[edited, 1.30am]
the title says it all.
this morning.. my dad couldn't send us to school, he wasn't feeling well. damn hard to get a cab between 6.30-6.45am.
i wanted to discuss things about the music marathon. we tried to. and we could not come to an agreement, about who would be the musicians. i thought things were more or less settled. no, they only made me more stressed. suddenly i was like, the I/C.
i'm not the leader, how come it was me getting all stressed up? i had to answer to the mysterious teacher and confirm things fast. didn't go for recess... too stressful.. i had gastric...
then i thought, i'll just was my hands off the whole thing la. why did i even bother to try to coordinate things when the rest were not satisfied with this and that, why, when they could not see that time was running out? i wanted very much to give up. dunno if anyone noticed, but i was crying a bit. and then finally they came to a conclusion. but... it could not be finalised until the mysterious teacher said yes...
so during lunch. after the phone call which got things settled, and Yu Hui, Hillary, Priscilla and Madeline attempted to lift my spirits... i felt better.. i mean, lunch was perfect with them and the load slightly lifted up.
english teacher did not come today. so i was in the library doing work and msging... then one message appeared from my mother which totally brought me down again.
something happened and a family member something... i felt like breaking down right there, where everyone in the library could see... it was just too sudden, too sudden... i couldn't take it.
i really need prayers. not me, but someone in my family. pleassssssssse pray hard that all will go well... you might say it's not a major thing. but it's really too sudden...
Lord, i commit everything to You and trust that Dad, You will let it go well... i pray with faith that You will not let anything else happen to make things worse...
it's both school and family stuff... how to cope? i'm only this young... it's too much for me to handle.. my previous further describes the pressure i'm going through...
just wanna sincerely thank these people, they know why..
Madeline, Yu Hui, Priscilla, Hillary
...and for more than just being there..
Joey, Timothy
my juniors say i play the piano well. it's all by the grace of God... i hope to do a good job for the music marathon.. keyboarding for Him... He gave me this talent anyway, it's only right that i give Him my all in this major project... because Colossians 3:23 - Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not men
[edited to add]
this song made me realise how much i need God in my life, especially during this time. the tears just flowed like a tap... like so automatic... this is when i'm really desperate for Him...
Draw me close to You/Never let me go/I lay it all down again/To hear You say that I'm your friend
You are my desire/No one else will do/Cause nothing else could take Your place/To feel the warmth of Your embrace
Help me find the way/bring me back to You
You're all I want/You're all I've ever needed/You're all I want/Help me know You are near
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