Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

Philippians 3: 12-14

Because of this, I know I should not let my (sucky) performance in the other papers affect my upcoming exams -- maths paper 2, chinese paper 1 and 2, poa paper 2, science bio paper ??, ss, science paper 1, elec lit, geog paper 1, music listening paper, poa paper 1 -- for after everything I know I can say without regret,

"I have done my best."

Help me to run this last lap, give me strength Lord.. I commit all my papers into your hands... I will do whatever I can, and Father I know You'll take over from there..

when i was in sec 1, i would look at the sec 4s and think, woah, they have no life. whole day study.
when i was in sec 2, i said... still got time. thank God i'm not in sec 4.
when i was in sec 3, i told myself.. there is still time... but you'll suffer like them next year.
now that i'm in sec 4, ............... it's like omg, what did i do for the past three-and-a-half years? rejoice and celebrate youthfulness? play my secondary school life away? o's are here. i'm almost halfway through it. it's so freaking fast, don't even have time to eat and sleep. ok i'm exaggerating.

years later, when i look back at my old entries (i hope blogger wont close down), i know i'll laugh and say, "those were the days...".
random random random stuff...

Almost

I was on the verge of erupting... the oceanic and continental plate collided and there were earthquakes at the subduction zone...

I came online, and the first thing I see is an MSN conversation window started by Nd Quek. Someone I least expect to talk to (dunno why) unless it's about worship. I copied the first part of the convo.

God is simple. says:
alrite.. study hard.. u can do it..
God is simple. says:
pray pray pray..
2441/0236 says:
haha hey thanks andy!
2441/0236 says:
=D
God is simple. says:
Father i ask of u to give joyce strength n wisdom n confidences lord i pray for larger capacity to rem more in her studies.. Lord i pray for protection tt u will keep her healthy.. n give her a fresh of mind when she enter e examz hall n rem watever she learn Lord i pray tt u will give her e wisdom to noe wat to study let ur holy spirit help her..in jesus name we pray.. amen..
2441/0236 says:
thanks a lot
2441/0236 says:
i needed that
God is simple. says:
u can do it..
God is simple. says:
Do ur best god will do e rest.
2441/0236 says:
yeah.. i was just about to explode
2441/0236 says:
when you popped out
God is simple. says:
haha
God is simple. says:
Tk God..
God is simple. says:
juz suddenly felt like praying for u..
God is simple. says:
so i juz msg u to pray for u..
2441/0236 says:
wow...
God is simple. says:
Tk God..
God is simple. says:
God is good.

"juz suddenly felt like praying for u.."
It's like, woah, perfect timing... God knows me inside out. My every problem and anxiety. So he sent Nd to pray for me. God knows me so well, it's scary. This prayer means so much...

also thanks to your smses, they made me feel alot more relaxed =)

de-stressing

STRESS

stress does not exist.
only got peace, lah.

the time is drawing nearer...

So, mission trip, or prom?

I am about to make the decision.....

People say, your secondary school prom is a once-in-a-lifetime thing. You are only a secondary four student once. You can always go for the mission trip again next year.
I say, I have already missed this year's church camp for the Japan trip. What if, next year this time, another event like this crops up and clashes again? Am I going to keep saying 'yes' to school, 'no' to church, though both are optional?
Pastor Jenny and the youth leaders say, put God first. Give priority to Jesus. Just as He always gives priority to us, and we are never at the back of His mind.
God says... (well actually I haven't got a clue.)
My parents tell me, "up to you", something which (I'm sure) others would want their parents to say to them.

I choose..................................................

bishan library

oh
my
gosh

Seriously, the cat high sec 4s at bishan library are just %!#*@&$(*%U#%!!!!
According to Jia Yan who was there early at nine plus before the library opened, they were there already, waiting for the doors to open.
And they ran for the tables. Literally. All the way to the top floor to reserve all the tables.
They stay there from 10am to 9pm, the library's opening hours.
How do we know? We were there from 10 to 9 too.
(fine, not me... i had tuition in the morning. the rest of the OLM bishan gang came early. we went yesterday too, but left early.)
WAH BEST. BEST. Plus it's half of AARON's class. Yes, BFC's Aaron.
I feel like murdering him this Saturday. But his birthday coming so must resist.
Okay I am quite lazy to blog in more detail about our horrendous studying experience and I shouldn't be blogging in the first place... because the O LEVELS HAVE ALREADY STARTED. SHOULD BE MUGGING INSTEAD.

Study leave is good. We don't have to wake up so early.

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I found this here, very funny and good description of the morning scene outside bishan library.

Today acompanied Rachel to study. Went to Bishan library. Saw the Catholic High Sch nerds.They so KIASU loh. 10am library open, they arrived early just to stand in front of the door.You know why?
Besides chopping seats,they gotta make their 100m sprint! Wa,once the door is opened, they LITERALLY SPRINTED up to the top floor to chop seats. I was caught surprised by their kiasu-ness sial. I've not seen any nerds so enthu about studying for O levels sial. Knn. Catholic High nerds.

staying up but not for long

Random thoughts...

1) From now until the end of O's, I will be known as 2441/0236 =)
2) When I tag at tagboards, it's ALWAYS "joyce" with a small "j". Always. Except for now when I'm using my index number.

I quote from Timothy...

everyone else is studying so that it will get them good results.
it's something they must do, or else they'll fail. right?
not you.
you study because its the process of getting your good results.

here's a scenario:
you, bought by Jesus' blood, blessed tremendously cos' of your Daddy.
the world, still lost and without the blessings you have.
to get the great results, you need to the bus ticket.
Jesus already bought it for you, even overpaying for it.
the world, needs to buy the ticket through crazy studying.
so since you already have the ticket, you study because you know you're already on the bus to great results.
You already have the Ticket. The World doesn't.
relax and know that you're on the bus to victory. :)

So yes, hang in there, cos' we have Jesus! =)

end of 10 years

That's it.

Gone. 10 years of education at PLMGS.

That's the end of our daily morning assembly with devotion and singspiration, announcements and silent reading. And of course the times when we had to stand and sit so many times.
I don't have to visit the General Office every morning to write my name in that small book anymore, because I don't have an EZ-link card and am thus unable to clock in via the electronic system thingy. Mdm Toh and Ms Orin (receptionists) can still see me everyday as long as they don't take down the school mission and vision thing in the office, cos' got my face there (handbell syf team treblers 07)
Daily routine? Not anymore.


We got our report books on Thursday. My music marks were entered wrongly, thanks to Mr Ng. Mrs Ong very kindly stayed back to make amendments to it, got Mrs Lee to acknowledge it, and returned it to me at 5 plus. My percentage and class position went up by one mark/notch. Had OLM bonding again at Compass Point.

Is the school biased? Many would say yes.
I'm not making my stand here because this is the Internet, the WWW.. once a teacher finds out and reports it, I'll risk having my testimonial forfeited.
Example 1: only photographs of the GwH music groups this year were featured in the General Office this year, among many others such as the debate team and..?
Example 2: Founder's Day service. The school announced that the sec 4E/5N had the privilege of sitting in the concert hall for the service (for obvious reasons). On the day itself, they told the supposedly stupider classes that they were to sit at the canteen to make way for guests. The affected classes voiced their displeasure, only to be turned away flatly. [they had the sense to shift everyone back to the concert hall in the end. though they didn't see the tears shed when we were chased down to the canteen/basement. don't the teachers know how much this service will means to graduating students?]
I think I'm going to sit on the fence.

O level Music Practical

OLM bonding makes me happy!
What is this now la... a daily affair??

A lot of people have been asking me how was my practical. So my reply will be "go and read my blog"

Basically they gave us a FANTASTICALLY FANTASTIC piano to practice at the reporting room...
Tone touch pedal sound and everything was perfect, like the best upright piano one could ever touch.
BUT in the exam room... omg. We get a sucky piano. The keys on the higher octaves were so soft and loud and nice and everything, a sharp contrast to the lower keys.
The pedals? Hard to press =/

Oh and guess what?

I keep getting flashbacks of the wonderful mistakes I made during the exam.
For example...

I had to play 9 consecutive THICK chords at ff (super loud) but I banged on the first 6 chords wrongly for my Clementi piece.
Best right?
Still have more. But I want to stop thinking about it!

I was supposed to play at 1655 HOWEVER, the examiners dragged everything and I ended up playing at around 1730! Damn tiring ok! Plus I went into the same room 3 times in total... Twice before my own (supposedly) arranged time. But by the time it came to my turn, I sat outside the room feeling so physically and mentally exhausted, I didn't even feel nervous.

What's the use? Still made mistakes like nobody's business.
Anyway... I think all the PL girls who took the exam yesterday didn't play well la. Right?
Today's better. Charmaine Hilary and Grace.

THANK YOU CATHOLIC HIGH SCHOOL FOR THE *AHEM* PIANO. THANKS A LOT MAN.

maths day

HAPPY BIRTHHHHHDAY MAN LING!!
oops the picture so dark... was taken against sunlight. aiyaaa....
i love you girls! i'm sure you love me too!note: both pictures are virgins --- not edited. what were you thinking???

today... maths day again. mr lim kept talking about the pon stars (double meaning). and he put the pad at the visualiser so all could see it on the screen.. damn stupid. he also gave us so much work to do... extra prelim papers from dunman high and nanyang girls. i'm dying from all that maths. i look forward to english day.. and O LEVEL MUSIC PRACTICAL DAY OMG. please no..
night studies in the school library is good. got some funny moments like when some of the girls fought for ms poon's attention... when something triggered the school alarm and it rang and rang and rang... when we would leave the school satisfied with our work done (physics?)

say hello to o levels

drawing nearer, and nearer

My prelim results

A1 - POA
A2 - E Maths, CCA
B3 - --------------
B4 - English, Music*, Science (chem/bio)
C5 - Chinese, Combined Humanities (ss/lit)
C6 - Geography
D7 to F9 - --------

Before deducting bonus points
L1R5: 20
L1R4: 13
L1R2B2 (Business/Science): 15

*My music marks in the class mark list was wrong. I have yet to calculate my updated MSG.


BibleGateway.com's verse of the day, a reminder of how we should stand up for Christ =)

Matthew :11-12
Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

Putting everything in a nutshell now.

Friday (28/9) morning was spent in the home economics room in school.. Thank God I did not dream of walnuts or brownies that night. Can die ok. Just baking them can make one's tummy full. Don't ask how.

Saturday (29/9) was the day we all looked forward to. THE fair. That's the first time I saw PL so packed with people. My non-school friends all came at the same time. Haha and some half of BFC came which was quite a surprise =)
I spent the day with friends in and out of PL, working with different classmates, helping when it wasn't my shift (peak period), shouting like a mad woman ("brownie with ice-cream $2!!!"), serving customers, panicking when we ran out of cups and spoons, ......
Had a roaring good time with BFC girls for dinner. hahah

Sunday (30/9) chinese and maths tuition. study with some girls

Today (1/9) Mrs Lee declared it a holiday BUT we the mighty OLM girls went down to CHS to test their piano... all I can say is this ----> I LOVE PL.