Over

Yeah, it's over. Had been so busy with rehearsals "that now i kinda feel lost not doing anything for a while... haha.. its was a great time though..:D" That was taken from someone's blog, I find it very true.

Esperanza was not much of a success. When the sermon started, LOADS of people stood up and left. Cast and dancers had to go in to sit there and give Melvin some support. It's very sad to see that they only go for fun stuff, and leave when the serious part comes in. Oh wells. Guess it just takes time for them to learn to sit through the whole program. The adults one on Sunday was shocking. The whole sanctuary, packed with people, some even had to stand or drag extra chairs and sit at the back. It was scary and made me feel a little nervous. Haha, but it's OK since i took off my specs, that made the audience seem less scary. They were very responsive, that's good. :)

I want to be involved in next year's Christmas evangelistic event!

Merry Christmas to all, and thanks a million for your prezzies :) Brownie from A, K and B tasted yummy, wish there was more.
(chewits! i can't get enough of them...)

Hope I won't be changing cell next year. Love my cell a lot.

Few more days left and it'll be the end of this year! Which means have to go back to school soon. OH, and PC lessons for sec 1s, must prepare. Soon. To avoid last-minute preperations. Homework.... don't remind me.

Korean seaweed rocks. I don't watch the drama, I eat their seaweed.

My braces. The next colour would be pink! Don't ask why.

Time: 12.53am

!!!!!!!!!

HEY!
HAY!




















i know you still can't see, just click on it.

ESPERANZA is open to all, and that includes YOU. Unless you're below 11 yrs old...
Redardless of race, language or religion. It's gonna be great! Grab a friend to accompany you, and don't forget to contact me if you're coming :) This will be the most exciting event of the year, definitely better that waiting to get your results!!!
So what are you waiting for? Drop me a message! Or leave your footprints behind at my (boring) tagboard. It's Christmas man! W00teh. Come and enjoy or sit at home to collect dust, or roam the crowded streets and risk getting banged by people. YOU decide ;)

Something, someone

You know what? I know you don't know so I'm telling you now.

I have a boyfriend. He's the cutest thing you can find on earth. He'll die without me. He is....... ....... ........

my rabbit, August.

HAHAHA.
He's weird. Joey passed me a bunny water bottle. I put that and his own bottle at for him and went off to Bangkok. My grandmother dropped by at my house, and said that August doesn't want to drink from Joey's bottle, he only wants his own. Even when his bottle is empty and he's really thirsty, that stubborn ball of fur just refuses to drink from another bottle. -.-
Just 2 days ago, my maid helped me to fill up August's bottle. and he bit her.
I cleaned up his "land" so many times, stuck the broom in to sweep up that area, even stepped over the fence thing and into his "land" to disturb him. No, he didn't bite me. LoL.
August likes to kick sawdust out of his potty for me to sweep and try to dig a hole at the corner of the balcony. He potty-trained himself. Surprise, surprise! 2 years ago, I put a box with sawdust into his cage for him to sleep in. So warm and nice, and HE SHITTED INSIDE IT AND SLEPT OUTSIDE THE BOX INSTEAD. I tried to make a comfortable part of the cage for him, but it seems that he likes to sleep in the open and shit in the box. I gave up. When he grew bigger, he got this part of the balcony to himself and was much happier. The cage is still there, with his potty and food in it. I leave the cage door open so he can hop in and out anytime he wants to.
I love my August.

Right.

I must remember that feedbacks are good and they help you to improve and work on your weak points, not to critise and make you feel bad. That's very important. If you keep thinking that you're lousy and everyone wants to say bad things about you, wake up. Now. Or you won't succeed in life. Take my word seriously, or regret not doing so.

time is 11.36pm.

iamnotfeelinggood

Just realised... that school's starting soon. I have less than a month to complete all my homework, school and tuition, to revise my work, go for rehearsals and performances, handbell pracs, perfect that piano piece, plan CIP for the sec 1s, prepare next year's PC lessons, start worrying about taking music, blah blah.

I'm should have realised this earlier. It's too late to regret not starting on all these last month.

I
AM
STRESSED

Panicking wont help to finish my homework, so there's no use doing that. What I need to do is stop staring at the computer and TV screen and pick up my books. Or drag myself to the church office and sit in front of the books and stacks of paper. I MUST move away from distractions, they can't fly away from me. Looks like I need my father to start nagging at me again.

There's a handbell performance on the 23rd, at night. And there MIGHT be a rehearsal. I better inform Joanne or Wan Hui soon, or risk getting kicked out. Jia Yan went on a holiday without informing them in advance and she was out of the drama. See how strict the sules are? Jolene's stricter too. Scarier.

I missed the camp.

Bangkok is nice and over-populated. The traffic is always jammed. Things there are very cheap, still can bargain. I bought a lot of things. Uncle Jimmy's family got the most things. The kids want to keep snakes as pets. o_O . In Singapore, it's stray cats. Over there is dogs. S'pore's much, much cleaner and greener. Now I know what people mean by 'clean and green city'. It is very difficult to find a dustbin there, and here, there are dustbins everywhere. I witnessed the elephant shitting. Yucks gross. Jetstar Asia is a small plane. Taking off is nice. HAhahaha.

Tomorrow will be a busy day for me.
Worship prac, Youth Ablaze service followed by rehearsal.

Wonder when's the next time I'll blog again.

time is 12.01AM, Saturday morning.
dunno where the time and day thing went to O_o

=)

Peer lites' camp/

Peanut Butter rocks! haha.. That's my group name.
I've learnt A LOT from the camp. Setting realistic goals, thinking positively, overcoming obstacles... Planning the CIP for the sec 1s will be the biggest headache. We can do it! It'd just the commitment and all that. After that still have to send Julia my schedule. -.-
We are divided into 4 groups. Each group has 2 mentors. Mine only has 1. Her name's Jianxin and she's studying in HWA CHONG JC!! All of us were like, staring at her with that shocked look when she told us that. Haha. Oh, and we have mentors because the programme is called YLPM, Youth Leaders and Mentors Programme. Yep.
The campsite was in Buona Vista, near Kent Ridge park, at NACLI, also called National Community Leadership Institute. It was the best, man. We slept on beds in air-con rooms with attatched bathrooms and each had our own room key card. Like hotel right? Jungle and Cave lodge were the best rooms. I got the Cave one! Special, got 2 toilets, and a platform for the beds. Bigger than the other rooms. (better than home, cos I don't have a single air con in my house. Now my father's planning to remove the TV, which leaves me with only textbooks and the computer.) That camp was damn slack la, 1.5h break for us to bathe and all that. That's like, so long, considering we had bathrooms in every room. Right. Enough about rooms.
There was this hike or adventure trail on the 3rd day at Kent Ridge park. Each pair in the group took turns to lead. One of the tasks was to crawl under the drain for dunno how many metres. That was the worst. I think not everyone did that. We had to climb over this wooden wall thing, which was obviously high for all of us. But it was fun! LoL.. If any of my group members see this they're going to scream at me... One stupid task was to count the number of wooden planks on the bridge. There were more than a thousand of them.
The trainers were all so nice. It was so sad to leave NACLI.
Reached home at 8+, there was a traffic jam.

Braces...
My dentist was on MC.
Persie's did the tightening for me.
Changed colour to light blue.

The musical in December is going to be great. Though I've not read through the script.
Do you think, a skinny person like me can dance?
I don't know.
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
Sec 2s are going to do a dance item as part of the musical. I"ll be involved in practices until Christmas. Sounds tough.
I can already hear a voice telling me, "You'll never know until you try. You can do it! Must stay positive!"
I seem to like hearing voices in my head -.- I had included them in my compo during the exam this year.

[Of course! Why didn't I think about this before??? LULU is ...... Stupid la haha.]

I'm not going for the camp. Kingdom settlers I think. Cos i'm going to Bangkok from the 1st to 4th of Dec. Those interested (The camp la, pig) :

When? 2-4 Dec
Where? LSBC
$$? free
no it's not free. wait long long eh.
How much? $35

It's the FIRST YPM camp! Be excited! BUt I can't. )= Thoguth I've never missed a single camp before.

Handbell preformance this Sunday, rehearsal on Saturday. Means I can't go for Youth Ablaze. Means I have to tell Ben or Christel. Means I need to ask them if need replacement. Means I have to look for one. Means if that peson cannot I must find someone else -.-

Captain Peanut!
We're the hero
We're gonna crush you down to zero
We will whack you
wirh our pillow
Until you become a soft marshmallow

blah blah. That's the cheer (=

Youth Ablaze

Right.
Today was the first service. I was totally exhausted and couldn't really concentrate during cell discussion and Melvin's sermon. Almost fell asleep. He sort of gave an introduction to this new change and the name. Like Ablaze and being on fire for God. Yah wasn't very alert.

Cell photos taken at the end of the service. No wonder they asked us to wear the same thing/theme. I think my cell was the best. Formal clothes. My skirt's close to beige (sp?) and the other girls (in my cell) wore a dark colour. Eeeeeeks. Shu Kai and Ivan toh wore the wrong thing. Zach mentioned to Kai wad. I was suddenly involved in their conversation. -.-

Today's worship. Still can la. But the musicians can't see the worship leader. And there were too many songs. The mic i was holding- cover/sponge too smelly. Drums can't really hear. Other than that, yeah it's okay. All of us were late for cell by 15 minutes. 1at time mah, can't expect everything to be perfect.

[just ended my game of tic tac toe with Kevin. Who won? of course it's me!]

Not going for 1st/2nd service tomorrow, there's tuition. You must be wondering, how come holiday still have tuition. Ha, it's to sort of prepare for next year, and the teacher says there's a lot to cover. I've seen the textbooks. They're definitely thicker than the sec 2 books. My 3B shou3 ce4 still haveb't buy yet. I'm prepared to get killed.

wanhui says there'll be a sec 2 graduation thing. I kind of expected that.

I want a Zen Microphoto. i want i want.
stop dreaming, you know that your parents can't afford it. They can't even get you a phone line. You have to continue to share the handphone with your mother. This makes it terribly difficylt for your friends to contact you, like Lai Theng and Grace tried to this morning. Wake up, Joyce, wake up.

Homework is piling up. Chemistry, maths, music, chinese, english....
i need to sit down and complete them. look at everyone else.

I want to say this:
Yes, I feel offended. But it's just that I don't show it.

church friends

5 hours of library work made me half-dead yesterday.

cell bonding was the best man.
though we waited more than half an hour for everyone to arrive. haha.. we had dinner at KFC, and talked about Chinese names. Everyone had a good time laughing. We mixed up all our leftover food - chicken bones, cheese, ice, ketchup, chilli and mixed them all up. LOL. ha we can be THAT gross.
Clarissa and Andrew went to get stuff for games, while the rest of us went to cold storage. It was cold.
or maybe it's me. I had been feeling cold even sitting at the basketball court.
302 made it even worse. The game forfeits were terrible but since i never kena at all, it was fun! Yah we had a good time of bonding, together with Stacia's cell. Oh they're quite pathetic. Onlt Dorita, Bryan, Cheryl and Denise slept over. Everyone played card games and monkey until almost 4am. Crazy right. I was different la, very guai one. I tried to sleep but cannot sleep, too noisy. Wanhui said i kept scaring her. She's very funny la! And got freaked out by Johanes who was wearing white and standing outside the door. 302 was like a freezer.

morning we woke up and did QT. 1/2 hr or QT. we prayed for a number of things. Yep. It's nice to do QT as a group. Then we had carrot sticks for breakfast and went for 1st service. Surprise that nobody dosed off, because of the lack of sleep.

Today's the last time we have youth/teens service on a Sunday. Kinda sad eh.
Worship was great, but Chris and Boon said singers were too soft. hello? i almost lost my voice, lol. But it'll be different at the 4th level.
Jacelyn came today. I was glad to see her, but she doesn't seem to feel very herself. Just look at her blog. i dunno what else i should do about this, but to pray. And I still got my other friends to be busy with. Last night when I was praying, I almost cried. That- is not for you to know.

Cell lunch at Macs. We did gross things again. (mixing sauce with ice, what else did you expect?) Were ballooning around with Kara's cell. Those little kids balloons. Discussed what we're wearing, and it's formal clothes! Oh. My. Rabbit. That will mean spending $$$$ on clothes. For a suitable blouse and skirt. Skirt! I never wear skirts. Darn. Kara's cell so much nicer lor, they're wearing jeans and dunno what shirt.

Kara's cell and me the extra were standing outside Macs talking rubbish. What dog grow long ears, rabbit bark and suck the tortoise out of the shell. Errr? HahA.
I had intended to walk around heartland mall with Clarissa. (I'm really sorry!)
But then Charmaine and Jia Yan wanted to go to my house, and Jon Soh had to go for a haircut. So Ben Thia and Chong Yang ( a bit ----- lah) went with him, then went to my house. I pity my piano. And the neighbours. Thanks so someone, hah. Still think he very smart when can't even play scales.

This year's sec 2s rock. [stone][reminds me of persie]

results

Lets learn to be positive and satisfied with whatever God has given to us.
In my case, He put me in 3C2


subjects:
English
Chinese
E maths
Bio/Chem
SS/Lit
Geography
Principles of Accounts
and Music! my choice, this one...

3C1 is pure literature and elective geog.
C1 and C2 -- POA, art and F&N
Meaning when it's time for these lessons the class will split
since POA is a new subject, i might be able to score here.
I wanted to take A Maths. Too bad.

Worship prac today. This Sunday will be the last Sunday YPM servive.
It will change to Saturday next week, at the L4 auditorium. By the way, no more Young People Ministry, it's now Youth Ablaze! Seriously, doesn't sound very nice..
I came back home from church feeling as if I had just ran 10km. Exhausted.

tomorrow ah,
7.30am meet up with friends go Delifrance eat the breakfast buffet.
11am go compass point library for NYAA service
4.30pm rush home
6pm meet cell members at the church for your bonding thing
sleepover!

Good news! With the help of the Lord, I managed to get Jacelyn to come to church! But I won't be able to meet her, must ask Clarissa to do it.
HAppy is me.

:)

Lord, thank you for friends. Thank you once again, for people around me.
Didn't expect them to come and tag and give encouragement too.
Ah. I feel blessed.

I've learnt to become more confident when leading or speaking to a group after going for the peer lites' camp. They taught us a lot of stuff, including how to handle difficult students. Next year's peer lites are going to organise a class outing AND class CIP. meaning ours would be done for the year if we did it with the sec 1s.
Proposals. I/Cs. Budget, food, admin....
Sounds stressful.

Taking music next year.

I'm happier with the new worship roster.
Looks better. hah. The last time i was 'on duty', it was a disaster, man. ZAO XIA.
I have learnt that, warming up before practice and the service is very, very important. Or else... I dare not think about it.

I see....... a busy year ahead of me.....

even the holidays. my schedule is gradually getting packed.

(Interesting, both Chris and Jon signed in together. :p)

I cannot bear to split up with the class. We've been so together.
When I look back, it's actually very sad to see that we'll not be able to laugh, joke or be serious with certain things together.
It's the bond between us. Those times... When we made the teachers scream at us, when a whole lot would be sent outside the class for not doing homework (includig me), when we secretly ate in class, when we put our heart and soul into decorating the classroom for CNY and the safari, when we planned for the programme for the Child at Street 11 CIP, when we helped one another with the various happenings in our lives this year. Thinking of Wynn as the mermaid, getting 3rd for dunno what, raising the most money in the level for walk-a-jog, getting the cleanest class for a few weeks, preparing for Kar Mun's farewell party. Not forgetting Miss Ho, who was always scolding us when we wereout of our minds.
2c1. 2c1. haiz..
i love 2c1.

right.

get ready for more handbell practices. There's a performance on the 27 of Nov and 23 Dec. Be happy! okayy, yay i'm very happy.

looking forward to the day when i can see all my close friends --------, ----------- in the ----- -- ---. Better still, everyone I know.

Pamela and Rachel are very nice people. Ther were my group leaders for the camp.

angry or sad?

i am FOURTEEN this year.
FOURTEEN, 14
yet i'm getting whacked, caned, beaten up, scolded. i swear the entire block could actually hear all the commotion. people who got higher marks than me and still complain about being lousy, how are those who flunked supposed to feel? what about me? a total idiot who cannot do well for english, math, science, history..? going to take music next year, and i've no idea how on earth can that help me. i hate it when parents scold and instead of giving encouragement, end up getting beaten up. why are they always comparing me with the A class students? for some subjects, i have done a little more than expected. i'm getting the idea of myself being an idiot. it's hard to avoid the cane or beating. again, i'm 14. not 4. they want me to go to a university which is like, impossible, and get some degree when i can't even get a B3 for english maths and science.
if i'm wasting their money on tuition fees, then why are they still letting me have tuition?
right now, i'm left in a state of confusion. this, or that, or what.

the one who scolded me the F word isn't making my life easier either.
please, be more sensitive towards other people's feelings.
just because your results are good, that does not give you the
right to shoot vulgarities at your targets. you have absolutely no
idea how much you've hurt them

it's best not to hate someone. the feeling that the world hates you is, horrible. it'll be good if we all treated FL with a little more patience and be warmer, not colder. she can be quite nice.

life is unfair, but we still have live on. no one can change it except God. no matter how much effort i put in, those demanding parents of mine will never be satisfied. i'll continue to be caned till the age of 21. how's that.

I'm a failure

just got SA2 results, and they suck.
my english and science are like, shit
i failed history.
chinese is bad, my tuition teacher's going to KILL me.
---
just calculated my final marks, and
0.8 MARKS TO MY A MATHS!!!!!!!!!!
i'm going to ask my mother to appeal.
and i failed bio, which was a total disappointment, that has always been my best subjects.
so it's physics/chem for me.
pure geog, lit sucked. so much for long essays.
maths, i was surprised, that i was actually the one of the 1/5 of the class who passed.
thought i would fail.
art, also thought will fail.
chinese paper 1 die lor... almoST failed.
art is a NO for me. enough of banana.

i dunno whether to hate or love myself.

founder's day

yep.
i think we did quite well
ethel was half asleep during the sermon, lol.
we got scolded by a teacher when we returned to school.
i shall not elaborate
but he went mad, totally, like competing with the rain.
*seals my lips*

played badminton with joey yesterday, the shuttlecock (?)
kept hitting the cars.
thank God neighbours did not come out and complain.
today prepared the costume for safari day.
a bit.
my class is so united pls.
our child at street 11 cip photos appeared on the screen with mrs lee saying what we did. those were the times. loads of prep work for it. and the kids who kept wanting to go to the toilet. ahahah.

say "yay".

hello2

as i was saying,
i'm angry with myself for those dumb results.

the rehearsal.. was like so ( what ?) lah! was one of the worst, ever.
give thanks was damn messy?
we seemed disorganised, lost, whatever...
hurrrrrrr
choir not bad lah, but i still prefer bells.
elizabeth, the pro. her fingers are like, whoa.
founder's day service at plmc. nice change.
i still can't see how the whole school including staff and guests
is going to squeeze in. unless they remove the walls.
impossible.

went to eat fries with ling ying. that person put so much salt.
then dunno where to walk.
"left or right?" "anywhere lah." "quick , upstairs or downstairs?!"
"you say where you want to go!" "hurry!" "no, you decide! anywhere also can!"
lol
ended up in poular. we were looking around, then went to look at the monopoly
and computer stuff.
and ling spotted mr fong.
verry funny ah. it was the 2 instructors.
HAHAHA
we tried to hide from them and see what they were doing.
ling waid they took a lot of scotch tape?
we wanted to go out of popular. they were paing money then.
"faster run before they see us!!"
unfortunately, uh....
so unlucky can. saw them at the escolator try and run again,
out of their sight.
ended up running out of heartland mall. like police and thief.

i need to buy rabbit food.
someone accompany me?
or by bunny will starve.

hello

exams are over, yay.

I CANNOT TYPE PROPERLY.
COS I'M IN THE SCH LIBRARY.

anyway, my point is that the end time is coming. i think almos all Christians think so.
tsunami, hurricane, earthquake, dengue....
don't you think so?
and also people who claim that they are the Son of Man
in other words, false prophets. global warming is getting worse too.
perhaps. the time is near. near...
the unsaved have to be saved, soon, or we'll all regret not doing so.
man.. the horrors of hell.
maybe, God has prompted me to do it. they're stressing the importance in church,
and in my devotional book.
perhaps, perhaps

YPM service going to change from Sunday to Saturday, 4-9pm
Which makes life harder for me. Worship practices, CCA, dental appointments,
tuition......
more than a hundred things are going through my tiny lil' brain.

violin results
merit.
JUST three more marks to distinction!!!!
how can i not be angry?!
and piano



i'll talk later, bus is here.
to plmc.

bellers!

yesterday was the day.
played 'give thanks' and 'you are my all in all' twice in PLMC. they actually recorded our songs!
eeeeks! my hair was wuite messy, haha.
i saw miss ho there. and didn't know miss koh was a worship leader there.
i still prefer LSBC :)

we went to Pasir Ris Elias CC. dumped the bells, tables, scores, cusions, stands, skirttings in the ''storeroom''.
and changed in the 1st holding area. lunch at macs. had a good time tricking each other into thinking that something was happenning when there wasn't.
LOL.
back to the CC, and it was a different holding room. with a bunch of irritating freaks.
who kept annoying us and making lots of noise, while we were trying to study.
[hilary kept wanting to show off on the piano, even in their presence]
they went out, like after a looooooong time and we had the room to ourselves. they played games and i tried to study on the piano.
unsuccessfully.
for the same reason, hilary insisted on opening up the piano. i got a little pissed.
then into the small changing room for a quick nap.

we got scolded from mrs wong for holding the others up and being disorganized.
scary man. but when it comes to scolding individuals, *ahem*, i rather not say it here.
all of us were in a foul mood during dinner.
(there's seriously too much to say, i'll cut it short)
we were early for the thing, so sat backstage and played hand games. dunno who said we're very early. scared late mah, after the scolding.
good thing was-
SAW AARON AZIZ!!!!! haha.
melissa went mad over that.
it was one of the worse performances ever. but i think we didn't show any
shit i played wrong note kind of face.

the bus got all of us back to serangoon. i tried to get more people to go prataing with us.
no use lah. me, rachel, des, ling ying and hilary walked outside, past the school.
freaky things started to happen. we saw the handbell room lights on! looked carefully and guess what/who we saw. nothing! no human, at least. and it was strange, we always remember to turn off the lights. can't be the alumni.. orr someone would have spotted the lights on when they reached the school in the morning. neither could it switch itself on...
desiree went back in a taxi, which leaves the rest of us walking towards the prata shop. next thing we saw-- a pair of silver high heel shoes! no, they weren't spoiled.the bus stop was empty, except for the few of us, and we were like, ghost! and ran.
then, picked up a ngee ann poly ezlink card. rachel's parentswere going to sent it to the police i think. maybe the card belonged to someone who's -gulp- dead! riiiight.

today, lao shi forgot about ting xie! w00t.
oral changed to this friday. fish lah.
3 assignments due this week. D&T, IT, and art. lets hope that ms hazelin can take over art this friday. that'll be wonderful.i dunno how on earthj i'm going to complete these three.plus exams to juggle. somebody, kill me.

wanton mee for lunch. with sarah, jasmine nd joey. k lah they are nice people. unlike those in the room with us yesterday. and then we did maths at mac.
they went over to my house for a movie
i know! feeling guilty, wer're supposed to be studying.

i'm sleepy.

YOU MUST READ THIS

church is a nice place. lsbc in particular.
just saying hello to people makes you feel good.
there's newspapers. to read, obviously.
and there's the small room to study in.
sweets at the reception.

ah. and no, that's not some kind of poem.

i went there today. ( i went on tuesday, wednesday, thursday and today) saw the yuying gb girls again. they are nice people. nice and friendly. very soon i'm going to make friends with the whole brigade.
lol!
yah.. and they kept laughing and saying silly things. thankfully, while i was studying, they were quiet. almost. and when one of them is noisy, they would say,"oii, ren jia yao study lah!" and they start laughing. really, quite fun ppl . in my opinion, better than xinmin gb girls, from what i went through during sec 2 camp.

i overheard something. christel said she wanted to have 4 kids! and beatrice went for some party at sentosa. both were feeling tired. pearlyn said she wanted to get a job? something lke that. and was looking for ads in the papers.

you know what?
the last time i had fever, i had most of the symtoms of dengue fever.
i had the fever for almost a week.
my eyes were painful.
nauseous, but did not puke.
this spotty thing broke out. like rash.
i had totally no appetite.
felt very weak.
maybe i had dengue. but must thank God that nothing serious happened to my family. or else..
well i dare not even think about it. now what we really need is God's protection over Singapore. this is becoming like SARS. looks like sth must happen to our country. just when i thought we were lucky, protected against natural disasters, along came the dengue breakout. perhaps the End Times's coming. i can feel it. look at the news, man. hurricane katrina, typhoon in japan, plane crash in jarkata, fever in singapore, tsunami just the end of last year... don't you think God is working on something? to destroy the earth...?

time is running out. repent, accept Christ as your Lord and Saviour. He died so that you can have eternal life-- life after death. you might have heard this many times, and now you're seeing it at my blog. this means only one thing. a confirmation that it's time to turn to God. i don't mean to insult anyone here. remember the seventh month? when people were terrified of this and that? 'hungry ghosts'? think about it. Christians didn't do anything, life went on normally. no 'offerings' were made. nothing strange or bad happened. we didn't follow those rules like when someone calls you, don't turn around.. or be home before dark. nothing! we weren't scared scared of it! we had God's assurance, that those traditions were not going to affect us, and there was nothing to be afraid of. of course nothing happened.

when you accept Christ, all you need to do is pray. i'll advice you to look for someone to help. pray, i'ts simple. pray with a willing heart. no need for any ceremony or anything. when you ask for forgiveness, God will forgive, just make sure you don't make the same mistake again. you don't have to ask God to punish you for sinning, or expect a disease to strike, and say later that it's your punishment. no, our Father isn't that -well- cruel, he won't do something like that.

if you are wondering, like, what proof do i have to show that God is real, i have a few.
(this sounds stupid). i prayed for God to control my shit before. and that happened a few times. once, in malacca, i couldn't find a toilet and it was like an "emergency case". i prayed, and believed, and God helped me.
many years ago, when i was just born, my parents brought me to this 'master tan' thing, to make predictions, or i-dunno-just-what-it-is. he cursed me, saying that i'll be coughing for many years, and many bad things about me. true enough, i coughed for that few years of my life.this was recorded in a book. then my parents became Christians, some people from the church came over. they prayed over that record or curses and idols, them, and my cough stopped miraculously. there.
there's this healing room thing in my church, those who needed to be healed of some sicknese went there, they were prayed for. Doctor Jesus healed, they were alright. it's truem and it's not black magic.

if you need any more information, feel free to email me
at joyce_ca_hahaha@yahoo.com.sg

cheers!




WOW. i evangelised at my blog. wonderful. i wanted to just make and ordinary entry, talking about what i did, and how i felt. but i just wonder if this would work. not many ppl come here. at least i make an attempt to get ppl saved, not spend my time typing this out on neopets. hey, it's not easy to even think of something which might help bring more people into the kingdom of God. everyone's stubborn, or stick to their own belief of " i believe that there is me, myself and i", or "there is no God," so it would be good if a non-Christian comes here and turns to Christ. all credits to the Lord, He helped me type this.

interesting, how God can change your mood throgh a blog. i was just posting angry thoughts in another more private journal/diary/blog. and thought maybe just update this one in a happier tone. and BOOM. i don't remember typing so much in two months. (:

exams are drawing nearer each day. we should use whatever time is left to study and then it's over, and pllaaaaaaaaaaaayy!

lol. see ya in a few days ;)

oi

today they did the thermal fogging thing around my area. air pollution!! but that's to kill unwanted guests. un-tahanable, the smell.

finally washed my rabbit's cage.

i went to church yesterday and today to study. will be going tmr and the day after. anyone who's interested in studying with me, do not hesitste to email me.
i had just started my work, when mr. ho came out and said there's practice at 5.30. stupid, i still thought it's friday or saturday. haha. end up is today. . and then Faith (ong, not leong).. hmph. or.. maybe she's. why me? and she said,"**..blah**..blah," and i think she's just trying to make grace and i feel better. i'm not angry or anything, no. but. HAIZ. nevermind. :p

i sorta promised. right? there.

GRINT.



lazy to find.
and you. you who are reading. you must tag. you can make my day by tagging. i'm not like those famous ppl who get lots of visitors everyday.

feel like changing the skin.

hello

friday. i was eating... rice. and then i saw a coin. i continued eating the rice around the coin, being careful not to touch it. the next thing i knew was, there was another coin. lucky? i'm not sure. $1.50 in my bowl of rice. almost like getting it for free.

don't wanna talk about my results. dissappointing.

and now. presenting....

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JAMES AND OLIVER PHELPS!!
they're so cute! :)



this one's nice






















well that's all for now.

next, rupert grint. and maybe more helpings of the phelps twins.

hey

i'm listening to my piano exam pieces on CD. Allegro and Bagatelle- die. why's the tempo so fast hurr. taking exam on tuesday! super scared pls. and oh i'll have to miss the visiting of primary school teachers. sad :((

cyberweek discussion. more than 50 pages. and i was the one editing and shrinking it to 4 pages. not easy lor. haha then tania and i were arguing over who should speak chinese. like, YOU . you . you you you you. end up both of us will take turns in 2 diff reports or scenes. not that bad lah.

methodist get-together!. absolutely rocked. the mgs pri teacher conducted and it was worse than s***. oops. then when mr fong conducted.. you know lah, everything was in order, the timing, dynamics.... after the performance, went to eat prata with ling ying and rachel came to check on us. then walked to the 136 bus stop and took a bus home.

that was a happy thing. of course i was still in a good mood when i reached home. and then my father mentioned the physics quiz, which i failed miserably, and scolded me for still being happy when i got that kind of mark. then what do you expect? frown ah. cannot feel happy ah. show sad face all the time ah. siao! no way.. i wasn't going to let the marks ruin my mood, esp after the mgt. he's like, scolding me everyday... i'm even banned from reading books. except bible and textbooks. HaHA. (sacarsm) so much for encouraging us to read books. i'll still continue to read, tho.

i quit violin already. forced to quit because of the exams. wtf.

my

my mother's being over-sensitive. siblings just went up to a neighbour's house to play. and she went up and scolded them and brought them home and scolded again. same rule, cannot go to anyone's house. that's the reason why i can't go anywhere. and projects had to be done ay my house. this sounds ridiculous.

it has been a hard and killing week for me.
last friday, came back from funan and had a fever. skipped worship prac on saturday cos of the fever. didn't go to church, fever. at night made an attempt to study for history test on monday. I went to school, still feeling very sick. what to do.. all thanks to funan the IT mall. tuesday also lah, same. during violin -- unbearable. temp went up to 38.4. piano lesson was bad, since i felt terrible. missed school yesterday, fever 38.1 deg. i was half-dead and decided i could not make it (to school, not the coffin). slept the whole morning. glanced at the clock every 1 hour. then.. 1.45. thought maybe had energy to get up and go to the pri school for handbell. went home halfway when i couldn't take it.

i have the nicest seniors in the world. sec 4s... they're leaving.. i don't want them to! who does? it was no big deal, just me being sick.. and they were telling me to go home and stuff. not forgetting wanyi and the other sec 3s. all of them are nice. except one person who's always trying to get herself more notes..

lai theng came over to my house yesterday after basketball to pass me the list of homework and a present. that's awfully nice of her to do that.. and writing DnT things down which, unfortunately, is not understood by me. still, i thank God for friends around me who care. someone like lai theng is hard to find.

today is a nice day. saw the orthodontist. she looks ok.. big eyes. i had the option to go for a jaw surgery... some problems with it. but it's a very borderline case, so i didn't want to. yep. got to school, saw miss gan and had to tell her that i was at the national dental centre. jessica yip gave me something. quite unexpected. heh.. she's my ex-partner. i know you know that. the class sang me a birthday song. 2c1 rocks. my neighbour is my new partner. yes, that's joey.she wanted to borrow my com..?? but my parents brought me out to watch 'the maid'. wonder if she's done her art...

that's all i've got to say for now. maybe i'll get SARS when i return from funan tomorrow....