Wednesday, May 17, 2006

fieldtrip & prep lesson

[edited,1145pm]

lit test sure die.

some world-class speaker was invited by the principal to speak today. almost everyone expected a dull speech. lol we were so wrong... talking about (literally) bad hair day when he was bald, his daughter, being able to play the bass guitar and drums. oh yea, he even demo-ed for us. he has a good sense of humour.

the fieldtrip to labrador park was so-so... threw away my shoes and socks. yucks la, we went there and, high tide. so the waves just wet the entire foot and a lot of sand went inside. so there were 2 parts of the 'lesson': one on weathering and erosion, the other about vegetation. nothing much. the weathering one was super boring. drawing rocks, observing stuff... i wanted to just sit on the sand la.. vegetation was slightly more interesting.

today the class displayed good class spirit and unity. this could be seen during the journey back to school... camp cheers and campfiresongs. haha... we were all so high. remember last year, it was so cliquish, everything was done among their own cliques. this year's different. it's the whole class being involved in activities.

ms Ting said, of all the classes she took for the trip, ours was one of the best. lets see... ms Sen likes us because the whole class passed bio and dear wen qin broke the record for highest marks in dunno how long, ms Ang had said that our class was unlike the previous years' 3c2s. something different about us, haha.. mrs Eng likes us because we did alot better than 3c1 for accounts and we're never late for lessons, mrs Chong likes us because i can see that she enjoys teaching this class.

Stacey, Joey and i were crapping at the void deck opposite the school. sang songs and really crapppped.. then we walked the looooooong way to the bus stop and went to Heartland.

KFC for dinner. music director aka mysterious teacher taught them some basics of drumming. i was there as an extra actually. haha.. Joey made me go. didn't waste time la, learnt something about drums. AND bass guitar! didn't know it was that simple la... (the super out-of-tuned guitar at home was finally tuned and used. lols.. ) music director taught the bass thing. at any one time just press one string can already, haha don't need to worry about which finger press where. interesting. i'm learning more instruments =)

we were talking about very random stuff. like THE salt. and the pronounciation of some words..

two of them then came over to my house. it became damn noisy. the sound of chopsticks hit on the cabinet and table.. haha... i was supposed to be an extra today and not learn anything from the director leh. ended up 'practicing' with them. haha... 12341234.. created a fake and cymbaless drumset using small and big chairs. so creative right, my idea mah... haha.. then i played around with the guitar and found that it bass part was much easier than the others.

i was super high la. then my whole mood changed dramatically.

as if things in my family aren't bad enough, my mother went to add on to it. hello, who says i don't care? i may seem like i don't give a damn about things, but do you know that i'm praying super hard, 'behind the scenes'? i'm not that heartless you know. i don't just heck care and be so self-centred. still.. what's the use of telling you i'm praying hard, you won't listen anyway. you'll just say that i simply don't care. it hurts... i might just go down to the hospital alone tmr.

as if i'm not afraid of the whole situation now... pls, i'm normal on the outside and trembling on the inside. what you see is not what you get. being a biology student, i know that what the doctors did was abit too extreme. such a big thing, how could i not care la? God knows ok. i don't bother about what you think already. Daddy in heaven knows me from the inside out. He knows my character. He knows that i'm not a self-centred person, that i care for this family member... why can't my mother be more understanding? why can't she trust me more? why??? my own mother...


i cannot stop the tears from flowing. Lord, i love You.. thank You for watching over me... please also continue to watch over my family and let all misunderstandings be cleared...

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