urgh

a thousand times i've failed
still Your mercy remains
and should i stumble again
i'm caught in Your grace
everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
my purpose remains
the art of losing myself
in bringing You praise
everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

in my heart and my soul
Lord i give You control
consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
become my embrace
to love You from the inside out

everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
and the cry of my heart
is to bring you praise
from the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

that's excatly what i want to tell God... "a thousand times i've failed. still your mercy remains" this whole song just appeals to me la k. He picked me up each time i fell, filled my cup whenever i was dry. His love is everlasting, he will not let _____ undergo that much suffering, His light shines when all else fades. i just need to pray and trust..

i don't care about it already la, why let it affect me so much right. it's "no longer i but Christ in me" so why should i be fretting over it. let her go and say all she wants. go tell the whole church la, "i don't care what people will say, (i'm running after you)". what's most important now is the one in hospital... pray so _____ wont have to go through so much pain and the insides will work well...

i'll try to push that away from my mind. think about the positive things. i might wanna learn the bass guitar more in-depth this time. add on to my list of instruments. haha.. it's easier to learn more instruments when you have almost 9 years of piano background. besides, i already know this many, it'd be easier anyway so why not learn more..

usually pianists have a metronome when they play. it just goes on ticking and they follow the beat and play. but i don't have one... and in order not to let myself go off-beat, i use my left leg to set the tempo and yeah, the left foot 'taps' the beat. speed must be constant and cannot be confused with whatever's the hands are playing on the keyboard. that's just one advantage of doing without a metronome. hand-feet coordination. wait a minute, that sounds familiar...

a little encouragement for today's 'jammers', the ones learning drums:
you're doing great. keep improving! listening to more music helps :)

when i listen to music, i dunno what to pick up. the vocal harmony parts, the keyboarding or for now, bass and drums (because i've been surrounded by drummers and drummers-to-be) wahaha... so it ends up as dividing the song into a few parts and pick our the different instruments and voice. lol.

music is my passion. i'd rather think of this God-given talent than be bothered by negative stuff.