sang songs and really crapppped.. then we walked the looooooong way to the bus stop and went to Heartland.

KFC for dinner. music director aka mysterious teacher taught them some basics of drumming. i was there as an extra actually. haha.. Joey made me go. didn't waste time la, learnt something about drums. AND bass guitar! didn't know it was that simple la... (the super out-of-tuned guitar at home was finally tuned and used. lols.. ) music director taught the bass thing. at any one time just press one string can already, haha don't need to worry about which finger press where. interesting. i'm learning more instruments =)

we were talking about very random stuff. like THE salt. and the pronounciation of some words..

two of them then came over to my house. it became damn noisy. the sound of chopsticks hit on the cabinet and table.. haha... i was supposed to be an extra today and not learn anything from the director leh. ended up 'practicing' with them. haha... 12341234.. created a fake and cymbaless drumset using small and big chairs. so creative right, my idea mah... haha.. then i played around with the guitar and found that it bass part was much easier than the others.

i was super high la. then my whole mood changed dramatically.

as if things in my family aren't bad enough, my mother went to add on to it. hello, who says i don't care? i may seem like i don't give a damn about things, but do you know that i'm praying super hard, 'behind the scenes'? i'm not that heartless you know. i don't just heck care and be so self-centred. still.. what's the use of telling you i'm praying hard, you won't listen anyway. you'll just say that i simply don't care. it hurts... i might just go down to the hospital alone tmr.

as if i'm not afraid of the whole situation now... pls, i'm normal on the outside and trembling on the inside. what you see is not what you get. being a biology student, i know that what the doctors did was abit too extreme. such a big thing, how could i not care la? God knows ok. i don't bother about what you think already. Daddy in heaven knows me from the inside out. He knows my character. He knows that i'm not a self-centred person, that i care for this family member... why can't my mother be more understanding? why can't she trust me more? why??? my own mother...

i cannot stop the tears from flowing. Lord, i love You.. thank You for watching over me... please also continue to watch over my family and let all misunderstandings be cleared...

today's full of ups and downs

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the title says it all.

this morning.. my dad couldn't send us to school, he wasn't feeling well. damn hard to get a cab between 6.30-6.45am.

i wanted to discuss things about the music marathon. we tried to. and we could not come to an agreement, about who would be the musicians. i thought things were more or less settled. no, they only made me more stressed. suddenly i was like, the I/C.

i'm not the leader, how come it was me getting all stressed up? i had to answer to the mysterious teacher and confirm things fast. didn't go for recess... too stressful.. i had gastric...

then i thought, i'll just was my hands off the whole thing la. why did i even bother to try to coordinate things when the rest were not satisfied with this and that, why, when they could not see that time was running out? i wanted very much to give up. dunno if anyone noticed, but i was crying a bit. and then finally they came to a conclusion. but... it could not be finalised until the mysterious teacher said yes...

so during lunch. after the phone call which got things settled, and Yu Hui, Hillary, Priscilla and Madeline attempted to lift my spirits... i felt better.. i mean, lunch was perfect with them and the load slightly lifted up.

english teacher did not come today. so i was in the library doing work and msging... then one message appeared from my mother which totally brought me down again.

something happened and a family member something... i felt like breaking down right there, where everyone in the library could see... it was just too sudden, too sudden... i couldn't take it.

i really need prayers. not me, but someone in my family. pleassssssssse pray hard that all will go well... you might say it's not a major thing. but it's really too sudden...

Lord, i commit everything to You and trust that Dad, You will let it go well... i pray with faith that You will not let anything else happen to make things worse...


it's both school and family stuff... how to cope? i'm only this young... it's too much for me to handle.. my previous further describes the pressure i'm going through...

just wanna sincerely thank these people, they know why..
Madeline, Yu Hui, Priscilla, Hillary

...and for more than just being there..
Joey, Timothy


my juniors say i play the piano well. it's all by the grace of God... i hope to do a good job for the music marathon.. keyboarding for Him... He gave me this talent anyway, it's only right that i give Him my all in this major project... because Colossians 3:23 - Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not men

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this song made me realise how much i need God in my life, especially during this time. the tears just flowed like a tap... like so automatic... this is when i'm really desperate for Him...

Draw me close to You/Never let me go/I lay it all down again/To hear You say that I'm your friend
You are my desire/No one else will do/Cause nothing else could take Your place/To feel the warmth of Your embrace
Help me find the way/bring me back to You
You're all I want/You're all I've ever needed/You're all I want/Help me know You are near

I'M DAMN STRESSED NOW CAN.

PROJECT WORK! AND WE'RE NOT EVEN IN JC.
SOME FOOD BUSINESS PROPOSAL...
STILL HAVE MUSIC MARATHON: CLASS AND HANDBELL ITEM/PERFORMANCE
AND CIP PROJECT FOR THE AUTISTIC KIDS
AND LIT TEST TO WORRY ABOUT.

wth... how do they cope with PW in JC??
we're only in sec 3 and going through soooooo much pressure..

I'm going to finish burning the midnight oil and burn down the block.
This is the result of last-minute work.



to think that i had sympathized with you... wrong choice, sadly..

i forgot abt peer lites' meeting! shit la.. ms ___ going to sit and aquash me...

Wooots!
Finally got Hillsong United's 'United We Stand'.. The album rocks! (Haha hey Joey, Tr--ks over Dr----) The time has come To stand for all we believe in So I for one Am gonna give my praise to You

Bought 2 skirts. A feathered rose for my mum.

God helped me give my all during today's worship. I didn't feel pain when singing. As long as I focused on Him, all the pain was taken away. God is good =) But when it came to talking and laughing, I was like ouch-ing throughout... I swear the ulcer's getting bigger! Sucks okay, totally hate ulcers... Haha but I'll still eat chocolates and ice-cream.

Global Day of Prayer
4th June 2006
National Stadium
7.30pm

Who's going? Dunno whether I should go...

3c2 girls in my group for music marathon!!

PEOPLE!

WE HAVE TO DO OUR PART FOR THE GROUP, CLASS AND SCHOOL.

ANYONE WHO WANTS TO PLAY DRUMS OR BASS FOR THE GROUP'S 1/2 HR PERFORMANCE PLS TELL ME.

OR YOU JUST WANNA LEARN.

LIMITED PLACES, 5 ONLY!!

AND YOU'VE SEEN THE TEACHER BEFORE.

COMMENT ASAP OK. EMAIL, MSN, TAG, ETC..

THANKS!

Will further dicuss this on Monday..


i can't smile (literally) with you
being on my lip..
get off me!
you're hurting like crazy

stupid ulcer

gosh i do feel like shit

now it's geography as well?

i certainly don't want to retain or drop
(sorry if i'm offending anyone)

feeling useless again

like the dumbest sec 3 express student

sadly,no excitement this week

Main thing yesterday was that we had our discussion for the 90 hours music marathon. Led the group together with Tania, Stacey and Priscilla. We only did Christian songs and a Chinese one. (Wah Yuhui can sing Chinese songs really well.) I taught some of them the alto part for this particular song. Cos' none of them knew and the chorus was quite high.. We actually wanted to play song of the songs 'live', but then no one can play the bass. If Clare does electric, then no drummer. Stick to sing-a-long? ..... & it's not like we can get external help...

My whole banded class failed Chinese I think. 1st time failing in 1.5yrs. 20/56 leh isn't that fantastic. Wth. Gong han also fail, 7/20. Just when I thought my Chinese was fine...

The class did damn well for biology, making me look so stupid. No failures and Ms Sem was pleased with us. Could have gotten more marks.. I did badly.

E maths is confirm die lor.. stared at the paper and found that I didn't know 90% of the sums. So in the end, just wrote some rubbish equations and submitted. Maths used to be my best subject... now it's my worst...

According to Mrs Batiah, the whole level did badly for English. Only a few from my class passed. Having failed the previous term, I was somewhat surprised that I passed this time. BUT. It's only just passed. On the dot. 25/50 so what difference does it make right.. still lousy..

What's happening to the most important subjects?? English, maths and science... Now it's up to chemistry to pull up the science marks which I think, cannot make it... Please don't kill me ok..

I find myself struggling to refrain from eating ice-cream like everyday. Save money mah.. Yes I know, money again... If I go by the front gate, the ice-cream uncle is there. If go back gate, will end up walking past KFC, Macs and 7-eleven. All that ice-cream!!!!!!! gosh man. It's so hard to control.. so I end up buying =D McFlurry rocks. I love ice-cream!!

Pity my friends leh, haha.. cos' I always ask them to eat with me and then they'll be like, so reluctant.. Can't find an ice-cream partner. Lol.. I have science lab partner, chapel partner, dance partner, class partner.... but no ice-cream partner =(

Starting to lose interest in friendster..

Oh and Happy 18th to Simon :)

I'm on backup duty this week.
AND for church camp! I really dun want lor... if youth camp still can la, but.. church camp?! that's both youths and adults! yes i know i've sang for evangelistic events which includes members of the public. but i just don't want to sing for the camp!! worship is a lot easier on the floor than the stage la... they always make the 'older team' sing lor... sounds so old but it means more experienced. not showing off or boasting hor. can they ask the 'younger team' for once?

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kindly leave if you don't like long posts

Perhaps I should have agreed on the jaw surgery.

why are you even thinking of it? God created you in His own image, why that thought?

Sigh... I really dunno....


//
I've always admired the way they play the guitars and drums with such passion. They must be truly blessed.
//

We rode into town the other day,
just me and my daddy.
he said I'd finally reached that age,
and I could ride next to him on a horse
that of course, was not quite as wild.

We heard a crowd of people shouting,
and so we stopped to find out why.
There was that man that my dad said he loved,
but today there was fear in his eyes.

So I said, "Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows.

Daddy please, can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry.
You said He was stronger than all of those guys;
Daddy, please tell me why.
Why does everyone want Him to die?"

Later that day, the sky grew cloudy,
and Daddy said I should go inside.
Somehow he knew things would get stormy.
Boy was he right,
but I could not keep from wondering
if there was something he had to hide.

So after he left, I had to find out.
I was not afraid of getting lost.
So I followed the crowds to a hill
where I knew men had been killed,
and I heard a voice come from the cross.

And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my robe?
This crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows.

Father please, can't you do something?
I know that You must hear my cry.
I thought I could handle a cross of this size.
Father, remind me why.
Why does everyone want me to die?
Oh, when will I understand why?"

My precious son, I hear them screaming.
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming.
But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own.
Jesus, this hurts me much more than you know,
but this dark hour, I must do nothing,
though I've heard your unbearable cry.

The power in your blood destroys all of the lies;
soon you'll see past their unmerciful eyes.
Look, there below, see the child
trembling by her father's side.
Now I can tell you why...
she is why you must die.