omg...
i only went away for awhile. and will be going again next week.
now this.
is history going to repeat itself? please, i'm begging, don't. because i don't want to go through another round of this. can i at least enjoy myself in S'pore before going off? at least make my life pleasant?
sometimes i feel like backing out. but it's only that bit left... to stay or not to stay?
anyways. the rest of the group. how? looks like i gotta call all of them and tell them to sing the songs on their own. we cannot practice with the entire group yet, not when we haven't get our songs right. and the chinese songs... too bad i guess. time is running out. once it runs away, we can't catch it back. so use whatever time we have wisely to practice on our own before meeting up to jam, before we can call the whole group together for 'rehearsals'.
i'm a slow learner. better start practicing like mad. personal aim is to play All Day without hiccups. then move on to others.
geography project. how how how how how how???
homework . how how how how how how???
sec 4 farewell . how how how how how how???
revision . how how how how how how???
the one . omg omg omg omg omg omg. . .
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Saturday, June 10, 2006
short hello
ok i gotta make this fast cos it's my dad's lappie and he's down for breakfast...
firstly, i cut my forefinger last night while eating crab. stupid crab... oh and the seafood here's great. especially the prawns! wah rocks la.. cant wait to get back to S'pore...
secondly...
the jamming peeps.
sorry la! anyway we are abit beond that standard now wad... every band has their worst and that's just one of our worst. we've improved! that's like something we can look back and laugh about, how sucky we were mah. i get some stuff from Malacca for y'all la ok, happy?
TIM! WHY YOU GO AND ANNOUNCE THAT YOU HAVE THE RECORDING??!?!?!?! you were the one who asked me to send secretly somemore lor... see la already kena stoned.. this Sunday worse can. haha..
SARAH! stop spamming ok! lol. tag so many times... i shall go and flood your tagboard one of these days :D
HORSEY! have fun with your 'electronic drums'! too bad we can't do fake jamming together... haha! and you miss seeing my house lighted up and bright right! now it's dark.
PRIS! lol everyone's only more pro like now lor.. just 2 weeks ago we were some shit. haha... and Tim doesn't know Raphael so... yeah. haha. i'm also broke la!
okok.. i think my father's coming up soon. better stop here. shopping rocks!
(Lai Theng: hello!)
firstly, i cut my forefinger last night while eating crab. stupid crab... oh and the seafood here's great. especially the prawns! wah rocks la.. cant wait to get back to S'pore...
secondly...
the jamming peeps.
sorry la! anyway we are abit beond that standard now wad... every band has their worst and that's just one of our worst. we've improved! that's like something we can look back and laugh about, how sucky we were mah. i get some stuff from Malacca for y'all la ok, happy?
TIM! WHY YOU GO AND ANNOUNCE THAT YOU HAVE THE RECORDING??!?!?!?! you were the one who asked me to send secretly somemore lor... see la already kena stoned.. this Sunday worse can. haha..
SARAH! stop spamming ok! lol. tag so many times... i shall go and flood your tagboard one of these days :D
HORSEY! have fun with your 'electronic drums'! too bad we can't do fake jamming together... haha! and you miss seeing my house lighted up and bright right! now it's dark.
PRIS! lol everyone's only more pro like now lor.. just 2 weeks ago we were some shit. haha... and Tim doesn't know Raphael so... yeah. haha. i'm also broke la!
okok.. i think my father's coming up soon. better stop here. shopping rocks!
(Lai Theng: hello!)
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
goodbye
no, i'm not closing the blog. i'll be off to Malacca tomorrow and back on Saturday. don't miss me hor ;p
about yesterday's jamming...
we were early. so we went into the room like 7 mins before the scheduled time. before the music director came. we were all like rushing through the song la! haha.. damn funny...
"quick quick, later he come then we screw!!!"
"omg i thought i saw 2 heads outside"
"hurry, drummer start! no time already!!"
and we were all scared like shit. in case something goes wrong. lol.. and he was late la. as usual.
honestly right, i think yesterday's was really the best so far. or is it because it sucks at wee lee's? haha. if you compare with all the previous recordings. should have recorded yesterday's one... [i will not betray the rest of the band by making sure the recordings are safe with me and not in the music director's phone]
oh yar... i did something to the memory card. BIG mistake... and then the very first recorded songs cannot open! in fact can't even open the files in the card la... urgh i'm so regretting it. 1GB leh!!! walau. *hits head* at least i still have the second set of songs.
piano teacher said today that i must have more confidence -.-
i think... i know alot of things. about what's happening around here. (thanks, my fellow 'investigator'.) the more i look at the 'evidence', the more obvious it is. like, right under our noses... more than obvious. oh wells...
another thing.. atmosphere is very tense. me, the silent observer has observed... lots of things online. kk i shall not elaborate.
this is something you definitely cannot miss. can laugh your ass off. super cute and yet super true... click on it now! go go!
http://www.syfc.org.sg/events/dvc/cinema.html
(today is 06062006. the omen!)
about yesterday's jamming...
we were early. so we went into the room like 7 mins before the scheduled time. before the music director came. we were all like rushing through the song la! haha.. damn funny...
"quick quick, later he come then we screw!!!"
"omg i thought i saw 2 heads outside"
"hurry, drummer start! no time already!!"
and we were all scared like shit. in case something goes wrong. lol.. and he was late la. as usual.
honestly right, i think yesterday's was really the best so far. or is it because it sucks at wee lee's? haha. if you compare with all the previous recordings. should have recorded yesterday's one... [i will not betray the rest of the band by making sure the recordings are safe with me and not in the music director's phone]
oh yar... i did something to the memory card. BIG mistake... and then the very first recorded songs cannot open! in fact can't even open the files in the card la... urgh i'm so regretting it. 1GB leh!!! walau. *hits head* at least i still have the second set of songs.
piano teacher said today that i must have more confidence -.-
i think... i know alot of things. about what's happening around here. (thanks, my fellow 'investigator'.) the more i look at the 'evidence', the more obvious it is. like, right under our noses... more than obvious. oh wells...
another thing.. atmosphere is very tense. me, the silent observer has observed... lots of things online. kk i shall not elaborate.
this is something you definitely cannot miss. can laugh your ass off. super cute and yet super true... click on it now! go go!
http://www.syfc.org.sg/events/dvc/cinema.html
(today is 06062006. the omen!)
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
our words kill
the Tongue
James 3:5-10
Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. The tongue is also a fire, a world of evil among the parts of teh body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and its itself set on fire by hell. All kinds of animals, birds, reptiles, and creatures of the sea are being tamed and have been tamed by man, but no man can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison. With the tongue we praise out Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. Out of the same mouth comes praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be.
So you see, the tongue is deadly. It can hurt people and pull them down... We say words that built and words that destroy. Positive and negative. Encouragement and discouragement. Yeah you get the idea.
See the line I underlined, it's so true... Out of this same mouth comes praise and cursing. Gossiping/bitching about people. That's like a normal thing, but it's wrong... Saying bad things about others... "who have been made in God's likeness". This just isn't right. It's disgusting, yet true. I mean, God taught us to love everyone... Love, say good things, it's all on the good and bright side. We praise and worship Him together in church, at home, etc. And then when we gather with some friends, the most common thing is to gossip. That person who's being bitched about might not know, but look at the underlined words again. Even a simple statement like "she's such a flirt" can be considered a curse. (Sounds like a Sunday Christian?)
I'm sure everyone remembers quite vividly how they've been discouraged by their friends, parents, .... we can't seem to forget it. It's like glued to us and it affects the way we think about doing something. Failure to do that something, perhaps? "Why are you alllllllllllways like that?", "can't you be faster? do you know you're very slow?"
Likewise we shouldn't say those to our friends or juniors or whoever. Instead, twist it and encourage, not discourage. "You're getting it, just need a little more practice and you'll be fine." See the difference? Who likes to be discouraged la... And of course we have to mean what we say. Don't be sarcastic (that hurts too) or lie.
Whatever goes in, comes out. Read the word of God. It goes in, but does it come out?
Okay, I confess, I've been like that. Sometimes it's really cannot help it. But at least I try. I try not to take part in gossips. I try to encourage people or correct them in a nice way. (note: i TRY) Maybe cos' those workshops on leadership always emphasise on encouraging.
If anyone finds this post insulting, (I pray not,) please tag or something. I will not hesitate to take it down. This post is not meant to point or pick on anyone, seriously. It's like some reflection on Saturday's Youth Service. (speaking of youth, Faith (Ong) said backups sang well! haha yay.. it's all by the grace of God)
here's something from Desmond's blog... haha, interesting...
Words Of Wisdom 4
James 3:5-10
Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. The tongue is also a fire, a world of evil among the parts of teh body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and its itself set on fire by hell. All kinds of animals, birds, reptiles, and creatures of the sea are being tamed and have been tamed by man, but no man can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison. With the tongue we praise out Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. Out of the same mouth comes praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be.
So you see, the tongue is deadly. It can hurt people and pull them down... We say words that built and words that destroy. Positive and negative. Encouragement and discouragement. Yeah you get the idea.
See the line I underlined, it's so true... Out of this same mouth comes praise and cursing. Gossiping/bitching about people. That's like a normal thing, but it's wrong... Saying bad things about others... "who have been made in God's likeness". This just isn't right. It's disgusting, yet true. I mean, God taught us to love everyone... Love, say good things, it's all on the good and bright side. We praise and worship Him together in church, at home, etc. And then when we gather with some friends, the most common thing is to gossip. That person who's being bitched about might not know, but look at the underlined words again. Even a simple statement like "she's such a flirt" can be considered a curse. (Sounds like a Sunday Christian?)
I'm sure everyone remembers quite vividly how they've been discouraged by their friends, parents, .... we can't seem to forget it. It's like glued to us and it affects the way we think about doing something. Failure to do that something, perhaps? "Why are you alllllllllllways like that?", "can't you be faster? do you know you're very slow?"
Likewise we shouldn't say those to our friends or juniors or whoever. Instead, twist it and encourage, not discourage. "You're getting it, just need a little more practice and you'll be fine." See the difference? Who likes to be discouraged la... And of course we have to mean what we say. Don't be sarcastic (that hurts too) or lie.
Whatever goes in, comes out. Read the word of God. It goes in, but does it come out?
Okay, I confess, I've been like that. Sometimes it's really cannot help it. But at least I try. I try not to take part in gossips. I try to encourage people or correct them in a nice way. (note: i TRY) Maybe cos' those workshops on leadership always emphasise on encouraging.
If anyone finds this post insulting, (I pray not,) please tag or something. I will not hesitate to take it down. This post is not meant to point or pick on anyone, seriously. It's like some reflection on Saturday's Youth Service. (speaking of youth, Faith (Ong) said backups sang well! haha yay.. it's all by the grace of God)
here's something from Desmond's blog... haha, interesting...
Words Of Wisdom 4
for this week, i'm gonna talk about LOVE! =D and FRIENDSHIP! lol. both together.
let's talk abt those whom are attached. yes. u hav a gf/bf nw. but what abt ur frens, lets nt juz push them aside n forget their existence. they're the ones whom accompanied u while u're single. so nw when u're attached, u forget abt them? tats nt right! if u think u cant find them becoz u're nw attached. i think tis is juz an excuse, ever heard of time management? USE IT! even if u have to go on dates on weekends, use the friggin' weekdays with ur frens! basically, juz don't forget ur frens lah.
okok, abt those, whom frens r attached. yep. u gotta accept it. ur fren has to "donate" his/her time to other areas. as his/her fren. wad can u do? COMPROMISE! accept the fact that they're attached n can no longer spend more time with u guys. juz because they cant spent as much time with u all doesn't mean they CAN'T hang out with u guys anymore. c'mon lah. wad if the one who is attached is u? how would u feel if ur frens walk out of u when u found love? u song meh? as frens, u should be instead happy for them!
try to achieve a win-win situation. brin ur gf/bf out when u go out with ur pals? tat can be a gd idea too! =)
Saturday, June 03, 2006
jammmmmmmmmmmm
bye bye if you think this wouldn't interest you.
Yesterday's jamming
it was fun. fun fun fun.. can't remember much la i only know it was FUN. haha. with drummer (Joey), keyboardist (Priscilla), electric guitarist (Sarah), bassist (me), vocalist (Stacey) and my 3rd floor neighbour (R). He's supposed to help Sarah with her guitar and play along with us.. We finally started on another song. but it's like very not coordinated... lol.. better than nothing la, right? we bargained with the Wee Lee man and extended for another hour, the more expensive room. heavy rain couldn't go anywhere. he gave us a $3 discount. haha.. that one was so much better i tell you. bass there was so different... but Fourtones is still the best. just that go must look pro and play pro-ly.
Yesterday's class gathering
[because "class chalet" sounds weird]
so we were late and we thought Ms Ang was gonna flare up and scream her lungs out at us. we were so wrong. she was in a good mood la... yep so most of the time was just watch TV, talk, eat, talk, eat, watch more TV, and yum seng! some of us went high after the Singapore Idol results. PAUL TWOHILL!! omg he rocks can! who says you can't sing with braces? haha..
Ms Ang told us a piece of sad news. damn saddening pls... and unexpected..
i went home at almost 12am. good choice, cos' those who stayed didn't get much sleep.
This morning, bus stop
i dunno how, but my water bottle cap came off IN the bag. and i didn't know until i felt the back of my skirt. wet. walau i think people thought i had menses la... the whole bottle of water was emptied lor.. tamagotchi spoilt. half the ink on the bass reference smudged, my chinese book got wet, ink on the receipt kena inked on my money... luckily it was a plastic note. oh and my gloves were soaked. like totally.. urgh. got up the bus holding a wet bag. the aunty who sat beside me on the bus kept staring at it lor...
This morning, cca, handbell practice
we completed Waltzing Matilda! the last part of that piece was a killer for the middle treble bells. semiquavers all the way. haha so i guess playing the melody has an advantage? =) so far, we finished 3 songs. still got about 7 more. *faints* for music marathon and some big performance next term. stayed back for the lower sec practice and filled in for the one of the sec 1s. damn easy can! those songs are like the easiest of the easiest. wahaha...
Afternoon, Jamming again
at Wee Lee's. i was late. went in and was pushed to the bass... haha. at first was really wasting time lor. see all their sian faces, like just fought with people and not happy with what kinda shit.. super waste money and time la. some were like unhappy over small things, we can do other songs besides those for the music marathon wad.. expetced, fail. then extended another hour and we did more. more productive.
we combined the 2 songs, as in play and sing it without breaks in between. BUT. the first song's quite CMI, canot make it. here's when we need the music director's help... speaking of him, i think it's time we let him hear and see what we've been doing so far.. can't go on like that la, it's just like, stuck there. and anyway i'm not the bassist for the music marathon so why am i working so hard with the band ah. hello, Clare where are you.
i hate being faced with the same situation, which unfortunately, happens all the time.
MONEYLESS! penniless. no money la... again i don't even have 5 cents in my wallet. it's just some cards and the bass ref and a receipt. all my money's in that drawer in Wee Lee lor.
i recorded some of yesterday's and today's songs. which is really the same thing with lots of mistakes.
Yesterday: 2.6MB, 7 files
Today: 2.5MB, 6 files
if anyone hears those, i bet they'll laugh until the floor shakes.
Yesterday's jamming
it was fun. fun fun fun.. can't remember much la i only know it was FUN. haha. with drummer (Joey), keyboardist (Priscilla), electric guitarist (Sarah), bassist (me), vocalist (Stacey) and my 3rd floor neighbour (R). He's supposed to help Sarah with her guitar and play along with us.. We finally started on another song. but it's like very not coordinated... lol.. better than nothing la, right? we bargained with the Wee Lee man and extended for another hour, the more expensive room. heavy rain couldn't go anywhere. he gave us a $3 discount. haha.. that one was so much better i tell you. bass there was so different... but Fourtones is still the best. just that go must look pro and play pro-ly.
Yesterday's class gathering
[because "class chalet" sounds weird]
so we were late and we thought Ms Ang was gonna flare up and scream her lungs out at us. we were so wrong. she was in a good mood la... yep so most of the time was just watch TV, talk, eat, talk, eat, watch more TV, and yum seng! some of us went high after the Singapore Idol results. PAUL TWOHILL!! omg he rocks can! who says you can't sing with braces? haha..
Ms Ang told us a piece of sad news. damn saddening pls... and unexpected..
i went home at almost 12am. good choice, cos' those who stayed didn't get much sleep.
This morning, bus stop
i dunno how, but my water bottle cap came off IN the bag. and i didn't know until i felt the back of my skirt. wet. walau i think people thought i had menses la... the whole bottle of water was emptied lor.. tamagotchi spoilt. half the ink on the bass reference smudged, my chinese book got wet, ink on the receipt kena inked on my money... luckily it was a plastic note. oh and my gloves were soaked. like totally.. urgh. got up the bus holding a wet bag. the aunty who sat beside me on the bus kept staring at it lor...
This morning, cca, handbell practice
we completed Waltzing Matilda! the last part of that piece was a killer for the middle treble bells. semiquavers all the way. haha so i guess playing the melody has an advantage? =) so far, we finished 3 songs. still got about 7 more. *faints* for music marathon and some big performance next term. stayed back for the lower sec practice and filled in for the one of the sec 1s. damn easy can! those songs are like the easiest of the easiest. wahaha...
Afternoon, Jamming again
at Wee Lee's. i was late. went in and was pushed to the bass... haha. at first was really wasting time lor. see all their sian faces, like just fought with people and not happy with what kinda shit.. super waste money and time la. some were like unhappy over small things, we can do other songs besides those for the music marathon wad.. expetced, fail. then extended another hour and we did more. more productive.
we combined the 2 songs, as in play and sing it without breaks in between. BUT. the first song's quite CMI, canot make it. here's when we need the music director's help... speaking of him, i think it's time we let him hear and see what we've been doing so far.. can't go on like that la, it's just like, stuck there. and anyway i'm not the bassist for the music marathon so why am i working so hard with the band ah. hello, Clare where are you.
i hate being faced with the same situation, which unfortunately, happens all the time.
MONEYLESS! penniless. no money la... again i don't even have 5 cents in my wallet. it's just some cards and the bass ref and a receipt. all my money's in that drawer in Wee Lee lor.
i recorded some of yesterday's and today's songs. which is really the same thing with lots of mistakes.
Yesterday: 2.6MB, 7 files
Today: 2.5MB, 6 files
if anyone hears those, i bet they'll laugh until the floor shakes.
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
beach cleaning at ECP with fellow peer lites
God blessed us with good weather. took lotsa photos!
uh, the sky's supposed to be bright.
don't you just love the beach? so relaxing...
rome of the rubbish picked by my(minor)group. was in major group 2..
sand, footprints and my shadow.
peer lites working without supervision. we can be trusted okay!
one,two,three,four,five of us... group B,love y'all!
credits to Nerizza:) for the middle and right dustbins. haha Singapore has so many dustbins,yet people litter and make us poor girls clean up after them...
Dezarae and *Jillian.. WAKE UP SLEEPYHEADS! lol.
went for cca after that. those are 2/3 of my bells. haha.. handbells handbells!
uh, the sky's supposed to be bright.
don't you just love the beach? so relaxing...
rome of the rubbish picked by my(minor)group. was in major group 2..
sand, footprints and my shadow.
peer lites working without supervision. we can be trusted okay!
one,two,three,four,five of us... group B,love y'all!
credits to Nerizza:) for the middle and right dustbins. haha Singapore has so many dustbins,yet people litter and make us poor girls clean up after them...
Dezarae and *Jillian.. WAKE UP SLEEPYHEADS! lol.
went for cca after that. those are 2/3 of my bells. haha.. handbells handbells!
Monday, May 29, 2006
Sunday, May 28, 2006
another long day
total: 6
six projects this june.
rushed to church after peer lites' meeting for worship practice.
today's youth ablaze service was like cancelled. it was a memorial service for Aunty Jenni... omg we were all like crying so hard, i mean, it's hard to believe that she's really gone to be with the Lord... she did 3 years of work in Kalimantan for God.. then now we see her soul-less body lying there... we love you, aunty Jennifer!
my parents finally got me a line la.. like i've been bugging them since P6 end each time it's the same answer: show me the results. the phone is so different from the old one can...
some people are getting irritated with me,keep changing number... but it's really not me la...
first i was sharing the phone with my mother.. then she complain the bill always overshoot. like hello one month only got 100 sms of course overshoot la...
so she got me a prepaid card,which was like really cannot cos' the value use up very fast. uncontrollable la... one minute 22cents one msg 5cents....
FINALLY FINALLY got a proper line. can msg without worrying already..
Singapore is small. really super small. first when i found out about this, was already like woah woah... and then things progressed and time passed. and then Joey told me about something related to this. omg la! it's so shocking lor... i mean, your own ______mate? and she's _______'s h___? and i thought it was someone else, still okay... but she's from ___ _c__o_! wah.. i need to buy more chill pills....
whatever's going on is none of my business.
homework and projects, here i come!
six projects this june.
rushed to church after peer lites' meeting for worship practice.
today's youth ablaze service was like cancelled. it was a memorial service for Aunty Jenni... omg we were all like crying so hard, i mean, it's hard to believe that she's really gone to be with the Lord... she did 3 years of work in Kalimantan for God.. then now we see her soul-less body lying there... we love you, aunty Jennifer!
my parents finally got me a line la.. like i've been bugging them since P6 end each time it's the same answer: show me the results. the phone is so different from the old one can...
some people are getting irritated with me,keep changing number... but it's really not me la...
first i was sharing the phone with my mother.. then she complain the bill always overshoot. like hello one month only got 100 sms of course overshoot la...
so she got me a prepaid card,which was like really cannot cos' the value use up very fast. uncontrollable la... one minute 22cents one msg 5cents....
FINALLY FINALLY got a proper line. can msg without worrying already..
Singapore is small. really super small. first when i found out about this, was already like woah woah... and then things progressed and time passed. and then Joey told me about something related to this. omg la! it's so shocking lor... i mean, your own ______mate? and she's _______'s h___? and i thought it was someone else, still okay... but she's from ___ _c__o_! wah.. i need to buy more chill pills....
whatever's going on is none of my business.
homework and projects, here i come!
Saturday, May 27, 2006
the jamming. the snipping.
Mrs Wong said that i'm a very responsible girl! when it comes to handbells at least. haha looks like there's hope... i think i rock leh! alot of teachers like me! ok that's so bhb. sec 4 farewell better start planning soon...
results aren't that good. But, quite happy with my position in class =)
A1 - accounts, music
B3 - bio/chem
B4 - ss/lit
C5 - chinese, geography
C6 - english
F9 - e maths
L1R4: 15
L1R5:20
the jam was more of a practice session... Priscilla & Grace-(she left halfway) keyboard, Joey- drums, Sarah and Raphael(?)- electric guitar, Sacey and I- bass guitar. cool. we practiced for the first hour and jammed for the 2nd. yeah, i can proudly say that we did jam something after a looooooooong time. BUT there were screws here and there... so in a desperate attempt to complete a song, we made this rule, don't stop even if someone makes a mistake/just continue.. haha... i hope we can complete another song. now that One Way's taken out, which one should we start on? erm, director? we still need you. i suggest we start on all the songs even though screws will always be present. rather than get stuck at one song all the time and be unable to move on...
(wait a minute. joey isn't the fixed drummer. i ain't the original bassist. so does that mean our work today... all gone down the drain?)
Sarah, Joey and Stacey..
sorry guys! the woman really took damn long to cut my hair.. i've never sat in front of a mirror for more than an hour before (unless you count last year's dance rehearsals)
results aren't that good. But, quite happy with my position in class =)
A1 - accounts, music
B3 - bio/chem
B4 - ss/lit
C5 - chinese, geography
C6 - english
F9 - e maths
L1R4: 15
L1R5:20
the jam was more of a practice session... Priscilla & Grace-(she left halfway) keyboard, Joey- drums, Sarah and Raphael(?)- electric guitar, Sacey and I- bass guitar. cool. we practiced for the first hour and jammed for the 2nd. yeah, i can proudly say that we did jam something after a looooooooong time. BUT there were screws here and there... so in a desperate attempt to complete a song, we made this rule, don't stop even if someone makes a mistake/just continue.. haha... i hope we can complete another song. now that One Way's taken out, which one should we start on? erm, director? we still need you. i suggest we start on all the songs even though screws will always be present. rather than get stuck at one song all the time and be unable to move on...
(wait a minute. joey isn't the fixed drummer. i ain't the original bassist. so does that mean our work today... all gone down the drain?)
Sarah, Joey and Stacey..
sorry guys! the woman really took damn long to cut my hair.. i've never sat in front of a mirror for more than an hour before (unless you count last year's dance rehearsals)
Thursday, May 25, 2006
mixed emotions
just when i thought things were getting better...
read my mom's msg:
aunty Jennifer had passed away.
why, why does God take away great people like her, who does mission work for almost her whole life, touching lives and turning people to Christ, why? why, when she was such a good example for us to follow? the whole church is like grieving now... why does Dad allow this to happen??? it was only a mortocycle... she was knocked down and that left her in critical condition... and now we know she's up in heaven with Him...
that kinda affected my mood for the day. 'jamming' sucked, (my opinion), because of this very unexpected news. what if one day God took away my friend or family member? will i be able to put my all in Him like i've been doing all these years?
if there's one question i want to ask, it would be this...
"why?"
read my mom's msg:
aunty Jennifer had passed away.
why, why does God take away great people like her, who does mission work for almost her whole life, touching lives and turning people to Christ, why? why, when she was such a good example for us to follow? the whole church is like grieving now... why does Dad allow this to happen??? it was only a mortocycle... she was knocked down and that left her in critical condition... and now we know she's up in heaven with Him...
that kinda affected my mood for the day. 'jamming' sucked, (my opinion), because of this very unexpected news. what if one day God took away my friend or family member? will i be able to put my all in Him like i've been doing all these years?
if there's one question i want to ask, it would be this...
"why?"
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
assume not, for it's not always right
i haven't even wake up from dreamland and the visitors from the other side are already knocking vigorously at my door. haha. it's ok if it's not understood. not meant for anyone to understand anyway.
who said anything about hating anyone?
who said anything about trusting people i got to know for even less than a year? am i that naive? to tell every single detail? i know where to draw my line. my brain cells are still working.
who said anything about pride?
who said anything about crushes? i used to have a crush on 'dad'. no one at the moment. focusing on God, studies, piano and bass now...
who said anything about me being unable to accept differences?
who said that i'm totally shut off from comments?
who said that i hate the people who made comments if they're meant for me to improve and be alerted about things which i'm unaware of?
who said that after not very nice comments, friends become enemies?
who said that, if i don't respond to something, i have not thought about it? i'm just lost... and i'm not sure how to reply, how to gather my thoughts... i needed time to react and put them down in words.. you can't expect me to give you an instant reply right.
who said that i don't reflect? in fact i reflect too much... which comes to this conclusion:
i know you care. i appreciate that, really.. but it sounded really harsh this morning. i wasn't mentally prepared...
assumptions. assume not, for what you assume is not 100% right all the time.
i choose the people i trust, yes. now i'm announcing to the world, PUBLIC (another point: don't assume things before i open my mouth) this is the first time i'm putting this type of thing up for the world to see.
-God, my Daddy never lets me down. He's always there for me. i cry out to Him and he never fails to answer. sometimes i don't even need to express feelings out cause He already knows. He is the first One i turn to, He is the One and Only... nobody can replace Him.
-my trusted mentor is older and wiser, she knows alot and can give good advice. her shoulder has been available for me to cry on since 2003. i know i can trust her. (lunching with her soon, i can't wait)
-parents? well i'm not too sure about that. my life is still quite restricted,they only allow me to make friends from school and church.
-(my 'dad' has been gone for good. he's kinda out of my list)
-friends. a very wide range indeed, so exactly who? it's really quite simple. requirements: i completely trust those who are close, whom i know for at least a year, who are not mixing around with the wrong crowd and are not bad influences. i trust those who are ok-close, whom i know for at least 1/2 a year. note the word 'completely' is absent here. (Hillary and Joanne are different, though.) want to gain my trust, not that easy you know...
does that answer questions?? everything is summarised in this post and mainly the lines in red.
oh yeah, have i mentioned? i don't hate anyone currently. i'm not that selfish and i'm happy for those who are sure of what they want to do in the future so please don't assume.
be blessed, peeps... =)
meanwhile, i'll continue to listen carefully to morning devotions. those this week are having an impact on me.
who said anything about hating anyone?
who said anything about trusting people i got to know for even less than a year? am i that naive? to tell every single detail? i know where to draw my line. my brain cells are still working.
who said anything about pride?
who said anything about crushes? i used to have a crush on 'dad'. no one at the moment. focusing on God, studies, piano and bass now...
who said anything about me being unable to accept differences?
who said that i'm totally shut off from comments?
who said that i hate the people who made comments if they're meant for me to improve and be alerted about things which i'm unaware of?
who said that after not very nice comments, friends become enemies?
who said that, if i don't respond to something, i have not thought about it? i'm just lost... and i'm not sure how to reply, how to gather my thoughts... i needed time to react and put them down in words.. you can't expect me to give you an instant reply right.
who said that i don't reflect? in fact i reflect too much... which comes to this conclusion:
i know you care. i appreciate that, really.. but it sounded really harsh this morning. i wasn't mentally prepared...
assumptions. assume not, for what you assume is not 100% right all the time.
i choose the people i trust, yes. now i'm announcing to the world, PUBLIC (another point: don't assume things before i open my mouth) this is the first time i'm putting this type of thing up for the world to see.
-God, my Daddy never lets me down. He's always there for me. i cry out to Him and he never fails to answer. sometimes i don't even need to express feelings out cause He already knows. He is the first One i turn to, He is the One and Only... nobody can replace Him.
-my trusted mentor is older and wiser, she knows alot and can give good advice. her shoulder has been available for me to cry on since 2003. i know i can trust her. (lunching with her soon, i can't wait)
-parents? well i'm not too sure about that. my life is still quite restricted,they only allow me to make friends from school and church.
-(my 'dad' has been gone for good. he's kinda out of my list)
-friends. a very wide range indeed, so exactly who? it's really quite simple. requirements: i completely trust those who are close, whom i know for at least a year, who are not mixing around with the wrong crowd and are not bad influences. i trust those who are ok-close, whom i know for at least 1/2 a year. note the word 'completely' is absent here. (Hillary and Joanne are different, though.) want to gain my trust, not that easy you know...
does that answer questions?? everything is summarised in this post and mainly the lines in red.
oh yeah, have i mentioned? i don't hate anyone currently. i'm not that selfish and i'm happy for those who are sure of what they want to do in the future so please don't assume.
be blessed, peeps... =)
meanwhile, i'll continue to listen carefully to morning devotions. those this week are having an impact on me.
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
just when i thought.........
i can always leave if you want me to do so that badly,
i can let you do everything you want
you just can't make me stop that
it's more than just little hints, you know
i'm not some dumb ass who'd let you talk behind my back
and pretend that i don't know a shit about it
trust can be so deceiving...
i can never trust anyone again
not even them...
omg....
so shattered on the inside
where're you when i need you most?
i need to talk to you
missing you badly... it's been a freaking long time
i can always leave if you want me to do so that badly,
i can let you do everything you want
you just can't make me stop that
it's more than just little hints, you know
i'm not some dumb ass who'd let you talk behind my back
and pretend that i don't know a shit about it
trust can be so deceiving...
i can never trust anyone again
not even them...
omg....
so shattered on the inside
where're you when i need you most?
i need to talk to you
missing you badly... it's been a freaking long time
wth! should start smiling with my mouth closed
can't wait to sit in front of the hairdresser... and shove those spectacles away. but the thing is my eyelashes are too long so the lenses cannot go in. what a lame reason, really.
worship team... they re-grouped the vocalists! now there's 3 teams. Grace (Quek) and i are in team 1. and the other 2 teams have 3 singers, so not fair...
should i go for the sonic fest boot camp? christel encouraged everyone in the team to go. but.. there's a musician's elective and nothing for vocalists. i'm not playing any instrument for the team, so quite hesitant about going for the session. they have evening worship which is open to everyone, FOC. to go or not to go?
Adeline kept 'molesting' me this morning during assembly. was poking my back from the top to the waist la... lesson learnt: never sit in front of her.
according to Ade, 50% of the marathon group feels left out, cos' of the jamming discussions... they feel they're not involved enough? hey, that's only for those playing to perfect their instruments, which we have failed so miserably.. (2 hours and not even a complete song...) if we include the entire group for the 'jamms', they'll just complain that the studio is too small and that they're wasting their money. so to solve the problem, all of us are going to practice by singing in between lessons. get the whole group involved. well at least that's my suggestion...
worship team... they re-grouped the vocalists! now there's 3 teams. Grace (Quek) and i are in team 1. and the other 2 teams have 3 singers, so not fair...
should i go for the sonic fest boot camp? christel encouraged everyone in the team to go. but.. there's a musician's elective and nothing for vocalists. i'm not playing any instrument for the team, so quite hesitant about going for the session. they have evening worship which is open to everyone, FOC. to go or not to go?
Adeline kept 'molesting' me this morning during assembly. was poking my back from the top to the waist la... lesson learnt: never sit in front of her.
according to Ade, 50% of the marathon group feels left out, cos' of the jamming discussions... they feel they're not involved enough? hey, that's only for those playing to perfect their instruments, which we have failed so miserably.. (2 hours and not even a complete song...) if we include the entire group for the 'jamms', they'll just complain that the studio is too small and that they're wasting their money. so to solve the problem, all of us are going to practice by singing in between lessons. get the whole group involved. well at least that's my suggestion...
Monday, May 22, 2006
energy all drained
i woke up at 6.05 this morning. only to find that i had 10min to prepare. lols
at the beginning of the walk, it was like, silence. no one spoke. haha.. none among the three of us at least (Jasmine, Joey, & i) then after a long break at suntec, we got high and crapped throughout the remaining 5km. never walked for so long before but hey, we completed the whole 10km! not bad right...
i hate fighting with for buses. typical Singaporean reaction, kiasu until like that. push and push... and we missed like 5 buses? haha... to suntec again, this time for lunch. and waited for someone to come. wah i tell you ah, even the procrastinator cows came home for dinner. (get it? when someone says (something) until the cows come home means they are very slow/take very long) okay. out of point.
super tiring pls.. came home and wanted to do a little of bio. the result, slept on the table. haha...
i've been practicing bass since 8 something. and uh, i'm acoustic guitar to practice because i have no bass guit. lols... my whole arm is like cramped!! now i can only type... Joey's here practicing as well. we tried to do One Way and Tell The World. haha it's a little successful if we do it without the music. urgh, the bad thing about bass is that your hand will just stop halfway and stop plucking the strings.
wahah... my arm is aching.
at the beginning of the walk, it was like, silence. no one spoke. haha.. none among the three of us at least (Jasmine, Joey, & i) then after a long break at suntec, we got high and crapped throughout the remaining 5km. never walked for so long before but hey, we completed the whole 10km! not bad right...
i hate fighting with for buses. typical Singaporean reaction, kiasu until like that. push and push... and we missed like 5 buses? haha... to suntec again, this time for lunch. and waited for someone to come. wah i tell you ah, even the procrastinator cows came home for dinner. (get it? when someone says (something) until the cows come home means they are very slow/take very long) okay. out of point.
super tiring pls.. came home and wanted to do a little of bio. the result, slept on the table. haha...
i've been practicing bass since 8 something. and uh, i'm acoustic guitar to practice because i have no bass guit. lols... my whole arm is like cramped!! now i can only type... Joey's here practicing as well. we tried to do One Way and Tell The World. haha it's a little successful if we do it without the music. urgh, the bad thing about bass is that your hand will just stop halfway and stop plucking the strings.
wahah... my arm is aching.
Sunday, May 21, 2006
wherethelovelastsforever
this morning's workshop was on time management, not making right decisions. i admit it's quite useful. learnt things like saying "no" to requests if you are reluctant, don't force yourself or do it and add on to your already tight schedule. then i thought, look at the people i know. how many times have they turned me down? almost never. and now we're taught to say "no" which is somewhat difficult...
rush, rush, wait, rush, wait. the result? 10mins late for the so-called jamm. that wee lee guy was so errrrr... annoying? hah. probs with so many things. ok now i believe the music director. Fourtones is ten times better! will be glad to go back there, though it's further.
Sarah, learn your guitar chords. C#m, G#m, whatever... Priscilla, learn your keyboard chords. it's a MUST. cannot play without knowing at least the tonic triads because we're not singing hymns. Tania, you better come for the next jamm and drum properly. Clare also better come. i know our class 'band' standard is low, just come and contribute. as for me, ...... i'll be an extra again? other than teaching keyboard. note: i'm not a good teacher and i cannot teach so asking me is like asking the wall.
right. after 2 hours, we still couldn't finish up a song. only like 3/4 of it.
i was super late for youth service la... should have left earlier.
so we had cell bonding after dinner. and gosh, i feel that we really bonded, i mean, all of us sitting/lying down in a circle for so long engaged in the activities Joe and Smarties had prepared for us. though i'm one of the two girls in the cell (yes, just TWO) i think.. i like my cell members and they're very thoughtful and encouraging =) overall, had a great time la. Wan Hui drove me home at 12am.
rush, rush, wait, rush, wait. the result? 10mins late for the so-called jamm. that wee lee guy was so errrrr... annoying? hah. probs with so many things. ok now i believe the music director. Fourtones is ten times better! will be glad to go back there, though it's further.
Sarah, learn your guitar chords. C#m, G#m, whatever... Priscilla, learn your keyboard chords. it's a MUST. cannot play without knowing at least the tonic triads because we're not singing hymns. Tania, you better come for the next jamm and drum properly. Clare also better come. i know our class 'band' standard is low, just come and contribute. as for me, ...... i'll be an extra again? other than teaching keyboard. note: i'm not a good teacher and i cannot teach so asking me is like asking the wall.
right. after 2 hours, we still couldn't finish up a song. only like 3/4 of it.
i was super late for youth service la... should have left earlier.
so we had cell bonding after dinner. and gosh, i feel that we really bonded, i mean, all of us sitting/lying down in a circle for so long engaged in the activities Joe and Smarties had prepared for us. though i'm one of the two girls in the cell (yes, just TWO) i think.. i like my cell members and they're very thoughtful and encouraging =) overall, had a great time la. Wan Hui drove me home at 12am.
Saturday, May 20, 2006
yayness, back from the hospital
tomorrow's gonna be an extreeeeeemly long day.
starts off with the workshop on making right decisions from 0750-1100. then i'll be home to get changed and if there's time, lunch. meeting at 1230 for jamming until 1500. youth ablaze service cum cell discussions, 1600-1830. after that it's cell bonding all the way till the cows come home. as long as it's before the 2300. i won't wanna be questioned by the men/women in blue. can't stay over in church cause, Big Walk the next day.
speaking of cell bonding, i've not done what i'm supposed to do for the cell. prepare stuff. some show-and-tell thing, another of Joe's crazy ideas... and hth (how t h) am i gonna get it... one night? see, that's another example of last-minute work which should be avoided.
to the one i spoke to about it:
i went through alot recently la k.. almost excatly the same case. you're 16 but i'm not even 15 leh... look at my previous post. give your all to God. Philippians 4:6-7, Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requeststo God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. don't waste your time thinking about this kind of people. remember what i told you alrights =)
starts off with the workshop on making right decisions from 0750-1100. then i'll be home to get changed and if there's time, lunch. meeting at 1230 for jamming until 1500. youth ablaze service cum cell discussions, 1600-1830. after that it's cell bonding all the way till the cows come home. as long as it's before the 2300. i won't wanna be questioned by the men/women in blue. can't stay over in church cause, Big Walk the next day.
speaking of cell bonding, i've not done what i'm supposed to do for the cell. prepare stuff. some show-and-tell thing, another of Joe's crazy ideas... and hth (how t h) am i gonna get it... one night? see, that's another example of last-minute work which should be avoided.
to the one i spoke to about it:
i went through alot recently la k.. almost excatly the same case. you're 16 but i'm not even 15 leh... look at my previous post. give your all to God. Philippians 4:6-7, Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requeststo God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. don't waste your time thinking about this kind of people. remember what i told you alrights =)
Thursday, May 18, 2006
urgh
a thousand times i've failed
still Your mercy remains
and should i stumble again
i'm caught in Your grace
everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
my purpose remains
the art of losing myself
in bringing You praise
everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
in my heart and my soul
Lord i give You control
consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
become my embrace
to love You from the inside out
everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
and the cry of my heart
is to bring you praise
from the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
that's excatly what i want to tell God... "a thousand times i've failed. still your mercy remains" this whole song just appeals to me la k. He picked me up each time i fell, filled my cup whenever i was dry. His love is everlasting, he will not let _____ undergo that much suffering, His light shines when all else fades. i just need to pray and trust..
i don't care about it already la, why let it affect me so much right. it's "no longer i but Christ in me" so why should i be fretting over it. let her go and say all she wants. go tell the whole church la, "i don't care what people will say, (i'm running after you)". what's most important now is the one in hospital... pray so _____ wont have to go through so much pain and the insides will work well...
i'll try to push that away from my mind. think about the positive things. i might wanna learn the bass guitar more in-depth this time. add on to my list of instruments. haha.. it's easier to learn more instruments when you have almost 9 years of piano background. besides, i already know this many, it'd be easier anyway so why not learn more..
usually pianists have a metronome when they play. it just goes on ticking and they follow the beat and play. but i don't have one... and in order not to let myself go off-beat, i use my left leg to set the tempo and yeah, the left foot 'taps' the beat. speed must be constant and cannot be confused with whatever's the hands are playing on the keyboard. that's just one advantage of doing without a metronome. hand-feet coordination. wait a minute, that sounds familiar...
a little encouragement for today's 'jammers', the ones learning drums:
you're doing great. keep improving! listening to more music helps :)
when i listen to music, i dunno what to pick up. the vocal harmony parts, the keyboarding or for now, bass and drums (because i've been surrounded by drummers and drummers-to-be) wahaha... so it ends up as dividing the song into a few parts and pick our the different instruments and voice. lol.
music is my passion. i'd rather think of this God-given talent than be bothered by negative stuff.
still Your mercy remains
and should i stumble again
i'm caught in Your grace
everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
my purpose remains
the art of losing myself
in bringing You praise
everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
in my heart and my soul
Lord i give You control
consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
become my embrace
to love You from the inside out
everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
and the cry of my heart
is to bring you praise
from the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
that's excatly what i want to tell God... "a thousand times i've failed. still your mercy remains" this whole song just appeals to me la k. He picked me up each time i fell, filled my cup whenever i was dry. His love is everlasting, he will not let _____ undergo that much suffering, His light shines when all else fades. i just need to pray and trust..
i don't care about it already la, why let it affect me so much right. it's "no longer i but Christ in me" so why should i be fretting over it. let her go and say all she wants. go tell the whole church la, "i don't care what people will say, (i'm running after you)". what's most important now is the one in hospital... pray so _____ wont have to go through so much pain and the insides will work well...
i'll try to push that away from my mind. think about the positive things. i might wanna learn the bass guitar more in-depth this time. add on to my list of instruments. haha.. it's easier to learn more instruments when you have almost 9 years of piano background. besides, i already know this many, it'd be easier anyway so why not learn more..
usually pianists have a metronome when they play. it just goes on ticking and they follow the beat and play. but i don't have one... and in order not to let myself go off-beat, i use my left leg to set the tempo and yeah, the left foot 'taps' the beat. speed must be constant and cannot be confused with whatever's the hands are playing on the keyboard. that's just one advantage of doing without a metronome. hand-feet coordination. wait a minute, that sounds familiar...
a little encouragement for today's 'jammers', the ones learning drums:
you're doing great. keep improving! listening to more music helps :)
when i listen to music, i dunno what to pick up. the vocal harmony parts, the keyboarding or for now, bass and drums (because i've been surrounded by drummers and drummers-to-be) wahaha... so it ends up as dividing the song into a few parts and pick our the different instruments and voice. lol.
music is my passion. i'd rather think of this God-given talent than be bothered by negative stuff.
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
fieldtrip & prep lesson
[edited,1145pm]
lit test sure die.
some world-class speaker was invited by the principal to speak today. almost everyone expected a dull speech. lol we were so wrong... talking about (literally) bad hair day when he was bald, his daughter, being able to play the bass guitar and drums. oh yea, he even demo-ed for us. he has a good sense of humour.
the fieldtrip to labrador park was so-so... threw away my shoes and socks. yucks la, we went there and, high tide. so the waves just wet the entire foot and a lot of sand went inside. so there were 2 parts of the 'lesson': one on weathering and erosion, the other about vegetation. nothing much. the weathering one was super boring. drawing rocks, observing stuff... i wanted to just sit on the sand la.. vegetation was slightly more interesting.
today the class displayed good class spirit and unity. this could be seen during the journey back to school... camp cheers and campfiresongs. haha... we were all so high. remember last year, it was so cliquish, everything was done among their own cliques. this year's different. it's the whole class being involved in activities.
ms Ting said, of all the classes she took for the trip, ours was one of the best. lets see... ms Sen likes us because the whole class passed bio and dear wen qin broke the record for highest marks in dunno how long, ms Ang had said that our class was unlike the previous years' 3c2s. something different about us, haha.. mrs Eng likes us because we did alot better than 3c1 for accounts and we're never late for lessons, mrs Chong likes us because i can see that she enjoys teaching this class.
Stacey, Joey and i were crapping at the void deck opposite the school. sang songs and really crapppped.. then we walked the looooooong way to the bus stop and went to Heartland.
KFC for dinner. music director aka mysterious teacher taught them some basics of drumming. i was there as an extra actually. haha.. Joey made me go. didn't waste time la, learnt something about drums. AND bass guitar! didn't know it was that simple la... (the super out-of-tuned guitar at home was finally tuned and used. lols.. ) music director taught the bass thing. at any one time just press one string can already, haha don't need to worry about which finger press where. interesting. i'm learning more instruments =)
we were talking about very random stuff. like THE salt. and the pronounciation of some words..
two of them then came over to my house. it became damn noisy. the sound of chopsticks hit on the cabinet and table.. haha... i was supposed to be an extra today and not learn anything from the director leh. ended up 'practicing' with them. haha... 12341234.. created a fake and cymbaless drumset using small and big chairs. so creative right, my idea mah... haha.. then i played around with the guitar and found that it bass part was much easier than the others.
i was super high la. then my whole mood changed dramatically.
as if things in my family aren't bad enough, my mother went to add on to it. hello, who says i don't care? i may seem like i don't give a damn about things, but do you know that i'm praying super hard, 'behind the scenes'? i'm not that heartless you know. i don't just heck care and be so self-centred. still.. what's the use of telling you i'm praying hard, you won't listen anyway. you'll just say that i simply don't care. it hurts... i might just go down to the hospital alone tmr.
as if i'm not afraid of the whole situation now... pls, i'm normal on the outside and trembling on the inside. what you see is not what you get. being a biology student, i know that what the doctors did was abit too extreme. such a big thing, how could i not care la? God knows ok. i don't bother about what you think already. Daddy in heaven knows me from the inside out. He knows my character. He knows that i'm not a self-centred person, that i care for this family member... why can't my mother be more understanding? why can't she trust me more? why??? my own mother...
i cannot stop the tears from flowing. Lord, i love You.. thank You for watching over me... please also continue to watch over my family and let all misunderstandings be cleared...
lit test sure die.
some world-class speaker was invited by the principal to speak today. almost everyone expected a dull speech. lol we were so wrong... talking about (literally) bad hair day when he was bald, his daughter, being able to play the bass guitar and drums. oh yea, he even demo-ed for us. he has a good sense of humour.
the fieldtrip to labrador park was so-so... threw away my shoes and socks. yucks la, we went there and, high tide. so the waves just wet the entire foot and a lot of sand went inside. so there were 2 parts of the 'lesson': one on weathering and erosion, the other about vegetation. nothing much. the weathering one was super boring. drawing rocks, observing stuff... i wanted to just sit on the sand la.. vegetation was slightly more interesting.
today the class displayed good class spirit and unity. this could be seen during the journey back to school... camp cheers and campfiresongs. haha... we were all so high. remember last year, it was so cliquish, everything was done among their own cliques. this year's different. it's the whole class being involved in activities.
ms Ting said, of all the classes she took for the trip, ours was one of the best. lets see... ms Sen likes us because the whole class passed bio and dear wen qin broke the record for highest marks in dunno how long, ms Ang had said that our class was unlike the previous years' 3c2s. something different about us, haha.. mrs Eng likes us because we did alot better than 3c1 for accounts and we're never late for lessons, mrs Chong likes us because i can see that she enjoys teaching this class.
Stacey, Joey and i were crapping at the void deck opposite the school. sang songs and really crapppped.. then we walked the looooooong way to the bus stop and went to Heartland.
KFC for dinner. music director aka mysterious teacher taught them some basics of drumming. i was there as an extra actually. haha.. Joey made me go. didn't waste time la, learnt something about drums. AND bass guitar! didn't know it was that simple la... (the super out-of-tuned guitar at home was finally tuned and used. lols.. ) music director taught the bass thing. at any one time just press one string can already, haha don't need to worry about which finger press where. interesting. i'm learning more instruments =)
we were talking about very random stuff. like THE salt. and the pronounciation of some words..
two of them then came over to my house. it became damn noisy. the sound of chopsticks hit on the cabinet and table.. haha... i was supposed to be an extra today and not learn anything from the director leh. ended up 'practicing' with them. haha... 12341234.. created a fake and cymbaless drumset using small and big chairs. so creative right, my idea mah... haha.. then i played around with the guitar and found that it bass part was much easier than the others.
i was super high la. then my whole mood changed dramatically.
as if i'm not afraid of the whole situation now... pls, i'm normal on the outside and trembling on the inside. what you see is not what you get. being a biology student, i know that what the doctors did was abit too extreme. such a big thing, how could i not care la? God knows ok. i don't bother about what you think already. Daddy in heaven knows me from the inside out. He knows my character. He knows that i'm not a self-centred person, that i care for this family member... why can't my mother be more understanding? why can't she trust me more? why??? my own mother...
i cannot stop the tears from flowing. Lord, i love You.. thank You for watching over me... please also continue to watch over my family and let all misunderstandings be cleared...
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
today's full of ups and downs
[edited, 1.30am]
the title says it all.
this morning.. my dad couldn't send us to school, he wasn't feeling well. damn hard to get a cab between 6.30-6.45am.
i wanted to discuss things about the music marathon. we tried to. and we could not come to an agreement, about who would be the musicians. i thought things were more or less settled. no, they only made me more stressed. suddenly i was like, the I/C.
i'm not the leader, how come it was me getting all stressed up? i had to answer to the mysterious teacher and confirm things fast. didn't go for recess... too stressful.. i had gastric...
then i thought, i'll just was my hands off the whole thing la. why did i even bother to try to coordinate things when the rest were not satisfied with this and that, why, when they could not see that time was running out? i wanted very much to give up. dunno if anyone noticed, but i was crying a bit. and then finally they came to a conclusion. but... it could not be finalised until the mysterious teacher said yes...
so during lunch. after the phone call which got things settled, and Yu Hui, Hillary, Priscilla and Madeline attempted to lift my spirits... i felt better.. i mean, lunch was perfect with them and the load slightly lifted up.
english teacher did not come today. so i was in the library doing work and msging... then one message appeared from my mother which totally brought me down again.
something happened and a family member something... i felt like breaking down right there, where everyone in the library could see... it was just too sudden, too sudden... i couldn't take it.
i really need prayers. not me, but someone in my family. pleassssssssse pray hard that all will go well... you might say it's not a major thing. but it's really too sudden...
Lord, i commit everything to You and trust that Dad, You will let it go well... i pray with faith that You will not let anything else happen to make things worse...
it's both school and family stuff... how to cope? i'm only this young... it's too much for me to handle.. my previous further describes the pressure i'm going through...
just wanna sincerely thank these people, they know why..
Madeline, Yu Hui, Priscilla, Hillary
...and for more than just being there..
Joey, Timothy
my juniors say i play the piano well. it's all by the grace of God... i hope to do a good job for the music marathon.. keyboarding for Him... He gave me this talent anyway, it's only right that i give Him my all in this major project... because Colossians 3:23 - Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not men
[edited to add]
this song made me realise how much i need God in my life, especially during this time. the tears just flowed like a tap... like so automatic... this is when i'm really desperate for Him...
Draw me close to You/Never let me go/I lay it all down again/To hear You say that I'm your friend
You are my desire/No one else will do/Cause nothing else could take Your place/To feel the warmth of Your embrace
Help me find the way/bring me back to You
You're all I want/You're all I've ever needed/You're all I want/Help me know You are near
the title says it all.
this morning.. my dad couldn't send us to school, he wasn't feeling well. damn hard to get a cab between 6.30-6.45am.
i wanted to discuss things about the music marathon. we tried to. and we could not come to an agreement, about who would be the musicians. i thought things were more or less settled. no, they only made me more stressed. suddenly i was like, the I/C.
i'm not the leader, how come it was me getting all stressed up? i had to answer to the mysterious teacher and confirm things fast. didn't go for recess... too stressful.. i had gastric...
then i thought, i'll just was my hands off the whole thing la. why did i even bother to try to coordinate things when the rest were not satisfied with this and that, why, when they could not see that time was running out? i wanted very much to give up. dunno if anyone noticed, but i was crying a bit. and then finally they came to a conclusion. but... it could not be finalised until the mysterious teacher said yes...
so during lunch. after the phone call which got things settled, and Yu Hui, Hillary, Priscilla and Madeline attempted to lift my spirits... i felt better.. i mean, lunch was perfect with them and the load slightly lifted up.
english teacher did not come today. so i was in the library doing work and msging... then one message appeared from my mother which totally brought me down again.
something happened and a family member something... i felt like breaking down right there, where everyone in the library could see... it was just too sudden, too sudden... i couldn't take it.
i really need prayers. not me, but someone in my family. pleassssssssse pray hard that all will go well... you might say it's not a major thing. but it's really too sudden...
Lord, i commit everything to You and trust that Dad, You will let it go well... i pray with faith that You will not let anything else happen to make things worse...
it's both school and family stuff... how to cope? i'm only this young... it's too much for me to handle.. my previous further describes the pressure i'm going through...
just wanna sincerely thank these people, they know why..
Madeline, Yu Hui, Priscilla, Hillary
...and for more than just being there..
Joey, Timothy
my juniors say i play the piano well. it's all by the grace of God... i hope to do a good job for the music marathon.. keyboarding for Him... He gave me this talent anyway, it's only right that i give Him my all in this major project... because Colossians 3:23 - Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not men
[edited to add]
this song made me realise how much i need God in my life, especially during this time. the tears just flowed like a tap... like so automatic... this is when i'm really desperate for Him...
Draw me close to You/Never let me go/I lay it all down again/To hear You say that I'm your friend
You are my desire/No one else will do/Cause nothing else could take Your place/To feel the warmth of Your embrace
Help me find the way/bring me back to You
You're all I want/You're all I've ever needed/You're all I want/Help me know You are near
Monday, May 15, 2006
I'M DAMN STRESSED NOW CAN.
PROJECT WORK! AND WE'RE NOT EVEN IN JC.
SOME FOOD BUSINESS PROPOSAL...
STILL HAVE MUSIC MARATHON: CLASS AND HANDBELL ITEM/PERFORMANCE
AND CIP PROJECT FOR THE AUTISTIC KIDS
AND LIT TEST TO WORRY ABOUT.
wth... how do they cope with PW in JC??
we're only in sec 3 and going through soooooo much pressure..
I'm going to finish burning the midnight oil and burn down the block.
This is the result of last-minute work.
to think that i had sympathized with you... wrong choice, sadly..
PROJECT WORK! AND WE'RE NOT EVEN IN JC.
SOME FOOD BUSINESS PROPOSAL...
STILL HAVE MUSIC MARATHON: CLASS AND HANDBELL ITEM/PERFORMANCE
AND CIP PROJECT FOR THE AUTISTIC KIDS
AND LIT TEST TO WORRY ABOUT.
wth... how do they cope with PW in JC??
we're only in sec 3 and going through soooooo much pressure..
I'm going to finish burning the midnight oil and burn down the block.
This is the result of last-minute work.
to think that i had sympathized with you... wrong choice, sadly..
Sunday, May 14, 2006
i forgot abt peer lites' meeting! shit la.. ms ___ going to sit and aquash me...
Wooots!
Finally got Hillsong United's 'United We Stand'.. The album rocks! (Haha hey Joey, Tr--ks over Dr----) The time has come To stand for all we believe in So I for one Am gonna give my praise to You
Bought 2 skirts. A feathered rose for my mum.
God helped me give my all during today's worship. I didn't feel pain when singing. As long as I focused on Him, all the pain was taken away. God is good =) But when it came to talking and laughing, I was like ouch-ing throughout... I swear the ulcer's getting bigger! Sucks okay, totally hate ulcers... Haha but I'll still eat chocolates and ice-cream.
Global Day of Prayer
4th June 2006
National Stadium
7.30pm
Who's going? Dunno whether I should go...
Finally got Hillsong United's 'United We Stand'.. The album rocks! (Haha hey Joey, Tr--ks over Dr----) The time has come To stand for all we believe in So I for one Am gonna give my praise to You
Bought 2 skirts. A feathered rose for my mum.
God helped me give my all during today's worship. I didn't feel pain when singing. As long as I focused on Him, all the pain was taken away. God is good =) But when it came to talking and laughing, I was like ouch-ing throughout... I swear the ulcer's getting bigger! Sucks okay, totally hate ulcers... Haha but I'll still eat chocolates and ice-cream.
Global Day of Prayer
4th June 2006
National Stadium
7.30pm
Who's going? Dunno whether I should go...
Saturday, May 13, 2006
3c2 girls in my group for music marathon!!
WE HAVE TO DO OUR PART FOR THE GROUP, CLASS AND SCHOOL.
ANYONE WHO WANTS TO PLAY DRUMS OR BASS FOR THE GROUP'S 1/2 HR PERFORMANCE PLS TELL ME.
OR YOU JUST WANNA LEARN.
LIMITED PLACES, 5 ONLY!!
AND YOU'VE SEEN THE TEACHER BEFORE.
COMMENT ASAP OK. EMAIL, MSN, TAG, ETC..
THANKS!
Will further dicuss this on Monday..
i can't smile (literally) with you
being on my lip..
get off me!
you're hurting like crazy
stupid ulcer
Friday, May 12, 2006
Thursday, May 11, 2006
sadly,no excitement this week
Main thing yesterday was that we had our discussion for the 90 hours music marathon. Led the group together with Tania, Stacey and Priscilla. We only did Christian songs and a Chinese one. (Wah Yuhui can sing Chinese songs really well.) I taught some of them the alto part for this particular song. Cos' none of them knew and the chorus was quite high.. We actually wanted to play song of the songs 'live', but then no one can play the bass. If Clare does electric, then no drummer. Stick to sing-a-long? ..... & it's not like we can get external help...
My whole banded class failed Chinese I think. 1st time failing in 1.5yrs. 20/56 leh isn't that fantastic. Wth. Gong han also fail, 7/20. Just when I thought my Chinese was fine...
The class did damn well for biology, making me look so stupid. No failures and Ms Sem was pleased with us. Could have gotten more marks.. I did badly.
E maths is confirm die lor.. stared at the paper and found that I didn't know 90% of the sums. So in the end, just wrote some rubbish equations and submitted. Maths used to be my best subject... now it's my worst...
According to Mrs Batiah, the whole level did badly for English. Only a few from my class passed. Having failed the previous term, I was somewhat surprised that I passed this time. BUT. It's only just passed. On the dot. 25/50 so what difference does it make right.. still lousy..
What's happening to the most important subjects?? English, maths and science... Now it's up to chemistry to pull up the science marks which I think, cannot make it... Please don't kill me ok..
I find myself struggling to refrain from eating ice-cream like everyday. Save money mah.. Yes I know, money again... If I go by the front gate, the ice-cream uncle is there. If go back gate, will end up walking past KFC, Macs and 7-eleven. All that ice-cream!!!!!!! gosh man. It's so hard to control.. so I end up buying =D McFlurry rocks. I love ice-cream!!
Pity my friends leh, haha.. cos' I always ask them to eat with me and then they'll be like, so reluctant.. Can't find an ice-cream partner. Lol.. I have science lab partner, chapel partner, dance partner, class partner.... but no ice-cream partner =(
Starting to lose interest in friendster..
Oh and Happy 18th to Simon :)
I'm on backup duty this week.
AND for church camp! I really dun want lor... if youth camp still can la, but.. church camp?! that's both youths and adults! yes i know i've sang for evangelistic events which includes members of the public. but i just don't want to sing for the camp!! worship is a lot easier on the floor than the stage la... they always make the 'older team' sing lor... sounds so old but it means more experienced. not showing off or boasting hor. can they ask the 'younger team' for once?
[edited, 1.10am]
My whole banded class failed Chinese I think. 1st time failing in 1.5yrs. 20/56 leh isn't that fantastic. Wth. Gong han also fail, 7/20. Just when I thought my Chinese was fine...
The class did damn well for biology, making me look so stupid. No failures and Ms Sem was pleased with us. Could have gotten more marks.. I did badly.
E maths is confirm die lor.. stared at the paper and found that I didn't know 90% of the sums. So in the end, just wrote some rubbish equations and submitted. Maths used to be my best subject... now it's my worst...
According to Mrs Batiah, the whole level did badly for English. Only a few from my class passed. Having failed the previous term, I was somewhat surprised that I passed this time. BUT. It's only just passed. On the dot. 25/50 so what difference does it make right.. still lousy..
What's happening to the most important subjects?? English, maths and science... Now it's up to chemistry to pull up the science marks which I think, cannot make it... Please don't kill me ok..
I find myself struggling to refrain from eating ice-cream like everyday. Save money mah.. Yes I know, money again... If I go by the front gate, the ice-cream uncle is there. If go back gate, will end up walking past KFC, Macs and 7-eleven. All that ice-cream!!!!!!! gosh man. It's so hard to control.. so I end up buying =D McFlurry rocks. I love ice-cream!!
Pity my friends leh, haha.. cos' I always ask them to eat with me and then they'll be like, so reluctant.. Can't find an ice-cream partner. Lol.. I have science lab partner, chapel partner, dance partner, class partner.... but no ice-cream partner =(
Starting to lose interest in friendster..
Oh and Happy 18th to Simon :)
I'm on backup duty this week.
AND for church camp! I really dun want lor... if youth camp still can la, but.. church camp?! that's both youths and adults! yes i know i've sang for evangelistic events which includes members of the public. but i just don't want to sing for the camp!! worship is a lot easier on the floor than the stage la... they always make the 'older team' sing lor... sounds so old but it means more experienced. not showing off or boasting hor. can they ask the 'younger team' for once?
[edited, 1.10am]
Monday, May 08, 2006
kindly leave if you don't like long posts
Perhaps I should have agreed on the jaw surgery.
why are you even thinking of it? God created you in His own image, why that thought?
Sigh... I really dunno....
//
I've always admired the way they play the guitars and drums with such passion. They must be truly blessed.
//
We rode into town the other day,
just me and my daddy.
he said I'd finally reached that age,
and I could ride next to him on a horse
that of course, was not quite as wild.
We heard a crowd of people shouting,
and so we stopped to find out why.
There was that man that my dad said he loved,
but today there was fear in his eyes.
So I said, "Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows.
Daddy please, can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry.
You said He was stronger than all of those guys;
Daddy, please tell me why.
Why does everyone want Him to die?"
Later that day, the sky grew cloudy,
and Daddy said I should go inside.
Somehow he knew things would get stormy.
Boy was he right,
but I could not keep from wondering
if there was something he had to hide.
So after he left, I had to find out.
I was not afraid of getting lost.
So I followed the crowds to a hill
where I knew men had been killed,
and I heard a voice come from the cross.
And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my robe?
This crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows.
Father please, can't you do something?
I know that You must hear my cry.
I thought I could handle a cross of this size.
Father, remind me why.
Why does everyone want me to die?
Oh, when will I understand why?"
My precious son, I hear them screaming.
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming.
But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own.
Jesus, this hurts me much more than you know,
but this dark hour, I must do nothing,
though I've heard your unbearable cry.
The power in your blood destroys all of the lies;
soon you'll see past their unmerciful eyes.
Look, there below, see the child
trembling by her father's side.
Now I can tell you why...
she is why you must die.
why are you even thinking of it? God created you in His own image, why that thought?
Sigh... I really dunno....
//
I've always admired the way they play the guitars and drums with such passion. They must be truly blessed.
//
We rode into town the other day,
just me and my daddy.
he said I'd finally reached that age,
and I could ride next to him on a horse
that of course, was not quite as wild.
We heard a crowd of people shouting,
and so we stopped to find out why.
There was that man that my dad said he loved,
but today there was fear in his eyes.
So I said, "Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows.
Daddy please, can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry.
You said He was stronger than all of those guys;
Daddy, please tell me why.
Why does everyone want Him to die?"
Later that day, the sky grew cloudy,
and Daddy said I should go inside.
Somehow he knew things would get stormy.
Boy was he right,
but I could not keep from wondering
if there was something he had to hide.
So after he left, I had to find out.
I was not afraid of getting lost.
So I followed the crowds to a hill
where I knew men had been killed,
and I heard a voice come from the cross.
And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my robe?
This crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows.
Father please, can't you do something?
I know that You must hear my cry.
I thought I could handle a cross of this size.
Father, remind me why.
Why does everyone want me to die?
Oh, when will I understand why?"
My precious son, I hear them screaming.
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming.
But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own.
Jesus, this hurts me much more than you know,
but this dark hour, I must do nothing,
though I've heard your unbearable cry.
The power in your blood destroys all of the lies;
soon you'll see past their unmerciful eyes.
Look, there below, see the child
trembling by her father's side.
Now I can tell you why...
she is why you must die.
Sunday, May 07, 2006
POLLING DAY
Results! My dad got the TV wire fixed just for the news. It's gonna be TVless again after this. So much for 4 whole months of no TV.
SMCs
Bukit Panjang PAP
Chua Chu Kang PAP
Hougang WP
Joo Chiat PAP
MacPherson PAP
Nee Soon Central PAP
Nee Soon East PAP
Potong Pasir SDC
Yio Chu Kang PAP
GRCs
Aljunied PAP
Ang Mo Kio PAP
East Coast PAP
Jalan Besar PAP
Pasir Ris-Punggol PAP
Sembawang PAP
Tampines PAP
TAG REPLIES.
jasmine; then shouldn't be that xing ku right. haha.. cos' those not in the table actually quite little :)
persie; lol your blog is like infested with spiders and their webs la! update more.
liying; excuse me, of course i'm happy, PAP won for aljunied grc! and it was damn close. PAP, all the wayyy!
enmei; HEY! i know you've done your english, group leader. haha..
SMCs
Bukit Panjang PAP
Chua Chu Kang PAP
Hougang WP
Joo Chiat PAP
MacPherson PAP
Nee Soon Central PAP
Nee Soon East PAP
Potong Pasir SDC
Yio Chu Kang PAP
GRCs
Aljunied PAP
Ang Mo Kio PAP
East Coast PAP
Jalan Besar PAP
Pasir Ris-Punggol PAP
Sembawang PAP
Tampines PAP
TAG REPLIES.
jasmine; then shouldn't be that xing ku right. haha.. cos' those not in the table actually quite little :)
persie; lol your blog is like infested with spiders and their webs la! update more.
liying; excuse me, of course i'm happy, PAP won for aljunied grc! and it was damn close. PAP, all the wayyy!
enmei; HEY! i know you've done your english, group leader. haha..
Saturday, May 06, 2006
:)
i'm saying this again. fridays are hated because of single periods throughout the morning. unless you count chinese, thats double. so many single periods make the day long, especially when you have something on in the afternoon.
no comments on bio test.
npcc day, adeline looked like a girl for once. haha.. it's cos' of her hair la... & she had to salute to the subject teachers.
had expected the huge crowd of pl girls at bus stops after school. we were required to leave the school by 2pm, so you can imagine the 1400++ of us squeezing around... say, 8 bus stops? haha.. cabbed to serangoon mrt with drusilla. she paid, i had no money.
anyone who's with me at the end of the week will have to suffer because i have no money on fridays. after one huge part of my weekly allowance went to concert tickets. no, not the pl band one. but for O level music. managed to not touch the 50 cents i had since yesterday. no lunch for me, but a super filling recess at 9.40am. how did i pay for food, you ask. well there's ezlink ;) sorry drus and timothy, really no money left.
yeah so was like rushing after school. drus and i were the only pl lites at the station. the earliest, haha. then she left for ps and i went on. i only know how to go to funan from cq stn cos' of the violin lessons last year. others, totally alien. unfamiliar. and no one else was in school uniform.
realise that at this point, i have not mentioned what i was doing alone there. haha.
crossing the road with with a non-stop traffic flow was like, freaky. i know it's a one direction thing. but you know me, i'm a guai person who crosses at traffic lights :) no la not all the time.
was stunned when i saw the place. THE place. like omg, speechless. maybe because myexpectation's very high church is a much nicer place to do it. never did it outside the church before, so... yea.
so many of them and i only knew one person. but, they are a friendly bunch =) i felt awkward in a room with total strangers, excluding tim. kept quiet. so unlike my usual self. haha... was damn impressed with the music produced. like, WOW, so pro. almost good enough for the production of an album. (my vocabulary's pathetically limited, by the way.)
the original compositions were also very nice. Bring Me Higher 's my favourite. my keyboarding sucked today, didn't know most of the songs anyway. then for the more familiar songs like One Way and For All You've Done... didn't know which key they were singing/playing in. my perfect pictching was dead that afternoon, how unfortunate. and the keyboard.. is weird. like middle c is always in the middle, that one was more at the right side. no wonder sounded strange la. and for the effects of filling in... well i couldn't figure out which button to press, later press wrongly then.. haha. so it was chords all the way, how sad.
you might have guessed what it was already. if you're 'huh'-ing then too bad. lol.
as you can see, my posts are all very detailed. haha bored then don't read lor! why are you still looking here? close the window or navigate away from the page la!
since you chose to continue reading, i shall go on.
i'm constantly being remined that i am fearfully and wonderfully made. i am God's creation. yet i'm not satisfied with myself. my weight, the freak pimples, etc. what should i do? like there are so many things which i'm not really happy about. little things here and there. if only this, if only that... it's hard to remember that God thought this is the best and stuck with it, only to get negative comments and unhappy with what he thought was good. and then i look at my friends, they don't look at the cover of the book, but the contents, i am thankful for that. still there are others who prefer the cover and stick with the contents, however horrible it is. whatever. God loves me just the way I am, He created me, that's all that matters.
no comments on bio test.
npcc day, adeline looked like a girl for once. haha.. it's cos' of her hair la... & she had to salute to the subject teachers.
had expected the huge crowd of pl girls at bus stops after school. we were required to leave the school by 2pm, so you can imagine the 1400++ of us squeezing around... say, 8 bus stops? haha.. cabbed to serangoon mrt with drusilla. she paid, i had no money.
anyone who's with me at the end of the week will have to suffer because i have no money on fridays. after one huge part of my weekly allowance went to concert tickets. no, not the pl band one. but for O level music. managed to not touch the 50 cents i had since yesterday. no lunch for me, but a super filling recess at 9.40am. how did i pay for food, you ask. well there's ezlink ;) sorry drus and timothy, really no money left.
yeah so was like rushing after school. drus and i were the only pl lites at the station. the earliest, haha. then she left for ps and i went on. i only know how to go to funan from cq stn cos' of the violin lessons last year. others, totally alien. unfamiliar. and no one else was in school uniform.
realise that at this point, i have not mentioned what i was doing alone there. haha.
crossing the road with with a non-stop traffic flow was like, freaky. i know it's a one direction thing. but you know me, i'm a guai person who crosses at traffic lights :) no la not all the time.
was stunned when i saw the place. THE place. like omg, speechless. maybe because my
so many of them and i only knew one person. but, they are a friendly bunch =) i felt awkward in a room with total strangers, excluding tim. kept quiet. so unlike my usual self. haha... was damn impressed with the music produced. like, WOW, so pro. almost good enough for the production of an album. (my vocabulary's pathetically limited, by the way.)
the original compositions were also very nice. Bring Me Higher 's my favourite. my keyboarding sucked today, didn't know most of the songs anyway. then for the more familiar songs like One Way and For All You've Done... didn't know which key they were singing/playing in. my perfect pictching was dead that afternoon, how unfortunate. and the keyboard.. is weird. like middle c is always in the middle, that one was more at the right side. no wonder sounded strange la. and for the effects of filling in... well i couldn't figure out which button to press, later press wrongly then.. haha. so it was chords all the way, how sad.
you might have guessed what it was already. if you're 'huh'-ing then too bad. lol.
as you can see, my posts are all very detailed. haha bored then don't read lor! why are you still looking here? close the window or navigate away from the page la!
since you chose to continue reading, i shall go on.
i'm constantly being remined that i am fearfully and wonderfully made. i am God's creation. yet i'm not satisfied with myself. my weight, the freak pimples, etc. what should i do? like there are so many things which i'm not really happy about. little things here and there. if only this, if only that... it's hard to remember that God thought this is the best and stuck with it, only to get negative comments and unhappy with what he thought was good. and then i look at my friends, they don't look at the cover of the book, but the contents, i am thankful for that. still there are others who prefer the cover and stick with the contents, however horrible it is. whatever. God loves me just the way I am, He created me, that's all that matters.
Friday, May 05, 2006
sec 3s, jia you! tests coming to an end...
It's late. I should be sleeping, not blogging. After this, I'm going to spend some time with my God, the One and Only... it's been quite a long time since I last touched my bible and really pray in the spirit. Realised... that I seem to be able to speak in tongues only when I'm with a strong group. Can't do it alone..
Music lesson ended late, as usual... yet another history lesson on Classical music. Who says we don't take history as a subject? Lols. I wanna say some things which are bothering me.
I may look cheerful and light-hearted on the outside, I can take jokes, yes. But today, you've reached your limits. It's too much. Couldn't you tell? When I insisted non of that was true, you knew it too. You knew it, yet you continued to do it. My tone of voice had warned you to stop, why did you go on? The others were not pressuring me. I could tell, however, from the two of you.. your attitudes... so unpleasant. Please, know when to draw the line. It may be fun to poke at others, spare a thought for the 'victim'. And think of yourself in her shoes before you continue shooting embarrasing words out of your filthy mouth. Watch out, cus' you could be next. Go reflect and shut up before more people get pissed with you.
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O Lord, I need your grace and mercy. I want to pray like never before. I need the power of Your holy spirit...
Music lesson ended late, as usual... yet another history lesson on Classical music. Who says we don't take history as a subject? Lols. I wanna say some things which are bothering me.
I may look cheerful and light-hearted on the outside, I can take jokes, yes. But today, you've reached your limits. It's too much. Couldn't you tell? When I insisted non of that was true, you knew it too. You knew it, yet you continued to do it. My tone of voice had warned you to stop, why did you go on? The others were not pressuring me. I could tell, however, from the two of you.. your attitudes... so unpleasant. Please, know when to draw the line. It may be fun to poke at others, spare a thought for the 'victim'. And think of yourself in her shoes before you continue shooting embarrasing words out of your filthy mouth. Watch out, cus' you could be next. Go reflect and shut up before more people get pissed with you.
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O Lord, I need your grace and mercy. I want to pray like never before. I need the power of Your holy spirit...
Thursday, May 04, 2006
stressed again!
JOYCE IS MAKING HERSELF DOUBLY BUSY BY BLOGGING AND SAYING YES TO THEM. i didn't actually agree, it's just... try lor. if cant then too bad.
JUST HEARD FROM JOANNE, NO MUSIC TEST TMR!!! YAY that's one thing less haha... yayness omg.
Geog test this morning rushing again.. Didn't really answer the last question on features of the tropical rainforest.. sth like that. 5 marks leh! Think only can get like 2 marks. The qn on Amazon Rainforest was the best... 1 whole page of crap.
Ms Ang was in an unsually good mood. Gave us some pop quiz about the elections and Clare's siblings and what Valerie's recess was. Lol... About the Milo advertisement thingy.. whatever... there was no other way to hide the articles! And I told the truth okay. Was trying to cheat. Haha... And we thought she had PMS everyday. Looks like it's gone. Only for awhile.
Joey - be thankful I'm not blogging about the papaya and self-service incident :)
Chem tuition? Somewhat. I learnt something at least... PL chem teachers should allow periodic tables during tests. Makes it a hell lot easier actually. This nice 'tutor' was more than 1 hr late lor. Haha. How can anyone sleep at 6am and wake up at lunchtime? I wake up at 6 lor. xP No money, still go and tempt me with the oreo thing and cheesecake... all my favourites can. Grrrr. Yea then Horse went for dinner with her mum and I went back alone. The train was damn crowded... Tried to stabalize myself, nothing to hold on to. Luckily never fall on other people, haha..
hole in the ceiling in class
In the corridoor.. and a part of the roof fell off.
Our falling-apart admin and geography board. World map drawn by us! Newspaper there is extra la. haha.
And the tidiest class goes to................. 3c2! *applauses* (Clare so extra, haha)
before 7am.
Haha 3c2! Hilarious bunch of girls. Love you guys =) .. Super run-down school. It's a holding school after all.
JUST HEARD FROM JOANNE, NO MUSIC TEST TMR!!! YAY that's one thing less haha... yayness omg.
Geog test this morning rushing again.. Didn't really answer the last question on features of the tropical rainforest.. sth like that. 5 marks leh! Think only can get like 2 marks. The qn on Amazon Rainforest was the best... 1 whole page of crap.
Ms Ang was in an unsually good mood. Gave us some pop quiz about the elections and Clare's siblings and what Valerie's recess was. Lol... About the Milo advertisement thingy.. whatever... there was no other way to hide the articles! And I told the truth okay. Was trying to cheat. Haha... And we thought she had PMS everyday. Looks like it's gone. Only for awhile.
Joey - be thankful I'm not blogging about the papaya and self-service incident :)
Chem tuition? Somewhat. I learnt something at least... PL chem teachers should allow periodic tables during tests. Makes it a hell lot easier actually. This nice 'tutor' was more than 1 hr late lor. Haha. How can anyone sleep at 6am and wake up at lunchtime? I wake up at 6 lor. xP No money, still go and tempt me with the oreo thing and cheesecake... all my favourites can. Grrrr. Yea then Horse went for dinner with her mum and I went back alone. The train was damn crowded... Tried to stabalize myself, nothing to hold on to. Luckily never fall on other people, haha..
hole in the ceiling in class
In the corridoor.. and a part of the roof fell off.
Our falling-apart admin and geography board. World map drawn by us! Newspaper there is extra la. haha.
And the tidiest class goes to................. 3c2! *applauses* (Clare so extra, haha)
before 7am.
Haha 3c2! Hilarious bunch of girls. Love you guys =) .. Super run-down school. It's a holding school after all.
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
no scolding from piano teacher today! surprise, surprise!
Updated profile, on your left.
SS test was okay. Just ok.
"Girls, last two minutes, finish up your last sentence."
wth, i still have 1 paragraph la!
*scribbles frantically*
"ok, stop writing."
shit shit shit.
"I said STOP WRITING."
Lol I managed to finish up my lousy paragraph 5 of the SEQ. So that was the test, one period of accounts eaten up =D Haha. Mrs Eng likes 3c2 more than 3c1. I did extremely well for the cashbook test. Overall this term is A1 :)
POA lesson:
"Madeline, why are you talking to yourself?
Scary."
-Mrs Eng
Miss Tey didn't come in for class. 2 periods of slacking. I was sleeping la. Those around me were talking about GB stuff. Miss Kok's maths classes are the pitiful ones. lol.. promoted to outside seat if you fail her maths quizzes. They have been sitting there since dunno when lor.
PW, English, Geog. 3 projects. One is due next Tuesday.
Geog test tmr, sure die. Give up hope already... only studied natural vegetation. Weathering is like, gone case. Chem and music test on Thursday, bio on Friday, E maths next Tuesday. Damn stressed can..
There's hope for chem and maths :D
thanks
Weathering is the disintegration and decomposition of rocks in situ, meaning they remain where they disintegrate or decompose and are not carried away from their original site; in other words, NO TRANSPORT IS REQUIRED IN WEATHERING.
Eroision is the wearing away of rocks by moving agents (winds, waves, rivers, glaciers) which then carry the rock material away from the original site. Unlike weathering, transport is involved in erosion.
Physical Weathering
-Disintegration/breaking down of rocks into smaller pieces
-size and shape of the rocks (physical appearance?) of the rocks are altered but not their chemical composition.
-Products of physical weathering usually coarse and angular.
-more effective in areas with:
-little vegetation
-large diurnal range of temperature or
-temperatures fluctuating around 0°C
Chemical Weathering
-Decomposition of rocks when minerals in the rocks react chemically with rainwater, seawater, carbon dioxide and oxygen to form one or more new chemical coumpounds.
-Chemical changes weaken the rocks which break down over time.
-Alters the ohysical structure and chemical composition of the rocks.
-One or more new chemical compounds that are formed are fine-textured.
-Most effective in hot, wet areas.
Types of Physical Weathering
Frost shattering/freeze-thaw action
Conditions conducive to frost shattering are
-an aduquate wupply of moisture
-the presence of joints, fractures, bedding planes or pore spaces in rocks
-temperatures flactuating around 0°C
When water that has entered the joints freezes, the ice formed strains the walls of the joints and causes the joints to deepen and widen. This is because the volume of water expands by 9% when it freezes.
When the ice thaws, water can flow further into the rock. When the temperature drops below freezing pointand the water freezes again, the ice enlarges the joints further.
Repeated freeze-thaw action weakens the rocks which, over time, break up along the joints into angular pieces. The angular rock fragments gather at the fort of the slope to form a talus slope (or scree clope). The splitting of rocks along the joints into blocks is called block disintegration. The blocks of rocks that are detached of various shapes depending on their rock structure.
Ice crystals can also form in the pore spaces of rocks. They grow larger as they attract water that has not frozen from the surrounding pores. The ice crystal weakens the rocks which, in time, break up. An exapmple of rocks suscetible to frost action is chalk, which has many pore spaces for the growth of ice crystals.
Laboratory tests show that frequent daily freeze-that cycles are more conducive than seasonal freeze-thaw cycles to frost shattering.
Insolation weathering/thermal expansion
Supporters of insolation weathering believe it is a major physicalprocess in deserts. Deserts have a large diurnal range of temperature. Day temperatures can rise up to 35°C or higher because of the lack of cloud cover to reduce incoming solar radiation/insolation. Night temperatures can go down to 10°C or lower because of the lack of cloud cover to prevent outgoing terrestrial heat from escaping back into space.
Rocks expand when heated in the day and contract when they cool down at night. However, the rocks are not heated up right through. It is the outer parts that heat up and expand, and cool down and contract. The repeated expansion and contraction of the outer parts form cracks. Evantually, the outer parts of the rocks peel off in layers. This type of weathering is called onion peeling or exfoliation.
Different coloured mineral grains in a rock expand at different rates when heated. The darker minerals absorb more heat and expand more than the lighter minerals. The differential expansion causes stresses between adjacent grains and the rock will disintegrate grain by grain. This is called granular disintegration.
Salt crystal growth
Salt crystal growth in rocks can be found especially in arid regions where the ground water containingdissolved salts such as sodium sulphate is drawn up to the surface by capillary action.
When water evaporates, the salts are left behind as crystals in the pore spaces, cavities and joints the rocks.
sick of typing. shall go back to writing. lol.
SS test was okay. Just ok.
"Girls, last two minutes, finish up your last sentence."
wth, i still have 1 paragraph la!
*scribbles frantically*
"ok, stop writing."
shit shit shit.
"I said STOP WRITING."
Lol I managed to finish up my lousy paragraph 5 of the SEQ. So that was the test, one period of accounts eaten up =D Haha. Mrs Eng likes 3c2 more than 3c1. I did extremely well for the cashbook test. Overall this term is A1 :)
POA lesson:
"Madeline, why are you talking to yourself?
Scary."
-Mrs Eng
Miss Tey didn't come in for class. 2 periods of slacking. I was sleeping la. Those around me were talking about GB stuff. Miss Kok's maths classes are the pitiful ones. lol.. promoted to outside seat if you fail her maths quizzes. They have been sitting there since dunno when lor.
PW, English, Geog. 3 projects. One is due next Tuesday.
Geog test tmr, sure die. Give up hope already... only studied natural vegetation. Weathering is like, gone case. Chem and music test on Thursday, bio on Friday, E maths next Tuesday. Damn stressed can..
There's hope for chem and maths :D
thanks
Weathering is the disintegration and decomposition of rocks in situ, meaning they remain where they disintegrate or decompose and are not carried away from their original site; in other words, NO TRANSPORT IS REQUIRED IN WEATHERING.
Eroision is the wearing away of rocks by moving agents (winds, waves, rivers, glaciers) which then carry the rock material away from the original site. Unlike weathering, transport is involved in erosion.
Physical Weathering
-Disintegration/breaking down of rocks into smaller pieces
-size and shape of the rocks (physical appearance?) of the rocks are altered but not their chemical composition.
-Products of physical weathering usually coarse and angular.
-more effective in areas with:
-little vegetation
-large diurnal range of temperature or
-temperatures fluctuating around 0°C
Chemical Weathering
-Decomposition of rocks when minerals in the rocks react chemically with rainwater, seawater, carbon dioxide and oxygen to form one or more new chemical coumpounds.
-Chemical changes weaken the rocks which break down over time.
-Alters the ohysical structure and chemical composition of the rocks.
-One or more new chemical compounds that are formed are fine-textured.
-Most effective in hot, wet areas.
Types of Physical Weathering
Frost shattering/freeze-thaw action
Conditions conducive to frost shattering are
-an aduquate wupply of moisture
-the presence of joints, fractures, bedding planes or pore spaces in rocks
-temperatures flactuating around 0°C
When water that has entered the joints freezes, the ice formed strains the walls of the joints and causes the joints to deepen and widen. This is because the volume of water expands by 9% when it freezes.
When the ice thaws, water can flow further into the rock. When the temperature drops below freezing pointand the water freezes again, the ice enlarges the joints further.
Repeated freeze-thaw action weakens the rocks which, over time, break up along the joints into angular pieces. The angular rock fragments gather at the fort of the slope to form a talus slope (or scree clope). The splitting of rocks along the joints into blocks is called block disintegration. The blocks of rocks that are detached of various shapes depending on their rock structure.
Ice crystals can also form in the pore spaces of rocks. They grow larger as they attract water that has not frozen from the surrounding pores. The ice crystal weakens the rocks which, in time, break up. An exapmple of rocks suscetible to frost action is chalk, which has many pore spaces for the growth of ice crystals.
Laboratory tests show that frequent daily freeze-that cycles are more conducive than seasonal freeze-thaw cycles to frost shattering.
Insolation weathering/thermal expansion
Supporters of insolation weathering believe it is a major physicalprocess in deserts. Deserts have a large diurnal range of temperature. Day temperatures can rise up to 35°C or higher because of the lack of cloud cover to reduce incoming solar radiation/insolation. Night temperatures can go down to 10°C or lower because of the lack of cloud cover to prevent outgoing terrestrial heat from escaping back into space.
Rocks expand when heated in the day and contract when they cool down at night. However, the rocks are not heated up right through. It is the outer parts that heat up and expand, and cool down and contract. The repeated expansion and contraction of the outer parts form cracks. Evantually, the outer parts of the rocks peel off in layers. This type of weathering is called onion peeling or exfoliation.
Different coloured mineral grains in a rock expand at different rates when heated. The darker minerals absorb more heat and expand more than the lighter minerals. The differential expansion causes stresses between adjacent grains and the rock will disintegrate grain by grain. This is called granular disintegration.
Salt crystal growth
Salt crystal growth in rocks can be found especially in arid regions where the ground water containingdissolved salts such as sodium sulphate is drawn up to the surface by capillary action.
When water evaporates, the salts are left behind as crystals in the pore spaces, cavities and joints the rocks.
sick of typing. shall go back to writing. lol.
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
tired.
Everyone seems to be doing intense last-minute revision. Or so it seems. Cos' Horse and I expected Heartland Mall to be flooded with PL lites, hoho. We only saw one.
It's a productive day. Though at first we were distracted with other things. *dramatic cough* Haha.. took more than 4 hours to just remember the causes of conflict in Sri Lanka. I just finished my revision. SEQ!!!!!!! Oh gosh... So many points... Catholics and Protestants in Northern Ireland.. Divided loyalties, education, employment, housing.... Consequences..
ARGHHHHHHH!!
Hope I won't blank out tmr..
And I have not done the draft for the newspaper project thing!! En Mei, don't kill me pls... Super busy la.. I'll stay back for recess to do it.
Yours truly has found a one/two day tutor to help with emaths and chemistry. Lol. Yay! At least now there's hope.. Esp chem, omg that's the worst. dig out everything from your bin okay! and transfer them into mine! haha..
Well I guess that's it for now. Nites =)
It's a productive day. Though at first we were distracted with other things. *dramatic cough* Haha.. took more than 4 hours to just remember the causes of conflict in Sri Lanka. I just finished my revision. SEQ!!!!!!! Oh gosh... So many points... Catholics and Protestants in Northern Ireland.. Divided loyalties, education, employment, housing.... Consequences..
ARGHHHHHHH!!
Hope I won't blank out tmr..
And I have not done the draft for the newspaper project thing!! En Mei, don't kill me pls... Super busy la.. I'll stay back for recess to do it.
Yours truly has found a one/two day tutor to help with emaths and chemistry. Lol. Yay! At least now there's hope.. Esp chem, omg that's the worst. dig out everything from your bin okay! and transfer them into mine! haha..
Well I guess that's it for now. Nites =)
Monday, May 01, 2006
icanmakemyowndecisions,thankyouverymuch
1) smoked -no
2) consumed alcohol -does a little of it in food count?
3) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex -no
4) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex -yea
5) made out with someone of the opposite sex -omg no!
6) made out with someone of the same sex -double no!
7) had someone in your room of the opposite sex -yes
8) watched porn -no
9) bought porn -no
10) done drugs -no
TOTAL: 2
11) taken pain killers -yes
12) taken someone else’s prescription medicine -yar
13) lied to your parents -duh
14) lied to a friend -well, yes..
15) snuck out of the house -yep
16) done something illegal -like bringing chewing gums into Sg? yeahhhh
17) cut yourself -nope
18) hurt someone -uh, yes i think
19) wished someone to die -no
20) seen someone die -not yet
TOTAL: 7
21) missed curfew -11pm curfew.. haha
22) stayed out all night -yess
23) eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself -no $
24) been to a therapist -no
25) been to rehab -no
26) dyed your hair -nope
27) received a ticket -yeah
28) been in a wreck -no
29) been to a club -nah
30) been to a bar -no
TOTAL: 3
31) been to a wild party -not that wild
32) seen the Mardi Gras -whats that
34) had a spring break in Florida -never been outside Asia...
35) sniffed anything -yes, but not to that extent
36) wore black nail polish -*shakes head*
37) wore arm bands -yes
38) wore t-shirts with band names -no
39) listened to rap -yes and it's complicating
40) own a 50 cent CD -nope
TOTAL: 3
41) dressed gothic -yes
42) dressed prep -no
43) dressed punk -no
44) dressed grunge -no
45) stole something -yes
46) been too drunk to remember anything -haha no
47) blacked out -yea
48) fainted -no
49) had a crush on your neighbor -nah
50) had someone sneak into your room -YES and it's annoying
TOTAL: 4
51) snuck into someone else’s room -yes though i know it's irritating
52) had a crush on someone of the same sex -errrrr, no
53) been to a concert -lots of them
54) dry humped someone -?
55) been called a slut -no, thankfully...
56) called someone a slut -nope
57) installed speakers in your car -i have no car
58) broke a mirror -no
59) showered at someone of the opposites sex’s house -no
60) brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush -nopes
TOTAL: 2
61) consider Mac, Dre, e40 or Mistah Fab your favorite rapper -no..
62) seen an R rated movie in theaters -at home, yes.. theaters no
63) cruised the mall -yeah
64) skipped school -i'm a good girl :)
65) had an eating disorder -never, ever.
66) had an injury -duhhhhhhhh
67) gone to court -no
68) walked out of a restaurant without paying -lol no
69) caught something on fire -yea and it's scary.. the ethanol in the bio lab...
70) lied about your age -i can't. haha
TOTAL:2
71) owned an apartment -no
72) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend -don't have one
73) cheated with someone -yar
74) got in trouble with the police -nono
75) talked to a stranger -"excuse me, can i take some of your time to do a quick survey..."
76) hugged a stranger -no
77) kissed a stranger -omg no.
78) rode in the car with a stranger -taxi driver? haha
79) been sexually harassed -no
80) been verbally harassed -yeah. all that suannings...
TOTAL: 4
81) met face to face with someone you met online -yes
82) stayed online for 12 hours straight -*shrugs*
83) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight -o_O no
84) watched TV for 12 hours straight -nope.
85) been to a fair -yes
86) been called a bad influence -yes.
87) cursed -it hurts alot, yea.
88) prank called someone -yup
89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex -my brother? haha otherwise, no
90) cheated on a test -yes
TOTAL: 5
91) cheated on homework -duh
92) held hands with someone of the opposite sex -yes
93) been pushed into a pool -yes
94) played pool -no
95) watched 5 hours of mtv straight -less than that
96) had a crush on someone 10 years older than you -no!
97) had a crush on someone younger than you -no
98) wear eyeliner -no
99) skinny dipped -no
100) laughed at someone who was seriously hurt -yours truly is not that mean!
TOTAL: 2
Total Score: 32
Lol that really doesn't make sense! the scoring thing... i mean some of the 'yes' ans are not intentional.
The PAP and Worker's Party trucks are hilarious. And noisy at the same time. PAP must win! Recently there's been quite alot between the 2 parties... Look at The Sunday Times, 1st page. Aljunied GRC. Who will win? Haha I'm like so IN to the elections.
Sunday, April 30, 2006
worship Him!
Today's Youth Ablaze service was a rather musical one. It marks the end of April, worship month.
I arrived at 12pm in church for worship practice/jamming. No electric guitarist, no 2nd keyboardist. -.- we did it anyway. Charmaine was reallyyyy late. Andy changed some of the songs, end up we didn't have a lot of them. (just realised he's always suanning me) Jon photocopied them for us, and they're pink! What's with the pink paper in the copier.... haha..
Backups Grace (Quek), Stef and I went to warm up our voices. But we couldn't sing in the original key, no guitar or keyboard in that little room. You know whenever a guy leads worship, the girls suffer, all the songs are sung in a high key. Today... the praise songs were all in G! Usually when girls lead they sing in E. We did it anyway. Just that I zhao xia-ed into the mic. But no one will know because of facial expressions. They're important, they show when a person is having difficulty with a song or had zhao xia-ed or uncomfortable with anything. Haha I pretended nothing happened. So there. Nobody brought that up during debrief.
Today's service was very different from the usual. Sang two praise songs first, followed by the sermon/message, then praise and worship again. It was awesome. Though there were some obvious technical errors and faults. Keyboard went off by itself. Everything else was just... great. I could feel the presence of God so strong in that auditorium, it was so overwhelming... Especially when we sang Shout To The Lord. If all the earth would really shout to the Lord, sing of His power and majesty, give praise to the King... That's just... wonderful. Teared on stage, I couldn't help it. I could see that everyone, including the younger P6 and sec 1 kids were worshipping God, every self-conciousness taken away. It was so nice to see that everyone of them were engrossed in worship.. & nobody was looking around or simply staring at the stage...
This month, more than 100 people gave their lives to Jesus. That is a BIG number, for my church, which is neither big nor small. That's something to rejoice about. The angels above are celebrating.
Oh yea.. Andy wanted to sing the song Everyday, was damn impromptu... Charmaine the keyboardist didn't know the chords. haha... Halfway through the song, his hand cramped, and stopped the guitar. I thought Jon and Eugene would continue with the drums and bass. Haha they were confused and didn't know whether to play or just silence, voices alone. Backups didn't sing into the mic. So that last song was screwed up and awkward. Who cares, at least God appreciates it.
If this kind of spirit, hungry for more of Him, were to continue throughout the different generations of Christians... that would be amazing. Totally. The devil is so not welcome into Daddy's house! (learning to address our Father as Daddy, haha thanks to 2 ppl) I'd love to see the youths in church keeping up this enthusiasm for God and pass it down to the new youths who join us every year.
All who love Him, say 'amen'!
To T:
It's really time to get new specs, lol... 2 advantages. Look better and see clearer! Then you won't be able to say, 'I didn't see you'. Haha no offence, but they really look very old fasioned!
I arrived at 12pm in church for worship practice/jamming. No electric guitarist, no 2nd keyboardist. -.- we did it anyway. Charmaine was reallyyyy late. Andy changed some of the songs, end up we didn't have a lot of them. (just realised he's always suanning me) Jon photocopied them for us, and they're pink! What's with the pink paper in the copier.... haha..
Backups Grace (Quek), Stef and I went to warm up our voices. But we couldn't sing in the original key, no guitar or keyboard in that little room. You know whenever a guy leads worship, the girls suffer, all the songs are sung in a high key. Today... the praise songs were all in G! Usually when girls lead they sing in E. We did it anyway. Just that I zhao xia-ed into the mic. But no one will know because of facial expressions. They're important, they show when a person is having difficulty with a song or had zhao xia-ed or uncomfortable with anything. Haha I pretended nothing happened. So there. Nobody brought that up during debrief.
Today's service was very different from the usual. Sang two praise songs first, followed by the sermon/message, then praise and worship again. It was awesome. Though there were some obvious technical errors and faults. Keyboard went off by itself. Everything else was just... great. I could feel the presence of God so strong in that auditorium, it was so overwhelming... Especially when we sang Shout To The Lord. If all the earth would really shout to the Lord, sing of His power and majesty, give praise to the King... That's just... wonderful. Teared on stage, I couldn't help it. I could see that everyone, including the younger P6 and sec 1 kids were worshipping God, every self-conciousness taken away. It was so nice to see that everyone of them were engrossed in worship.. & nobody was looking around or simply staring at the stage...
This month, more than 100 people gave their lives to Jesus. That is a BIG number, for my church, which is neither big nor small. That's something to rejoice about. The angels above are celebrating.
Oh yea.. Andy wanted to sing the song Everyday, was damn impromptu... Charmaine the keyboardist didn't know the chords. haha... Halfway through the song, his hand cramped, and stopped the guitar. I thought Jon and Eugene would continue with the drums and bass. Haha they were confused and didn't know whether to play or just silence, voices alone. Backups didn't sing into the mic. So that last song was screwed up and awkward. Who cares, at least God appreciates it.
If this kind of spirit, hungry for more of Him, were to continue throughout the different generations of Christians... that would be amazing. Totally. The devil is so not welcome into Daddy's house! (learning to address our Father as Daddy, haha thanks to 2 ppl) I'd love to see the youths in church keeping up this enthusiasm for God and pass it down to the new youths who join us every year.
All who love Him, say 'amen'!
To T:
It's really time to get new specs, lol... 2 advantages. Look better and see clearer! Then you won't be able to say, 'I didn't see you'. Haha no offence, but they really look very old fasioned!
Saturday, April 29, 2006
it's sat, i think it's fri anw
Haha.. super long day. Started out with Mrs Lum talking about the elections and stuff... how our school would be used for the polling next Saturday. We're supposed to leave school at 1.45 sharp next Friday. No CCA =( Picture this scene: 1000+ PL lites at the few bus stops around the school. I'll just walk to heartland mall. The school made next next Tuesday a holiday. HAHA. Mrs Eng, you're going to miss another 2 periods of accounts with us!
Blah blah blah blah
The leaking ceiling is getting worse each day. Today a small part of it droped on Wen Yi's chair. Lols.. And it rained darn heavily.
I like CCA now. We get to play new songs :) And it's all for that crazy event coming up...
The school is going to do this 90 hours of music, record-breaking thing... It's just. Madness. Yes that's the perfect word to describe it. The school is turning 90 this year, but wassup with the 90 hours of non-stop music? So far this is what I have to do/perform. Handbells -- 45min. Every 1/2 class -- 1/2 hr. Crazy la! Can we get help from outside school? I know the perfect person... This. Is. Crazy!
So during handbells all the prefects were not around and the Beauty and the Beast sounded super bo gay. Missing notes here and there.. The treblers aka high bellers akways progress faster than the rest. Melody line, and usually the easiest. But it looks difficult.. We have to hold 2 bells in a hand. Total: 2 hands 4 bells. Haha... Compare it with the bass bells, I'm thankful that I'm not handling them. So big and heavy! Once, the bass bell droped and everyone screamed. Small one, still got hope. But the big one....! It was alright in the end.
Lynette, Ethel, Wan Yi and Wen Xin. They were telling ghost stories. Haha. I just sat and listened. When asked, I said I had none to share, really forgot everything. What's so scary about ghost stories? When you know Jesus is in your heart... all fear is gone. Almost immediately. Haha so the rest were screaming like mad and I was calm :)
Rained like anything.
Reached PLMC, late. The bus took very long and was crowded! Haiya. So they were like waiting for me, paiseh! I still feel bad. Cos of me... have to miss the first piece. (Ms Tan always emphasises, song is for singers, music piece is piece)
SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY
I typed them out okay! Never copy and paste.
Our band is rather good. Dynamics were present and distinct (so unlike keyboard). The juniors - impressive. I spotted a few mistakes though. Overall was good. Congrats on your success, band members! Must get a Gold for next year's SYF!
During the intermission... people kept crowding around the back area. I feel so weird for the instructors la. 'People' refers to sec 3 campers at the Camp Rock. Haha.
After that it was supper until quite late.
Blah blah blah blah
The leaking ceiling is getting worse each day. Today a small part of it droped on Wen Yi's chair. Lols.. And it rained darn heavily.
I like CCA now. We get to play new songs :) And it's all for that crazy event coming up...
The school is going to do this 90 hours of music, record-breaking thing... It's just. Madness. Yes that's the perfect word to describe it. The school is turning 90 this year, but wassup with the 90 hours of non-stop music? So far this is what I have to do/perform. Handbells -- 45min. Every 1/2 class -- 1/2 hr. Crazy la! Can we get help from outside school? I know the perfect person... This. Is. Crazy!
So during handbells all the prefects were not around and the Beauty and the Beast sounded super bo gay. Missing notes here and there.. The treblers aka high bellers akways progress faster than the rest. Melody line, and usually the easiest. But it looks difficult.. We have to hold 2 bells in a hand. Total: 2 hands 4 bells. Haha... Compare it with the bass bells, I'm thankful that I'm not handling them. So big and heavy! Once, the bass bell droped and everyone screamed. Small one, still got hope. But the big one....! It was alright in the end.
Lynette, Ethel, Wan Yi and Wen Xin. They were telling ghost stories. Haha. I just sat and listened. When asked, I said I had none to share, really forgot everything. What's so scary about ghost stories? When you know Jesus is in your heart... all fear is gone. Almost immediately. Haha so the rest were screaming like mad and I was calm :)
Rained like anything.
Reached PLMC, late. The bus took very long and was crowded! Haiya. So they were like waiting for me, paiseh! I still feel bad. Cos of me... have to miss the first piece. (Ms Tan always emphasises, song is for singers, music piece is piece)
SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY
I typed them out okay! Never copy and paste.
Our band is rather good. Dynamics were present and distinct (so unlike keyboard). The juniors - impressive. I spotted a few mistakes though. Overall was good. Congrats on your success, band members! Must get a Gold for next year's SYF!
During the intermission... people kept crowding around the back area. I feel so weird for the instructors la. 'People' refers to sec 3 campers at the Camp Rock. Haha.
After that it was supper until quite late.
Friday, April 28, 2006
=))
Tomorrow is the day!
Emmanuel VI, PL Band Concert. our band friends have been working extremely hard for this big event. Must support them! Haha especially Wen Yi, she sits behind me and the ceiling directly above her is like, leaking? This morning we came to school only to find her chair wet, with rainwater from the previous day. Yeah the school is that run-down. Oh and there's a mini river outside the classroom. Have I mentioned this before? Damn freaky pls. It's gonna get into the class one day..
Band girls are given a certain number of tickets to sell. I got Wen Yi's last one. Haha. So she could clear all her tix.
Somehow. I seem to keep owing money. What's with the sudden money problem? Bio 5 years series $6, chem 5 yrs series $4.30, handbell fund $8, big walk registration $4, concert tickets for NUS $16.30, class chalet $5.90, WHAT IS THIS LA. I'm not that rich. All the teachers are making us get the 5 years series thingy. Up next is geography. So many liabilities. I'm still schooling okay! And I only have like 80 cents for tmr. No dinner, no recess, just a pathetic bowl of fishball noodles for lunch. BUT. Of course, someone owes me $9. Hmm that will go to Wen Qin and Jasmine. Then I'll be left with 50c. Oh well... that's really all I'll have. It goes into the offering bag on Saturday I guess. No dinner! Will die one lor.
I like the harp. Haha.. so nice to play. If you have music background, piano for example, then it'll be easy to pick up any other instrument. Yay so now I know how to play an additional instrument. Lol. Just not sure of the fingerings and the right way of plucking the strings.
The staff room is reallllllllllllly messy. It's like some kind of junkyard. And yet the teachers complain that our classrooms are dirty and messy. Look at the staff room la. 10x worse, lol. Can't blame them also, they have to teach so many classes and are only given a small workstation. Trust me, it looks a lot messier on the inside than at the windows outside.
Miss Tey didn't come for maths lesson again. Valerie and I talked to some of the 3c1 girls. I think they're really nice people :) Outgoing bunch of girls... They were surprised that I don't have a TV at home. Haha. I mean, there's one but my father literally cut off the wire so that my siblings can't watch. And now it's the whole family being affected by it. What difference does it make, staring at a blank and unwachable TV ? That's equals to having no TV at all. TV-less since 1 Jan this year.
SUPPORT PAP!! =D
Emmanuel VI, PL Band Concert. our band friends have been working extremely hard for this big event. Must support them! Haha especially Wen Yi, she sits behind me and the ceiling directly above her is like, leaking? This morning we came to school only to find her chair wet, with rainwater from the previous day. Yeah the school is that run-down. Oh and there's a mini river outside the classroom. Have I mentioned this before? Damn freaky pls. It's gonna get into the class one day..
Band girls are given a certain number of tickets to sell. I got Wen Yi's last one. Haha. So she could clear all her tix.
Somehow. I seem to keep owing money. What's with the sudden money problem? Bio 5 years series $6, chem 5 yrs series $4.30, handbell fund $8, big walk registration $4, concert tickets for NUS $16.30, class chalet $5.90, WHAT IS THIS LA. I'm not that rich. All the teachers are making us get the 5 years series thingy. Up next is geography. So many liabilities. I'm still schooling okay! And I only have like 80 cents for tmr. No dinner, no recess, just a pathetic bowl of fishball noodles for lunch. BUT. Of course, someone owes me $9. Hmm that will go to Wen Qin and Jasmine. Then I'll be left with 50c. Oh well... that's really all I'll have. It goes into the offering bag on Saturday I guess. No dinner! Will die one lor.
I like the harp. Haha.. so nice to play. If you have music background, piano for example, then it'll be easy to pick up any other instrument. Yay so now I know how to play an additional instrument. Lol. Just not sure of the fingerings and the right way of plucking the strings.
The staff room is reallllllllllllly messy. It's like some kind of junkyard. And yet the teachers complain that our classrooms are dirty and messy. Look at the staff room la. 10x worse, lol. Can't blame them also, they have to teach so many classes and are only given a small workstation. Trust me, it looks a lot messier on the inside than at the windows outside.
Miss Tey didn't come for maths lesson again. Valerie and I talked to some of the 3c1 girls. I think they're really nice people :) Outgoing bunch of girls... They were surprised that I don't have a TV at home. Haha. I mean, there's one but my father literally cut off the wire so that my siblings can't watch. And now it's the whole family being affected by it. What difference does it make, staring at a blank and unwachable TV ? That's equals to having no TV at all. TV-less since 1 Jan this year.
SUPPORT PAP!! =D
Thursday, April 27, 2006
=)
here i am
humbled by Your majesty
covered by Your grace so free
here i am
knowing i'm a sinful man
covered by the blood of the lamb
now i've found
the greatest love of all
is mine
since You laid down Your life
the greatest sacrifice
majesty
majesty
Your grace has found me just as i am
empty handed but alive in Your hands
singing majesty
majesty
forever i am changed by Your love
in the presence of Your majesty
majesty
here i am
humbled by the love that You give
forgiven so that i can forgive
here i stand knowing that i'm Your desire
sanctified by glory and fire
According to Sarah Teo, they're gonna sell the band tickets at the door. If she's wrong, or if they run out of tix.... well. Pray hard that's not the case.
So I actually agreed to go for TNP Big Walk?! What was I thinking? 10km! Walk until the legs break lor. All thanks to Jasmine and Joey. My $4 is now with the organisers as some registration fee. Oh mans... 10km!!! We'll just run out of things to talk, only 3 people. Unless more come and walk, which is most unlikely. Who'd want to walk 10km for fun la.. Haha.
humbled by Your majesty
covered by Your grace so free
here i am
knowing i'm a sinful man
covered by the blood of the lamb
now i've found
the greatest love of all
is mine
since You laid down Your life
the greatest sacrifice
majesty
majesty
Your grace has found me just as i am
empty handed but alive in Your hands
singing majesty
majesty
forever i am changed by Your love
in the presence of Your majesty
majesty
here i am
humbled by the love that You give
forgiven so that i can forgive
here i stand knowing that i'm Your desire
sanctified by glory and fire
According to Sarah Teo, they're gonna sell the band tickets at the door. If she's wrong, or if they run out of tix.... well. Pray hard that's not the case.
So I actually agreed to go for TNP Big Walk?! What was I thinking? 10km! Walk until the legs break lor. All thanks to Jasmine and Joey. My $4 is now with the organisers as some registration fee. Oh mans... 10km!!! We'll just run out of things to talk, only 3 people. Unless more come and walk, which is most unlikely. Who'd want to walk 10km for fun la.. Haha.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
i stand before You Lord
and give You all my praise
Your love is all i need
Jesus You're all i need
my life belongs to You
You gave Your life for me
Your Grace is all i need
Jesus You're all i need
hold me in Your arms
never let me go
i wanna spend an eternity with You
now that You're near
everything is different
everything's so different, Lord
i know i'm not the same
my life You've changed
i wanna be with You
i wanna be with You
I just love singing, singing to Him. When we worship, make sure it's not karaoke, no feeling. God is the audience here and not man. And there's no point singing worship songs if you don't mean what you sing. Haha.. The piano helps quite alot. Much more familiar with chords now after i realised that those slashes are actually telling you what inversion the chord is. Slow la, I know. D/F# means D major1st inversion! Lol. =)
i love to be in Your presence with Your people singing praises
LSBC Youth Worship Team! :)) We will continue to shine for God and make non-believers so in to worship when they come for youth service. we'll see many salvations one day.
Q: what's the last text message on your cellphone say?
A: from Tim, sth... deleted. oops
Q: whose bed did you sleep in last night?
A: my own.
Q: what color shirt are you wearing?
A: sch u - blue and white
Q: most recent movie that you watched?
A: i havent watched for ages
Q: name one thing that you do everyday?
A: i use my brains =)
Q: what's the color of your bedroom walls?
A: orangey yellow
Q: how much cash do you have on you rightnow ?
A: 70 cents and i'm not kidding
Q: What is your favorite part of the chicken?
A: the skin!
Q: What's your favorite sport to watch?
A: i have no tv at home.
Q: I can't wait till...?
A: band concert!
Q: When was the last time you saw your mom?
A: 6.30am this morning before leaving for sch
Q: Who got you to join Friendster?
A: boon yeow.
Q: What did you have for dinner last night?
A: rice
Q: Look to your left. What's there?
A: The wall.
Q: Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
A: does being in the fitting room count? borrowd to try from the shop wad. haha..
Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
A: i'm in sch during the day
Q: Do you have an air freshener in your car?
A: i dont drive. wahah..
Q: Do you have plants in your room?
A: why fight for oxygen with them at night?
Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
A: my eyes. i wanna sleep!
Q: What city was your last taxicab ride in?
A: not city, but to kovan mrt. haha going home mah.
Q: Recent time you were really upset?
A: last saturday
Q: Would you have a problem if your friend went after your ex boyfriend/girlfriend?
A: (not going to answer)
_______Last________
1. Person you saw:
my maid
2. Talk on the phone with:
forgot who.
3. Hugged:
Kara. that's like last last week? Hahas.
_______Today________
1. What are you doing now:
typing
2. What are you doing tonight:
finish up maths hw
3. What did you eat for lunch:
Bee hoon soup
________Tomorrow___________
1. Is:
Wednesday.
2. Got any plans:
nah..
3. Goal:
spend time with God at least 5 times a week
4. Dislikes about tomorrow:
chinese lesson.
5. Do you have work:
nopes
________Currently_________
1. in love with someone:
................
2. listening to:
the rain.
3. wearing jeans:
no
4. eating:
no
5. tasting:
salivary amylase digesting starch into maltose
6. whats on your mind?
i hate going for piano lessons.
7. smoking?
NO WAY.
8. drinking?
drinking as in alcohol or what. haha in that case, NO.
9. who is your bf/gf?
my rabbit. lol ignore that please
10. do you miss anyone?
yes
11. do you think of the "blue stuff" now?
elaborate?
and give You all my praise
Your love is all i need
Jesus You're all i need
my life belongs to You
You gave Your life for me
Your Grace is all i need
Jesus You're all i need
hold me in Your arms
never let me go
i wanna spend an eternity with You
now that You're near
everything is different
everything's so different, Lord
i know i'm not the same
my life You've changed
i wanna be with You
i wanna be with You
I just love singing, singing to Him. When we worship, make sure it's not karaoke, no feeling. God is the audience here and not man. And there's no point singing worship songs if you don't mean what you sing. Haha.. The piano helps quite alot. Much more familiar with chords now after i realised that those slashes are actually telling you what inversion the chord is. Slow la, I know. D/F# means D major1st inversion! Lol. =)
i love to be in Your presence with Your people singing praises
LSBC Youth Worship Team! :)) We will continue to shine for God and make non-believers so in to worship when they come for youth service. we'll see many salvations one day.
Q: what's the last text message on your cellphone say?
A: from Tim, sth... deleted. oops
Q: whose bed did you sleep in last night?
A: my own.
Q: what color shirt are you wearing?
A: sch u - blue and white
Q: most recent movie that you watched?
A: i havent watched for ages
Q: name one thing that you do everyday?
A: i use my brains =)
Q: what's the color of your bedroom walls?
A: orangey yellow
Q: how much cash do you have on you rightnow ?
A: 70 cents and i'm not kidding
Q: What is your favorite part of the chicken?
A: the skin!
Q: What's your favorite sport to watch?
A: i have no tv at home.
Q: I can't wait till...?
A: band concert!
Q: When was the last time you saw your mom?
A: 6.30am this morning before leaving for sch
Q: Who got you to join Friendster?
A: boon yeow.
Q: What did you have for dinner last night?
A: rice
Q: Look to your left. What's there?
A: The wall.
Q: Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
A: does being in the fitting room count? borrowd to try from the shop wad. haha..
Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
A: i'm in sch during the day
Q: Do you have an air freshener in your car?
A: i dont drive. wahah..
Q: Do you have plants in your room?
A: why fight for oxygen with them at night?
Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
A: my eyes. i wanna sleep!
Q: What city was your last taxicab ride in?
A: not city, but to kovan mrt. haha going home mah.
Q: Recent time you were really upset?
A: last saturday
Q: Would you have a problem if your friend went after your ex boyfriend/girlfriend?
A: (not going to answer)
_______Last________
1. Person you saw:
my maid
2. Talk on the phone with:
forgot who.
3. Hugged:
Kara. that's like last last week? Hahas.
_______Today________
1. What are you doing now:
typing
2. What are you doing tonight:
finish up maths hw
3. What did you eat for lunch:
Bee hoon soup
________Tomorrow___________
1. Is:
Wednesday.
2. Got any plans:
nah..
3. Goal:
spend time with God at least 5 times a week
4. Dislikes about tomorrow:
chinese lesson.
5. Do you have work:
nopes
________Currently_________
1. in love with someone:
................
2. listening to:
the rain.
3. wearing jeans:
no
4. eating:
no
5. tasting:
salivary amylase digesting starch into maltose
6. whats on your mind?
i hate going for piano lessons.
7. smoking?
NO WAY.
8. drinking?
drinking as in alcohol or what. haha in that case, NO.
9. who is your bf/gf?
my rabbit. lol ignore that please
10. do you miss anyone?
yes
11. do you think of the "blue stuff" now?
elaborate?
Monday, April 24, 2006
life is beautiful... is it?
This song... well the lyrics says it all..
before the world began
you were on His mind
and every tear you cry
is precious in His eyes
because of His great love
He gave His only Son
everything was done
so you would come
nothing you can do
could make Him love you more
and nothing that you've done
could make Him close the door
because of His great love
He gave His only son
everything was done
so you would come
come to the Father
though your gift is small
broken hearts, broken lives
He would take them all
the power of the word
the power of His blood
everything was done
so you would come
During yesterday's cell time, we were discussing about worship and all.. How your attidude should be, what kind of heart you present to God when you come into His presence to worship. ('Many many more') Kevin was sharing... about not doing QT (quiet time with God). "Like a pathetic once a week.." at this point, all eyes were on me. Whatever. Yeah then he said, whenever he doesn't feel like doing QT, pastor Benny's words will come echoing in his mind. Now it's in mine. What if, one day, God closes His door, and just dump you? If He shuts you out, how are you supposed to live?
Everytime we are stuck in a difficult situation... the first thing we as Christians do, is to cry out to God and ask for help. [Imagine those who do not know God, they can only turn to family and friends, who might not always be there for them] And He, without fail, will always help us. It says somewhere in the bible... I will never leave you nor forsake you. / Ask and you will receive, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you. There's so many of these in the bible, so many, we tend to take them for granted. If we reflect on our life... how many times have we turned to God when in need? Were those the only times we talk to Him? How many times did He turn us down? It's ZERO for me.
Then think again... what about when He calls us, gently, softly, for that 1 or 1/2 hr to be spent with Him, how many times have we rejected Him? If we can spend hours on a storybook or on the computer or simply doing nothing, then what about QT? "No time, this week very busy." Ha, ha. If we put QT as priority and trust the Lord to help us with whatever uncompleted work we have, I'm quite sure things will turn out well. Are we the Sunday Christians who act like one when they are in church, and then go back to their usual self from Monday to Saturday? Hypocrites, you say. (Before we open our mouths to judge, first think about ourselves and our actions.) Which links back to the question posted above. What IF, one day, God closes His door and dumps us... what's gonna happen to us? I dare not think about it.
=) That's quite a lot for cell discussion.
About last night...
Everything's fine now, for those wondering what's happening to me. Fine, really.
Thank God for dp-pic-changer, it has damn been hard on him. Quite obvious who this person is, haha. Thanks for your prayers. Horse is talking to me again. I don't understand why he's apologising, I should be the one doing that. Me who created the mess did not tidy it up. He did it for me and I still feel bad about it. Remember that I needed someone to talk to? I didn't even talk much. I just looked at his messages. The reassurance was there. I felt and am still feeling blessed to have (God who sent) this dp-pic-changer to... help me. Thanks a trillion, :))
Life is beautiful after all.
before the world began
you were on His mind
and every tear you cry
is precious in His eyes
because of His great love
He gave His only Son
everything was done
so you would come
nothing you can do
could make Him love you more
and nothing that you've done
could make Him close the door
because of His great love
He gave His only son
everything was done
so you would come
come to the Father
though your gift is small
broken hearts, broken lives
He would take them all
the power of the word
the power of His blood
everything was done
so you would come
During yesterday's cell time, we were discussing about worship and all.. How your attidude should be, what kind of heart you present to God when you come into His presence to worship. ('Many many more') Kevin was sharing... about not doing QT (quiet time with God). "Like a pathetic once a week.." at this point, all eyes were on me. Whatever. Yeah then he said, whenever he doesn't feel like doing QT, pastor Benny's words will come echoing in his mind. Now it's in mine. What if, one day, God closes His door, and just dump you? If He shuts you out, how are you supposed to live?
Everytime we are stuck in a difficult situation... the first thing we as Christians do, is to cry out to God and ask for help. [Imagine those who do not know God, they can only turn to family and friends, who might not always be there for them] And He, without fail, will always help us. It says somewhere in the bible... I will never leave you nor forsake you. / Ask and you will receive, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you. There's so many of these in the bible, so many, we tend to take them for granted. If we reflect on our life... how many times have we turned to God when in need? Were those the only times we talk to Him? How many times did He turn us down? It's ZERO for me.
Then think again... what about when He calls us, gently, softly, for that 1 or 1/2 hr to be spent with Him, how many times have we rejected Him? If we can spend hours on a storybook or on the computer or simply doing nothing, then what about QT? "No time, this week very busy." Ha, ha. If we put QT as priority and trust the Lord to help us with whatever uncompleted work we have, I'm quite sure things will turn out well. Are we the Sunday Christians who act like one when they are in church, and then go back to their usual self from Monday to Saturday? Hypocrites, you say. (Before we open our mouths to judge, first think about ourselves and our actions.) Which links back to the question posted above. What IF, one day, God closes His door and dumps us... what's gonna happen to us? I dare not think about it.
=) That's quite a lot for cell discussion.
About last night...
Everything's fine now, for those wondering what's happening to me. Fine, really.
Thank God for dp-pic-changer, it has damn been hard on him. Quite obvious who this person is, haha. Thanks for your prayers. Horse is talking to me again. I don't understand why he's apologising, I should be the one doing that. Me who created the mess did not tidy it up. He did it for me and I still feel bad about it. Remember that I needed someone to talk to? I didn't even talk much. I just looked at his messages. The reassurance was there. I felt and am still feeling blessed to have (God who sent) this dp-pic-changer to... help me. Thanks a trillion, :))
Life is beautiful after all.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Saturday, April 22, 2006
peng chao da
Just 2 days ago... I was feeling high and all...
today. it's a totally different thing. I already bought my ticket, and now because of this he's not going, she's not going (they have not bought the tickets) and I'm left alone. Loner. Joining Joey would be the lastest of the last thing I'd do. If you think harder... you might be able to find out why. Who's that freaking teacher? Miss Ang? .. This is affecting my mood. School kinda sucked. And now I'm worrying for the senior instructors because of serious things happening. It might cause the senior instructors to lose their jobs. Oh man. Feel so... for lack of a better word... shitty. If not for some of us.. this would not........
Somehow, whenever I am not rostered for worship duty, this would appear on my hp screen.
"hey joyce, can you take over me for backup tmrw?"
Uhh, don't you think it's a bit too late to inform me one night before? I can't be singing every week. I have school. The problem is, there are only 2 teams for the backup vocalists. 3 in each team. Every week without fail one person will say he/she cant make it for practice. He/she calls someone from the other team. The latter ends up being on duty for a few consecutive weeks. That's what happened to me. Damn tiring la... I just sang last week. Just now Stef sent me a msg. Saying the usual thing. I am tired.
Jasmine dear, don't be too sad. 'Cus I am too. We can always study POA together. I understand how you're feeling. Results aren't everything.
Somehow, whenever I am not rostered for worship duty, this would appear on my hp screen.
"hey joyce, can you take over me for backup tmrw?"
Uhh, don't you think it's a bit too late to inform me one night before? I can't be singing every week. I have school. The problem is, there are only 2 teams for the backup vocalists. 3 in each team. Every week without fail one person will say he/she cant make it for practice. He/she calls someone from the other team. The latter ends up being on duty for a few consecutive weeks. That's what happened to me. Damn tiring la... I just sang last week. Just now Stef sent me a msg. Saying the usual thing. I am tired.
Jasmine dear, don't be too sad. 'Cus I am too. We can always study POA together. I understand how you're feeling. Results aren't everything.
Friday, April 21, 2006
uber stresed
Praise God for my excellent maths quiz results.
Other than that, today totally sucks. I'm feeling damn stressed now, the midnight oil is going to finish burning. There's so much work to do, I feel drained out, yet I do not have a choice, this burden is going to be stuck here for dunno how long...
(skip this part if you're not interested in the details)
I left my bag in the classroom and went to get food. 3c2 English class girls were going to have their summary test, cont'd from the comprehension. Unaware of what time they were starting it, I did not hurry. Who knows that when I reached the classroom, Ms Ang was standing there, about to start the test. She was in a foul mood. So obviously she wasn't pleased to know that I wanted to get my bag and go for O level music lesson. Screamed at me. That already spoilt my day, I hate being shouted at. Who doesn't?
The pile of music assignments are pushing me down too. SO much, you'll just die on the spot. Imagine the look of terror on our faces when Ms Tan told us what we had to know and would be tested on.
There's so much work! I'm going to just die in front of the comp. shou3 mang2 jiao3 luan4, was rushing like hell so I couldn't dig for my SS notes and text. So now I'm without the two most important things needed for this bug piece of work worth 12 marks. And it has to be TYPED OUT, meaning I can't do it in school tmr morning. Stressed..
Not only that, there's a Chinese composition test and I haven't done a single shit about it.
Maths is like, halfway 'cus i thought SS was more important now. Ms Ang will just blarh at me. I'm damn scared of her now can. And I doubt I'll be able to finish the whole thing... in one hour.
And what about the other subjects? Those are killing me too. Friday's timetable sucks like anything, only one double period and that's Chinese. Poof.
Anyway. In conclusion. I'M VERY VERY STRESSED. Blogging doesn't help. Neither does saying that I' stressed. But that's the truth.. Any help with SS is greatly appreciated. Thanks Joey for scanning in all those stuff for me :)
It'll be a miracle if I survive till Saturday.
Other than that, today totally sucks. I'm feeling damn stressed now, the midnight oil is going to finish burning. There's so much work to do, I feel drained out, yet I do not have a choice, this burden is going to be stuck here for dunno how long...
(skip this part if you're not interested in the details)
I left my bag in the classroom and went to get food. 3c2 English class girls were going to have their summary test, cont'd from the comprehension. Unaware of what time they were starting it, I did not hurry. Who knows that when I reached the classroom, Ms Ang was standing there, about to start the test. She was in a foul mood. So obviously she wasn't pleased to know that I wanted to get my bag and go for O level music lesson. Screamed at me. That already spoilt my day, I hate being shouted at. Who doesn't?
The pile of music assignments are pushing me down too. SO much, you'll just die on the spot. Imagine the look of terror on our faces when Ms Tan told us what we had to know and would be tested on.
There's so much work! I'm going to just die in front of the comp. shou3 mang2 jiao3 luan4, was rushing like hell so I couldn't dig for my SS notes and text. So now I'm without the two most important things needed for this bug piece of work worth 12 marks. And it has to be TYPED OUT, meaning I can't do it in school tmr morning. Stressed..
Not only that, there's a Chinese composition test and I haven't done a single shit about it.
Maths is like, halfway 'cus i thought SS was more important now. Ms Ang will just blarh at me. I'm damn scared of her now can. And I doubt I'll be able to finish the whole thing... in one hour.
And what about the other subjects? Those are killing me too. Friday's timetable sucks like anything, only one double period and that's Chinese. Poof.
Anyway. In conclusion. I'M VERY VERY STRESSED. Blogging doesn't help. Neither does saying that I' stressed. But that's the truth.. Any help with SS is greatly appreciated. Thanks Joey for scanning in all those stuff for me :)
It'll be a miracle if I survive till Saturday.
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